Authors: Linda Winstead Jones
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HEN SHE SAW THE FARMHOUSE IN THE DISTANCE,
Rayne's heart dropped. It had been several days since they'd headed down the mountain, and she'd known this time would come, but stillâ¦she wasn't ready. Her mouth went dry and her heart began to pound. Thinking of taking on a job for strangers where she might work for her keep had seemed like a fine idea from a distance, but looking at the small dirty farmhouse a touch of reality intruded. It would be hard work, and even if the people there appeared to be kind on meeting the travelers, who knew what they would be like after Lyr and his men rode away?
She thought of her mother's jewels, keepsakes which would do her no good in a place like this. She needed to be deposited in a town, preferably a large town where she could sell her valuables and rent or buy a small house or a decent room and think about how she might hide until the fight with Ciro was over.
Lyr saw the farmhouse and stopped on the narrow roadway to study it more intently. He finally turned to Swaine. “See if they are willing to sell us food. I'm mightily tired of dried meat.”
Swaine nodded and headed in that direction. At Lyr's order, Tiller followed.
Segyn sidled up beside his commander. “M'lord, will we be leaving the girl here?”
Rayne held her breath, but not for very long, thanks to Lyr's curt and immediate response. “No. I don't like the look of this place. It's too remote. Why would decent folks settle here? We'll find a more proper situation further down the road.”
Segyn nodded, seemingly agreeing with Lyr, and Rayne's heart soon resumed a normal rhythm.
While waiting for the others to return, Lyr dismounted. He walked directly to her and offered his arms. “You might want to stretch your legs while we wait for the others to return.”
“Thank you.” She accepted his help, and was glad to feel her boots hit the hard ground. Too many long days of riding were not agreeing with her, but she didn't dare to complain. She lowered her voice. “I thank you also for not leaving me here.”
Lyr didn't look directly at her, which was odd since he usually had no qualms about staring her down. “I can't be certain it's a safe place. I did give you my word.”
“Yes, you did.”
“We should probably move more toward civilization before settling you with a proper keeper. Don't you agree?”
“Yes. Yes, I do.”
While she knew Lyr Hern to be a capable fighter, she hadn't always felt that he had her best interests at heart. Not at all. For the first time since she'd met him, she sensed a real change in his attitude. He did care for her well-being. He would not abandon her.
The man who had rescued her truly was a champion.
Rayne pushed down the little rush ofâ¦somethingâ¦that made her feel almost giddy. It would be foolish to become attached to a man whose only wish was to deposit her in a place where she'd be out of danger. It was noble of him, but he would likely have the same care for any other man or woman in his charge.
Even though she'd been shielded from much of life's harsh realities during her lifetime, she was no fool. She knew why Ciro had looked at her the way he sometimes did, and why he grabbed her with clumsy hands that attempted to touch her where no man should. A pawing of her breasts, a hand thrust among her skirts and between her thighs. She always moved quickly when serving his tea, so those unpleasant touches did not last too long. Over the years other of her father's visitors had often looked at her with leering glances that turned her stomach, most particular since she'd turned fifteen. At first she'd merely thought them odd men, but after speaking with a few of the maids and catching the cook and the gardener in the pantryâ¦she knew exactly what was on their minds.
She'd complained to her father once when an elder visitor had attempted to grab her, but her father had told her that she should be flattered, that their guest showed her attentions only because she was beautiful. How could a man be so protective in some ways, and so uncaring in others? How could he suggest that she be
flattered
?
During that particular man's visit, Rayne had not passed a single night in her own bed. She'd hidden each night in infrequently used guest rooms or with the servants, and she'd known, by the way the man glared at her over breakfast, that he had discovered she'd not been in her own bed.
Lyr Hern did not leer, nor did he grab. She almost wished that he would, but then of course, he would not be the man she was coming to admire.
He was very handsome, not many years older than she, andâ¦oh, he was striking. Not only handsome, but well built and graceful and strong. He was not at all like those men who had stared at her as if they were starving and she was a meat pie, and if he ever thought to grab at her in an inappropriate way, he wouldn't paw roughly, she imagined, but would be possessed of gentleness and kindness. His touch would be skilled and caring. If Lyr were a gardener and she were a cookâ¦
Rayne closed her eyes tightly, but that did nothing to chase away the image in her mind or the odd clenching in her lower belly.
“Are you all right?” Lyr asked, sounding concerned.
“Yes,” she said primly. “I'm fine.”
“Why are your eyes closed?”
“I'mâ¦tired.” It was a silly explanation. She was standing on the road, rigid as a board.
“You need to get to sleep sooner after we stop at night,” he said, sounding relieved that exhaustion was her only complaint.
“I will try,” she promised.
Lyr moved away. A moment later she heard him speak to Segyn, and she opened her eyes slowly. She'd been trying so hard to tarnish her soul with cursing when she wasn't at all good at it, and suddenly lust touched her, unbidden. Was it lust that she felt? Or was it simply gratitude?
It didn't really matter. The only man she'd ever been attracted to in that special way had absolutely no interest in her as a woman. To Lyr Hern, she was an obligation, a package to be delivered and deposited and forgotten. A man like him, with his fine looks and his important position, probably had many women at home, women who would know what they were doing if he did grab or leer. No, he had no use for a woman like her.
Well, damn.
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HEY WERE DAYS AWAY FROM THE PALACE, AND DAYS
more still from Merin and his army, when Keelia suffered a startling vision of Ciro in the palace their party had left behind. She was overwhelmed with sadness, and filled with horror. She had not met Prince Ciro before the demon had taken him, so she didn't know if he had always been bad or if he was as much a victim in this war as any other soldier who fell. It didn't matter. Whatever the prince had been before, he was now an enemy like no other, and only his destruction could bring peace.
Joryn and Sian were busy setting up camp, while Ariana tended horses and Keelia got ready to prepare their simple supper. The meat was freshly caught, the vegetables purchased in a small town they'd passed through that afternoon, the fire had been built by Joryn with a flick of his fingers. As Queen, she had not been called upon to cook, but of late she'd been forced to develop many new skills.
She didn't want to tell Ariana what she knew, not yet. Her cousin was emotionally attached to the emperor; she had gone to great lengths to save the older man from the sickness the Isen Demon had given him. Even though Keelia had warned Ariana that nothing she did could save Arik in the end, she would be distraught. There would be enough pain in the days to come. This pain could wait.
A moment later, Keelia glanced up to see her cousin standing over her, a frown on Ariana's pretty face. “What's wrong?”
Keelia sighed. “I forget sometimes that your empathic abilities were heightened along with your gift for healing.” She forced a smile. “A forgetful seer. How very unfortunate.”
“Don't try to make light or change the subject. Queen or not, you can't lie to me.”
“I don't lie.”
“No, but you do conceal on occasion.”
Keelia set the makings for their supper aside and faced her cousin. Yes, she was Queen. Queen of the Anwyn, a psychic like no other, a shape-shifter not yet accomplished in her new skills, and a soldier in this blasted war just as Ariana was a soldier. “Fine. If you will not allow me to spare you, then I will tell you all the truth you seek.” She reached out and touched her cousin's arm, her caress kinder than the tone of her words. “Prince Ciro is in the palace. Arik did not take your warning to heart and⦔
Ariana's face fell. “He's dead, isn't he?”
“Not yet.” And that was a pity for the emperor, who would be better off if he had died quickly.
Ariana turned about sharply. “We're going back,” she said. “If Emperor Arik is still alive, we can save him. We can⦔
Keelia caught her cousin from behind and turned her about. “We cannot save him. No one can. If we turn back, your efforts will be wasted. We must move forward.”
Ariana did not cry. She had seen too much horror, too much sadness, to sob for one more death. But tears glistened in her eyes. “He was always kind to me.”
“Emperor Arik was a good man.”
“I can't bear the thought of Ciro in his place.”
“That was meant to be. How long he remains there is not yet known. That's why we must move forward.”
Ariana's fears as a soldier were replaced by her fears as a wife, and Keelia saw those fears long before Ariana spoke of them. “Before we left, Arik signed the papers naming Sian as his illegitimate son and his chosen successor. By rights, when Arik dies, Sian will be emperor.”
“I know.” She and Joryn had been two of a few trusted witnesses to that document.
“If Ciro finds those papersâ”
“When,” Keelia interrupted in a sharp voice. “
When
he finds the papers.”
Ariana's face went deathly pale. “He will send his cursed soulless soldiers after Sian, won't he?”
“Yes,” Keelia whispered.
“When?”
Some information came to Keelia with such ease, she did not even need to reach for it. She simply knew, as surely as she knew the sky was blue and Joryn's eyes were green.
But other knowledge did not come to her so easily. It came like a puzzle, incomplete and difficult to piece together.
She closed her eyes and thought of Ciro, Emperor Arik, and that paper naming Sian Sayre Chamblyn as his son and successor. She saw, in her mind, the way Arik's hand had shaken as he'd signed that paper. She saw where he'd hidden it, after all the witnesses had departed.
“Three days,” she whispered.
“Three days!” Ariana snapped. “That's notâ”
“Three days after Arik dies, Emperor Ciro will find the hidden document that threatens his right to sit on the throne.” Keelia opened her eyes and looked squarely at her cousin, so Ariana would have no doubts as to the seriousness of what she saw. “And when that happens, he will send everything he has after your husband.”
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INCE THEY
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D RIDDEN AWAY FROM THE FARMHOUSE,
Rayne had been looking at him oddly. No, not oddly, exactly. He knew that moony expression; it was simply unexpected from her.
It wasn't as though Lyr didn't enjoy the company of beautiful women, as any other man would, but he divided the segments of his lives very neatly and he did not allow them to mingle in a way which would make his life messy and complicated. As Prince of Swords, he had access to women whose duty and skill was to give and take pleasure. There was a time and place for those women. It had been mentioned more than once that when the time came for him to marry, he might wed one of the King's five daughters. The princesses were fine women, but they were not of the same type as the women with whom Lyr sometimes passed a nightâor a day or two.
When he was in the midst of a mission, he did not think of either type of woman, neither concubines nor princesses, and he had never been entrusted with a mission of such importance. There was no pleasure in war, no pleasurable moments of respiteânot when his mind and heart must be focused only on victory. To allow his mind or any other part of his body to wander might mean defeat, and they could not afford to lose this war.
And yet the glances Rayne had begun to cast his way reminded him of the princesses
and
of the concubines. It was impossible that she might be like both, and yet he could not help but wonderâ¦
No, he could not wonder. She was likely trying to seduce him with those looks, as she had seduced Til and Swaine with her silly lessons in cursing. Lessons she had apparently given up. Both of the soldiers had finally told her that she did not curse well and should probably abandon the attempt.
Maybe she was suffering from an abundance of gratitude, and had twisted that gratitude into something it was not. He had never been so desperate as to take advantage of a woman who did not completely understand what she was getting into, and gratitude? It was a poor reason for that inviting glance she was casting his way.
It did not matter where her thoughts had taken her, he could not allow himself to become entangled with Rayne, daughter of a dead magician, beloved to a monster, future mother to a dark fiend if he was not able to protect her from her fate. Since he might be called upon to take her life, it would be best to ignore those meaningful glances she had begun casting his way.
The journey had been uneventful thus far, and Lyr was getting restless. The back of his neck itched, as did his spine, and he felt tension all through his body, from the short hair on the top of his head to the tips of his toes. Had there been time, he would've stopped and expended energy in sparring with the men, but they moved endlessly forward without time for any of life's pleasures, large or small.
Rayne was becoming more accustomed to sleeping on the ground apparently, since for the past two nights she'd nodded off quickly and remained asleep until one of the men awakened her to resume the journey. She wasn't getting enough restânone of them wereâbut she never complained. Not to him, at least. He was not a part of the conversations she had with his men. Cursing lessons aside, Til and Swaine remained smitten with her.
If her death became necessary, would they protect her? Would they choose to fight against him if he had no other choice but to kill?
At the moment Til and Swaine were sleeping. Segyn patrolled the perimeter of camp regularly, and so did Lyr. In an hour or so they would be relieved by the others. Even though all had been peaceful thus far, they could not let their guard down.
Certain that the perimeter was secure, Segyn joined Lyr at a distance from those who slept. The older man, the scarred warrior, had been at Lyr's side for so many years he wasn't sure he could remember when Segyn hadn't been around. As a teacher, a warrior, and in recent years a friend, Segyn had always been a part of Lyr's life.
His voice lowered, Segyn said, “She is not for you, boy.”
No one but Segyn would dare to address the Prince of Swords as
boy
, but Segyn often didâwhen no one else was around to hear. Lyr did not take offense. “I don't know what you're talking about.”
Segyn snorted. “I am not blind nor an idiot, and no one knows you the way I do, except maybe your family, and even thenâ”
“Yes, yes, you know things even they do not,” Lyr responded impatiently. Segyn had accompanied him when he'd first drunk too much whiskey, and he'd stood in the hallway when Lyr had lain with his first woman. Though his father was often open in discussing such matters, it was Segyn who was willing to discuss specifics, who was willing to answer the questions Lyr didn't dare ask a parent.
“The world is full of pretty girls,” Segyn whispered. “This one would be more trouble than most.”
“I understand that well, and I have no intention of serving as anything other than an escort.”
Again, Segyn snorted. “She keeps making eyes at you and you have begun to look like you're about to explode.”
“I'm perfectly in control,” Lyr insisted. The older man's response was not unexpected, and Lyr added, “And if you snort at me again, I'll drop you in rank and put Swaine in your place for the remainder of the journey.”
“You will not,” Segyn said with confidence, but he did not snort again.
The night was very quiet. Til snored a bit, and on occasion a small critter scurried in the forest beyond their camp, but for the moment the silence was heavy.
“I mean no disrespect, m'lord,” Segyn said seriously, “but you don't know what kind of trouble a woman like that one can bring you.”
“I have no intentionâ”
“Let me finish, just in case your mind wanders in an unfortunate direction in days to come.”
Lyr nodded crisply, giving his permission.
“You are a fine leader. You're a gifted swordsman and I've never known one more dedicated to his people and his destiny, but as a manâ¦as a man you're not quite done.”
Lyr studied Segyn's rough profile by the light of a low-burning fire. “I am not a loaf of bread.”
“Are you not? Are we all not such? The dough is your basic composition, the gifts from your parents, whether those gifts be magical or as simple as the color of your eyes and the size of your feet. As years go by, your mind and body are molded. Kneaded. Shaped. You rise, perhaps, and then you bake for a long while until you're done.”
“Is this some sort of kitchen philosophy?”
“I had an affair with a cook once. A kitchen helper, more rightly. It lasted several years. I was not much older than you when it began.” He cut his eyes to Lyr with censure. “While the love lasted, it was wonderful, but in the end it was quite ugly. You could say I was burned. You, m'lord, have never been burned. You haven't even been toasted, if truth be told. Women adore you, no man can best you sword to sword, your family loves you, and you have many physical giftsâstrength, beauty, a steady hand. You have never known the heartache of betrayal, the agony of loss, the sting of rejection. Perhaps you never will. Perhaps your life has been blessed and you will never know any of those pains, but if you never know loss, then you will never be
done
.”
“What is the purpose of this conversation?” Lyr asked impatiently.
Segyn was silent for a long moment. “I do not wish to see you burned at this time, boy.” Again, his tone was that of friend and mentor, not subservient. He nodded toward a sleeping Rayne. “That woman could singe the hair off your very head. I am glad to hear that you are not so foolish as to think that the two of you mightâ”
“No, I am not so foolish.”
“If you think of changing your mind in that area, speak to me and I will tell you all the ugly details of what happened with me and my kitchen maid when I was not much older than you.”
“Did she singe the very hair off your head?” Lyr asked, and he smiled when Segyn responded by rubbing a hand on his bald scalp.
“That she did, boy. That she did.”
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HE TERRAIN WAS SO DIFFERENT FROM HER MOUNTAIN
home that Rayne was fascinated. To the north were distant mountains, while grassy plains spread far and wide. To the south the landscape was entirely flat, and in the distance she saw what appeared to be low-lying water and stark, tall trees.
Swampland. She had read about it but had never thought to see the swamp firsthand. As far as she was concerned, the narrow, infrequently traveled road brought her close enough to the swamp for study. In the books she'd read, there had been much about snakes and large ratlike creatures and a reptile called croc which was capable of snapping off a man's head with its sharp teeth. The drawing in the book had shown a large mouth opened wide, and there were rows upon rows of teeth.
She did not wish to see a croc. That one drawing would suffice.
Tiller rode close by, taking an interest in her even though she had given up on her cursing lessons. If it was necessary that she tarnish her soul, she'd have to find another way. If the curse didn't come from the heart, would it affect her soul at all? She thought not. She thought that perhaps whatever sin was practiced had to be embraced for it to touch the soul. Whether for good or for ill, whether an act of kindness or a transgression, one's actions had to come from the heart.
As they often did, her eyes wandered to the man who led their party. Lyr had barely looked her way in the past two days. Was he angry with her? Bored? Annoyed? At times he seemed to be all three at once.
“He's to marry a princess, you know.”
Tiller's words took her by surprise. Rayne's head snapped around to face her escort. “I beg your pardon?”
“The Prince of Swords, Lord Lyr, he is to marry one of the King's daughters. Sylia, most likely, though some say Princess Erinda is the most beautiful and they would make the better match.”
Rayne wished she did not blush so easily. A heat rose to her cheeks, but she ignored the telling sign and kept her voice distant, as if she were not at all interested in the subject. “How very nice for him.”
“Nice indeed,” Tiller said. “To have one's choice of princesses would be an honor for any man.”
Rayne's lips pursed. She had never actually given any consideration to a future with Lyr, but she had admired him, and to have any and all possibility of more snatched away was annoying. Even though he was only the object of a fantasy, she did not want a future wife intruding on that fantasy.
“He has a choice, you say. Do the princesses themselves have no say in the matter?”
“Of course not,” Tiller said, as if such an idea were unthinkable. “And that is just as well, I suppose.”
“Why?” She could not help the word that sprung from her mouth. What woman would not want a man like Lyr Hern as her husband?
Tiller looked away before he turned to her again. “His family is ratherâ¦odd.”
“Many men have odd families, I imagine.” None odder than her own, with a wizard father who couldn't decide if he wanted to guard her from all harm or offer her up to his compatriots like a tasty supper, and a mother who was, perhaps, not all that she'd appeared to be.
“He has Anwyn cousins who shift into wolves at the rise of the full moon. His mother and his sisters are witches, and quite powerful ones at that. I hear one of his aunts is not safe to be around when she is angryâor arousedâas her very state of mind can affect the weather and the crops and the fertility of a woman's womb. His eldest cousin died and returned from the Land of the Dead,” he said in a lowered voice, as if he were in awe. “Almost all of his cousins possess some sort of magic. Since the King and his daughters have no magical abilities, marrying into such a family might be a bit daunting, don't you think?”
“I imagine so,” she said softly.
“Your father was a wizard,” Tiller said. “Are you⦔
“I am like my mother, without magical abilities. And I like it that way, though I imagine there are times when having unnatural powers would be convenient.” In truth, she did not like what magic had done to her father. Would he have been a better man if his desire for power hadn't led him astray? Would he have been a better father? As she turned her attention to the back of Lyr's head, she asked, “What is his ability? I haven't seen him practice any sort of magic, and we've been on the road for many days.”
“He does not use his gift often,” Tiller said. “But I have seen it once before. Well, as much as any man can
see
what he does. He is a sight to behold when he uses his magic.”
“What does he do?” Her father had practiced spells for as long as she could remember, and she had never cared for them. She hadn't cared for their unnatural way or the very stink that had risen in the air as her father worked.
“He stops time,” Tiller whispered.
Rayne's head jerked about. “No one can stop time.”
“He does. He stops time for all but himself, and he moves among us while we are stuck and he is not. He might be right before you, and then a blink of the eye later he's gone. He might be to the right or to the left or gone altogether. It's quite alarming.”