Authors: Stephen R. Donaldson
But the implications of such constancy eventually cast Linden back upon herself; and as the afternoon waned, her gloom returned. Her senses were growing steadily more attuned to the Giantship. She could read the movements and mirth of the Giants passing through the decks below her; with effort, she could estimate the number of people in Foodfendhall, the midship housing. This should have eased her. Everything she consciously felt was redolent with clean strength and good humor. And yet her darkness thickened along the slow expansion of her range.
Again she was troubled by the sensation that her mood grew from an external source—from some fatal flaw or ill in the Giantship. Yet she could not disentangle that sensation from her personal response. She had spent too much of her life in this oppression to think seriously that it could be blamed on anything outside herself. Gibbon had not created her blackness: he had only given her a glimpse of its meaning. But familiarity did not make it more bearable.
When the call for supper came, she resisted her depression to answer it. Covenant did not hesitate; and she meant to follow him to the ends of the Earth if necessary to learn the kind of courage which made him forever active against his doom. Beneath his surface, leprosy slept and Lord Foul’s venom awaited the opportunity to work its intended desecration. Yet he seemed equal to his plight, more than equal to it. He did not suffer from the particular fear which had
paralyzed her in the face of Joan’s possession, Marid’s monstrous ill, Gibbon-Raver’s horror. But for that very reason she was determined to accompany him until she had found his answer. Hastening to his side, she went with him toward Foodfendhall.
However, as night gathered over the decks, her uneasiness mounted. The setting of the sun left her exposed to a stalking peril. In the eating-hall, she was crowded among Giants whose appetites radiated vitality; but she could barely force food past the thickness of defeat in her throat, although she had not had a meal since that morning. Steaming stew, cakes full of honey, dried fruit: her black mood made such things vaguely nauseating.
Soon afterward, Honninscrave ordered the sails shortened for the night; and the time came for tales. The Giants responded eagerly, gathering on the afterdeck and in the shrouds of the aftermast so that the First and Covenant could speak to them from the wheeldeck. Their love of tales was plain in them—a love which made them appear childlike, and yet also gave them a precious and encompassing courage. And Covenant went aft to meet them as though this, too, were something he already knew how to bear. But Linden had reached the limit of her endurance. Above the masts, the stars appeared disconsolate in their immense isolation. The noises of the ship—the creak of the rigging, the uncertainty of the sails whenever the wind shifted, the protest of the waves as the
dromond
shouldered through them—sounded like pre-echoes of anger or grief. And she had already heard many stories—the tales of the Earth’s creation, of Kevin Landwaster’s despair, of Covenant’s victory. She was not ready for any more.
Instead she forced herself to go back to her cabin. Down into the darkness rather than away from it.
She found that in her absence the old furniture had been replaced with chairs and a table more to her size; and a stepladder had been provided to give her easier access to the hammock. But this courtesy did not relieve her. Still the oppression seeped into her from the stone of the
dromond
. Even after she threw open the port, letting in the wind and the sounds of the Sea under the ship’s heel, the chamber’s ambience remained viscid, comfortless. When she mustered the courage to extinguish her lantern, the dark concentrated inward on her, hinting at malice.
I’m going crazy. Despite its special texture, the granite around her began to feel like the walls of Revelstone, careless and unyielding. Memories of her parents gnawed at the edges of her brain.
Have committed murder
. Going crazy. The blood on her hands was as intimate as any Covenant had ever shed.
She could hear the Giants singing overhead, though the noise of the Sea obscured their words. But she fought her impulse to flee the cabin, run back to the misleading security of the assemblage. Instead she followed the faint scent of
diamondraught
until she found a flask of the potent Giantish liquor on her table. Then she hesitated.
Diamondraught
was an effective healer and roborant, as she knew from personal experience; but it was also strongly soporific. She hesitated because she was afraid of sleep, afraid that slumber represented another flight from something she needed desperately to confront and master. But she had faced these moods often enough in the past, endured them until she had wanted to wail like a lost child—and what had she ever accomplished by it? Estimating the effect of the
diamondraught
, she took two small swallows. Then she climbed into the hammock, pulled a blanket over herself to help her nerves feel less exposed, and tried
to relax. Before she was able to unknot her muscles, the sea-sway of the
dromond
lifted her into slumber.
For a time, the world of her unconsciousness was blissfully empty. She rode long slow combers of sleep on a journey from nowhere into nowhere and suffered no harm. But gradually the night became the night of the woods behind Haven Farm, and ahead of her burned the fire of invocation to Lord Foul. Joan lay there, possessed by a cruelty so acute that it stunned Linden to the soul. Then Covenant took Joan’s place, and Linden broke free, began running down the hillside to save him, forever running down the hillside to save him and never able to reach him, never able to stop the astonishing violence which drove the knife into his chest. It pierced him whitely, like an evil and tremendous fang. When she reached him, blood was gushing from the wound—more blood than she had ever seen in her life. Impossible that one body held so much blood! It welled out of him as if any number of people had been slain with that one blow.
She could not stop it. Her hands were too small to cover the wound. She had left her medical bag in her car. Feverishly she tore off her shirt to try to staunch the flow, leaving herself naked and defenseless; but the flannel was instantly soaked with blood, useless. Blood slicked her breasts and thighs as she strove to save his life and could not. Despite every exigency of her training and self-mortification, she could not stop that red stream. The firelight mocked her. The wound was growing.
In moments, it became as wide as his chest. Its violence ate at his tissues like venom. Her hands still clutched the futile sop of her shirt, still madly trying to exert pressure to plug the well; but it went on expanding until her arms were lost in him to the elbows. Blood poured over her thighs like the ichor of the world. She was hanging from the edge by her chest, with her arms extended into the red maw as if she were diving to her death. And the wound continued to widen. Soon it was larger than the stone on which Covenant had fallen, larger than the hollow in the woods.
Then with a shock of recognition she saw that the wound was more than a knife-thrust in his chest: it was a stab to the very heart of the Land. The hole had become a pit before her, and its edge was a sodden hillside, and the blood spewing over her was the life of the Earth. The Land was bleeding to death. Before she could even cry out, she was swept away across the murdered body of the ground. She had no way to save herself from drowning.
The turbulence began to buffet her methodically. The hot fluid made her throat raw, burned her voice out of her. She was helpless and lost. Her mere flesh could not endure or oppose such an atrocity. Better if she had never tried to help Covenant, never tried to staunch his wound. This would never have happened if she had accepted her paralysis and simply let him die.
But the shaking of her shoulders and the light slapping across her face insisted that she had no choice. The rhythm became more personal; by degrees, it dragged her from her
diamondraught
-sopor. When she wrenched her eyes open, the moonlight from the open port limned Cail’s visage. He stood on the stepladder so that he could reach her to awaken her. Her throat was sore, and the cabin still echoed her screaming.
“Cail!” she gasped. Oh my God!
“Your sleep was troubled.” His voice was as flat as his mien. “The Giants say their
diamondraught
does not act thus.”
“No.” She struggled to sit up, fought for self-possession. Images of nightmare flared across her mind; but behind them the mood in which she had gone to sleep had taken on a new significance. “Get Covenant.”
“The ur-Lord rests,” he replied inflectionlessly.
Impelled by urgency, Linden flung herself over the edge of the hammock, forced Cail to catch her and lower her to the floor. “
Get
him.” Before the
Haruchai
could respond, she rushed to the door.
In the lantern-lit companionway, she almost collided with Seadreamer. The mute Giant was approaching her cabin as if he had heard her cries. For an instant, she was stopped by the similarity between her nightmare and the vision which had reft him of his voice—a vision so powerful that it had compelled his people to launch a Search for the wound which threatened the Earth. But she had no time. The ship was in danger! Sprinting past him, she leaped for the ladder.
When she reached open air, she was in the shadow of the wheeldeck as the moon sank toward setting. Several Giants were silhouetted above her. Heaving herself up the high stairs, she confronted the Storesmaster, a Giant holding Shipsheartthew, and two or three companions. Her chest strained to control her fear as she demanded, “Get the First.”
The Storesmaster, a woman named Heft Galewrath, had a bulky frame tending toward fat which gave her an appearance of stolidity; but she wasted no time on questions or hesitancy. With a nod to one of her companions, she said simply, “Summon the First. And the Master.” The crewmember obeyed at once.
As Linden regained her breath, she became aware that Cail was beside her. She did not ask him if he had called Covenant. The pale scar which marked his left arm from shoulder to elbow had been given him by a Courser-spur aimed at her. It seemed to refute any doubt of him.
Then Covenant came up the stairs, with Brinn at his back. He looked disheveled and groggy in the moonlight; but his voice was tight as he began, “Linden—?” She gestured him silent, knotted her fists to retain her fragile grip on herself. He turned to Cail; but before Covenant could phrase a question, Honninscrave arrived with his beard thrust forward like a challenge to any danger threatening his vessel. The First was close behind him.
Linden faced them all, forestalled anything they might ask. Her voice shook.
“There’s a Raver on this ship.”
Her words stunned the night. Everything was stricken into silence. Then Covenant asked, “Are you sure?” His question appeared to make no sound.
The First overrode him. “What is this ‘Raver?’ ” The metal of her tone was like an upraised sword.
One of the sails retorted dully in its gear as the wind changed slightly. The deck tilted. The Storesmaster called softly aloft for adjustments to be made in the canvas. Starfare’s Gem righted its tack. Linden braced her legs against the ship’s movement and hugged the distress in her stomach, concentrating on Covenant.
“Of course I’m sure.” She could not suppress her trembling. “I can feel it.” The message in her nerves was as vivid as lightning. “At first I didn’t know what it was. I’ve felt like this before. Before we came here.” She was dismayed by the implications of what she was saying—by the similarity between her old black moods and the taste of a Raver. But she compelled herself to go on. “But I was looking for the wrong thing. It’s on this ship. Hiding. That’s why I didn’t
understand sooner.” As her throat tightened, her voice rose toward shrillness. “On this ship.”
Covenant came forward, gripped her shoulders as if to prevent her from hysteria. “Where is it?”
Honninscrave cut off Covenant’s question. “
What
is it? I am the Master of Starfare’s Gem. I must know the peril.”
Linden ignored Honninscrave. She was focused on Covenant, clinching him for strength. “I can’t tell.” And to defend him. Gibbon-Raver had said to her,
You are being forged
. She, not Covenant. But every attack on her had proved to be a feint. “Somewhere below.”
At once, he swung away from her, started toward the stairs. Over his shoulder, he called, “Come on. Help me find it.”
“Are you crazy?”
Surprise and distress wrung the cry from her. “Why do you think it’s
here
?”
He stopped, faced her again. But his visage was obscure in the moonlight. She could see only the waves of vehemence radiating from his bones. He had accepted his power and meant to use it.
“Linden Avery,” said the First grimly. “We know nothing of this Raver. You must tell us what it is.”
Linden’s voice reached out to Covenant in supplication, asking him not to expose himself to this danger. “Didn’t you tell them about The Grieve? About the Giant-Raver who killed all those—?” Her throat knotted, silencing her involuntarily.
“No.” Covenant returned to stand near her, and a gentler emanation came from him in answer to her fear. “Pitchwife told that story. In
Coercri
I talked about the Giant-Raver. But I never described what it was.”
He turned to the First and Honninscrave. “I told you about Lord Foul. The Despiser. But I didn’t know I needed to tell you about the Ravers. They’re his three highest servants. They don’t have bodies of their own, so they work by taking over other beings. Possessing them.” The blood in his tone smelled of Joan—and of other people Linden did not know.
“The old Lords used to say that no Giant or
Haruchai
could be mastered by a Raver. But
turiya
Herem had a fragment of the Illearth Stone. That gave it the power to possess a Giant. It was the one we saw in
Coercri
. Butchering the Unhomed.”
“Very well.” The First nodded. “So much at least is known to us, then. But why has this evil come among us? Does it seek to prevent our quest? How can it hold that hope, when so many of us are Giants and
Haruchai
? Her voice sharpened. “Does it mean to possess you? Or the Chosen?”