Passions of War (27 page)

‘Was it . . . ? I never had a chance to find out how badly you were wounded.'

‘Could have been worse; a sniper's bullet. Got me between the ribs and the pelvis but missed anything vital. I was lucky.'

‘Yes, you were. I'm glad it's not too serious.'

‘Me, too. The doc says I should be able to get back to active service after a few weeks convalescence.'

‘Most of the patients I deal with are just happy to have got a ‘blighty'; a wound that will get them back to England and away from the trenches.'

‘I know. But I'm a regular officer. I've got responsibilities.'

They were both silent for a moment. Victoria was remembering how much she had disliked Ralph before the war, with his confident swagger and his assumption of masculine superiority. She guessed that he was thinking along the same lines. They both spoke at once.

‘I really wanted to ask you . . .'

‘Have you by any chance heard from Leo?'

‘That's what I was going to ask you.'

Ralph shook his head fretfully. ‘Not a word since last October, and then it was weeks out of date.'

‘Same here.'

Their eyes met. Ralph said, ‘From what I've seen in the papers, the Serbs have had a pretty rough time.'

‘Yes, I read it, too. But Leo wouldn't have been involved in the fighting. From what she wrote to me I gather she was working in a hospital run by Mabel Stobart, well back from the front line.'

‘But if the whole country has been overrun . . .'

‘Leo's a non-combatant. She was under the protection of the Red Cross. Surely all sides would respect that. Do you think she's been taken prisoner?'

‘It seems a possibility. But if so, her name should have been listed and handed over to the War Office, and I should have been notified, as her next of kin.' He rubbed his hand across his face. ‘That damned girl! Why couldn't she stay at home, like other women?'

‘You blame me for that, don't you?' Victoria said.

Their eyes met again and he gave a rueful laugh. ‘I used to. But now I think if Leo hadn't met you and joined the FANY, she would have found some other way of getting into danger. If only she'd stayed with you, I shouldn't be so worried about her.'

‘I wish she had, too,' Victoria said. ‘I tried to persuade her.'

‘What made her so determined to go back to Serbia, anyway?' he asked. ‘I mean, I know she made friends when we were in Belgrade but I can't for the life of me understand why she felt it necessary to go and nurse them instead of looking after her own people.'

Victoria looked at him, wondering if he guessed something about Leo's relationship with Sasha Malkovic and was trying to probe her for details, but his expression showed only puzzled irritation and she felt a momentary exasperation. His own sister had had her heart broken, right under his nose, and he had sensed nothing. She could see no way of explaining Leo's decision without giving too much away, so she simply shrugged and remained silent.

After a moment he said, ‘I wonder if you could do something for me. I want to get a message to Tom Devenish. He was with me when I got wounded and he'll be wondering what's happened. I've written him a note. Could you see if you can get it sent up the line for me?'

‘Yes, of course. I'll do my best. How was he, when you last saw him?'

‘Doing incredibly well. I've always thought of Tom as the most unsoldierly chap I've ever met, but he's been a tower of strength. It's extraordinary what war brings out in some people. I just wish he'd had the sense to marry Leo while they had the chance. Then perhaps he could have stopped her going off like that.'

Victoria confined herself to a non-committal grunt and got up. ‘I must be getting back. I have to report in half an hour. I'm glad to see you are getting better.

‘Thanks for coming in.'

‘That's all right. I had to find out how you were. 'Bye for now.'

‘Cheerio.' Then, as she turned away: ‘Victoria?'

‘Yes?'

‘If you get the chance . . . do drop by again. It's nice to see a familiar face.'

She paused and looked at him, and saw for the first time how young he looked and how pain had hollowed his cheeks and smudged dark shadows under his eyes. She nodded. ‘I come here most days, bringing wounded in from the train. I'll call in when I have time.'

‘Thanks. And you'll try to get my letter to Tom?'

‘Yes. I'll do my best.'

Tom came to an abrupt halt and swore under his breath as the roll of barbed wire he was helping to carry struck him in the back of the neck. The roll was suspended on an iron stanchion, which rested on his shoulder and that of the man behind him. It was almost pitch dark, but he could just make out a hunched shape blocking the trench in front of him.

‘Traffic jam!' he whispered hoarsely, to explain his sudden stop.

The man following him groaned and hitched the stanchion to a less painful position, causing the wire to cut into Tom's shoulder. The company had been withdrawn from the front line, ostensibly ‘for a rest', but there was little chance of that. While billeted some six miles back from the line it was their job to bring up essential supplies and, since all movement during daylight hours attracted a barrage of shells from the Germans, the work had to be done at night. This meant a two-mile tramp along a cobbled road, carrying the huge variety of items required by the men manning the trenches; apart from barbed wire, and the metal posts to support it, there were sandbags to repair trench parapets, duckboards for the worst flooded areas, balks of timber, ammunition, grenades, and the daily rations of bread and jam and tea and sugar and bully beef. At the end of the two miles, they reached the beginning of the communication trench. From here, it was a further three miles along a narrow, muddy ditch, often up to the tops of their boots in water, with frequent right-angled bends designed to make the progress of an attacker more difficult but which also rendered the manoeuvring of cumbersome loads even more exhausting. On top of this, they were not the only company on the same errand, with the result that there were frequent hold-ups while the party ahead negotiated a particularly difficult obstacle.

This time, the jam had a different cause. Word was whispered from man to man: ‘Stretcher party coming back.' There was no way a stretcher could be carried past in the narrow trench, so there was only one solution. Tom turned, with difficulty, and gave his order, sotto voce: ‘Up!' With a struggle, they heaved the wire up out of the trench and scrambled after it. All along the edge, Tom could see the shadowy figures of waiting men. He knew what they were feeling. In spite of the darkness, the sense of exposure was inescapable. At any moment he expected to hear the whistle of an incoming shell. It seemed a long time before he saw the men ahead slipping back into the trench and then heard the panting and splashing of the stretcher-bearers passing his position. He looked behind him and gestured his company down again into the muddy darkness.

They reached their designated area sometime after midnight, handed over the supplies and set off back to their billets. The going was easier without their loads but they had to climb out twice to make way for groups heading in the opposite direction. By the time they finally reached the road and could make out the dim shapes of shattered trees and ruined houses after the total blackness of the trench, Tom was exhausted and he knew his men were in the same condition, but they still had a two-mile slog ahead of them. Tramping along, with nothing particular to focus on, his thoughts turned as always to the two most important people in his life: Ralph and Leo. He had heard no news of Ralph since he was carried away unconscious after their night expedition into no-man's-land. He had made repeated enquiries, but to no avail. He could only comfort himself with the thought that Ralph had still been breathing and the wound, as far as he could tell, did not appear to have struck any vital organ, but the uncertainty was a perpetual torture. Occasionally, at moments like this, he allowed himself a comforting fantasy. If Ralph recovered, he would undoubtedly be given leave to convalesce. If he, Tom, could only wangle some leave at the same time . . . But he knew it was improbable. He had had two weeks after finishing his officer training, not long ago. A man was lucky to get that once in a year. Putting the thought aside, his mind turned to Leo, but there was little comfort there. Since a letter which had reached him last November he had heard nothing, but the newspapers had carried reports of the Serbian defeat and he could only fear the worst. While he was on leave he had made a point of calling at Sussex Gardens, but the staff there had heard nothing. He had also contacted the solicitor who handled Leo's affairs, but he was as much at a loss as the rest. The situation in Serbia was chaotic and somewhere in the middle of it Leo had simply disappeared.

Dawn was breaking as the weary men shambled into the village. Tom dismissed them and went to his own billet, which was in the house of an elderly man who had once been the village schoolmaster. He was an irritable character who appeared to find Tom's inability to speak French a personal affront; but in compensation, his housekeeper was a motherly woman who made it her mission to provide her English lodger with whatever little treats were available. Neither of them were up when Tom let himself in, but the old range in the kitchen had been stoked up and only required raking to glow into life and the big iron kettle was ready on the hob. Tom drew it over on to the hotplate and fetched his tea ration from his room. It was only then that he noticed two parcels and a small packet of letters on the table. The long-awaited post must have come up during the hours of darkness and his batman had collected it and left it for him. His stomach clenched with anxiety as he sorted through the envelopes. None was addressed in the handwriting he longed to see. There was one from his mother, one from a distant cousin who seemed to have decided it was her duty to send him uplifting quotations from the Bible, one from a newspaper editor presumably regarding some drawings Tom had sent him; and a fourth that appeared to have originated in Calais, addressed in a hand he did not recognize. He tore it open with shaking hands.

Inside was another envelope, and there, at last, was the familiar script. He ignored the covering letter and opened it.

Tom laid the letter on the table and rested his cheek on it. In his exhausted state the sudden relief almost reduced him to tears. The sound of the kettle coming to the boil roused him, or he might have fallen asleep where he sat. He got up and made himself a mug of tea, then resumed his place and began to look through the rest of his mail.

Victoria's covering letter was brief and told him no more than he had already learned from Ralph. His mother's letter was almost as short, simply informing him that she had ordered a hamper of food for him from Fortnum and Mason. Tom had long ago given up expecting any kind of emotional sustenance from his mother's communications, so he turned his attention to the parcel, which contained the hamper itself. Pate de foie gras, chocolate and strawberry jam had to substitute for maternal affection. He drank his tea, ate some chocolate and dragged himself off to bed.

Nineteen

Victoria was on leave. It was the first time she had been back in London since she had set off to join the FANYs at Lamarck, and she was finding it a disquieting experience. After the unrelenting effort of dealing with the constant stream of casualties, the primitive living conditions and the tedious rations, it seemed unbelievable that life in London continued almost unchanged. The streets were full of servicemen home on leave, determined to have a good time; the theatres and music halls were booming. It was true that there was a certain sense of constraints being loosened and old taboos overthrown; but the men and women of the upper middle class among which Victoria had grown up continued to live much as they always had done. There were complaints about shortages of staff and the unavailability of certain luxuries but no sense, as far as she could see, of the cataclysmic events taking place across the Channel.

It did not help that there were very few of her contemporaries in town. Victoria had always been a rebel, uncomfortable in drawing-room society, and most of her friends had either been men whom she had met during her career as a racing driver or women in the FANY. Now they were all engaged in the fighting, in one capacity or another, and she found herself at a loose end. One morning she was strolling along Bond Street, idly looking in the windows of jewellers and dress shops, when a voice hailed her.