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Josh:
not sure yet. Psychology maybe

Mandy:
you want to be a shrink?

Josh:
they don't like to be called that

Mandy:
sorry :-(

Josh:
I'm totally kidding

Mandy:
:-)

Josh:
I'm not sure yet what I want to do.

Josh:
I know I love to study people, love finding out what makes
them tick

Josh:
love to watch them.

Mandy:
what got you interested in that?

Josh:
my dad was one

Mandy:
was?

Josh:
he died six weeks ago

Mandy:
WHAT???

Mandy:
OMFG...I'm so sorry...

Mandy:
I was talking to you about, like, two weeks after
that.

Mandy:
OMG, why didn't you TELL me????

Mandy:
Jesus...I feel like such a horrible person...

Josh:
Don't.

Mandy:
why didn't you say anything????? :-(

Josh:
Why would I? So you could feel bad about it too?

Mandy:
I could have done SOMETHING

Josh:
Like what? Would it have made you change your mind about
meeting me?

Josh:
dating me?

Josh:
going to the prom with me?

Mandy:
I don't know.

Josh:
Yes you do, and it's okay.

Josh:
u there?

Mandy:
yeah. I just don't know what to say, lol.

Josh:
It's okay. Really. I'm dealing with it in my own
way.

Mandy:
how is your Mom holding up? Is she okay?

Josh:
she died when I was nine. Cancer.

Mandy:
oh god...I'm crying here. I'm so sorry.

Josh:
it's okay. Really it is. I'm doing just fine. And you're not
really crying

Mandy:
No, but I'm really sad for you

Josh:
I'm okay, really. I'm a strong person

Mandy:
still sucks though.

Josh:
yeah, it does, but that's life

Josh:
So...

Josh:
now will you go out with me?

Mandy:
Josh...

Josh:
I'm kidding ;-)

Mandy:
so who do you live with now?

Josh:
No one

Mandy:
what? How is that possible?

Josh:
It's only temporary. I'll be in a better place
soon.

Mandy:
That sounds...

Josh:
what?

Mandy:
gloomy

Josh:
lol, I don't mean it like that. I mean, better than this
crappy house

Mandy:
Glad to hear that.

Mandy:
hate to do this, but can you give me a half hour?

Josh:
sure. U ok?

Mandy:
I'm gonna go try to eat something and hope I can keep it down.
Will you be on later?

Josh:
most likely

Mandy:
okay. c u then

Mandy is offline

May
30
^th
,
2010

Mandy:
back

Mandy:
did I miss u again?

Mandy:
going to bed. Talk soon...and sorry to hear about what you've
been through.

Mandy:
sorry I wasn't more sympatethic(sp?). I didn't know, though.
so...my bad


Mandy:
night

Mandy is offline

May
31
^st
,
2010

Mandy:
hey

Josh:
hey beautiful

Mandy:
ugh...if you saw me now...

Josh:
if I saw you now, I'd try to kiss u better. Would u stop
me?

Mandy:
prolly not

Josh:
really???!!!! why?

Mandy:
so sick. Wouldn't have the enrgy...

Josh:
you're not getting any better?

Mandy:
worse

Josh:
that's too bad

Mandy:
yeah. Sue's in hospital

Josh:
about the pregnancy?

Mandy:
no

Josh:
?

Mandy:
she went to sleep and her mother couldn't wake her up. They
say she's in a coma.

Josh:
wow, that's crazy

Mandy:
yeah. I should feel sadder than I do, but I can barely
breathe. Feels like I have a fvre

Mandy:
fevere

Mandy:
fever

Mandy:
Don't know what's going on. Nobody seems to know. Lots of
people getting sick

Josh:
I know what's going on

Mandy:
yeah?

Josh:
Yeah

Mandy:
that's cuz you're a genius

Josh:
can I come over?

Mandy:
silly

Josh:
I can make u better

Josh:
if u let me

Mandy:
everybody is sick

Josh:
yes they are

Mandy:
I don't want to die

Josh:
you won't

Mandy:
feels like I am

Mandy:
are u sick?

Josh:
I've always been sick, Mandy

Mandy:
what u mean?

Josh:
you need to let me come over

Mandy:
need to sleep

Josh:
do you love me?

Mandy:
nite

Mandy is offline

June
2
^nd
,
2010

Josh:
hello gorgeous

Mandy is offline

June
4
^th
,
2010

Josh:
Hey

Mandy:
so sad

Mandy:
sue died

Josh:
I know. Saw her Dad's post on her page. Are you
okay?

Mandy:
no

Mandy is offline

June
5
^th
,
2010

Josh:
hey

Mandy:
h

Josh:
how are you?

Mandy:
nt god

Josh:
not good?

Mandy:
s

Mandy:
so

Mandy:
sick

Josh:
awww...why are you on FB?

Mandy:
dunno. Nobdy esle 2 talk 2

Josh:
I should come over

Mandy:
y?

Josh:
so I can make you feel better

Mandy:
can't

Josh:
sure I can

Mandy:
mean, cant come ovr

Josh:
why?

Mandy: dunno

Mandy is offline

June
6
^th
,
2010

Josh:
do you love me, Mandy?

Mandy:
no

Josh:
why?

Mandy:
jst...

Josh:
why not, Mandy?

Mandy:
dunno. Don't knw u

Josh:
yes you do

Josh:
I want to help you, but you have to let me

Mandy:
my hair falling out

Josh:
Can I be honest with you?

Mandy:
ys

Josh:
I've been lying to you

Mandy:
?

Josh:
I've never been to Urbana

Mandy:
k

Josh:
But I have met you

Mandy:
whre?

Mandy:
brb

Josh:
My parents have both been dead for years, for longer than
you've been alive, actually

Josh:
The picture you saw on my profile that night was Sue. She sent
it to me.

Josh:
Sent me a bunch. Usually of her naked, but I couldn't put that
one up

Josh:
you'd have gotten really suspicious...lol

Mandy:
?

Mandy:
?

Mandy:
wat?

Josh:
Do you love me, Mandy?

Mandy:
stop

Mandy:
plz

Mandy:
hurts

Josh:
I was flirting over and back with her a long time before I
started chatting with you.

Josh:
She looked slutty every day I saw her, with those tight
sweaters and skirts

Josh:
so I chose her first. But she's thick as a tree stump and an
ignorant little bitch

Josh:
so I left her hanging in the wind.

Josh:
So you know the "online boyfriend" who dumped her? That was
me.

Mandy:
wtf?

Josh:
Only she knew me as Donny.

Mandy:
I hve 2 go. Gng 2 b sick

Mandy is offline

June
7
^th
,
2011

Josh:
hi!

Mandy:
leve me alone Josh

Josh:
My name isn't Josh

Josh:
I'm going to tell you my real name, because I really do love
you

Josh:
But first you have to tell me you love me too.

Josh:
Mandy?

Josh:
Answer me.

Josh:
I know you're there. Just tell me you love me.

Josh:
Just once, and I promise I'll leave you alone.

Josh:
And I swear on my life that I'll make your pain go
away.

Josh:
Mandy?

Josh:
you have five seconds before I sign off. After that, you'll
never know

Mandy:
knw wat?

Josh:
who killed you and your friends

Mandy:
plz. plz stop. My skin...I'm brning. I'm so sick

Josh:
do you love me?

Josh:
Mandy?

Josh:
Mandy? Do you love me?

Josh:
Say you love me

Mandy:
I lv u

Josh:
that's my beautiful girl. I love you too. Do you know
that?

Mandy:
ys.

Mandy:
I dunno

Mandy:
Y r u doin this?

Josh:
do you feel it past the pain? Do you feel it deep inside your
heart where it matters most?

Mandy:
stop

Josh:
okay, my love.

Josh:
My name is Kathleen Myer.

Josh:
But you probably know me better as Fatty Kathy.

Mandy:
no r not

Josh:
Yes. I am. And the police will probably be here soon, so try
not to interrupt me.

Mandy:
this is cruel stop pretndng