Personal Experiences (53 page)
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Authors: Tracy Lee
TJ's voice brought me out from my thoughts. "Ok babe, let's do this." He pulled my head up as he lowered his to kiss my forehead.
"This should be the last push to get this baby out, Elleny." I grabbed a breath and pushed with all my might. I heard crying…newborn crying.
It's a boy!"
I threw my head back and hit pillow. I got a break. I heard TJ's voice.
"Oh my god baby, he's so beautiful, that's my son…our son, Elle. He looks so much like you."
Right now I didn't care if the baby looked like Dracula; I wanted to close my eyes and rest. I heard the nurses all in the corner with the baby. TJ was snapping pictures with his camera phone to send to everyone. The doctor was doing something between my legs and I was just lying there.
"Ok…Elleny, are you ready? It's time for the next one."
"Shit…already? Can't I rest?"
"Come on honey…almost done, you've done amazing."
Ok, I've had enough with his Lamaze-fucking video watching self he needed to just shut up.
"Honey, I love you but you need to shut the fuck up with the amazing shit. I'm tired and I want this kid out of me and you sitting there smiling at me like you're on a ride at Disney is not helping fucking matters."
The smile left his face and he pulled back a minute when the doctor laughed hysterically. "I was wonderin if you were going to hit that stage of labor or not…looks like you did. Don't worry son, that's perfectly normal. Now Elleny…push now." I smiled up at my husband and he smiled back and I knew we were anchored together right at this very moment. I pushed three pushes and my daughter was born.
Later that night, in my hospital room I woke up to the sight of my husband holding my newborn daughter; Mona Elyse McHale. She looked just like her daddy to me; so beautiful. She had Luc's disposition; she was quiet but yet she knew what she wanted when she wanted it, she was going to be the leader of the two.
"Momma, I think she's hungry." TJ said looking at Mona.
"Bring her here" I held my hands out for her. He placed her in my arms I rearranged my nightgown so that she could feed as he sat there watching me feed our daughter.
"I've never seen anything more beautiful; my love. You have given me a gift I could never find anything close enough to give to you in exchange."
As I sat feeding her, my newborn son began to cry. My husband went over to his crib and picked him up so gently and held him up "Mr. Ryder Maxwell McHale, you must want to eat too". TJ walked around with Ryder while I finished with Mona and then we changed. He hasn't left my side, he's staying up here, sleeping on a hard, lumpy couch just to be next to me.
If five years ago, I'd have had a chance to look at where my life is now, I would've jumped in your face and called you a liar. Never would I have thought I'd found such happiness and that I would let go of the mask that had become such a norm to me, but once I dropped it on the ground, I knew I would never need it again.
I stepped on it and then stomped on it incessantly to make sure that I couldn't pick it up and shove it back in my pocket. These feelings were real, they weren't just something that was set in my mind and would make an appearance with a song or a mood. This was a permanent feeling and I couldn't have asked for it with a better person. I never thought I'd be able to feel such love again but with the personal experiences I'd had, they taught me to take it and never let it go.
THE END
About the Author
Tracy lives with her husband and 4 children in a small town just outside Tulsa, Ok. Originally from Brandon, Florida she was a city girl at heart. Wanting a change of scenery, she packed her kids up and moved to Oklahoma where now she's seen snow, touched farm animals and has cows in her back yard.
Being a stay at home mom, an avid reader and part-time blogger; she decided to put the three of them together and try her hand at writing and fell in love. In between running kids from band practice to PTO meetings, she enjoys her "me time" working on a little bit of her next book. She thoroughly enjoys head-banging heavy metal and a kickass game of Black Ops.
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Tracy can be found at:
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