Owning Regina: Diary of my unxpected passion for another woman (39 page)

She and I haven’t seen each other since Monday morning. She’s been super busy catching up on her daily life… and soap opera she records. I still think that is so funny! Of all people, she is the last person I would think would be hooked on a soap!  I’ve been busy in my job too. We picked up a new client, a national insurance carrier at the same time as preparing for a commercial shoot in Golden Gate Park for a Toyota.

Oh, to celebrate Tucker’s move to his own bed on Monday night, Regina and I decided to sleep on the phone together. It was sweet. We literally had the phones by our pillows on speakerphone. It was like she was right next to me. We talked about what it would be like living together and tried to work out the mechanics of it all. Would we merge our finances? Would we merge our laundry? Who would control the Pandora? What kind of personal space would each of us have? Who cooks and who cleans up? They were all real things that needed to be considered. It also made everything seem more real and solid to be thinking about the mundane details of living together.

Eventually, we fell asleep on the phone together. In the morning I was awakened by the alarm going off on her side.  We said a quick goodbye and that was it. When people sign up for the
unlimited minutes
calling plan, I doubt the phone company considered someone will keep the connection opened all night during sleep!

Regina texted me that she had picked up Tucker after school. She said she was going to talk with him about me moving in.  Gulp. That’s scary. It seems unfair to burden and impose the parents’ romantic interests onto kids.  I would normally think it is a terrible idea to have a love interest move in so quickly. But in our case, we both sincerely feel that this is it.  Tucker will have the benefit of being adored by both of us. I will always make sure they will have lots of their very own personal time together. I feel that Tucker will really thrive being around the energy that Regina and I create together. In fact, we all will. Each leg of the triangle will balance the other. Still, I bet it will be quite a transition to Tucker that such a big change is coming to his life. It will be big for all of us.

--- THURSDAY APRIL 19 --- Changing bedrooms

Regina talked to Tucker last night. She filled me in on the details today on her break at school.  She said Tucker seemed thrilled that I would be moving in.  She thinks Tucker is very in tune with everything and had expected this might happen.  I agree. Even though things happened very quickly, it seemed like he was acutely aware of how fast things were moving and how much Regina and I are crazy for each other.

Tucker asked where I was going to sleep. She broke the news to him that she and I would be sleeping together. He said he was fine with that, but added that he would still like to sleep with Regina sometimes. That sounds good to me. It’s nice that they have that closeness. Childhood is so short that I don’t fault them for wanting to stretch it out as long as they can.  In just a few short years, he will probably be hanging out with his buddies and embarrassed to have mom around too much. Kids!

Regina and I decided I should hang on to my place for three months as we test the waters of living together. It could either be a lifeboat or a private sex den. Seriously, we both doubted it would have to be a lifeboat out of a bad relationship. We know in our hearts we are made for each other. It’s really exciting to think about sharing a life with her and Tucker.

Since the upcoming weekend was a Tucker weekend, I offered a suggestion for a really fun weekend.  There is a new laser tag facility opening in Santa Rosa and I thought we could try it out and stay the night on the north coast.  Tucker could bring his crazy buddy Jason and they could run around in the waves together, then try out the new laser tag place.  Regina was all over the idea. I booked Saturday night at the Whale Watch Inn on the Sonoma coast. I’d been there before and it has a private beach cove that feels like a remote beach in a romantic movie. Sometimes you can see whales cruising by!

--- FRIDAY APRIL 20 --- Feeling on track

Not much to report, other than I feel really happy about life. I feel even more positive that moving in with Regina is the right thing to do.  She told me she feels the same way.

Today I masturbated to the thought of when Regina was whipping my back. It was really terrifying to see her so engaged in the character that she was not going to let up until her task was complete.

I asked Regina what she thought about dominating me. But she said she never has. She was only whipping me in obeying orders from her Mistress. She said she wouldn’t have initiated that on her own. When I asked her if she has a dominant side, she pleaded for me to understand that she only wants to be owned by me. She wants to be my slave. She wants to serve me and be abused by me.

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SUNDAY APRIL 22 --- Bonding with friends

Yesterday morning I picked up Regina, Tucker, and his friend Jason for the drive up the coast. We busted a move straight up to the North Bay.  I thought it would be fun to stop by Bodega Bay so the boys could run around on the giant cliffs of the Bodega Head overlooking the rocky coast.  We spent about two hours there and everyone had a blast. The boys had plenty of energy to burn after having been trapped in the car so long.

While the boys were climbing a giant tree, Regina and I sat on the cliff looking for whales.  Wouldn’t you know, we weren’t sitting there 5 minutes when we saw 3 whales just a couple hundred feet away. They were spouting and breaching. Awesome. 

Making sure the boys were out of site, we kissed a bit. It was our first intimate contact since Monday morning. Regina has a kiss that touches me to the core. The sun was on us. There were whales. A giant fog bank that looked like a solid wall was approaching from the ocean. The kids were in bliss. Seagulls were everywhere. The universe was telling us we are on track to a celebrating great life together.

After Bodega Head, we stopped for lunch and then went up to the coast to the Whale Watch Inn.   The boys were so excited at the sight of the pristine cove below the balcony. It turns out our room was the same one Lucile Ball stayed in the 1980’s.

We all got ready for the beach as quickly as possible. But Jason (Mr. Hyper) flew down the rickety cliff-dangling stairs and was in the water unsupervised before we had even gotten to the sand ourselves! Crazy monkey.

The sun was still blasting down, but just off shore was that same heavy fog bank. It was 72 degrees, so the kids were fine playing in the water (54 degrees).  But when that fog would roll in, there were going to be some freezing boys.  Tucker and Jason had a skimboard and must have played with that for an hour and half while Regina and I walked along the cove checking out the sea life and tide pools.

It seemed natural to be holding hands with Regina, but for some reason, we refrained from that. It felt like maybe it would have been too gay for a family outing. I know that sounds stupid, but there was something holding us back from being our regular selves.   It may have been easier if we had already been living together and Jason and his parents were already aware that two girlfriends live together with Tucker. It’s stupid how stigmatized that still is in society. The sad fact is, there’s shame around the subject.

But it’s ok. Regina and I both felt the truth of our bond, even without holding hands. When she was bent over looking at a starfish, I pinched her ass! She got mad and started throwing stinky old seaweed all over me. A rogue wave came and knocked us both on our butts as we laughed our heads off.

Just like that, the fog bank smothered the shore. The boys came running over, shivering and practically blue. We threw towels around them and raced up to the room.  We had them jump right into the shower with their trunks on so they could warm up. They were rocking out to Jason’s iPod that was plugged into some little speakers. While they were in the shower, Regina used the opportunity to shock me yet again.  The conversation went like this:

REGINA

I’d be ok with the Mistress having Victoria over while I am in bondage or submission.

ME

What? Where did that come from?

REGINA

I think it would be more humiliating to me. I’ve been getting turned on about it lately.

ME

We had a big issue about that whole thing. Has something changed?

REGINA

I feel safe with you.  I trust you and I trust you with her.

ME

You didn’t before
?

REGINA

I might have been scared you would like her more or see something in her that I don’t have.  It would still kill me if you ever had anything with her, but if she were just your friend who happened to be over while I was being tortured or neglected in bondage, I might find it pretty hot.
But Victoria could never know. You could just tell her I was away. I know you would never make fun of me with her.

ME

Wow. I’m stunned.

REGINA

Would you want to do that?

ME

It would be hot to have my secret pet locked away while I entertained a guest.

REGINA

The whole idea is degrading to me, you two enjoying yourselves while I’m helplessly suffering.

ME

It’s pretty degrading.  But you
deserve that kind of treatment.

We stared at each other with huge gleams of lust in our eyes. With a relationship like this, our sexual relationship could shift and grow forever. We definitely made the right choice to be together. I feel like this same arrangement in a man/woman couple would have ended up with the guy screwing Victoria too.  It would have gotten messed up really fast. But in this case, it’s all about my connection to Regina. The concept was so intriguing that I could barely function the rest of the evening as we went to dinner with the boys. That Regina is my dream.

Later in the evening, we thought it would be fun to show the boys Alfred Hitchcock’s “The Birds,” which was shot in Bodega Bay.  Even though the effects were really dopey, the movie still scared the crap out of the boys. They both agreed it was the scariest movie they’d ever seen.

After the night at the inn, we headed back south, making sure to stop at the laser tag place in Santa Rosa. It was an absolute blast!! Regina, the little vegetarian, turned into a hardcore, competitive commando!  It was us against the boys… and we actually won!!! Ha.  

The whole trip was a great bonding and acquainting experience (especially for Tucker, Regina, and I) as we tried on our new roles together. After I dropped them off home, Regina called me later to say that Tucker literally said, “It’s going to be so great living with Meg.”  My heart melted.

--- MONDAY APRIL 23 --- Blue Monday

Hello Diary, It’s Earth Day! Hello Earth. Thanks for making Regina. Being back in the grind on Monday was a bit of a let down after such a magical weekend trip. Regina said Tucker slept late and had a crying meltdown while getting ready for school. She said she even had a hard time herself.

--- TUESDAY APRIL 24 to MONDAY APRIL 30 --- All in the mind

This week was filled with all kinds of talk and preparations for the big move. We both kept at our jobs and personal tasks and really didn’t make the time to be together much. We both knew that soon we could see each other everyday. Also, it seemed like we were organically each trying to get our heads around who we are as individuals and what it was going to mean to be permanently together.

We showed up to yoga separately on Thursday night. When we got there, I kissed her on the lips and then immediately said, “Can you believe how blue the sky is today?”  During all of the yoga class, the game was on. She was submissive and withdrawn. I loved seeing her like that and watching how the others reacted to her sudden change of personality.  They must have figured she was really moody. Our mats were far from each other in the room. During the entire class, there was this conspicuous sexual anticipation between us.

When class was over, I held her chin firmly and said, “That was some kind of crazy day I had.” She came back to reality, but it took a few seconds for the transition.  It was the first time the Mistress had called the game into action without demanding anything of her. It was hot. Nothing happened, but it was so sexual. She stared at me deeply from 5 inches away and then softly uttered, “You’re fucking sexy.”  SLAP!!! She slapped my face and stormed out coldly.  Wow. This relationship clearly had layers!! I love this woman!!