On a Wild Night (32 page)

She halted before the door; Martin reached around her and opened it. Catching the door's edge, she whirled and, narrow-eyed, looked into his face. “It was
my
note,
my
decision, and I was perfectly safe. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go in and dance. With whomever I choose!”

She flung the door open and swept through.

 

She wasn't going to stand for it—allow him to act the possessive male—not unless she'd agreed to be his. And she hadn't. Yet.

The first dance was a country dance; she bullied Reggie into partnering her. Later, they joined a group of young ladies, chattering animatedly; when the introduction to a cotillion filled the room, Demon tapped her on the shoulder.

“Come and dance.”

She was suspicious, but there was not the faintest hint of a scowl or any overprotective reaction in his manner. Flick was expecting their third child and wasn't dancing; sitting beside Honoria on a chaise nearby, she smiled and waved, encouraged her to dance with her handsome husband.

So she danced the cotillion with Demon, and had no reason to complain. The next dance, a country dance, followed hard on its heels, and she found Richard soliciting her hand with a smile.

“I have to dance with you once this Season, before we leave.”

“You're returning to Scotland?” She let him lead her into the nearest set.

“Catriona doesn't feel comfortable leaving the Vale, and the twins, to their own devices for long.”

He said it with a smile, one she returned. Of all her cousins, Richard was the most . . . not gentle, but understanding. And Catriona was a font of feminine wisdom; Amanda made a comment about speaking with her before they left.

“You'd better speak with her tonight, then, for we leave tomorrow morning.”

At the end of the dance, she would have gone with Richard, but others gathered about and she stopped to chat. Then she heard the first strains of the waltz.

She turned and found Martin beside her. He raised a brow. “My dance, I believe.”

There was a wealth of warning in the deep words, no drawl to soften them. Inclining her head, she gave him her hand, regally let him lead her to the floor. Let him draw her into his arms and start them twirling.

The orchids that continued to be delivered every day—a spray of three pure white blooms—rested on his shoulder, all but glowed against the black of his coat. She considered them, then lifted her gaze to his face.

To his eyes, green as ever but turbulent, harder—more agate than moss.

“I am
not
yours.”

His gaze only grew harder. “
That
is a matter of opinion.”

“Regardless, even were we wed . . .” She let her gaze drift over those about them, then looked again at his face. “I would always insist on being my own person.”

“I wasn't aware the designations were mutually exclusive.” He bit the words off, clipped and hard.

She opened her eyes wide. “You mean I could be yours and still act independently? That, for instance, matters such as how to deal with anonymous notes addressed to me would be mine to decide? That you wouldn't simply interfere as your right?”

“It's my right to keep you safe.”

She glared. “If I agreed to be yours, possibly.”

“There's no ‘possibly' about it.”

“I do not accept that such a ‘right' extends to shielding me from harm as if I were an incapable lackwit.”

“The very last thing I consider you is lacking in wit.”

Their aggravated gazes locked, then the end of the room arrived; they both looked away as they negotiated the tight turns. Realized they'd been arguing in the middle of a dance floor, and there were interested eyes aplenty. Then they were sweeping back up the long room.

“This is getting us nowhere.” Martin's jaw was set; he briefly met her eyes. “Neither this discussion, nor your latest tack.”

Her latest tack?
“What do you mean?”

The muscles in his jaw tightened. “I mean that you're going to have to exercise your independence and make a decision—soon.” He caught her gaze. “You know what I'm offering—I've laid my cards on the table.”

She understood—read in his eyes exactly what he meant, that he'd declared his hand, offered all he would, and there was no more to be gained, no more that he would risk in this game.

“It's your call, your lead.” His expression, his eyes, were granite hard.

She didn't answer, looked away, let the revolutions of the dance sweep them along, then the measure ended with a flourish. She curtsied, he bowed, and raised her.

She met his eyes. Let him see her resolution, as set in stone as his. “You've forgotten. I have another option.”

He frowned. Smiling lightly, she half turned. “I could resign the hand.” Her eyes on his, she stated clearly, deliberately, “I could throw my cards on the table, and walk away.”

On the words, she turned and walked to the chaise where her Aunt Helena sat, along with Lady Osbaldestone and Honoria, Devil's duchess.

“Well!” Her ladyship shifted her bombazine-covered bulk sideways to create space for Amanda to sit. “What was that about?” She chuckled evilly and gestured with her cane at Martin's departing back. “If looks could kill . . . I take it he isn't getting his way.”

“No. He isn't.” Amanda struggled to shackle her temper.
“But he's pigheaded, and arrogant, and determined to win—”

Helena laughed and placed her hand over Amanda's, gripped comfortingly. “He's a male, one of our kind—you can expect no less.”

“I'll vouch for that.” From beyond Helena, Honoria smiled at Amanda. “If it's any consolation, you could try reminding yourself that Dexter's a mere earl. I had to cope with a duke—one who, for good reason, goes by the name of Devil.”

Amanda had to smile. “But you eventually persuaded him to see the light.”

Honoria raised her brows. “Truth to tell, I think he'd seen it from the first, but . . .” After a moment, she said, “You might be wise to decide just what form capitulation should take. There are other signs, other forms of communication that ultimately are more telling than words.”

“Yes.” Lady Osbaldestone nodded sagely. “You'd be well advised to consider that fact. However”—she transfixed Amanda with her sharp black gaze—“remember what I said. No matter what he says, no matter what he does,
you
must not weaken. He has to be brought to reopen old wounds and deal with that old scandal.”

Amanda glanced at Helena, at Honoria, and saw them both nodding. Her temper had ebbed, the strength behind her resolution had gone with it. Looking across the ballroom, she saw Martin standing with Luc Ashford. She grimaced, inwardly sighed. “I'll try.”

She was no longer so sure she would succeed.

 

His temper—an emotion he usually, with little effort, kept well reined—all but frizzlingly under his skin—Martin stalked from the dance floor. How much longer he could play the role of sophisticated, civilized male while she tweaked his baser instincts at every turn, he didn't know.

Not much longer was his guess.

At the side of the ballroom, he saw Luc and Edward Ashford standing with two of their sisters. His cousins. The girls
saw him and beamed, then took in his expression; their smiles faltered.

Wiping the harsh expression from his face and eyes, he smiled back, and their smiles returned. Changing tack, he joined them. Let them curtsy and chatter at him for a few minutes; they were sweet and very young, and he was the head of a closely related house.

Two young gentlemen, the girls' partners for the next dance, approached with care. While Martin engaged the girls and their would-be consorts, Luc stood beside him, tossing barbed comments at the youthful sprigs, yet he was always ready with an encouraging word for his sisters. They clearly adored him.

Edward, however, stood back, features pinched in what appeared to be disapproval. It took Martin a moment to realize that it was
he
Edward most disapproved of.

Then the musicians struck up, and the girls and their cavaliers left for the dance floor. Martin turned to Edward.

Before he could speak, Edward asked, “I understand you have an interest in Amanda Cynster.”

Edward had clearly not yet heard of his formal offer. Martin inclined his head. “I do have to marry.”

“Ah, yes.” Edward's lip all but curled. “The title, the estate.”

Those had been the reasons Martin had been spared a trial; he again inclined his head. “As you say.”

Edward tugged down his waistcoat; head high, he surveyed the crowd. “You should know that I, at least, have been upholding
our
family's name in the years you've been absent. I flatter myself that all know me as a man of unimpeachable honor and steadfast character. In due course, I will marry well, once I've seen my sisters suitably joined as befits the family.”

As if suddenly remembering he was in the presence of both the head of his family and the head of a senior line, he flushed, threw a narrow-eyed glance at Luc, then stiffly nodded to Martin. “Now my watch over my sisters has ended, I believe I will circulate.”

The implied message was: he did not wish to be seen with Martin, to give Martin the imprimatur of his presence.

Martin said nothing, merely watched him go, then glanced at Luc.

Who met his gaze. “No, he hasn't improved with the years.”

“Obviously. Weren't you tempted to thrash it out of him?”

“Frequently. But he's such a bore, I couldn't stand the whining.”

Martin caught a flash of gold—Amanda's curls as she rose from the chaise and took her leave of its occupants. He tensed, aware of a need to follow her, watch over her at the very least.

Luc had tracked his gaze; he murmured, “If you do have your eye on Amanda, I can only wish you luck.”

Martin glanced at him, raised a brow.

“She's a harridan,” Luc supplied. “And the very opposite of biddable.” He paused, then added, his tone softer, “Come to that, they both are.”

Martin asked, “She and her sister?”

“Hmm.” Luc was absently searching the crowd. “God only knows why any sane man would want to saddle himself with either.”

The arrival of three white orchids every morning had become a regular feature in her life. When they didn't appear the next day, Amanda felt it like a blow. Yet, after their discussion the previous night, shouldn't she have expected something of the sort? He'd told her it was her call, up to her to accept or reject what he offered. The halting of the orchids presumably meant he'd stopped arguing, stopped trying to seduce her.

Then again, perhaps he'd run out of orchids.

Through the long day filled with social engagements—a morning tea, a luncheon, a drive in the park, an at-home—she vacillated between the two explanations. Her mood swung like a pendulum, even-tempered one moment, deadeningly depressed the next.

When she arrived at Lady Arbuthnot's ball and Martin failed to appear, she plastered on a bright smile while her heart sank to her slippers.

Then she got the note. A footman delivered it—an ivory square inscribed in Martin's strong hand.

 

Look on the terrace.

 

That was all it said.

Tucking the note into her pocket, she excused herself
from the group with whom she'd been conversing and crossed the crowded ballroom. That took time; when she finally gained the long windows giving onto the terrace, the room behind her was full. The night was mild; the terrace doors stood ajar, but no one was presently availing himself of the moonlight.

The moonlight that glowed on the petals of a white flower lying at the top of the steps leading to the gardens. Amanda picked up the blossom, a single white orchid. If he was adhering to his usual practice, there should be two more. She looked but could see no other white splashes on the terrace. Then she looked down the steps, wondered . . .

She glanced back at the ballroom, then quickly descended. The gravel path bordering the lawn led away to left and right. Glancing left, she saw the second bloom lying in a shaft of moonlight at the intersection of two paths.

Her slippers scrunched on the gravel, then she added the second bloom to the first, and looked around for the third. The path leading further away from the house lay empty and dark, but the path following a hedge angling around the side of the house . . . along that gleamed another splash of white.

The third orchid lay just before an archway in the hedge, the opening to a courtyard. Adding that bloom to the others, Amanda stepped into the archway; pausing, she looked around.

It was a magical scene. The courtyard was filled with box-hedged beds of summer plants and roses, weeping cherries and iris, separated by paved paths all ultimately converging on a semicircular area before the steps of a white summerhouse. The summerhouse acted as a gatehouse linking the courtyard with the shrubbery beyond. It was set into and through the first high hedge of the shrubbery which formed the back wall of the courtyard.

Moonlight shimmered on the summerhouse, the only white object in a sea of black-greens and faded red paving. From where she stood, she couldn't see if there was anyone inside; the shadows within were impenetrable.

Drawing in a breath, grateful for the mild evening that made it possible to wander outside without a shawl, she
lifted her head and walked boldly forward. The three orchids bobbed in her hand.

He was there, waiting for her, a denser shadow in the dark, lounging on one of the wide benches that lined the interior walls, interrupted by the twin arches, one looking out on the courtyard, the other into the shrubbery.

She halted at the bottom of the four steps leading up; he rose, but then remained, silent and still in the night.

A predator—that her senses acknowledged, yet they leapt in giddy delight. He said nothing; neither did she. For a long moment, she stood looking up at him—she in the moonlight, he in deep shadow. Then, gathering her skirts, she went up the steps.

To him.

He took her hands, removed the orchids from her fingers, laid them aside. He turned to her, studied her face in the dimness, then reached for her. Drew her into his arms, slowly. Bent his head—gave her plenty of time to draw away if she would.

She lifted her face, invited the kiss, sensed the growl of satisfaction that rumbled through him as he covered her lips with his. Took her mouth as she gave it, pressed on her the promise of joy in return.

I want you.

Whether the words whispered in her head or fell from his lips, she couldn't tell. She flexed her fingers against his chest, then eased her hands up until she could twine her arms about his neck and arch against him. Glory in the shift and lock of his arms about her, hands spreading on her back, across her hips, holding her to him while their mouths feasted, eager and greedy for the taste they'd come to crave, for the passion, the heady rush of desire so potent they reeled. They let it well and flood through them, let it sweep them away on its well-remembered tide.

The kiss ended only when they were both gasping, burning with need, with one simple desire. Without thought, without deliberation, they fell on the padded cushions in a tangle of clothes, a tangle of hands grasping, wanting, a tangle of limbs, some hard and hot, others soft and yielding.
Their clothing was an obstacle; fingers flying, they fought to overcome it. Then her bodice was open and his lips were on her breast.

She cried out, rocked by the sheer intensity of sensation, by the streak of sensual lightning that forked from her breast to her loins. She panted, gasped, tried to stifle her reaction.

“Ssshh,” he warned.

She hauled in a breath, managed to whisper, “Here?”

For answer, he shifted his lips, his hot mouth to her other breast; under her skirts, she felt his hands slide up her thighs.

“How?” She'd intended the word to be horrified, to illustrate the impossibility. Instead, it hovered in the air, a flagrant evocation, an acknowledgement of her need as her eyes closed tight, as his wicked fingers found her. Stroked, opened, pressed in.

“Easy.” She could hear the satisfaction, the anticipation in his gravelly growl. “You on top.”

It sounded intriguing. She knew he knew what he was doing. She reached for him; her questing fingers found and traced the rampant ridge of his erection, then she stroked, fondled . . . he tensed, then cursed and swung back to sprawl on the cushions, his shoulders against the summerhouse's sill, simultaneously pulling her over him so she ended astride him, her knees on either side of his hips, her hands braced on his shoulders.

His fingers pressed deep and she gasped. His other hand gripping one globe of her bottom, he urged her forward so he could continue torturing her swollen breasts.

With wicked lips, wicked tongue—and even wickeder fingers—he seized and captured her senses, blocked out every other reality but the heat that beat in their blood, the urgent need to join, to be whole.

The hot tide welled, rose higher, higher; his hand, his fingers, rhythmically stoked it, ruthlessly drove her on. She gasped, writhed, panted, until she was sure she would melt with the next deliberate penetration, explode with the next excruciating tug at her nipple. Her breasts burned; her skin felt too tight. The flames inside raged, leaving her hot and wet and empty.

Aching. For him.

“Now—
please
.” She barely recognized her own voice, but he heard. His hand left her; she felt him wrestling with his waistband.

Then she felt the hot velvet skin, the heavy weight of his erection beneath her; she reached under her skirts, found him, stroked. Closed her hand about him as he groaned. Then he pushed her hand away—gripped her hips and guided her—

“Oh! Isn't it
beautiful!
”

“Utterly magical!”

“That gentleman was right. It's a jolly place, isn't it?”

“And with
such
a pretty summerhouse.”

It was just as well she didn't have breath left to groan—to rant, to order the gaggle of young ladies piling into the courtyard back to the ballroom where they belonged. They started up the path, then stopped to admire the flowers.

Martin was rigid beneath her. She looked down, helpless.

Even in the dim light, she could make out his grim expression. “Ssshh.”

The whisper barely reached her, then he closed his hands about her waist and lifted her, set her on her feet, grabbed her hand as he stood—and dragged her out of the summerhouse, down the steps into the shrubbery.

“Ooooh!
Look!
”

Martin yanked her sideways, out of the archway; she landed against him as he paused, his back to the hedge. Shrill giggles followed them.

“I say! Who was it? Did you see?”

Luckily, they'd moved so fast, no one had seen enough to recognize—they would have been no more than two silhouettes briefly glimpsed in the frame of the summerhouse, protected by the darkness within, and the shadows of the shrubbery beyond.

Martin looked around, fiddling with the buttons at his waist, then he tugged her hand. “Come on—we're not out of the woods yet.”

“I'm nearly out of my gown!” she hissed, struggling to hold the bodice closed with one hand.

He glanced back at her, but continued towing her behind
him. He stopped when they gained the privacy of a more distant hedge—spun her around, backed her into it, bent his head and found her lips, raised his hands and filled them with her breasts.

The heat was still there, simmering, more potent for the wait, like a volcano dammed, pressure building to break free—

“Is it this way, do you think?”

Martin drew his lips from hers, cursed viciously. The sound of feet on the gravel at the end of the path reached them.

Affected them both like a dash of cold water, effectively dousing their fire. Their eyes met; she let her gaze drop to his lips.

He looked at hers, drew a shuddering breath, his chest crushing her breasts, then he straightened, stepped back. Steadied her. Then reached for her bodice, deftly closing it.

“I want you.” His hands dropped to his waistband, fully securing the buttons as she quickly tied her side laces. “But not like this. I want you in my house, in my bed. I want you
mine.”

She met his dark gaze, sensed the frustration in his words, the longing, the yearning—the need. Felt uncertainty well, undermine her resolution . . . then she heard Lady Osbaldestone's voice in her head. Dragging in a breath, she lifted her chin, held his gaze. “How much do you want me?”

Martin didn't answer. The group approaching along the path, searching for some pond, cut short the moment—saved him from saying something he would later regret.

Amanda's hand on his sleeve, they headed back to the house, exchanging nods with the group as they passed. He frowned; he hoped her years would preserve her from any whispers. At least they hadn't been discovered . . .

That would have made life even more complicated than it already was. His understanding with the Bar Cynster would stretch only so far; they fully expected him to use his polished wiles to convince her to accept his suit. They likewise expected him to avoid any scandal.

Seducing a Cynster female, persuading her to yield and accept his offer without the surrender she was determined to
wring from him, under the full glare of the ton's chandeliers, all without raising the slightest ripple of scandal . . . it was the definition of challenge.

One part of him relished the game; another part wished it was all over and she was his, declared and accepted as, in truth, he was hers.

As they went up the terrace steps, he glanced at her face. Her chin was high, her jaw stubbornly set in an expression that had fast become familiar. Yet beneath that facade, he sensed a more fragile, wistful state. Perhaps, with just a little more persuasion . . .

He stopped her before the door; fingers twining with hers, he raised her hand and pressed a kiss to her knuckles, his eyes steady on hers. “It's your decision.”

She held his gaze, searched his eyes, then turned and entered the ballroom.

 

They remained together through supper and the last waltz, then Martin very correctly took his leave. Amanda watched him climb the ballroom stairs, watched his broad shoulders and burnished head disappear through the ballroom arch.

She wished she was leaving with him. Wished she dared.

Wished in her heart that she could simply give him what he wanted and end this emotional game. Knowing he loved her was important, yet she already knew he did. Was knowing he knew really so vital?

According to Lady Osbaldestone and all her wise mentors, with him, it was. She understood the reasons they'd advanced and accepted them, yet she was starting to suspect there might be even more to it than that. Some reason Lady Osbaldestone, old and shrewd, knew but wouldn't say. No point trying to wheedle it from her; if she hadn't said, she wouldn't, and the Coldstream Guards wouldn't shift her.

The notion that there was more idled through her mind as she waited for Louise and Amelia to make their adieus. Her absentminded gaze drifted around the room, then halted on Edward Ashford. He was waiting, rigidly correct, features
pinched with supercilious disdain while his sisters exchanged directions with two other young ladies clearly up from the country.