Authors: Beverley Hollowed
By
Beverley Hollowed
Beverley Hollowed
Copyright © 2013 Beverley Hollowed
First published 2013
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To my five little shining stars, keep shining brightly and light up my dark skies, love you always. xx
To my Mam, Dad and Uncle Tony love you all so much, xx
To Sam, Beverly and Sally, thank you for all your help. Once again, this journey has been made so much easier by you
r love and support, xx
To Tabatha, thank you for making my book shine, xx
To all the lovely Orchard Ladies, thank you for always supporting me, you have been with me from the very beginning, your support means the world to me.
“This will be a little cold,” the
ultrasound tech said, before she squirted gel on to Ally’s stomach. It was freezing. Ally caught her breath. She turned and looked up at Cole.
“Are you okay, gorgeous girl?” Cole asked, looking down at Ally with a worried expression on his face.
“I’m fine,” Ally laughed, as she reached up and softly touched Cole’s face. “It’s just a scan. It was just cold.”
“I know,” he grinned leaning in closer to Ally and kissing her softly on the f
orehead. “I just want to make sure my girl is okay.”
The
ultrasound tech pressed the probe from the ultra sound onto Ally’s stomach and began to roll it across her abdomen. Both Cole and Ally held their breath. She would press a button, move it, press a button and move it again.
Final
ly, the girl looked up at Ally and Cole and smiled.
“Wou
ld you like to see your baby?” She said as she turned the screen to them.
Cole smiled at Ally before they both turned to the monitor.
“This,” the tech said as she reached up and touched the screen. “This is your baby.”
Ally stared at the screen and there it was. This tiny bean shaped thing on the screen. This was her baby. Their baby.
“If you look right there,” the tech said, moving her finger on the screen again. “That is your baby’s heart beating.”
She reached for one of the dials on the monitor and
turned up the sound. A fast, rhythmic beat filled the room and Ally could feel the tears pool in her eyes.
S
he turned and looked at Cole, giving him a big smile. His eyes shimmered with unshed tears as he stared at the screen. His face was the picture of happiness and contentment. Ally never loved him more than she did right at that moment.
The past six weeks had been like a dream.
She thought back to the day she stood and stared at the flight attended waiting for her boarding pass, her life flashed before her eyes. She had always felt part of her was missing, like she somehow never belonged. And here she was, with a chance to belong to someone really and truly. She would belong to the baby and the baby would belong to her.
“Your boarding pass, please madam,” the flight attendant repeated, this time sounding a little impatient.
“I can’t,” Ally replied, her voice barely a whisper as the attendant looked at her in confusion.
“I don’t understand,” she said
, looking at Ally like she was some crazy person.
“I am not getting on the plane,” Ally confirmed before she turned and walked away. She could hear the girl call after her but she just kept walking.
When she reached the security, she told them she had received a phone call from home saying her father had taken ill and was rushed to hospital. They couldn’t have been more helpful and Ally felt guilty for deceiving them, but she needed to get out of the airport with as little fuss as possible.
When she climbed into a taxi outside the airport
, she took a deep breath before she gave Cole’s address. For the whole journey she ran through what she was going to tell Cole over and over in her head as the driver chatted away completely oblivious to the fact that she wasn’t listening. She made the occasional nod or sound of agreement to be polite, but in reality she hadn’t heard a word he had said.
When they reached the house
, she was relieved Cole’s car wasn’t there. But then why would it be, he was heading to some important meeting that morning.
She paid the driver and pulled her carry-on bag from the back seat
then headed for the door. She slipped her key in the lock and opened the door quietly before she headed for the stairs, hoping she could get in without being noticed. She reached Cole’s bedroom and headed straight for the wardrobe. She pulled out her suitcase and began to pack her belongings.
“What are you doing?
” Rosie’s voice came from behind her, making Ally jump with fright. “Please tell me you aren’t leaving him. Ally he loves you so much. You will break his heart.”
“I need to be ready,” Ally replied as she turned around to face Rosie. “Rosie I love Cole with all my heart, but I might have no choice.”
“I don’t understand,” Rosie replied, completely confused. “If you love him, why are you leaving?”
“I
’m pregnant,” Ally said and the words still sounded alien to her.
“That is wonderful news…”Rosie began excitedly moving towards Ally.
“Cole doesn’t want children,” Ally said, cutting her off mid-sentence. “What happened with Ben has crushed him…”
“Oh Ally, sweetheart,” Rosie said with a sigh as she stepped forward and took Ally by the hands. “Cole adores you. He is just hurting. But I know him and he would walk through fire for you and that baby. Please give him a chance.”
“What if he doesn’t want us, Rosie?” Ally said as the tears suddenly pooled in her eyes and quickly slipped down her cheeks.
“He loves you, Ally,” Rosie smile
d happily at Ally. “He loves you more than life itself. When he thought he lost you, he was broken. Please don’t leave. Give him a chance.”
“I was never going to leave,” Ally sniffed. “I was only getting ready in
case he told me to go.”
“He will never do that, sweetie,” Rosie sighed
. “You mean the world to him. Never doubt that.”
“Thank you Rosie,” Ally said as she hugged the elderly lady tightly.
“I did nothing but tell the truth,” Rosie replied warmly to Ally as she released her from her embrace. “Now, how about you go down and get yourself a drink while I put all these clothes back where they belong.”
Ally kissed Rosie on the cheek and left her standing in the wardrobe. Ally knew by now it was
better not to argue with Rosie, so she did exactly was she was told.
She just reached the bottom of the stair
s when she heard Cole’s car pull into the driveway. Ally froze as her heart raced rapidly in her chest.
For a moment she panicked, she had no idea how she was going to tell him. She thought she would have a
few more hours before he got home. She thought for a moment. She considered heading into the kitchen, half with the hope he wouldn’t find her straight away. But she realised she was just delaying the inevitable.
So she turned and headed towards the living room. She walked to the fireplace and turn
ed to the door and held her breath.
“Ally,” the ultra-sound technician said
, bringing her back to the present. “I will give you a disc with the scan on it, okay?”
“Okay,” Ally smiled and looked back at Cole who was looking at her with a strange look on his face. “Are you okay?”
“I’m perfect,” he grinned brightly but he stared at Ally with a strange look on his face.
“Then w
hy are you acting so strange?” She asked him nervously, not really sure if she wanted the answer.
“I just think you are amazing,” he said as he br
ought her hand to his mouth and pressed it against his lips. “You have this life growing inside you. This tiny perfect life and it’s mine. You have my child inside you. I have never loved anyone or anything more than I love you right now. I think you are amazing.”
Before
she could answer he leaned in and captured her lips with his.
“Thank you for being you,” he whispered.
“Thank you for loving me,” she replied as she reached up and softly touched his face.
“Okay,” the tech said, with a slight cough, not really wanting to disturb this special moment she was witnessing. “We are all set.”
*****************************
An hour
later, they were both sitting side by side in the back of the Rover, their hands joined and their fingers entwined. Ally was clutching the DVD the tech made of the scan, while Cole was holding tightly the black and white scan photo the tech gave him, each lost in their own thoughts.
Ally looked over at the scan in his hand and then up at him. She couldn’t help but smile at the look of happiness on his face.
But then she saw something that troubled her. He dropped his eyes to the photo and smiled again, completely unaware she was watching him.
He stared at the photo taking in every de
tail he could as he stroked back and forth over it with the pad of his thumb. Suddenly the briefest look of sadness filtered across his face. It was a look that almost broke Ally’s heart.
But as quick as it was there it
was gone. And the smile returned to his face as he looked up from the photograph and his eyes met Ally’s.
“Are you okay?”
She asked as she squeezed his hand a little tighter.
“Couldn’t be better,” he said with a broad smile leaning in and pressing his lips to hers.
“You sure?” Ally asked. “It’s just you looked a little sad just then. If there is something on your mind, please don’t shut me out. I think we have both had enough secrets to last a life time.”
“I was just thinking of Ben,” he admitted
sadly and Ally smiled, grateful for his honesty. She knew he still missed Ben and worried about him. And she loved him more for it. “I was wondering how he was. If she had managed to off load him yet.”
The disgust and contempt in his voic
e was clear and it made Ally sad that he was still so broken up about Ben. And if she was honest, she worried about Ben too.
Even though she had only seen the little boy once, all she could remember
was how Cole looked at him. And havingmet the charming Steph, she worried about what sort of life this little boy would have
.
She knew what Ben had meant to Cole and she knew it wasn’t so easy to shut off your emotions.