Playing Dead (22 page)

The cabbie turned off Sheridan Road and wound his way around, toward the lake, eventually pulling up to a massive black iron gate. He pressed the speaker button.

“What’s your name?” he asked over his shoulder.

“Tommie. Just say Tommie.”

“You don’t look like a Tommy,” he said, turning around. “You sure?”

“Just say it, please.”

He pressed the button again impatiently. “I got Tommy here. You going to let me in?”

“We’d prefer that you drop off Miss McCloud at the gate. She can walk up.”

The voice was male and stern, like a former military man. Or a Texas football coach. The cabbie shrugged and asked me for
eighty dollars. Not knowing whether I was being ripped off, I gave him five crisp twenties and told him to keep the change. Then I hesitated, holding out a bill. “There’s another hundred if you wait. And another hundred when you deliver me to the hotel. It will be at least an hour.”

He weighed the possibility, running a mental cash register.

“OK.” He shrugged. “I’ll circle. But I leave after an hour and fifteen minutes.”

He left me standing alone in front of the monstrous twelve-foot-tall concrete wall that curved like a snake around a large property, its look somewhat softened by branches with tiny pink flowers that dripped over the side.

A security camera on top of the wall adjusted robot arms to direct its lens on me. I considered my tangled hair, perspiring face, green dress clinging in places it shouldn’t be clinging for tea of any kind with an elderly socialite. Nervously, I rubbed the key around my neck, which the hospital wouldn’t let Mama wear when I tried to give it back. I glanced right and then left. No sign anywhere of thugs in cowboy hats.

A small metal door to the left of the main gate, practically hidden by foliage, swung open because someone, somewhere, punched a button. I walked cautiously through, into the land of Rosalina’s paranoia, my body on high alert. I found myself in a narrow, arched tunnel of vines. The end was not in sight. I jumped as the gate snapped shut behind me.

I walked steadily for about three minutes as the path inclined toward what I assumed was Rosalina’s house. Five times I considered turning around. Twice, the heel of my brand-new metallic copper sandals got caught in the dirt until I finally yanked them off and trod onward barefoot.

Occasionally, the vines parted a little above me to let in more light. I could see they covered a continuous metal arbor that
acted as a cage; plant life covered it so densely I could not see out on either side, and I assumed no one but the cameras I occasionally spotted could see in. By the time I arrived at a stone staircase embedded into the earth, I was trembling.

I counted twenty steps before reaching the landing. It took me a second to get my bearings once I reached open sunlight. I stood on the second-level terrace of an impressive replica of an Italian villa. On one side I faced floor-to-ceiling windows that framed a ballroom hung with three massive crystal chandeliers. The room was designed so that on special nights guests would spill out onto this balcony.

When I turned around, Lake Michigan slapped me in the face with an unexpectedly cool breeze. In Texas, you only caught one of those in summer by standing near an air-conditioning vent. I couldn’t see water, but I knew it was close.

I knocked the bottoms of the two-inch heels on the tiled ground to get off the dirt and strapped them back on before peering over the balcony into the most elaborate garden I’d ever seen, a maze of arbors and stone pathways and fountains. Someone could get lost in there. Which was probably the point.

“It’s beautiful, isn’t it?” asked a slightly accented voice behind me, and just like that, I was face-to-face with Rosalina Marchetti. The first thing I noticed was that she’d had her cheekbones “done,” pulled higher and sharper, making her look more Italian than Mexican.

Few vestiges of the Rosie from that faded newspaper picture remained. Her silvery white hair was orchestrated into an elegant bun almost as twisted as her garden. Her pale green pantsuit flowed from her slender body like a loose skin, a subtle background to the diamonds glinting on her fingers, in her ears, at her neck.

Rosalina was more beautiful than ever. And I looked nothing like her.

“Oh, my God,” she said, a mist over her blue eyes, which I knew were really plain, ordinary brown. And then she swept me into what seemed to be a very genuine hug.

I felt absolutely nothing.
Shouldn’t I feel something?

“Shhh,” she warned, as I opened my mouth to speak. “Not here.”

She tucked her arm through the crook of mine, and led me down two more flights of rocky stairs that spiraled their way into the garden. The paving stones looked ancient enough for Michelangelo himself to have picked over them.

In the center of the garden’s opening courtyard, a life-sized copper statue of a small child with angel wings tilted her head to the sky, her arms open with glee as water spilled over her. “That’s Adriana,” she said. It took me several seconds to figure out who Rosalina was talking about. “I put the fountain in on the three-year anniversary of her kidnapping.”

Please, God, don’t let that girl be me
.

Four other garden paths led off the courtyard into a dense, tamed jungle, and Rosalina tugged me along on one rampant with honeysuckle, oblivious to the effect of her words on me. From above, the garden gave the appearance of well-groomed symmetry, but once inside I gave up trying to keep track of all of the turns. I was hot, tired, and pretty certain Rosalina wasn’t much of a physical threat. Besides, I had always cheated with a pencil and eraser at childhood maze games.

“I feel safest in here,” Rosalina said, pulling a branch aside for me to step through. “This garden was designed for me many years ago by a University of Chicago math professor. He’s dead now. I’m the only other one besides my security guards and a gardener who knows every way in and out, and it’s locked without a key inside my head.” As she tapped her forehead, I prayed that the math professor died of natural causes.

She glanced at my dress, and my fingers awkwardly adjusted the neckline. “Thank you for wearing green,” she said. “It’s better camouflage.”

This was beyond bizarre. Had Rosalina lived her entire life in fear, grieving for a stolen daughter, a recluse trying to disappear into her landscape?

“Don’t feel pity for me,” she said, as if reading my mind. “I made my deal with the devil. Your father, that is. I was still young, but I knew what lay ahead for me if I didn’t marry him. Venereal disease, abusive men, an overdose. In some ways, your father saved me, although, of course, it was for his own selfish reasons.” Her voice trailed into bitterness. “I’m assuming you know the story, at least that part of it.”

Your father
. Did she mean Anthony Marchetti? She dropped the words so casually.

“Why would you assume that?” I stuttered. “I don’t know anything.”

“This is my favorite space,” Rosalina said abruptly, as we stepped into the colorful chaos of a small Mexican garden. Bright blue tile covered the ground, overflowing Mexican pots held lemon trees and wildly colorful flowers. A parakeet cackled and swooped by several inches from my face. Two green-striped padded lounge chairs were neatly divided by a small green table that held a green pot of tea and a basket of scones. I guessed we stood on the south side of the maze, but who knew?

“Sit down, dear,” she said abruptly. “I’m not your mother, of course. Surely you never really thought that. You’re the spitting image of Genoveve. I always found that pretentious of her. Her name was probably something perfectly ordinary. Jenny with a
J
.”

I clung to the important part.

Rosalina Marchetti was not my mother.

My mother was the one who tucked me in at night like a burrito.
Who had closed her eyes and held her breath every time I threw my body on top of a bull.

My mother was lying in a hospital bed in Texas, her mind wandering through a demented dream of her own.

“You don’t need to look at me like that,” Rosalina said haughtily. “It was just a little white lie. I wanted to present my case in person. You wouldn’t have flown all this way to see me otherwise; you would have simply tracked down Anthony. I figured you’d be curious. You’re a psychologist. You help small children. And this is
all
about a small child. My daughter. I need to know what happened to her. And I know Anthony knows. I want you to get him to tell.” She swatted at a wasp with a wrinkled, French-manicured hand. “Surely he can’t pass up a plea from his long-lost daughter.”

I was thinking, yes, Anthony Marchetti definitely could. I was thinking I wasn’t about to accept a word Rosalina was saying as the truth.

“You owe me.” Her face revealed a disconcerting glimpse of the stripper, the Mafia hooker, the survivor. “You and your mother owe me. My daughter is gone because of you.”

“Tell me. Please.” I barely got it out, but it was all the encouragement she needed.

“I was Rose Red,” she said proudly. “No other stripper pulled them in like I did. Anthony and his boys showed up almost every night. I dated one of his bulldogs. Arturo.”

She took a dainty sip of tea and crossed her legs primly.

“If alcohol and drugs in exchange for blow jobs counts for love,” she continued drily, “then Arturo and I were in love. Anthony was the stud, of course, but he was out of my league. We spent a lot of time over at a Rush Street piano bar, where your mother played and sang after ten. Anthony would listen to her and drink martinis until the garbage trucks rolled.”

She gazed at me with a mixture of jealousy and fascination.

“It’s eerie how much you look alike. That hair, the way you move. Anthony and your mother fascinated each other. She couldn’t resist him. All that darkness and charm.” Her voice grew heavy with sarcasm. “Thus began their great romance. The story goes to hell from there. I got pregnant. Your mother got pregnant. Difference was, one of Arturo’s buddies raped me in the alley behind the bar. Every which way, if you know what I mean. Arturo wouldn’t even look at me after that.”

“I’m sorry,” I said, meaning it. “What happened to my mother?”

“Anthony went down for a hit on an FBI agent. It was ugly. He shot the man’s whole family. Somehow, your mother was mixed up in it. Anthony pled out to get her protected. Kind of a grand gesture for someone with Anthony’s résumé. To plead, I mean. I figured he’d just threaten a jury and get off.”

How, how, how could Mama be mixed up in this?

She paused, looking satisfied. “But there Anthony sits, more than thirty years later.”

“I don’t understand,” I stuttered. “You said you and Anthony weren’t … a thing.”

“He brought me an offer right after the murders. If I married him, my baby and I would be taken care of for life. But he made no bones about it: I’d be the new target for his enemies while your mother and his unborn baby got out of town. She already had an older boy. She never said who
his
father was. Not as pure as she put on.”

She was playing the role of martyr and enjoying every minute of it. I held back angry words because I didn’t want her to stop.

“Anthony always called me Red after that. But as in red herring, not Rose Red. I can’t say that he wasn’t straight about the risk in marrying him. I just never expected anything to happen to Adriana. You know that whoever took her had to think she was you. Anthony’s baby. I’ve been watching my back ever since.”

Something about this part of the story rang false, but I couldn’t put my finger on it. I was schooled in the facial tics of a liar, but she displayed none of them, her eyes focused on me, never darting away.

She gestured to the house. “That’s my prison. My fortress. I can flip a switch in any room and see every corner of the house and grounds. I think my security boys like to watch me in the shower sometimes, but”—she grinned—“that’s the price I pay. Every now and then I’ll do a little striptease around the four-poster. That’s just a bonus. They’re well paid.”

I brushed aside this image. “I still don’t understand. Why now? How did you find me?”

“Do you believe in Fate, Tommie?”

I thought about Granny and her cards, about how I sat smack in the middle of a tangled garden that was a metaphor for my life.

“Well, I believe that Fate brought you to me,” Rosalina said.

“Someone told you where I was,” I said flatly.

She turned coy. “I really can’t say.”

It suddenly occurred to me that I’d brought a tape recorder and never once thought about turning it on. I reached into my bag, ostensibly for a tissue, and flipped a switch and the direction of the conversation.

“So you don’t know what my mother knew about those murders?”

“Not a clue.”

“What makes you so sure Anthony Marchetti is my father?”

“I’m sure. Track him down. And while you’re at it, ask him about my Adriana. Beg him to give me some peace.”

I looked at my watch. I’d been there an hour. Screw subtlety. I just wanted answers. “Do you know why Anthony Marchetti has been moved to a Texas prison nearer my family?”

“I didn’t know that.” Rosalina seemed authentically surprised.

“I feel like my family is being threatened, but I don’t know where it’s coming from.”

“Maybe you should ask the Feds who are trying to peer over my wall right now.” Rosalina let out a snort of laughter. “Actually, honey, you can’t believe a word the FBI says. Of course, you can’t believe Anthony, either. He’s the master of illusion. The FBI guys, though—they lie, lie, lie to get what they want. Try to make us nervous. They’ve been bugging my phones for a decade. Don’t they think I know? They want to track all that money still drifting here and there.”

She brought the teacup and a flash of diamonds to her pale glossy lips, and I thought how her striptease was probably still worth watching.

I didn’t care what else she had to tell me. I desperately needed to get out of there. As I pushed myself out of the chair, she tugged me back down.

“Not yet,” she said, glancing around. “I want you to have something.” She reached into her pants pocket and placed a small red jewelry box in my hand, the elegant kind with the spring catch on the back.