Next to Forever (Never Letting Go) (13 page)

When I’m in the nursery, a feeling of love and hope fills me. Just thinking about our baby and future makes me happy. The feeling is hard to describe
, but Connor understands because he feels the same way when he’s in here decorating. The look in his eyes tells me that he can’t wait either. The crib is finally here and it’s starting to feel so real. The beige colored crib is against the wall, and the changing table stands next to it. We haven’t decided on the color of the room or any other decoration, since we’re not sure if we’re having a boy or girl. Connor’s slowly building a bookcase for baby so we can start putting books that we use to read when we were young. Our baby is going to have the world and baby will always know how much we love him or her.

We talk more about how to set up the nursery and decide to start our registry once we find out if we’re having a baby boy or a baby girl. After discussing how I want the nursery to be, we head downstairs and relax. It’s been a while since we’ve done this. Connor’s been working late into the night
, and it sucks having him come home late at night but I understand work is getting busy.

“Connor, I think we should paint the nursery yellow!” I walk over to him on the couch and sit on his lap. “Yellow is a neutral color and I want everything to be set up and pretty.”

He rubs my knee and his hand trails down my leg with a sexy smirk on his face. “Babe,” he says, kissing me on the top of my nose. “We have a while longer before he gets here.”

I rest my head on his shoulder. “How do you know we’re going to have a boy?”

“I have a feeling.” He kisses my forehead again and we sit on the couch enjoying each other’s company.

“I want everything to be perfect.” I touch my stomach and even though I’m only sixteen weeks pregnant, it feels amazing knowing our baby is growing inside me every day. My
hand is on my stomach and I can feel baby bump kicking. “Oh my God! Connor!” I take his hand and place it on my stomach. He looks at me with wide eyes.

“This is amazing
.” Connor kneels down in front of me, kissing my stomach. “Hi, baby. It’s daddy. Are you happy right now? You’re moving a lot.” We both laugh and talk to baby bump.

“Do you want a boy or a girl?”

Connor doesn’t wait to answer. “I want a healthy baby. I don’t care if we have a boy or a girl.” He brings me down for another kiss. I love how he makes me feel. He trails his tongue on my bottom lip and I let out a soft moan.

“Connor,” I whimper. His hands go under my shirt, playing
with my bra, trying to get it off.

Suddenly, we hear…
“Erinnnnnnnnn!”

Connor clenches his jaw. “You’ve got to be fucking kidding me.”

I laugh, kissing him on the cheek and getting up to straighten my clothes. Sophia comes into the kitchen smiling. She looks at Connor and me, and covers her mouth. “Oh! I’m sorry!”

Connor gets up, mumbling under his breath and goes outside on the deck. I can’t help but laugh when he gets like this. “Don’t worry about him. I’ll take care of him tonight.”

Sophia covers her ears and closes her eyes. “Ew, stop, I don’t want to know anymore!”

My eyes go to the bags that are by her feet. “What do you have in those bags?”

“Oh! Adam and I saw this at the mall and bought it for you.” Sophia picks up the bags and we walk to the living room and sit on the couch. She takes out baby books and a massager. I look at everything she’s giving me and can’t help but feel overwhelmed with the support and love from my best friend.

“Soph, these are so sweet!” I give her a hug and start crying. Sophia hugs me back and cries
, too. “I hate my fucking emotions!”

“I know
. Me, too!”

The more I think about how my life is changing, the better I feel. Connor isn’t traveling for work anymore
, but the hours can be crazy. I still miss him when he’s not around, but I love how much he supports us and our future. I hear him come in with Adam. They’re laughing and drinking beer. The guys come in the living room, and they are eyeing Sophia and me, as we dry our tears and get up from the floor.

Adam kisses Sophia on the cheek and puts his arm around her. “Crying again?”

“Stop! It’s not my fault. My hormones are everywhere, Adam! You try being pregnant.”

“Thank God I’m not.” Sophia punches him in the stomach. “Ooof, thanks
, pretty girl.”

“That’s what you get!” Sophia looks at her watch and then at me. “Can we go out to dinner? I’m so hungry!”

I look at Connor, waiting for him to respond. I’m actually getting hungry, too. “Alright, let’s go to Giovennti’s.”

Dinner goes by well. It’s nice to see Sophia and Adam and spend time with them. Connor and Adam talk about Optimax while Sophia and I talk about what’s going on with our lives. His hand never leaves my thigh
, and I love how his touch makes me feel safe and warm. I look over at him and see something familiar in his eyes. I know he wants me, and I want him so bad. I slowly lick my lips, seducing him with my expressions. He closes his eyes and squeezes my thigh. I feel the moisture between my legs but look away from him and continue my conversation with Sophia.

“You’re lucky we aren’t at home right now
, my sweet Erin,” he leans in, whispering in my ear.

I turn my head
toward him and bite his lower lip. “Game on, sir.” I smile and turn back to Sophia. She looks at us with awe as we finish our dinner.

After a few hours eating and talking, we all decide to call it a night and head home. We say good night to Sophia and Adam
, and I tell Sophia to text me tomorrow so we can get shopping done. The car pulls up and Connor opens the door for me. He gets in a few moments later and starts the drive back home. It’s quiet in the car, but the sexual tension is in the air. I look down and see a bulge in his jeans. My hand slides up and down his thigh.

Connor closes his eyes and his breathing quickens. I love teasing him this way, having him wrapped around my fingers. “Connor,” I whisper, moving my hand to the bulge in his jeans. “What’s wrong
, babe?”

He doesn’t say anything but I hear the car accelerating
, and I can’t help but laugh. He pulls into the driveway in less than three minutes, gets out of the car to open my door, and throws me over his shoulder. Usually, I’d be irritated by his caveman ways but I want him. I need him. Connor runs into the house and slowly brings me down from his shoulders. I wrap my legs around his waist and kiss him as if tonight was our last night together. He pushes me against the front door, pushing up my dress and exploring me with his fingers. He moves my panties to the side and without warning, pushes two fingers in me.

“Oh
, Connor,” I moan.

“You’re so wet
, baby. Is it because of me? Do I make you wet? Tell me.”

I kiss his cheek down to his neck, nipping his ear. “Yes, babe. Always you. Just you.”

Connor removes his fingers from me and walks us up the stairs to our bedroom, never breaking our kiss. He grabs my head and brings me in closer to deepen our kiss. Right now, in this moment, all I want is to be with the man of my dreams. My future husband and father to our baby.

We make it to the bedroom and Connor slowly puts me down. The desire pools from his eyes and it drives me crazy. I love looking at him and seeing his boyish looks. A cocky smirk comes on his face as I rest on my elbows eyeing his growing erection. Connor grabs the bottom of my dress and slowly pulls it over my head. He admires my body, looking at my lacy black bra and thong. His eyes slowly go up and down my body, licking his lips, waiting for the perfect moment to take me. My bra and panties come off within seconds. I love how my body turns him on and how he makes me sexy and confident. The way his eyes are full of love and desire drives me wild. The sensual vibe in our bedroom is strong.

“Baby, what are you waiting for?” I smile, slowly getting up and unbuttoning his shirt. I unbutton each one slowly, never breaking our eye contact. I pull his shirt off and grab the hem of his white tee shirt. I pull it up over his head and kiss his muscular chest. I love his body. His broad shoulders, tight chest, and incredible six pack. My hand runs over his deep v. I raise my head so our eyes connect again. I touch his face and bring him close to my face. “I love you, Connor, and I want you... Now.”

His hands run down my back to my perky ass. He smiles and kisses me again, lifting me up in the air
. “Put your legs around my neck,” he demands.

Oh my God, what’s he thinking?
I do as he says. His hands hold each side of my hips, tightly. He walks us over to the wall, and I feel the coolness of the wall on my back, still trying to figure out what he’s up to. Then all of a sudden, he buries his face into my lady parts. His fast tongue doesn’t wait as he licks and sucks my clit. I throw my head back, hitting the wall, and push his head deeper into me. “God, yes, Connor! Keep going.”

His greedy tongue flicks my clit and he keeps his steady pace making sure to lick and suck it all over. I’m getting wetter with excitement and pleasure from his glorious mouth. He grips my hips harder, making me cry out from the pain from his hands and pleasure from his mouth. Connor abruptly stops just as I’m about to come, “Connor?”
I feel myself getting irritated and frustrated, but his smile comes back on his sexy face. He walks backwards, away from the wall, and toward the bed. He slowly puts me down, removing his jeans and boxers, releasing his erection from the confines of his clothes. He towers over me, spreading my legs with his. He strokes my face with his hands. Looking into my eyes. “You’re so beautiful, do you know that?”

“You make me feel beautiful.”

Connor enters me, and without warning, thrusts himself into me, faster and harder. I want more. I need more.

“Faster! Connor, keep going!”

He pulls out and pulls me to the edge of the bed. My ass is nearly off but Connor doesn’t let me fall. He grabs my legs and kisses each one. He holds onto my ankles and rests them on his shoulders, bending my knees and spreading me wider.

“Perfect, baby.” He enters me again and pushes into me deeper and deeper. I feel my orgasm coming
. but I don’t want Connor to stop or slow down.

“I’m...Oh my God! Connor!” he drives into me harder, hitting my sensitive spot over and over again “Oh God! Oh God! I’m…Cominnnnng.”
My orgasm detonates. Waves of pleasure rock my whole body and I ride the river of ecstasy that my perfect man has bestowed upon my body. With a few more measured thrusts, Connor spills his warmness into me with his eyes closed, head thrown back, calling out my name.  He slowly pulls out and lies down next to me, pulling me into his arms.

“God, I love you so much.” He kisses my forehead and rests his chin on top of my head.

“I love you more.” I laugh, pushing him away. I head into the bathroom and clean myself up. Connor comes in a few seconds after, kissing the top of my head. We look at each other and start laughing out of nowhere.

Connor

Another day in the office. I’m looking through some meeting notes and putting together a presentation for next week with the representatives from California. Without thinking, I check my phone and see that Erin hasn’t texted me today. I check the time. It’s nearly one in the afternoon.

Connor: Hey, baby. I miss you. What you doing?

I wait for a response
, but nothing. It’s not like her to not answer my text messages. I start getting worried and dial Sophia’s number. Sitting and waiting for Sophia to answer is getting me anxious, and I can’t stop shaking my leg.  

“Hi
, sweetie, what’s up?” I hear her eating through the phone and laugh.

“Can you stop chewing in the phone please?” I hear her laughing back
. “Have you seen or heard from Erin? She hasn’t’ texted me or anything.”

“Ummm, she ah
...”

“Sophia?”

“She’s with Vander now. They’re looking at houses, and he, um, is taking her out to lunch.”

I get up from my chair and start pacing my office. I hate that Erin is working
anyway, and with Vander. I have nothing against the guy but there’s something about him that makes me uncomfortable to have him alone with my fiancée again! I hold my phone tighter to my ear and try to remain calm. “You didn’t want to go?”

“
Ummm, no. Vander said they were going to be on the go most of the day and didn’t want me to be bored with all the talk about house hunting, so I decided to stay behind.”

“Yeah
, I know,” I respond, rubbing my eyes. “Alright, I’ll call her. Thanks, Soph.”

“No problem. Bye
, Connor!”

“Bye
, Soph.” Before I call Erin, my phone vibrates and it’s a text message from Erin.

Erin: Sorry babe. Today’s been crazy busy. I’m at lunch with Vander now and we have a few more houses to look at. Probably going to be a long night.

Me: How are you feeling? Is it okay for you to be doing so much? You’ve been at it since this morning. I want you to go home soon and rest. This stress isn’t good for you, baby.