Authors: Janet Tanner
âInvalided?'
The Comtesse had Elise's full attention now. âBut he looks â¦' â she broke off, picturing the spare muscular frame and the deeply tanned face â â in the best of health,' she concluded feebly.
The Comtesse smiled. â I could not agree with you more. Apparently, however, he was seriously wounded when his plane crashed last autumn â he was a fighter pilot, one of ââ the Few'' as they so picturesquely call them. He smashed his leg and damaged the tendons in his right hand and is no longer fit to fly a Spitfire. So they are sending him home.'
âI see.' Elise found herself remembering the limp she had noticed almost unconsciously and also the slightly awkward way he handled his cigarette. Standards were high for RAF fighter pilots, she knew, but she had not realised how high. â I would have thought in time of war they could have found him something else to do. But then I suppose if he's typical of the Brittains, he can manage to extricate himself from anything he finds unpleasant.'
âYou do despise the family, do you not, ma chère? If you have had bad dealings with them, I suppose that is only natural. And yes, I do think he would make a very bad enemy. But ah, Elise, to have such a man on your side â it is worth swallowing a little pride for, I think?'
There was a faraway look in the china blue eyes and in spite of her anxiety Elise laughed.
âComtesse â I believe you've taken a fancy to him.'
âAnd why not? He is the most attractive man I have seen in a long, longtime. If I were not an old woman â¦'
â
Old
, Comtesse? You? Never!'
âAh yes, it is so, I'm afraid. The days have gone when I would have danced until dawn with a man like that until he drank champagne for breakfast from my slipper. But you, Elise â¦' Her glance was speculative.
âYou forget I am a wife and mother,' Elise said and wondered why she had stated it with such vehemence. âI cannot dance till dawn either. And if it were not for my husband and child, I would never have needed to seek Mr Brittain's company in the first place.'
âTrue, true!' the Comtesse conceded. âAnd now I have to meet my friend Lady Mortimer for a little chat and the rest we old women cannot do without. âBut perhaps you will meet me in the lounge for tea? By then you may have news. You don't mind if I leave you now?'
âOf course not.'
In one respect Elise preferred to be alone rather than having to make conversation when her mind was chasing in circles and she was tense with waiting; but at least when the Comtesse was there the minutes passed unnoticed, and when at four the old Frenchwoman arrived she was already sitting in the lounge and watching the door with deceptive composure.
If only Gerald Brittain returned with good news before Gordon's promised phone call came through! she thought. If only she was able to tell him that at last she was on her way! But if the answer was no, or if the news of Alex was bad â¦
Her stomach seemed to fold up and her hands clenched. The Comtesse, noticing, patted her arm comfortingly.
âWorrying will do no good, ma chère. Have some tea. A cucumber sandwich, perhaps?'
âNo, thank you.' Elise could not face the thought of food.
Tea was brought and poured and the two women sat pretending to drink it while the minutes slipped slowly past.
âIf he had been able to arrange anything, surely he would have been back by now?' Elise said. âHe has probably encountered the same blank wall that I did and doesn't want to face me and admit it.'
âPerhaps we were wrong in thinking it was today he said he would try.'
âPerhaps we were wrong in thinking he would try at all!' The despair had begun creeping up on her like a black fog once more. âAfter all. Why should he?'
âWhy, indeed?'
From where she sat the Comtesse had the best view of the lobby and she stiffened suddenly. âAh, Monsieur Brittain returns! He is here now, ma chère.'
All her waiting seemed to crystallise into that one moment and Elise found herself trembling violently â the shivering seemed to have got into her very bones.
He won't know we're here, she thought foolishly, and almost as if he had read her thoughts, she saw him turn his head and look directly over at them.
âCourage, ma chère.' The Comtesse's fingers, long and delicate, gripped Elise's wrist with incredible strength. âHe has seen us. He comes now.'
The breath was tight in her throat; this was no different from the countless other times when she had waited for a reply to her request, she told herself, yet she knew it was not true. This
was
different. It was a chance â a possibility. The last chance perhaps. And yet ⦠oh God, he looked so stern â so serious.
I can't bear it, Elise thought, I can!t bear to hear him say no like all the others â¦
But aloud she said, âMr Brittain.'
âMrs Sanderson.' He stood looking down at her with that infuriating imperturbability. He was going to extract the last ounce of flesh in revenge for her snubbing him, she thought.
âDid you manage to â¦' Her voice tailed away.
âOf course.'One corner of his mouth moved, the only visible sign that he was actually rather pleased with himself. âI've arranged a passage for you: You'll be on a ship called the
Stranraer
â the same ship I'm travelling on â as far as Bombay. There will be a change after that, but at the moment I'm not quite sure what the arrangements will be. The
Stranraer
used to be a cruise liner, by the way, but now it's a troop-ship, so it won't be quite what you're used to, I'm afraid.'
She didn't even notice the sarcasm. She was trembling even more violently now as disbelief faded and relief began to rush in.
âBut how? How did you manage it?' That was not what she had meant to say at all.
âMa chère!' the Comtesse chided her.
âIt's all right, it's no secret. I told them that Mrs Sanderson's presence in Hong Kong was absolutely vital to the war effort. It seemed to work.' He turned to Elise. âFor the record I told them that you were a secretary with your husband's electronics firm and that it couldn't function properly without you. If anyone asks you, for God's sake keep the story going or they will have you off that ship so fast your feet won't touch the gangplank.'
âOf course.' Slowly it was filtering through. âWhen are we going â where do we sail from?'
âWe sail tomorrow from Suez. I'm going down by train, leaving Cairo at ten in the morning. You can travel with me if you like.'
âTen â yes! Oh, good heavens! There must be a thousand and one things I have to do.'
âBut first, ma chère, you will take a cup of this most delicious tea. Monsieur Brittain â can I persuade you to join us?'
He shook his head; there was a wicked twinkle in his eyes.
âThank you, Comtesse, but no. And Mrs Sanderson, if I may say so, looks as if she could do with something a great deal stronger than tea.'
She felt the colour begin to rise in her cheeks, then suddenly she was laughing. It seemed a lifetime since she had last laughed.
âMrs Sanderson feels quite drunk already. Mr Brittain, I don't know how to thank you.'
He straightened, removing his hands from his pockets and smoothing down his uniform jacket.
âIt's all right. I'll see you at the station tomorrow, just before ten.'
He turned and crossed the lounge, but this time Elise did not watch him go. Joy and relief were bubbling up through every pore, catching her unawares, tossing and spinning her, making her laughter come again in quick short gasps.
âOh, Comtesse â Comtesse!'
âDid I not tell you Monsieur Brittain is quite a man?' She leaned over, touching Elise's hand lightly. âI shall miss you, ma chère. But when this war is over, you will come to visit me in my beloved France, will you not? And you will bring with you the little one? I would like to see him. Do you promise this to an old woman?'
âOf course I promise. Oh, Comtesse â¦'
âCalm down now and drink your tea. Before leaving, ma chère, you have much to do.'
It was true: now that she knew she was to leave early the next morning Elise's head swam with all she had to attend to.
She asked Reception to prepare her account and a maid arrived to pack her things into the set of luxurious Moodler cases which Gordon had given her for the trip.
But beneath the relief and excitement that came from knowing that at last she was going home, Elise was conscious of a niggle of foreboding. She had had no news yet today about Alex and was almost afraid to allow herself to become too ecstatic in case it tempted fate.
Too often the world worked that way, she thought, raising you up only to knock you down. She was going home, but the journey would take her six weeks at least and if Alex were really ill six weeks could be too long.
Anxiety gnawed at her again and she reached for the telephone. She wouldn't wait for Gordon to call her â she would place the call herself.
But even so it was an hour before the connection was made. As the telephone shrilled she sat up eagerly.
âHello? Gordon?'
âMrs Sanderson, is that you?' The voice was light, with the unmistakable Asian lilt. âThis is Su Ming here.'
Su Ming! Across the miles Elise pictured the Chinese amah â small and neat, her round face framed by shining black hair, her slanting eyes dark and alert.
âIs Mr Sanderson there, Su Ming?'
âNo. I am sorry, he is not. He had to go out.'
âOh.' Her heart sank. âHow is Alex, Su Ming?'
âHe is OK.'
âWhat do you mean â OK? Mr Sanderson told me yesterday that he was ill.'
âOh, that.' A pause. âI thought he said not to worry you, Mrs Sanderson.'
âBut I
am
worried. How is he, Su Ming?' Her voice was sharp. I'm his mother, for God's sake! she wanted to add.
âHe is the same. Dr Cromer says we must wait.'
âThat was what he said yesterday. Hasn't he been today?'
âYes. That is what he said today.'
Tight strung as she was, Elise felt as if she was suffocating in cotton wool. It seemed she would have to leave in the morning without further news. How many days would it be before she could telephone again? As long as it would take to teach their first port of call, she supposed. With a jarring shock she realised how little she knew about the voyage ahead of her.
âListen, Su Ming, when Mr Sanderson gets back will you be sure to ask him to call me?'
âHe said he may be very late, Mrs Sanderson. He tried to telephone you before he went out, but there were no lines.'
Again the feeling of claustrophobia attacked Elise; again she pushed it aside. She had put up with the constant lack of communication for seven months, but it wouldn't be necessary for much longer. Tomorrow she was going home!
âIn case he can't get through, will you please tell him I'm leaving Cairo tomorrow?' she said. âI'll be in touch again as soon as I can.'
âYou have a passage?' Su Ming sounded surprised.
âYes.' Elise left it at that. She could picture Gordon's face when she told him it was thanks to a Brittain that she was on her way â it would not be a pretty sight. âWill you tell him, please, Su Ming?'
âYes.'
âAnd hug Alex for me.'
âYes, of course.'
âGoodnight, Su Ming.'
Elise hoped that Gordon would manage to get through before she left Cairo, but although she stayed close to the telephone all evening it did not ring and at last she was forced to accept the fact that she would have to leave without the comfort of his voice and without further news of Alex.
But at least she
was
leaving. That, she told herself, was the most important thing. For about six weeks she would be utterly cut off while she was travelling, but then no more phone calls, no more waiting for lines that were busy or distorted, no more asking someone else to kiss her son goodnight.
And no more sleeping alone.
She looked at the bed, turned down by the maid to reveal sheets of cream silk; then at the nightgown of coffee-coloured silk spread out ready for her, and wished the thought held more promise.
But in this life one could not have everything.
And I have more than my share, thought Elise.
In the entrance to Cairo's main railway station, Gerald Brittain stood watching the street with barely concealed impatience.
It was five minutes to ten. Trains in this part of the world were not noted for their punctuality, but if this one left on time Elise Sanderson would not be on it.
Damn it, where was the woman? She had apparently been so anxious for her passage to Hong Kong he had felt obliged to do what he could to help her; yet she couldn't even get herself to the station on time.
It was typical of her kind, he thought with growing annoyance. A spoilt little rich girl unable to do anything for herself. At home in Hong Kong she was probably waited on hand and foot by coolies and amahs. Now, without anyone to run behind her, a simple journey across Cairo to reach the railway station on time was beyond her. Then a taxi drew up at the station entrance and as the driver opened the door he saw a pair of long legs, slim and bare, emerge.
At last!
He started to move forward to tell her to hurry up, but she was not moving away from the taxi. Instead she stood back while the driver removed a trunk and two suitcases, then he dived back inside sweating and heaving.
âWhat the â¦?' He broke off, staring in amazement as something vaguely trunk-shaped was finally extricated from the taxi. Large, clearly heavy, a solid looking object, it stood there in the road by her suitcases. A porter anxious for a tip moved forward and she began issuing instructions and pointing towards the station.
Leaving the sheltering façade, he strode across the forecourt as fast as his injured leg would take him. She half turned, saw him, smiled vaguely and went on speaking to the porter.