Navidad & Matanza (2 page)

This information comes from diverse sources: guards, waiters, clerks, receptionists, and janitors, who, at the time, also hoped to put together the case's missing pieces, but who only succeeded in helping the police declare unverifiable the possibilities of homicide or kidnapping. It has been tacitly assumed that Bruno Vivar—a
legal adult—simply abandoned his family without warning, which is not a crime in Chile.

The most perplexing question is why the name of Alicia Vivar, the fourteen-year-old girl, appears only twice in the case file. Especially after reviewing in detail the reports of repeated sightings of her brother, Bruno. Because Bruno has never once reappeared alone. The accounts agree that he arrives at hotel parking lots in a variety of expensive cars always driven by a man whose smile also appears in police archives, although in another section: Boris Real.

Boris Real became known in Chile in 1984 as the young Chilean executive who, representing a group of Swiss investors wanting to buy Petrohue Bank, ended up in the Capuchinos jail as a result of an antimonopoly suit filed by the Superintendent of Banks, when it was confirmed that the Swiss were linked to an Australian investment group that had acquired the Atacama Bank and, also to a Spanish-Norwegian group that acquired De Los Lagos Bank and Antonio Varas Bank. He was tried as the representative of the inscrutable international consortium that attempted to acquire fifty-one percent of Chilean banks, a move that, it is noted, could have had consequences for our country beyond the strictly financial. The group in question immediately withdrew from the country, leaving no discernible trace. At least until the summer of 1999. Of course, Boris Real was not that man's actual name. It was the alias of Francisco Virditti (41), who admitted to having headed a group of six shareholders motivated by “nothing more than the legitimate game of the market,” as he stated in the only interview he's ever given.

Seven years later, when the Chilean press scarcely recalled the business conspiracies that helped prevent analysis of the Pinochet recession, there came the unfortunate death of Juan Ausencio Martínez Salas. February fifth, on the seventeenth hole of the Prince of Wales Golf Club, a heart attack ended the days of the Undersecretary of Education of Patricio Aylwin's administration. That afternoon, Martínez Salas was strolling the links of the capital's golf club in the company of two friends from his time as an MBA student at the University of Chicago: an executive in the board and video game industry Jose Francisco Vivar, and Boris Real. A check of the witnesses in the Civil Register reveals that the given name of the executive who was present at the moment of death is Boris Real Yañez (48), and there is no request for a change of name associated with his identity. Perhaps it was another Boris Real; perhaps Francisco Virditti was the real pseudonym. Nevertheless, another newspaper photograph, which shows Real speaking about his dear friend, reveals the face of the same businessman who declared himself innocent in front of the Superintendent of Banks in 1984. In a press conference on the 16
^th
of May 1995, congressman Nelson Avila denounced the possibility of a secret murder plot when the autopsy results for undersecretary Martínez Salas suggested traces of poison in his system. Public shock lasted two days. As so often happens, there was talk of political crisis, but no particular individual was implicated. Soon everything was forgotten. Boris Real was subpoenaed in his Vitacura residence before returning to anonymity. Various accounts report that he made a statement to Irma Sepulveda, the judge in charge of the trial investigating the death of Martínez Salas. Today it's almost impossible to find Boris
Real; he has no known residence and his name doesn't appear in any public record. Approached by the press in the days following his children's disappearance, Jose Francisco Vivar stated that he was no longer in contact with his friend.

Even more disturbing, one evening in July of 1997, with my own eyes I saw Vivar, Boris Real, and congressman Nelson Avila walking on the beach in Cachagua. They were accompanied by their respective children. Of course I urged my companion to surreptitiously eavesdrop with me. The situation only became relevant for me after I started investigating the incidents in Navidad and Matanza: Boris Real was walking hand in hand with little Alicia Vivar, then a girl of twelve. They were walking a slight distance behind the rest of the group. She asked him to go with her to the rocks to look for seashells. She didn't address him formally or call him uncle, just Boris. Then they talked about the reddish color of the clouds at that time of day and she asked him how long it would be until the end of the world.

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T
HAT SUMMER THEY
traversed the beaches of Chile's central coast in a Cadillac. Virditti reclined the passenger seat, shut his eyes, and with closed lips, hummed old songs from a tape made for him by a woman years before. “Memories Are Made of This” could be heard. He took drags on a cigar now and then, that being the only movement indicating to someone watching from outside that he wasn't asleep. Specifically for someone watching from the other side of the beach; there I was on my towel, lying down, with a pair of binoculars. Alicia was at my side. Or rather: she occasionally
came shivering from the sea to lie down beside me, clutching her arms tightly against the longed-for skin of her body. I dropped my binoculars, picked up a handful of sand, and let it fall delicately along the path traced by the freckles on her back between her shoulder blades down to her waist. But she didn't smile. With closed eyes she murmured,
Fist-fuck
, and only upon hearing this immensely disturbing expression she reminded me that she wasn't happy and never would be. Those nights she spoke to me in English, from her room across the hotel hallway, in a voice hoarse with weeping or laughter, the voice of a woman who has pissed herself laughing. She told me terrible stories of children that transformed into the story of her nightmares: a rabbit walking by, her on top of another woman whom I also love, sucking on her dried-up breast, unaware. On top of a grave. Brazenly she said: The grave into which I'm now staring. Would you like to know what I see?

Obviously, the Alicia of whom I speak is not the same girl of fourteen, at least not the Alicia Vivar for whom the police are still searching. She stood up; she went running toward the sea. She kicked sand in my eyes. For peeking! she shouted. So I ran after her, grabbing her, the waves already over our shoulders, and held her underwater with the weight of my whole body for half a minute. She came up gasping and didn't want to speak to me. Then I took her face in my hands and said to her: My little girl, my lost one, my indecipherable book. Sure, moron, your little girl my ass, she responded and then leaned in and bit my lip. This is what I had to discover. That we'll never be allowed to experience a desire we simply cannot handle. I write this for her, wherever she is. For me, this report will not be neutral: hundreds of connotations have imposed themselves between me and her, because I was naïve
enough to think that love has something to do with words, with the proper use of them. Now I'm afraid to speak; I'll just become a professional. But there is one truth. I loved Alicia. Above all: I love her still. Whatever name she has now.

That's the reason I write at this late hour. Returning after forty hours of work in the laboratory. Drunk. Alone. Lost. With my head in the grave. I know what's right, what awaits me, and the splendor. Glimpses. I also know that sometimes in the Cadillac, Francisco Virditti opened his eyes and watched how Bruno headed for the beach wearing nothing but a bathing suit. Virditti knew perfectly well which girl Bruno had chosen that afternoon, all of them different, but resembling each other in the unfathomable. Bruno would get ready to go in the water and dive in next to them, make a disarming joke, laugh, a sidelong glance, and manage to randomly brush up against them in the salt and the spray. And, after ten minutes, the girl, moved by Bruno Vivar's purple lips, would offer to share her towel with him. This was the moment they waited for, when they arrived where her things had been, the girl would pale to find her towels had been stolen. Her face would empty. It reminded me of my sister; or rather, the daughter of my father, Bruno would tell me much later, between two whiskeys, confronting a death threat: one that I made. Arrogant, twisted, motherfucking fool. If I had him in front of me now I wouldn't let him speak. I'd spit on him and kick the shit out of him. There's nothing more to say. At that same moment, in the car, Virditti was dying of laughter. He'd managed to cross the beach, take the towels, and return coolly to the passenger seat of the Cadillac, while Bruno plied his charms amid the waves. But the game was
interrupted when Alicia decided to wait for Francisco Virditti in the backseat of the Cadillac and greet him: Fool, you're the one I was looking for. I realize there was nothing I could've done to stop her. Then he started the car and flew toward the highway. Out there, where death so often dwells.

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I
WANT TO TELL
you how we imagine the organization's facilities outside the walls of the six bedrooms, the entertainment room, meeting room, bathrooms, and laboratory where they've locked us. Our idea is based on the few things Juan Carlos Montes has told us, and the din we sometimes hear in the night. There's a bubbling machine at the center of a four-hundred-and-sixty square foot industrial plant, beneath a remote mountain, desert, or glacier in the United States. Thick tubes surround it, running through lead walls that contain the radioactive chemicals. In the center there's a glass dome where the intangible, glowing substance we call hadón reacts. Everything painted blue and white. Cold bulbs that do not light or flicker. As in our dormitories, a reflective panel covers the surface of the walls, ceilings, and floor. But it's not a mirror. Everything it reflects forms part of the surveillance record at the Masters Lab. It's also the medium they use to communicate: sometimes in the morning you might be getting dressed, brushing your teeth, or simply examining your face or your back in the mirror, and your image disappears, like a stone thrown into a pool. The reflection reforms, but now it's the face of someone else, in some other location, materializing to tell you something.

And so it was this morning. Immediately my reflection transformed into Montes, informing me that we had a very important matter to discuss that afternoon. I speculated that it had to do with the chapters of the novel-game Martes and I had recently written. Montes would ask us to end this diversion. He wouldn't have been pleased with the story about the girl and the father who swim in the sea while their towels are stolen, because he would have recognized, first the appearances of Edgar Lee Masters and Real (coincidences, he might surmise at first) and then of the hadón and the Vivars, as a rabidly explicit protest on our part against the silencing of Sabado, who'd been locked in her bedroom for more than a month. I feared the worst.

I sat down to wait in one of the meeting room's translucent chairs. As my eyes followed, on the screen of the table's central panel, three-dimensional simulations of genetically amnesic mice passively reacting to hadón (before normal mice, also hadonized, devoured them furiously), I entertained myself by planning the disappearance of the journalist, whom I'd succeeded in establishing as the protagonist-narrator confronting the truth of the Vivar case: there was no truth. It was all a farce. Maybe it'd have something to do with some scheme of Boris Real's to divert suspicion regarding his involvement in the accident at the Vivar's family pool that took the lives of Juan Carlos Montes's two children. Maybe it'd simply be related to thoughts Alicia wrote down in the notebook she hid in horror under her bed every time her father tapped softly at her door, coming in to tell her the same story he told every night,
Alice in the Underworld
; the same notebook that the journalist would find in the glove compartment of his car on his way back to Santiago, the handwriting so similar to his own that it made him doubt his sanity.

I was lost in these musings when the sliding door blinked open and shut. Juan Carlos Montes, pale and scowling, stood in front of me. He explained that the project had come to an end. He wanted me to know that his father was a great scientist. A specialist, respected equally in the logic and metaphysics of quantum theory, as well as in behavioral predictions given limited variables. So, while we were developing a chemical meant to inhibit all social impulses in mice, Montes's father was testing how we—seven human beings subjected to a limited routine, limited spatial and temporal freedom, to emotional relations regulated by light, ambient temperature, and the most awful food and music—would respond to his disintegration hypothesis. So he'd let us play at this idiotic email novel, even though we spoke ill of him, believing access to our inboxes to be personal and private. Everyone's subjectivity would be more compromised in a literary creation than in the work of synthesizing hadón, and it was to their advantage that the course of our aggravation, fear, hate, and inevitable conflict be recorded in the first person. His father was a man of acute perspicacity, he told me. He'd projected a rule of analogous synchrony, predicting that, in the moment Martes, Sabado, and I finally arrived at a form of hadón a human metabolism could tolerate, our relationship would disintegrate, fatally. As an homage to our work, the video of our sojourn in the laboratory would be used by Montes before the OMS commission as proof that, in reality, human beings do not require ad campaigns or drug therapy to feel hate, they possess an instinctive propensity for it. So, the supposed side effects of hadón could only be presumed, never proven.

Nothing that Juan Carlos Montes said surprised me. I listened to him without confusion or hope, like someone reading a book or
watching a movie. He told me that now they were going to shut me in a room with Martes until one of us destroyed the other. Whoever was left alive would be allowed to leave with a bank account containing a considerable sum and no memory of the last ten months. Then I asked about Sabado. Montes took a step back and told me that she was no longer in her bedroom, or in any other area of the laboratory. Although it seemed impossible, she'd managed to escape through the air ducts in the bathroom or the entertainment room. It was likely that no one would ever see her again. She'd spend a few days slithering through the underground sewer system of the industrial complex, looking desperately for a way to the surface. But she wouldn't find one. Sabado would die of starvation or gangrene in the
Underworld
, Montes said ironically. I could take no more; I stood up loudly from my chair and jumped on him, spitting. I remember stomping on his head until his face was paler than before. My foot looked like a boot of blood.