Babe, I'm ready for dying.
Said, Lord, take me up, lay my head front of that
moaning train.
Suddenly from out of the dark, a voice called, “You sure 'nuff gone feel like you been run over by a train you don't put that bottle down stop moaning them blues. Sound like a dog done treed a possum.”
What?
Harry struggled up out of the canvas sling, his guitar rattling on the patio bricks. His legs, beneath his boxers, spread like he knew some mean moves. Watch it! He grabbed his bottle by the neck, just in case. “Who the fuckâ?”
“Who the fuck you think?”
Harry shook his head. The voice was real familiar, but from somewhere far off in memory.
“I said who is it?”
“Open this goddamn door I'll show you who is it, unless you want me to cave it in.”
“Lavert?
Man,
is that you?”
The gate swung open as the huge black man tapped it with his shoulder. “What it is, Harry Zack.”
*
Two hours later, they hadn't budged. The gin bottle was long ago a dead soldier, and they'd wrung out a six-pack trying to get a handle on the fact that their paths hadn't crossed again until now.
Harry was shaking his head. “I bet if you were God, or if you were a birdâ”
“Now, which you talking about?” Lavert grinned. He'd always loved listening to this boy talk, from the very first day they'd met at Grambling. “God ain't no bird.”
“Now, you don't know that. God could be a buzzard for all you know.”
“I
know
God ain't no buzzard. God's gone be a bird, he'd be an eagle.”
“How come you so sure? Might be a pelican.”
“Louisiana pelican.” Lavert threw his massive head back and laughed. “Sheeeeit. Kind of thing you'd say, Zack.”
“So like you're a bird up there, is what I'm saying, and you can see you and me. Like we had little lights on us all the time.”
“What color lights?”
Harry narrowed his eyes. “You're just being difficult, man. Okay. I have a red light. You have a green light.”
Lavert grinned. He could see it now. Like little figures on a game board.
“Okay.”
“And here I am, with my red light”âHarry made a little hopping journey with the screw cap of the gin bottle across the low tableâ”going about my life. And here you are”âhe fingered the guitar pick he was using for Lavert's markerâ“with your green light, doing the same.”
“Yeah, but for a while my light got kind of dim, sitting up there under a bushel in Angola.”
“Okay, okay. But nonetheless”âHarry waggled the two markersâ“it's got to be, if you could see it from up above like God, I bet lots of times, I'm just going out this door while you coming in the other.” The guitar pick chased the bottle cap. “I paid my bill and left while you getting dressed to come hear the same tunes, same place.”
Lavert picked it up. “Like I done slipped my dick out of some sweet thing you just wondering if you ever gone get hard again.”
“Shit.”
They slapped hands across the table.
“Can you believe this?” Harry said. “Tell me again, now, you were just talking with some guys, and my name came up?”
So Lavert told him a version of the truth, putting in that he was cooking for someoneâleaving out that it was Joey the Horse.
“I like to lost it,” Lavert said. “Almost cut my foot off when I dropped that cleaver.”
“And then you just looked me up in the phone book, came over here. Hop, skip, and a jump away.” Harry shook his head. “Unbelievable.”
Lavert laughed. “Always been one of your favorite words. You 'member that timeâ?”
“You gon' tell that again? Jesus!”
“And then,” Lavert said, spreading his hands in an expansive gesture as if he were speaking to a crowd, drawing them in, “little old white boy done fainted dead away in the middle of registration.”
“Fuck. That gym was hot. About eleven hundred degrees.”
“White boys don't know nothing about no heat. Ain't never worked in no fields.”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah.”
“Little old white boy,
famous
little old white boy, first one ever come to Grambling, got himself a track scholarship, we figure you done run all the way up from New Orleans, little old white boy lying there, looking like a ghost on the gym floor.”
“You gonna take all night to tell this thing?”
“Comes to. Looks up at this circle of black faces peering down at him. “Saysâ”
“âGod, I didn't know angels were black.'”
And then they laughed, pounded each other on the back. It felt great to laugh like that.
“And nobody ever let me forget it,” Harry said. “Awh, it wuddn't that bad, was it?”
Harry shook his head, then tilted it back, staring up at where the stars were, except with the city glare you couldn't see them.
“Best years of my life,” he finally said.
“Go on.”
“I'm not kidding.”
“All the shit we gave you?”
Then they both settled in their chairs a bit. Lavert chuckled low in his throat. “Me too. That's for damn sure.”
“We had some good times, didn't we? You remember that time I won that big race?”
“Night of the football game that that one other white boy we had, come a year after you, scored the winning touchdown. Then two seconds later y'all's race, one of them what ended in the stadium, you come flying in in the lead, ahead of the pack, your pore little face red as a beet.”
“Six weeks after that, people still congratulating me on that touchdown.”
Lavert laughed. “How you expect us to tell y'all apart?” He stretched long. “Yeah, lordy, them was the good times. Listen, you want me to go over to the A&P on Royal get some more beer? Now that you got over your mean reds.”
“I didn't have the mean reds, man.”
“Yeah? Then why you sitting out there in your underpants moaning about some lady?”
Harry gave him a look.
“Don't hardcase me, sucker. Tell Papa L all about it.”
“Awh, it's nothing.” But the next thing Harry knew, he was telling Lavert about Samâstarting with that very afternoon.
“So she thinks you're stupid.”
“That's what it feels like.”
“She treat you that way from the git-go, you stupid to be messing around with her in the first place.”
“Unh-uh. The first time I saw her she pretended I was invisibleânot stupid.”
“Where was that?”
“Day before Mardi Gras. Out at the airport.”
“Oh yeah? What you doing out there?”
“Following a lady lied about a neck injury. For, you know, the insurance company I told you I'm working for.”
“Oh, yeah? Lady white?”
“Yeah, Lavert. See, Tench Young is your equal opportunityâ”
“Redheaded? Built like a brick shithouse?”
That made Harry sit up.
“Right! Chéri. You know Chéri?”
“Who the hell do you think was driving the limo, son, picked her up?”
“Jesus H. Christ! You work for Joey Cangiano, Lavert?”
“God, you white boys swear something awful.”
“I can't fucking believe it. You're hooked up with Joeyâwe were
that
close to one another.”
“You and your little old red and green light theory you'se talking about earlier, we been closer than that hundreds of times, bopping around the Quarter.”
“Yeah, but see, that's exactly what I'm talking about. I was right there, but I didn't see you.”
Then an idea occurred to Lavert. “So, you didn't see that little old white boy fell out in the street on me?”
Harry laughed. “No, but I know exactly what you're talking about.”
And then he told Lavert about his hiding behind the pile of luggage and a taxi dispatcher that day so Chéri wouldn't see him. How he missed the big event, but overheard Chéri later in the Pelican telling about it.
“So you don't know who that sucker is,” said Lavert.
“Who?”
“The little sucker fell out in street, thought he'd been shot?”
“No, why?”
“I want to find him for G.T.”
“G.T. Johnson?”
“That very lady. That girl makes my heart sing.”
Harry clapped his hands to his head. “Unfriggingbelievable. You know she's sort of a friend of Sam's?”
“Sam a tall, good-looking black-headed woman? Curly hair? Chest?”
“Yep.”
“I don't know her.”
“Shit!” Harry punched Lavert in the arm. “Where'd you see her?”
“Standing out on Royal this afternoon talking with G.T.”
“In front of the Royal O?”
“Precisely.”
“That must have been right before she told me I was ignorant.”
“Because you didn't find this drug dealer?”
“I don't know. I guess that's part of it. Christ, I'd just told her I'd tracked down this woman Madeline Villère, used toâ”
“What's his name?”
“Who?”
“The drug dealer, asshole.”
“Billy Jack.”
Lavert sat there like a big stone deciding whether or not to come clean with Harry.
Harry stared at him for a while, remembering Sam's legs beneath that polka-dot skirt. Then he added, “Billy Jack's what Sam said. I'm not sure if Jack's his last name.”
“I heard you.”
“So why are you sitting there looking stupid?”
“âCause I'd rather do that than listen to you say
unbelievable
again.”
“What the hell are you talking about?”
“
That's
how your name came up, asshole. This evening when I was cooking dinner for Joey and the boys, Billy Jack is the creep Frankie Zito started talking about. Zito said somebody was asking about Billy Jackâwho's one of their dealers, sort of a tenth cousin twice removed from the organization, you know what I mean. Boy's
way
down the line. But that's what got Joey all worked up, somebody was asking about a man even remotely connected to him. That somebody asking was
you,
son. That's where I heard your name.”
A hand grabbed Harry's bowels. Did this mean he was dead? He was too young to be dead. “Joey gonna have me fed to the fishes?”
“Nah. I don't think so. Franke Zito seemed a hell of a lot more pissed off at this Billy Jackâshit, what'd they say his last name wasâthan you.”
“Jack's not his last name? You
know
his last name?”
“If I could remember it, I'd tell you right now, wouldn't I? I just wasn't paying that much attention, till they mentioned you.”
“Shit.”
“Listen. You want me to leave? I got better places I could spend my time, middle of the night, 'stead of sitting around with you. People who wear lots prettier undies. You know what I mean?”
“Fuck you, Lavert. You were in the frigging room when they said the guy's name, and you don't know who it is.”
“Yeah? Well, you're out at the airport, and you don't see me. Don't see the little guy who thought I'd shot him, the one G.T. picked up and ran out on her. Now, if I can find him, make me a whole lot of points with G.T. Whereas
you,
you got no problem. I can find you your goddamn Billy Jack Whazzits, Zack. All I got to do is ask Frankie Zito.”
“For real?”
“What do you think this is, son? The comics? This is the friggin' organization.”
“So you'll do that?”
“Give me one good reason I should.”
“'Cause I'll beat the shit out of you if you don't.” Harry stood, the top of his head way beneath Lavert's chin, and slugged his old friend in the chest.
Lavert picked him up and held him straight-armed out, level, then drew him in and kissed him dead on the lips.
“Jesus H. Christ!” Harry sputtered. “The Jolly Black Giant's turned queer.”
“No, I ain't.” Lavert laughed. “I'm just so happy to see my best little old white boy again. I tell you what, sport.”
“Put me down and tell me.”
Lavert did. “We'll do a Batman and Robin. I get to be Batman. We'll find both those suckers and win those ladies. How's that, Zack?”