Nikki Gemmell’s Threesome: The Bride Stripped Bare, With the Body, I Take You (40 page)

‘Tell me about your yourself. Who do you belong to?’

‘Nobody,’ you protest.

‘But where’s your family? What does your father do? Beddington, eh. So, a miner? A tradie?’ He smiles, warming you up. ‘A dole bludger?’

You giggle. ‘You don’t need to know. You’ll never be meeting him, believe me. He’d take one look at you and it’d all be in his face – pah, couldn’t change a tyre, or fix a radiator, or spark a plug. That’s what he’d be like. Horribly rude and terrible to you, like you’re not worth the effort.’

‘And he’d be absolutely right. I can’t do a bit of it.’

You both burst out laughing.

‘Well
I
can.’

‘I bet you can.’ The man picks up his friend’s leftover glass of wine and raises it in a toast. ‘And hooray to that. I’m so glad you’ve found us in Woondala. I think you’re a breath of fresh air. Just what the doctor ordered.’

‘What’s his name?’ Your head flicks to the study door. ‘He never told me. Is this his house? How long has he been here?’

‘That man who stormed out on us both is extremely rude,’ he says loudly, ‘and there is no point in learning anything from
him for he has nothing useful to impart and too much work to do for anyone – or anything – else.’ His voice drops. ‘But if you must know – and I think you do – his name is Tolly.’

You blink. ‘Tol …’ The word fills up your mouth.

‘He
hates
it. You must call him it instantly.’

You chuckle. ‘Maybe he’ll be nice to me then.’

‘Oh, don’t count on it. He’s not good at noticing
anyone
at the moment. Including me, his oldest friend.’

‘Really? I notice everyone.’

‘I know you do. I can tell. No, young Tolly in there is quite impossible. A man full of secrets. An exile, by nature, an exile from life; but I am
extremely
fond of him – when he’s not driving me around the bend. Admire him, to be honest. And don’t I hate saying that.’

‘Why?’

‘Because he does what so many of us dream of doing and never, actually, manage.’

‘What’s that?’

‘He’s always been very good at constructing precisely the life that he wants. With no compromises. And crucially, sticking to it.’ He sighs. ‘And few of us have the courage to do that.’

‘So who are
you
, by the way?’

‘Julian.’

‘Julian! What kind of poncy name is that? You’d never get a Julian in Beddington.’

He roars with laughter and polishes off his glass.

‘But that’s why I’m staying in here, cowering behind the big fence.’

Your fingers run the length of a wallpaper strip that’s falling away to reveal its horsehair and plaster underneath. You could fix it in ten minutes, you tell Julian. Tell him that Tolly touches everything so lightly in this place. That if it was yours you’d be cherishing it quick smart before it’s completely beyond repair – which is not far off. Can’t he see it?

‘Is this
all
his?’

‘Yes,’ Julian grimaces, in pity for the house. ‘His grandmother left it to him – much to the annoyance of the rest of the family – and he hasn’t done a thing with it since. The lazy bugger. Well, he’s working through it, apparently, but it’ll never get done at this rate. It’s a poisoned chalice to be honest; too big a task. Arsenic was used in the original paint. The roof’s falling in, window frames are falling out, ants are starting to investigate and the bush is taking over the paddocks. There are convict nails in the joins and they’re not holding anything, anymore – everything is full of rust. Their revenge, I think. The walls need stripping. The wallpaper was made using child labour way back in England; it’s all very Dickensian, in a
most horrible way. It’s cotton flocking, which gave all the little Oliver Twists a life expectancy of about seven years. Buggered their lungs. This place has many ghosts.’

‘It needs a lot of love.’

‘Tolly’s also – extremely – protective of it,’ Julian says carefully. ‘It’s his sanctuary. No one comes to it, except me. Or so I thought.’ He sighs. ‘And now, of course, we have you. The, what was it? Annoyance.’ He chuckles warmly.

‘I can help here.’ You spin around, assessing bowed ceilings and peeling paint and wall cracks. Julian smiles as if he knows exactly what you need right now. His finger swirls around the empty glass and is popped in his mouth.

‘Come on,’ he says conspiratorially.

You are grabbed by the hand, you are led out.

The flutter of your belly.

You are led to the door of the workroom.

Julian raps smartly with the back of his knuckles.

‘Hey, you. A handyman awaits. Sorry,
woman
.’

‘What’s my payment?’ you whisper, giggly. ‘I’m not doing this for free you know.’

Julian narrows his eyes and surveys, turning you slightly this way and that, as if he is setting a prized piece of porcelain on the mantelpiece to catch the best view from the door. He holds your chin, puts his palm flat on your back to stand you up straight, tilts your shoulders, correcting.

‘Payment. Better posture. A new life. Lots of new words. New experiences. And, er, numerous lessons about livestock husbandry.’

‘Cheeky!’

From the locked room, silence.

‘She might be good for you,’ Julian teases to the firmly shut door. ‘Get you working again, along with the house. Yes? Any takers?’

From the room, silence.

‘Come on, mate. Do us all a favour.’ Julian winks at you with an enormous grin.

A fist thumps onto a surface, probably the work bench.

‘Something’s got to change, Tol.’ Deadly serious.

‘I have work to do. This is a
child
.’ The voice dismissive.

‘Really?’ Julian puts on his glasses and examines you close, up and down, as if it’s the first time he’s properly noticed you.

‘From the valley,’ the voice adds. Pointed, as if that explains it all and concludes it all.

‘I bet she’d scrub up beautifully. Why don’t you take her on? Make it your project. Have a bit of fun. Get things moving again.’

‘What needs to get moving?’ you ask.

‘See? Enthusiasm! And we could
all
do with a bit more of that,’ Julian laughs.

‘The bike is in the shed.’

‘Hey, wait,’ you wail, not wanting this to stop just yet.

‘Let her help around the house. She’s up for anything.’ Julian lifts out your arms as if sculpting you for a dance then spins you around.

‘What’s going on here?’ you ask, stepping back, it’s a game veering too far.

‘It’s a most frightful situation,’ Julian explains, putting his arm around you and shaking his head sorrowfully. ‘My poor young friend has become quite the recluse up here. You see, his heart was broken most cruelly some time ago and since then he’s just shut himself away, hiding from all the world –’ his tone darkens dramatically – ‘not being productive in
any
way.
It’s utterly crushed him. He’s never recovered. We all despair. His mother most of all.’

‘Julian …’ The growl is furious from the other side.

‘The situation is completely hopeless,’ he sighs in mock despair.

‘The shed.
Now
.’ The voice roars. You jump. Julian ushers you hurriedly away.

‘Well, it was worth a try.’

He shakes your hand firmly in farewell, and winks.

‘Good luck … Annoyance.’

The joy roguish through you as you retrieve your bike, slip out the new tube from your pocket, fix the tyre and leave the old inner tube looped jauntily over the handle of the shed door and ride off tall, knowing they’re both watching; zinging with life, and power, and light.

Your
difference
.

You’ll be back. Oh yes.

Just as you know that you would never be attracted to a Julian, you also know that Tol has snared you and the trap is now binding your heart. And a flicker of something from him, too, in response; yes, no, surely? It is how he looked at you when you came back – how he didn’t look – how he talked to you and how he couldn’t. You are sure. You have no idea.

How he left the gate open when he said he would not.

Everything a sign, everything a signal and you fever it all in your head, over and over, trying to make sense of it.

Only one way to find out.

You return two days later. Around your waist is a leather tool belt worn to the softness of pelt. It is from your father’s shed, with its precise walls of sized screwdrivers and spanners, the most ordered pocket of his life. A skewer has worked through another hole in the belt so it sits perfectly across your hips.

The gate is ajar.

As you knew it would be.

You walk your bike up Tol’s driveway. He is sitting on the verandah with his dog beside him; running his hands through the fur and looking for ticks. He glances up. He blushes, in
annoyance or shock or something else, you can’t read it. He is looking at your tool belt. You come right up to him. He doesn’t say anything. He stands.

He does not say to go away.

Everything a sign, everything a signal.

The heat of that afternoon weighted with it. As you stand, face to face.