Authors: Charles de Lint
Snapped back to the world TÃo Goyo brought me to, I sense that the fragile reality of my spirit form is about to dissipate into the air all around me. I forget how magic's all about belief, focus and will. Instead, I panic and rush toward the ground where I'm somehow able to call up my body from the earth, no worse for wear except for a splitting headache. I lie face down on the ground, grateful to still have fingers to dig into the earth and anchor me. Content to press my cheek against the dirt and weeds.
It takes me a few moments to regain my composure enough so that I can sit up. The pain between my temples feels like a snare drum that Marina's using to bang out an energetic drum solo. I shift to my mountain lion shape, then back, and the pain's gone, the same way that bruises and other hurts are healed by the shift, though now I'm hungry. I try to ignore the hollow feeling in my stomach.
With my head clear again, I try to figure out what went wrong. Because I was doing so well â¦
I take a steadying breath and call up the map in my head. It appears as soon as I think of it, and with it are the maps of
the other two worlds I visited, which surprises me. I thought I'd have to work at reclaiming them. I study them from all sides. They're laid on top of each other, but I can see them together, or separately. It's like looking at a three-dimensional tic-tac-toe board, only from different perspectives.
It's weird and takes a bit of adjustment.
Once I figure it out, it's easy to trace the trail of the de Padillas as they moved from world to world.
So what kicked me out when I got to the third one?
The only way to find out is to go back and do it all againâ only this time, pay close attention to everything around me. I also decide to return to human form once I've arrived at each world, which is how I eventually end up standing on the narrow road where I got snapped back to my starting point.
I don't move, anticipating a repeat of what happened before. But this time I remain in place. I hear the night sounds of a forest all around me. My map lets me pinpoint where each comes from. A pair of deer. A hunting fox. Innumerable mice, voles and other rodents going about their business. Expanding the map, I locate the village again. Almost everybody is asleep.
I roll my shoulders to ease my tension.
Okay. Time to move on.
I repeat the whole procedure and end up on a slightly larger road. There's still forest all around me, but the air's cooler and it's closer to dawn than it was in the world I just left. The first hint of the rising sun pinks the eastern horizon.
I follow the de Padillas' scent trail, staying in human form, until it vanishes between one step and the next. I cast around to be sureâon the road, in the overgrown hedges on either side.
But just before I let my body fall from me again, I sense someone approaching.
I hesitate, caught between wanting to move on and curiosity. My head tells me nothing of who this stranger might beâonly of his approach and that he's a cousin. His animal shape is aâ hummingbird? I can deal with a hummingbird cousin. I've got a mountain lion under my skin. I can take a step and be back in the last world I was in. I can drop my body completely and be just a spirit. There's no need for me to feel anxious at all.
So I wait for his approach.
I won't lie. I'm pissed that I'm not the one going over to find Marina, but I can't pretend to know her as well as Des. And if that's what it's going to take for him and Cory to find her, I'll step aside. But not for long. And there'll be hell to pay if they blow it.
Auntie Min tells me what she wants me to do, then she and her crow boys step away into the otherworld, taking the bodies of the dead with them. A few of the crows are still hanging around in the trees.
J-Dog makes a finger gun and pretends to shoot at them.
“Just say the word, bro,” he tells me.
I don't bother to answer. I head back to the clubhouse. I can feel the guys checking with J-Dog before they fall in behind me. When we get inside I pop a beer and sit down on a sofa, prop my legs up on a plastic milk crate and wait until everybody's settled with their beers in hand. Then I tell them what they need to know, about Lenny, and me, and the whole Wildling thing.
“What kind of Wildling are you?” Shorty wants to know.
He's skinny and tall, hair in cornrows, a dagger tat under his left eye. It's ballpoint blueâa jail tat made with a pin and ink
from the cartridge of a pen. He's got his feet up on the same crate I'm using to rest my own.
I boot his feet so they fall off the crate. “Doesn't matter and don't ask,” I tell him.
J-Dog chuckles. “Which means he's some little lame-ass sparrow or lizard or something.”
Close, but I just shrug. Like I'm going to give them the ammo to rag on me for the next ten years. Soon as they know, I'll go from Chaingang to Mouseboy. Yeah, not going to happen. But the guys laugh and a tension I hadn't really registered leaves the room.
Dekker lifts his beer bottle to get my attention.
“Yo, bro,” he says. “Why you let that old lady talk trash to you?”
“Same reason I let my grandma. She deserves the respect.”
“You don't always do what your grandma says. If you'd listened to her, you'd never be riding with us.”
“Some things, nobody else gets to decide for you,” I say.
“Yeah? So's your grandma as much of aâ”
J-Dog points a finger at him. “Careful where you're going with that, homey. She's my grandma, too.” Then he turns to me. “You serious about this, bro? You jump at that old lady's word? You going to get into bed with the goddamn po-leece?”
“It's not like that. It's just using the right tools to do the right thing.”
“Since when do we care about that shit?” Bull asks. He gets his name honestly. He's not tall, but he's built like an ox.
“I'm not asking anybody to step up,” I tell him.
J-Dog shakes his head. “You don't get to make that decision.”
“Yeah, then whoâ”
He cuts me off. Turns to the guys.
“Anybody got more questions?” he asks.
He looks around at them all, and one by one, each shakes his head.
“Chaingang's one of these animal freaks now,” he says, “but he still rides with usâam I right? Once an Ocean Avenue Crip, always.”
“We're family,” Shorty says. “A brotherhood.”
Bull nods. “Nobody walks away and we don't turn our back on any of us.”
Shorty smiles. “Even if he is a sparrow.”
I point a finger at him. “I told you. Don't even startâ”
“Shut up,” J-Dog says. “It's settled. Go talk to the Feds. Figure out what you need. Then you come back and tell us, and we'll take it from there.”
“Sure, butâ”
“End of discussion, bro. You need backup on this?”
I shake my head.
“Then get your butt outta here and do what needs to be done.”
I step outside and call the number that Auntie Min gave meâI guess she got it from Josh or Des, though knowing her, she could have just pulled it out of her ass. It rings once, then I hear Agent Solana's voice.
I name a place, then add, “Be there. I'm on my way.”
I hang up before he can ask his first question.
I'm waiting at the picnic table on the beach where Donalita first took me to see Coryâman, was that only yesterday? The weather's niceâwarm and sunny, with a light breeze coming in from the ocean, so the usual crowd's out. Surfers waiting on the swells that they'll ride in to shore. Dog walkers. Joggers. Families. Kids playing volleyball or just chilling. I get an ache thinking about how Marina would love to be out there on her board.
I hardly get settled on the bench before a dark sedan pulls into the parking space beside my Harley. I watch the two FBI agents get out and look around themselves, assessing the situation. The lot's about two-thirds full and between the cars and the people, there's plenty to check out. They're studying every vehicle and every person with suspicion. When they see me, they approach from either side, hands under their coats, ready to draw their sidearms at the first hint of danger.
I stay where I am, palms flat on the table, and wait. The last thing anybody wants is a firestorm on a crowded beach.
“You know what we do with assholes who yank our chain?” Matteson says when he finally reaches the table.
He leans on the slats, towering over me. I want to grab his throat and show him exactly who's the asshole, but I let it ride. For now.
“No,” I say, keeping my voice mild, “but I'm sure you're dying to tell me. But if I were you? I'd hear me out before running off at the mouth.”
Solana is still scanning the beach, the parking lot, like he's expecting an ambush.
“Sure, tough guy,” Matteson says. “So start talking before we pull you in.”
Good luck with that, I want to say. Yeah, it could play out
that way. He takes me in, J-Dog's lawyer will bust me out within the hour. But that won't get us anywhere.
So I ignore him. Instead, I turn to Solana and jerk a thumb in his partner's direction.
“How much does he know?” I ask.
“Know about what?” Matteson cuts in.
“Everything,” Solana says.
“Is that right?” I say.
Which begs the question, how much does Solana really know? But hey, not my problem. I'm just the messenger today. The elders want to keep secrets, they should let me know which ones.
So I lay it out for them with a few edits. I leave out that Josh killed Vincenzo; I just say that we found out the condor dude is dead. I don't bring up how I had the dog men ambushedâ their bodies are gone now, anyway. And I don't talk about my relationship with Marina.
Mainly, I deliver Auntie Min's warning that Congressman Householderâand maybe a bunch of innocent bystandersâis going to end up dead unless we protect him at his damn anti-Wildlings rally this Saturday.
Matteson sits down on the bench opposite me. “You know what this sounds like, right?” he says. “I mean, how do we know you're not setting this up to get some intel on the congressman's schedule?”
“You don't. But we both know that asshole never shuts up about his freaking save-the-poor-humans rally. It's as public as you can get.”
“So now what?” Matteson asks. “Are we supposed to give you a merit badge, or a get-out-of-jail-free card?”
I'd like to tell him where to shove his merit badge, but I clamp it down. “You can do whatever you want,” I say. “I just passed along a message.”
“We can still run you in,” Matteson says.
I ignore him again and turn my attention to Solana. “Auntie Min thought you might feel that way. She told me to say, âAlejandro Maria Solana, I bid you to help this man, by my word and the will of the Halcón Pueblo.'”
Matteson stares up at Solana. “Your middle name is
Maria
?”
Solana ignores him, his gaze steady on my own. “What does she want from me?”
“Jesus,” Matteson says. “You're not actually going to listen to thisâ”
Solana holds his palm up and Matteson shuts his trap. There's a long pause, then Solana turns to him and says, “Maybe you should walk away. Right now, while you still can. What you don't know, they can't hold you responsible for.”
Matteson sits up straighter, squaring his shoulders. “That's what you want? You'd swap your partner for this low-life?”
“Hey. Sitting right here,” I say. But I might as well be on the moon, for all the attention they're paying me.
Solana is shaking his head. “If this goes bad, I don't want to drag you down with me.”
“And if it was me, telling you to walk away?” Matteson asks.
“I wouldn't listen.”
“Exactly. If you're in, I'm in. End of discussion.”
“Anybody ever tell you two that you're like an old married couple?” I ask.
They both look at me.
“Shut up,” Matteson says.
He puts his elbows on the table and studies me for a moment. “So Josh up and left,” he says. “Of his own accord.”
“That's how the signs read.”
“His poor mother,” Matteson says. “That lady's already been put through the mill. You'd think he'd at least say goodbye before screwing off.”
I guess that means they went to check on her, but I'm not going to ask. Instead I just shrug. “Not my business.”
“And you say Marina Lopez has gone missing?”
I nod.
“She's not the only one,” Matteson says. “We've got missing persons reports on almost a dozen kids in the past few weeksâ all of them with some kind of Wildling connection. And don't even start trying to tell me that you and your friends aren't Wildlings, too.”
“I knew there were kids who went AWOL,” I say, “but I just thought they were runaways, or that you guys grabbed them.”
“We don't
grab
people,” Matteson says. “Believe it or not, we've been trying to help these kids. The whole world is watching this shit go down. Half the press thinks this whole Wildlings thing is some elaborate scam created with special effects, but they're still on our chief like flies on shit. We couldn't kidnap kids even if we wanted to.”