Personal Possessions (37 page)

“Elleny, your pussy’s so
wet, it’s dripping down my sac baby. Say the words and let me get
you off.”

I watched as she closed
her eyes, not responding, I began to nibble and suck harder. I
pulled off and went to show some love to the other breast. Elle was
about to explode she was so turned on so I reached down between us
and ran my fingers collecting what I could of her that was dripping
down me, I brought them up to my mouth and sucked off her delicious
nectar.

“Baby, this is all
you.”

I closed my eyes and
concentrated on the taste that surrounded my mouth.

“I could eat you for
dinner every night. My cock is ready to bust here Elleny, say the
words and I will move.”

“Fuck you!!! I’m not
saying it again!!! I won’t be able to survive this time
goddammit!!!”

This time…so what she
thought I went on about my day last time? I asked myself quietly. I
had to get passed what happened that night…why was she not able to.
I was not bringing that up at the specific point in time. I just
needed to let it go for her sake…and mine.

“
I can’t say any more than
what I’ve said to you, Elleny, I told you how I feel last night, I
need something from you, baby.”

I positioned myself to
connect with her again. Entering her slowly, I watched the
satisfaction wash over her face. Elle was so beautiful in this
light with that look on her face, I wanted to keep that mask on her
face for the rest of her life.

“
I want the words baby
doll. I need the words.”

I sped up my movements.
Elle’s eyes came to mine and I caught it. The glimmer was back…it
was a dull sparkle but it was there. I needed to keep this up, it
wouldn’t be long…she’d give me what I wanted.

“
Ride my cock, Elleny, you
love it.” I had begun to build up friction.

“
I do love it…do it
faster.”

I gave her exactly what
she wanted…I rolled faster.

“You love my cock… don’t
you, Ellie-bean, you only come for me don’t you?”

“
Yes…only for
you.”

I was thrusting hard and
deep now. I could feel myself approaching my orgasm. I cleared my
mind, I began to concentrate on my breathing. This was about her,
not me…I repeated quickly through my mind.

“
That’s it baby, come all
over me. I want you to have my mark, you’re not washing me off
neither. I want to smell you and know that you are covered in
me.”

“
Oh God….fuck, Trevor I’m
coming…don’t stop!!!”

I felt her begin to tense
around me, I could literally feel her orgasm around my cock. I
looked in her eyes and saw her mouth open, changing the look on her
face to one of ecstasy when I completely stopped.

“
Say the fucking words,
Elleny!!!!”

“
I love you!!!! Fuck,
Trevor, I love you so much, I’ve never stopped loving you. I can’t
see anyone else but you. I’ve been dead these last seventeen years
and I can’t go back to that…I won’t go back!!! Is that what you
want to hear…is it you sadistic mother fucker?”

That was exactly what I
wanted to hear. The truth. For years I wondered what I did to make
her stop loving me, I took all the blame for ruining a relationship
that was indestructible, just to find out that she was in the same
boat all these years.

“
That’s what I wanted to
hear, Wife!”

Elle grasped me around her
tighter than I had ever been gripped. Her screams told me that her
orgasm was following the same route. I came right behind her. I
laid my forehead against hers but only for a minute as Elle started
to push me back. Hearing her cry, I wouldn’t move, we needed to
talk about this. She continued pushing me away, seeing that I
wasn’t budging, her head came down to my shoulder.

“
Elle…baby
don’t-“

“No you don’t,
Trevor!”

I let her go…I pushed her
too far this time and I felt bad for the methods I used, but I did
not feel bad for the outcome; that shit needed to come out. We
needed to know where each other lied and now we did. I never
would’ve known that she still loved me seventeen years later, this
discussion was not over.

I didn’t chase her because
I started to put pieces of the puzzle back together. If she loved
me all this time, why did she go and marry Bear? Did he hold
something over her that he used as leverage…maybe she knew
something about him and he forced her into the marriage.

Grabbing her clothes
quickly she headed to the bathroom, of course I followed
her.

“
Don’t what, Elleny? Let’s
be honest here, what is it you’re not telling me…why can’t we be
together?”

Elle dropped what was in
her hands and started laughing. I never did like that laugh…it
always made me nervous.

“Honesty, I don’t even
know what that word means anymore.”

“
Look if it’s about Bear,
I understand.”

Elle crooked her eyebrow
up and looked at me with a quizzical look on her face. I was
missing something here.

“
You do…you
understand….”

“Yes, I understand that
you have children with him and just because you two don’t get
along, you don’t want to pull the kids out from him….you’re a good
mom and you don’t want your kids to suffer. But they won’t suffer
darlin’… they’ll grow to love me.”

She didn’t say anything,
just stood there looking in the mirror as though she was thinking.
Suddenly, the only response I got was…

“Let’s go, I have work to
do.”

Arriving at work, I
thought maybe the quiet time in the car would be good enough for
her to clear her mind. Obviously it wasn’t because she thought she
was going to run off from me on the walk up to the building and
that was not fuckin’ happening. Coming up to the elevators, I came
to the conclusion that she will talk when she’s ready…she really
had no choice.

Stepping in, I walked up
to the back of the car so that I put my back up to the glass, Elle
never turned to look at me. Standing right in front of the doors,
it took until we passed the fifth floor for her to open her
mouth.

“
I’m here to work Trevor,
I’m not here to fuck my boss. I’m finishing my job and I will leave
as soon as the last contract is signed. I will be finishing up the
memory sticks this morning, this afternoon I will get the clients
scheduled for the next several day’s signings and I will be out of
here before you leave for lunch.”

She could make up her own
agenda all she wanted…in her head, but she wasn’t going anywhere.
Elle was right on one thing, she was a changed woman. She ran away
from everything. Well, she wasn’t running away from this…I lost her
once, I wasn’t going to do it again.

“
You done?”

“You won’t leave until I
say you leave. If you remember, your boss Mr. Stevens is depending
on you.”

She turned quickly and
came nose to nose with me; this was my Elle, maybe I was wrong…my
Elle had just been buried away deep. I just needed to bring her
back out.

“Don’t you fucking dare
threaten me with that shit. I was called here to do a job of
collecting and storing two hundred and fifty signed contracts, I
just told you, that will be accomplished. Don’t you fucking think
you can toy with me McHale, I’m not the kinda bitch to be toyed
with.”

Yep, she was down there,
buried real deep.

I smiled a thin smile at
the revelation but didn’t say a word. That was until we got off of
the elevator. If I had to piss her off to get my Elle to come out
to play, then that was what I would do.

As I stepped out of the
doors I turned around and made circles around my face as I mouthed
to her “nice mask”, she didn’t find that amusing.

I walked to my office
leaving Elle back there to pout.

Walking in, my desk was a
mess. I had fucked off for days now with Elle, the move and Kip…I
had forgotten about the other shit that was going on in my life. I
picked up a file that had been on an investor that I was really
wanting to work with when I heard Sam’s voice bust through my
office.

“McHale!”

It took me a moment, but I
lifted my eyes in Sam’s direction. I really wasn’t in the mood this
morning to hear about how he bagged some secretary from three
floors down.

“I really need to teach
you some etiquette on how to treat the ladies…dude.”

Did he really just say
dude and what the fuck is he talking about.

I thought to myself. I had
no idea what he was referring to, as the walk down the hallway
popped back into my head. Elle wasn’t behind me, I left her at the
elevators.

Shit…

“Really…well, why don’t
you inform me on what you are referring to, Sam?”

I didn’t smile, I had a
shit morning and I really wasn’t in the mood to hear his bullshit.
Quickly, Sam swung his head out towards the lobby, I followed his
neck jerk and saw Elle standing there cowering…until she caught my
eyes and immediately straightened as though jolts of
self-confidence were plugged directly into her.

“
She’s here in town and
I’m gonna show her how northern gentlemen behave and take her down
to the Coffee Cabana for a cup, we’ll be right back”

I had a vision. It was
quick, but I saw it clear as a bell. It started out with me jumping
over my desk and knocking Sam to the floor before sitting on him
and removing all his teeth.

I couldn’t move, I
couldn’t smile…all I did was stare at him. I wasn’t sure what was
going through his mind, I was hoping for ways to back out of what
he had said.

He placed a smile back on
his face. “Great…well, we will be back in about twenty, have
fun.”

I would be counting the
minutes. I thought.

I had to get my mind off
of what had just happened, so I took the opportunity to make some
phone calls.

“Hey…everything going
ok?”

I heard Rachel’s voice on
the other end.

“Why didn’t you say
something to me, Rach?”

I heard her blow her
breath out, more than likely looking for the words to answer yet
calm me down with.

“Trev, it wasn’t for me to
tell you. It’s Elle’s life, sweetie…her choice on who knows. I love
you and I love her but for the safety of her and these kids…I just
couldn’t. I know you, hun…you would’ve crashed down her door, guns
blazing…”

She was right, I would’ve
and thought about the consequences later. This was one of those
times where that would have been very inappropriate. Rachel’s voice
got quiet as she spoke.

“I tried to clue you
in…that day of the picnic…remember when I told you to bring her
back…”

I caught on now. Rachel
was under the impression that I was going to make Elle who she used
to be. That was im-fucking-possible. It took me threatening Elle to
get her to appear, I refused to be the bad guy when it came to
Elle. I was not willing to take that chance on losing
her.

“Not gonna happen, Rach…I
think she’s too far gone.”

“No!! Don’t you fucking
say that, Trevor! She’s in there and you’re the only one in this
goddamn world that can bring her back to life…do you understand me?
I have tried from the moment you left town to get her to be Elle
again and I don’t hold the power…none of us do, not Curt, not
Lils…it’s you. Heal her, Trev…fix her.”

“I’ll call you back,
Rach.”

I couldn’t talk about this
anymore. This was a lot to take in and I wasn’t even sure if I held
this so called power that she was certain I possessed.

I needed time to think, so
I opened up my laptop and got back to work.

Phone calls needed to be
made, paperwork needed to be signed. I made sure that I got caught
up on all things that needed my direct attention ASAP, but Elle was
planted firmly in the back of my mind. What was she doing with Sam,
where were they…

Finally, out of the corner
of my eye, I saw her walk pass my office heading to her own. I took
a breath of relief as I knew that she was back safely, but what had
happened and where they went, was the first questions that would
leave my mouth.

I continued working most
of the morning until I heard a small knock on the door, raising my
head I was surprised to see Sarah standing there.

“Have you had
lunch?”

Lunch…already, it seemed
as though I had just had my cup of coffee.

“No, I’m a bit busy to
worry about lunch, thank you though.”

I replied as I put my face
back into the computer screen.

“Come on, Trev…you have to
eat.”

I have no clue why she
thought it professional to call me by my first name. I hated it, in
fact…I despised it.

She walked in with two
Styrofoam containers of takeout and planted herself on the couch
across from my desk. She hiked up her skirt so that she could lay
her feet up underneath her as though she was at home in front of
the television watching a football game.