Now You See Her (8 page)

“Oh, you must never do that.”

Marcy smiled. “I won’t. Thank you. That’s good advice.”

“The name’s Colin Doyle. My mum’ll be right with you. You from America?”

“Canada,” Marcy told him.

“Really? We had a guest here from Canada not too long ago. Name of Randy Sullivan, I believe it was. Do you know him?”

“No, I’m afraid I don’t.” She refrained from telling him that there were more than thirty-three million people in Canada. Although you never knew. It wasn’t totally outside the realm of possibility that she might know this person. It was certainly no stranger than her taking off for Ireland on her erstwhile second honeymoon and finding the daughter she’d given up for dead. “Do you know this girl?” Marcy asked, pulling the latest picture of Devon out of her purse and showing it to Colin.

He took it from her hand and studied it for several seconds, his bushy eyebrows collapsing toward the bridge of his nose. “Can’t say that I do,” he said at last.

“You’re sure? It’s possible she’s a student at the university. I understand it’s very close to here.”

“Just up the next block a bit,” he concurred. Then, “No. Don’t know her.” He handed back the photograph. “She looks very sad, doesn’t she?”

Marcy’s eyes immediately filled with tears. It was her fault her daughter looked so sad.

“Sorry to have kept you,” a high-pitched voice trilled as a heavy-set woman with gray-flecked, reddish-blond hair entered the small foyer. Her eyes were the same shade of hazel as her son’s, although they twinkled more mischievously, as if she’d just come from something she probably shouldn’t have
been doing. “Name’s Sadie Doyle, owner of this proud establishment.” Large, surprisingly expressive hands fluttered in front of her, sweeping together the foyer, the living room to her left, and the narrow staircase to her right, the walls of which were all covered with the same garish, purple-flowered wallpaper. Marcy couldn’t tell whether or not the woman was being facetious. “Mind if I have a look at that?” Sadie Doyle asked, indicating the picture of Devon. “Pretty girl. Looks a little sad though, don’t she?”

Marcy felt her heart sink.

“Your daughter?”

“Yes. Do you know her, by any chance?”

“No chance at all, I’m afraid. She’s here in Cork, is she?”

“Yes, she is. I’m trying to find her.”

“You don’t know where she is?”

Marcy felt the question sting her skin. “We’ve kind of lost touch.”

Sadie Doyle smiled wistfully, as if she understood, although her eyes retained a hint of rebuke. “Wish I could be of help.” She walked behind the counter and opened the guest register. “It’s one hundred and fifty euros a night for a single room.”

“That’s fine.” Marcy couldn’t remember the exchange rate between dollars and euros but decided she’d worry about it later.

“Just how long will you be staying with us, Mrs …?”

“Taggart. Marcy Taggart. And I’ll be staying a few days. Maybe a week. I’m not sure exactly how long.” As long as it takes, Marcy thought. “Is that a problem?”

“No problem at all. If you could just fill this out.” Sadie pushed a sheet of paper across the reception desk. “And I’ll need your passport, of course. Colin here will bring it up to you in a few hours. What credit card will you be using?”

Marcy handed over her American Express card.

“You’ll be in room seven, top of the stairs to your left.” Sadie Doyle handed Marcy a large, elaborately carved brass key. “It’s one of our nicer rooms. I think you’ll be very comfortable there.”

“Thank you.”

“Good luck with finding your daughter.”

“Thank you,” Marcy said again, returning Devon’s picture to her purse as she followed Colin up the stairs.

The room was small and crowded with inexpensive furniture: a double bed with an old brass headboard, a shabby-looking armoire and matching nightstand, an even shabbier-looking dresser that was missing the knobs on two of its three drawers, a high-backed chair upholstered in heavy purple brocade that was fraying along its seams, and a battered mahogany table beneath a window that looked through a slightly worn lace curtain directly into one of the upstairs windows of the B&B next door. The purple-flowered wallpaper was only slightly more muted than the wallpaper in the common areas and the carpet was a tired-looking mix of mauve and brown. No more tired-looking than I am, Marcy thought, plopping down on the bed’s too-soft mattress and staring at her reflection in the frameless rectangular mirror on the opposite wall.

You’re beautiful
, she heard Vic whisper in her ear.

“Yeah, right,” she scoffed, pushing at her hair.

“Sorry, did you say something?” Colin asked.

“What? No. Did I?” She hadn’t realized the boy was still there. Probably waiting for a tip, she realized, fishing in her purse for some change.

“Is everything all right?” he asked nervously, his weight shifting from one foot to the other.

“Yes. Everything’s just fine.”

“Enjoy your stay,” he said, his shins knocking against her suitcase as he turned toward the door.

“Oh, well. It’s not so bad,” Marcy exclaimed after he’d left the room, hoping to be reassured by the sound of her own voice. After all, she was used to convincing herself that things were other than the way they really were. So if she told herself enough times that the room was beautiful and that everything was fine, she would no doubt eventually come to believe it. “You pretend, therefore you are,” she whispered, walking over to the window and parting the dusty lace curtains, staring into the upstairs window of the B&B next door.

It took her several seconds to realize that someone was staring back. A young woman, Marcy realized. A young woman about Devon’s height with the same long brown hair. “Devon?” Marcy whispered as the woman smiled and offered a self-conscious little wave. Suddenly a man appeared at her side, holding a squirming toddler. The toddler’s hands strained toward the woman, his fingers reaching for her neck as she welcomed him into her arms and smothered his face with kisses.

Not Devon, Marcy knew instantly. Devon had never been particularly fond of children. “I’m with Judith on that one,” she’d said more than once.

“You have to stop imagining every girl you see is Devon,” Marcy told herself, backing away from the window and retrieving her suitcase from the floor, then tossing it on the bed. Not every girl who was the same height as Devon—
A pretty girl with long dark hair and high cheekbones, who maybe walked the way Devon walked and held her cigarette the same way
, Peter had said—was her daughter. She had to stop thinking that way or she’d make herself crazy.

Too late, she thought as she unpacked her suitcase, hanging as many clothes as she could on the four hangers she found in
the tiny armoire and stuffing the rest into the Salvation Army-style chest of drawers under the mirror. The bathroom was so small that when she opened the door, it hit the tub, and there was no medicine cabinet or counter for her toiletries, so she had to spread the various creams her sister had insisted she buy around the edge of the decidedly utilitarian white sink. Not that any of them did any good, she thought, unable to avoid the small mirror over the sink and staring at the fine lines that were gathering around her mouth and eyes like an unwelcome storm. “Who invited you to this party?” she wondered aloud, splashing some cold water on her face, then patting her face dry with the thin white towel hanging on a nearby hook.

Time for a little lift
, she heard Judith say.

“No, thank you.” Marcy backed away from the mirror, promptly hitting the bathroom door and feeling the doorknob jam into the small of her back like a fist.

Judith had had her face “done” about six years ago. “Just a little pick-me-up,” she’d insisted. “So I won’t look so tired.”

“You wouldn’t look so tired if you’d stop exercising all the time.”

“I have to stay in shape.”

“You’re in great shape.”

“Only because I exercise. You really should come with me to spin class. It would do you a world of good. And it’ll do wonders for your sex life.”

“There’s nothing wrong with my sex life.”

“Good for you. But you should come anyway. So should Devon. She’s looking a little soft around the edges.”

“What do you mean? Devon looks great.”

“She’s looking soft around the edges.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“How’s she doing these days?”

“She’s doing great. What are you getting at?”

“You’re not letting her eat a lot of junk food, are you?”

“She’s a teenager, Judith. I really have very limited control over what she eats.”

“You know the importance of a proper diet.”

“There’s more to life than raw fish.”

“Nobody says there isn’t.”

“Just what
are
you saying?”

“I’m not saying anything.”

“Devon’s fine.”

“Of course she is.”

“Of course she is,” Marcy repeated now, returning to the bedroom and tucking her suitcase underneath the bed, the only available space she could find. Then she changed into jeans and a fresh blouse, grabbed her purse, took a deep breath, then another, and left the room.

SHE WENT DIRECTLY
back to the pub where she’d first spotted Devon. “Grogan’s House,” she muttered aloud as she crossed over St. Patrick’s Bridge and turned left, relieved when the bright yellow sign with the bold black lettering came into view. The pub occupied the ground floor of a two-story white stucco building with a black slate roof. A couple of round, old-fashioned, ornamental lights hung amid a bunch of small, brightly colored flags that decorated the facade. Advertisements for Guinness and Beamish were etched into the glass of the large front windows. Marcy remembered none of these details from the previous afternoon. Was it possible she was mistaken about which pub she’d been in? There were so many in the area.

She approached the front door cautiously, glancing over her shoulder at the few people brave enough to be sitting on the
outside patio. A second was all it took for Marcy to ascertain that Devon wasn’t among them. A man was exiting the pub as she was going in, and he held the door open for her, the welcoming chatter from inside the room instantly enveloping her.

“Well, well,” a voice exclaimed above the din. “Come back to finish your tea, have you?”

Marcy walked directly to the bar. “You remember me?” she asked the handsome man behind it.

“I never forget a pretty face.”

Marcy felt strangely flattered. Her hand moved immediately to fidget with her hair. “I was hoping you’d be here.”

If the young man was surprised by her comment, he didn’t show it. His green eyes sparkled as his full lips parted in an easy grin. “Is there something I can do for you then?”

“There was a girl,” Marcy said, reaching inside her purse for Devon’s photograph. “Yesterday.”

“Ah,” he said. “A girl …”

“I think it was this girl.” Marcy pushed the picture of Devon across the bar. “Do you know her?”

He picked up the photograph and examined it for several seconds, slowly shaking his head.

“She walked by outside and waved to you,” Marcy pressed, trying to jog his memory.

His smile widened as he returned the picture to her waiting fingers. “I get lots of girls waving at me, I’m afraid.”

“Our Liam’s quite the ladies’ man,” a waitress said as she was walking past with a tray of empty beer mugs. “Shall I have a look?”

“Please.” Marcy handed Devon’s photo to the buxom young woman.

The waitress’s loose blond curls fell toward the photograph. “Hmm,” she said encouragingly.

“Do you know her?”

“She looks a bit like Audrey, don’t she?” she said to the bartender.

“Audrey?” Marcy and Liam asked together.

“Yeah. You know, the girl we see hanging around with that other one, what’s her name? The quiet one who works for the O’Connor family.”

“I’m not sure I know who you’re talkin’ about,” Liam said.

“Of course you do. The nanny. What’s her name? Shannon, I think.”

“Oh, yeah. Now I know who you mean.” Liam took another look at the photograph, gazing at it for ten long seconds before shaking his head a second time. “Nah, no way that’s Audrey.”

“Well, I give you she’s a little younger than Audrey and not so tough lookin’.…”

“This picture was taken a few years ago,” Marcy explained.

“Well, there you go,” the waitress said.

“So you think this could be Audrey?” Marcy asked, trying to fit her tongue around the new name. Devon had always loved Audrey Hepburn, she reminded herself.

“Well, I can’t be sure, of course. But it could be.”

Marcy stuffed the picture back inside her purse, her heart threatening to leap from her chest. “Do you know where I can find her?”

“Sorry. No idea,” Liam said, turning his attention to a man at the far end of the bar.

“You might try the O’Connors,” the waitress volunteered. “Shannon’s their nanny. She could probably tell you where to find Audrey.”

“Hey, Kelly,” a customer called from his table against the wall. “How are you coming with those refills?”

“Be right there.”

“Where do I find the O’Connors?” Marcy called after her.

“They live over on Adelaide Road. Don’t know the exact address. But it’s the biggest house on the street. You can’t miss it.”

Marcy walked quickly to the door. “Thank you,” she called back as she stepped outside, but both Kelly and Liam were busy with customers and neither was listening.

A
DELAIDE ROAD WAS LOCATED
in the southeastern section of the city about two miles from its center. It was a surprisingly wide, winding street built up the side of a steep hill. The houses were all two stories and relatively new, making up for in square footage what they lacked in design integrity. The majority of them were painted either white or gray, with black shutters framing the front windows. Occasionally a lavender house popped up, or a set of shutters in bold fire-engine red, to relieve the monotony, bringing a small smile to Marcy’s lips as she walked by. Kelly had said to look for the biggest house on the street, but so far, all the homes looked roughly the same size, the only difference being whether they had a one- or two-car garage.