Orkney Twilight
Authors: Clare Carson
For Andy, Eva and Rosa
‘It is the business of agent runners to turn themselves into legends,’ Smiley began, rather as if he were delivering a trainee lecture at the Nursery. ‘They do this first to impress their agents. Later they try it out on their colleagues and in my personal experience they make rare assess of themselves in consequence. A few go as far as to try it on themselves. Those are the charlatans and they must be got rid of quickly, there’s no other way.’
Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy
John le Carre
Hodder and Stoughton 1974
21st June 1973
The day Sam realized that her father wasn’t quite what he appeared to be was one of those June days when the unexpected heat was making everything shimmer like a mirage. Nothing was quite what it seemed. From where she was standing, Sam could see the gleaming cranes and gantries of Tilbury towering like an industrial Oz above the muddy flatlands of Essex, hoists and winches moving magically as if nudged by some unseen hand, giant rusting containers floating weightlessly in the air and, running through it all, the amber pathway of the Thames heading enticingly towards the far horizon. It was like a belated seventh birthday treat. She hadn’t expected all this when she had conjured up the list of vague symptoms carefully calibrated to be too bad for school but not quite bad enough for a doctor’s appointment. Liz, for once, had lost her rag.
‘She is your daughter too, you know,’ Liz had shouted up the stairs. ‘I can’t take her with me again. I’m lecturing today. She’ll have to go with you.’
Jim had shouted back down that there was no way he was going to take her to work with him, it wasn’t allowed, it was against the rules. But Liz didn’t want to know, she didn’t care about him and his stupid work and what was allowed and what wasn’t, she had a job to do too and she wanted to get on with it. Liz yelled that as far as she could tell they made their fucking rules up as they went along anyway, and then slammed the door on her way out.
So there she was at Tilbury docks, happily ensconced in Jim’s crow’s nest office, suspended in the scaffolding high up in the stratospheric blue of the sky.
‘Don’t touch anything,’ Jim had said, pacing the restricted rectangle of grey-marbled linoleum, not bothering to disguise his irritation at her presence. She was sitting on his fancy swivel chair, kicking her legs back and forth, making the seat twist around and around.
He had watched her impatiently with his steely blue eyes, flicked his wrist, checked his watch, and pointed out the window. ‘Look. A kestrel. There’s a pair of them nesting up on one of the gantries. It must be hunting for voles to feed the chicks. Keep your eyes peeled and you might see it dive. Don’t blink or you’ll miss it going in for the kill.’
She had followed the point of his finger and located a distant tawny cruciform speck; an angel of death hovering motionless apart from the just perceptible flutter of its gold-flecked wings. As she stared through the glass, she sensed Jim disappearing through the door behind. Alone in his office now, she watched the kestrel abandoning whatever prey had been in its sights and looping and looping on a rising warm thermal and she imagined she was the falcon soaring high above the river, surveying the ant-like dockers patrolling the walkways far below. Seeking out the secrets of Tilbury’s hinterland. She glanced down, searching for the distinctive curly black mop-top of Jim’s head in the sea of steel and concrete, but he had vanished and, while she searched vainly for traces of her father, she wondered what he was doing here anyway. What was his part in all of this? What exactly was his job? He had come to work that morning in his regular brown suit, his big-collared shirt unbuttoned at the neck and his blue tie knotted at half-mast. He didn’t bother with stuffy formalities. He was ready to do business. Yet now she was in his workplace she couldn’t quite make sense of it all, couldn’t see what his business was, couldn’t fathom what it was he did here all day. Nothing quite tallied with the story she had been told. She looked over her shoulder at his tiny office: locked filing cabinets, avocado Olivetti typewriter, piles of envelopes, paper, notebooks, boxes of bulldog clips, rubber bands of assorted sizes. The hard glare of the sun revealed the icing of dust covering all of his accoutrements. She surveyed the room thoughtfully and in her head she itemized what was there, what she had expected to find, what was missing.
‘Dad,’ she said after he had returned from his forty-minute mystery jaunt, ‘What do you do here?’
He cocked one eyebrow. ‘A bit of this, a bit of that.’
‘But what sort of thing?’
‘Keeping an eye on the boats coming in and going out.’
‘Why?’
‘Why not?’
She tried a different tack. ‘Where do the boats come from?’
‘All over. North America, Scandinavia. Sometimes Russia.’ He put his hands behind his back and stared out of the window. ‘The third secretary. It’s always the third secretary.’
The third secretary? What was he going on about? She glanced at Jim, but he seemed distracted and she decided she could take a risk, ignore his instruction not to touch anything, reached for the enticingly huge and heavy metal Sellotape dispenser, pulled off a long stretch and scrunched it in her hand. Forming the sticky ribbon into the shape of an ant. She peeked furtively at her father while she worked, half expecting him to shout at her, tell her to stop being so wasteful, to leave his things alone, but he wasn’t taking any notice of her craft activities. Jim was still eyeing the horizon, lips moving silently, forming unreadable words, incanting some arcane spell. She pulled off another piece of tape.
The second ant had been completed and she was beginning to think he really would spend the rest of the day doing nothing but staring and pacing when the walkie-talkie lurking on top of a filing cabinet crackled into life. He leaped over, grabbed it, retreated to a corner and proceeded to have a conversation with an unseen person somewhere. It was difficult to make out what he was saying. She could hear a lot of swearing and a lot of laughing and she vaguely recognized some of the strange words he uttered – names, foreign names – but they didn’t form understandable sentences. None of it really made any sense. She wondered whether he was just mucking about. He was always mucking about.
‘Dad,’ she said, when he had replaced the radio and they were standing together by the window, watching the moving dots on the ground, ‘who were you talking to?’
‘Harry.’
Harry. Of course. It would be. Harry was Jim’s mate. Harry had a broken nose, came from Wales and you would have to be a bit of a thicko even to think about crossing him. She liked Harry. She knew him quite well because he had a habit of turning up at their house late with Jim, kipping on their settee, reeking of what she would one day identify as the smoky perfume of the pub.
‘Does Harry work here too?’
Jim grunted confirmation before he turned and grinned in his skew-whiff sort of way that told her he was about to embark on one of his extended jokes and she had better look out for her cues if she wanted to keep up with him.
‘Harry is the second man at Tilbury,’ he said.
She asked the obvious. ‘Well, if Harry is the second man, who is the first man?’
‘Me, of course. I’m the first man. And Harry is my second man.’
‘Is there anybody else?’
‘Nope. There are only two of us; it’s just Harry and me.’
She frowned; she was sure there should have been more of them.
He glanced at her slyly. ‘Although…’
‘What?’
‘Well… I do sometimes think we could do with the help of an extra set of eyes. A third man.’
She shrugged, reached for the Sellotape dispenser and carried on with her sculpting while he pondered the ceiling.
Eventually he said, ‘You know, I think you could be quite good at this game.’
Her pale eyebrows shot up, surprised by his comment. Was this still part of the joke or something else, something serious?
He leaned against a filing cabinet. ‘You see, you’re not quite as stupid as you look. You sit around hardly saying a word, acting as if you wouldn’t harm a fly. Unthreatening. Nobody notices you. Yet you don’t miss a thing. You can spot the patterns, the anomalies. Work out what’s going on. I suspect you’ve got a natural talent for it. You must have inherited it from me.’
He tilted his head to one side as if he were making an enquiry rather than issuing a statement.
‘But Dad, everybody notices you,’ she said, without thinking. He laughed, stood in front of her now, placed the tips of his fingers on the desk.
‘Ah. Good point. The thing is, there are two ways of playing this game.’ He moved forwards, blocking the window view, shards of sun radiating like a halo around the darkened outline of his head. ‘You can make yourself invisible and hide in the shadows or you can do the opposite, make your presence known, dare anybody to challenge you. Hide in the light.’
Uncertain whether a response was required, she half smiled a doubtful sort of smile.
Jim stroked his chin with his thumb and index finger. ‘I wonder… could you do it?’
‘Do what?’
‘Do you think you could be trusted to be the third man?’
She hesitated, running through his question in her head warily, calculating the angles, trying to work out how to join in with his banter, play along.
‘Yes,’ she said decisively. ‘I could be trusted to be the third man.’
‘Are you sure about that?’ he demanded sharply.
Perhaps she had given the wrong response, made a serious mistake and irritated him with her reply. ‘Maybe it’s better if I’m not the third man then. I don’t think it’s a good idea.’
‘No, I’ve made my decision. You are the third man. You can’t sit around here all day abusing my stationery supplies. You’ve got to do something useful. You’re the third man whether you like it or not.’
‘But Dad—’
‘No good getting the heebie-jeebies about it now. Too late.’ He guffawed maniacally and suddenly he was off, prancing around the cramped space of the tiny office, a carousing rabble-rouser, whirling his arms, flicking up envelopes and scraps of paper with his outstretched fingertips, creating an unseasonal snowstorm, singing ‘Three Men Went to Mow’, wildly out of tune.
