My Sweet Folly (12 page)

Robert received the message in his dressing room, delivered by a silent Lander with his breakfast tray. He had been doing nothing, simply sitting in a chair staring at the rows of books and bound journals that lined the small dark room, holding his neckcloth dangling in his hand.

Doing nothing. Thinking nothing. When he saw the tray, smelled the fragrance of warm bread and tea, his mouth watered painfully. The note lying beside the silver cover made his heart squeeze hot blood into his brain. But he merely nodded dismissal to Lander.

The butler bowed, remaining in place. “It is from Mrs. Hamilton,” he said. “She requests the favor of an immediate reply, sir.”

“All right,” Robert said, snapping up the note. “All right, then.”

He tore it open. He was afraid his hand was shaking visibly from hunger and suspense—and then he had to stand up and carry it to the window to read it in the dim little room.

Dear Mr. Cambourne,

It is my understanding that we are here at your request, that you are our host. We will expect to see you at dinner. If you cannot come, I shall conclude that our presence here is inconvenient at this time. Therefore, we shall depart this morning. Please inform me of your decision before 10 A.M. If I do not have an answer from you by that time, then Miss Melinda Hamilton and I extend our thanks and our farewells by this note.

Mrs. Charles Hamilton

Robert looked up at the butler. “They are not to leave the grounds.”

Lander made a slight bow of his head. “I don’t quite understand you, sir.”
 

“What time is it?”
 

“It is half past nine, sir.”

Robert gazed at him. He had hired Lander for his military stance, for his air of pugnacity. He had hired him, frankly, for protection. And now he did not trust the man, though he could not tell why. He wished that he had held the note and examined it in private, to see if the seal had been tampered with, while at the same time his crazy suspicions mortified him.

“Take the tray,” he said. “I’m not hungry.”

“Yes, sir,” Lander said. He gathered up the breakfast and carried it through the door, closing it behind him with one hand.

Robert waited a few moments, and then pulled down books from the shelf. Late in the night, he’d stolen five bottles from his own cellars. He wiped the dust from a brown vessel marked Devonshire cider and pried out the cork. He drank straight from the bottle, tasting the waxy edge, downing the warm sweet gingery liquid with inelegant greed.

After a few deep draughts, he would have sat down and consumed the cider more slowly, but he did not have time if he was to prevent her leaving before ten o’clock. He upended the bottle, finishing off the drink. He hadn’t drunk cider since he was a schoolboy at Eton; it was hardly common in India, but he thought it ought to be mild and somewhat nourishing. It would keep him alive, at any rate.

He replaced the books quickly, hiding the bottles behind a set of his Indian diaries. For a moment, he paused with his hand resting on the spines. He remembered Phillippa laughing at him. But he narrowed his eyes and stared hard at the diaries, at their green calfskin edged in gold. Imagination. Imagination. He must control it. God, he hated her.

He counted the numbers he had inked on the backs of the twelve volumes, one-two-three-five-four-seven...the clock chimed the quarter hour. Robert hastily rearranged the books, glanced around for where he had laid number six—there on his father’s lead-lined chest of drawers. He stuffed it into the space and went to the door.

She swept into the room wearing her cloak, facing him with an assumed belligerence. She would not reveal that she was quaking in her boots. It was not as easy as she had determined it would be. The moment she saw him, her stride broke. He stood before the tall windows, too much silhouetted for his expression to be clear, his posture an unyielding stiffness, hands locked behind his back like an officer staring down his troops.

Folie stopped for just an instant, consciously preventing herself from making an apologetic curtsy, as if she were late to an appointment with the headmistress. She made a brief nod. “Good morning, Mr. Cambourne.” Then she walked to the window and looked out on the gray drizzle, her fingers resting lightly on the sill.

“You must not leave,” he said.

Folie turned to him, her eyebrows lifted. He did not look at her, but remained in profile, his gaze fixed on some unknown point in the middle of the room. She could see him more clearly now—his straight solid jaw and high-bridged nose, his hair making black curls against the crisp starch of his neckcloth.

“Why ever not?” she heard herself say boldly. “I do not feel that I know you. I am uncomfortable here. Melinda is unhappy and anxious.”

His gaze flickered, as if he were searching for something in the room that he could not find. He frowned.

“I don’t understand why you wish for us to stay,” she said.

He moved away. “I wish it.”

“Do you indeed?” She made a light disbelieving laugh. “I beg your pardon; this is quite confusing to me. I am not a woman of the world, perhaps I know little of society manners, but I have never been so comprehensively ignored by a host!”

He looked up at her suddenly. “Have you been ignored?”

Folie met his eyes. They were gray and stern, not so fiercely strange as they had seemed before.

“Well,” she said, slightly taken aback. “We never see you.”

“That does not mean that I have not thought of you every minute,” he said.

Folie drew in her breath. She tried to remember the clever lines she had prepared as she had lain in her bed staring up at the darkness. But all she could feel was her nerves; all she could think to say was, “What did you mean? In that note?’’

His eyebrow lifted. “Note?”

“You wrote me a note, did you not?” She gestured toward the writing desk. “And left it there.”

He looked down at her disapprovingly, as if she were an unruly servant. “I suppose that I did.”

“What did you mean? To say that you are lost?”

There was a long pause. He gave a cold smile. “No doubt I had taken too much wine. Kindly erase it from your memory.”

She bit her lip and turned to the window.
 

“What shall I do to convince you?” he asked.
 

She turned back. “Convince me of what?”
 

“That I wish you and Miss Melinda to stay.” He gave a faint shrug. “I’ll come to dinner, if it pleases you.”
 

“That would be most kind!” Folie said. They stood in silence.

“Shall I—” He seemed to come to an impasse with his sentence, and then said suddenly, with a gesture toward the door, “Shall I show you the garden?”

“It is raining,” she murmured.

“Then the picture gallery.”

Folie moved restlessly away from the window. “I have seen the picture gallery.”

“What a difficult princess you are!”

“Well, I don’t mean to be difficult—” Folie said quickly. She stopped.
“I
am difficult?” She gave a huff. “That must make
you
impossible!”

He gave a bare nod, as if to accede to the verdict. “I believe ladies always find gentlemen impossible, do they not?”

“No doubt,” Folie said coolly.

“That is what my sisters tell me.”

“Oh yes. You have sisters.” She recalled that he did, although it seemed as if he must have sprung from no family at all, have walked one day fully grown from some cold mountain cavern.

“Two,” he said. “Lady Ryman lives in London. Mrs. Coke is in Bombay, but I believe she is intending to return here with her children this year. The boy is six; he’ll enter Eton, I suppose.” He paused a moment, and then said, “I’m glad that Frances will come.”

“You are close to her?”

“Close?” His brow lifted again, as if the question were an impertinence. “No, I cannot say so. I am not close to either of my sisters, in truth.”

Folie tilted her head. “But you are glad she will come to England?”

“With her children.” He shrugged. “I think it a good thing, that their mother comes home with them. It is difficult for a child of six to travel so far and begin school alone.”

“So I should suppose!” Folie exclaimed. “Surely that is not common practice?”

“In some families,” he said briefly.
 

“Poor things!”

“It is India. The boys must attend school, the girls must learn their English manners. If the wife prefers to remain with her husband, then the children must come alone, or with friends or some relative. Or as I did, with a hired bearleader.”

“Cannot they go to school in India?”

He smiled dryly. “No, they cannot.”

“You are quite right, it is a great good that your sister comes.” Folie looked at the writing desk. “I did not even know my mother. And yet I missed her every day of my life.”

“Yes,” he said.

“I should like to be the best of mothers to Melinda. But it is so difficult sometimes.”

“You are an excellent mother.”

Folie lifted her head. “I should not suppose you had enough evidence to judge.”

“One reveals a great deal of one’s character in letters.” One corner of his mouth turned up crookedly. “You do, at any rate.”

She felt herself becoming flustered. It seemed as if the conversation had somehow reeled off into topics she had never meant to discuss with him. “I have spoiled her dreadfully. But she is very good, and hardly needs to be curbed.”

“And she must have an exemplary husband. You are determined.”

“Yes, certainly. We are not aiming over-high, titles and that sort of nonsense; though I vow she is beautiful enough to deserve a duke. A gentleman of good substance and breeding will suffice, in high health and not too old, and I should hope that she will find someone who can—” Folie came to an abrupt halt. “Feel some moderate degree of affection for her,’’ she finished tonelessly.

A long silence fell between them. He picked up a pen from the desk and began to stroke it lightly, his sun-darkened hand moving up and down the quills. “You don’t hold love to be a requirement in marriage?”

“No,” Folie said briefly. “I am quite old-fashioned on that point; I have not encouraged her to be romantic.”

He rolled the quill between his thumb and fingers, looking down at it. “I must agree,” he said. “I married for love. It was a transcendent disaster.”

Folie’s heart beat harder. “I am sorry to hear that,” she said crisply. “But this is hardly to the point. To be quite frank, Mr. Cambourne—”

“Robert,” he said.

“Robert, then,” she repeated with a faint impatience. “To be quite frank, it is time that Miss Melinda and I departed for London.”

“No,” he said, “it is not time.”

Folie arched her brows. “I beg your pardon.”

“I am Miss Melinda’s guardian. I have barely become acquainted with her character.”

“Indeed? A little more time in her company might have made you more efficient in this laudable aim. I fear that we are unable to oblige you further. What you know of her now must suffice.”

“You said that if I came to dinner, you would stay.”

“I said that we would not leave today. Tomorrow, however, we must depart.”
 

“No.”

His voice did not rise, but the quill in his hand rotated rapidly, then bent in two with a soft snap between his fingers. She looked from his hand up to his face.

He was frowning. His eyes met hers for a moment, a look like a silver-eyed sentinel, wary and hostile, his mouth set hard.

“You cannot prevent us!” Folie said sharply.
 

“I will stop your income if you leave the house.”
 

Folie stared at him. She shook her head slightly. Nothing in his expression changed. He did not smile or pass it off as a poor jest.

“You cannot,” she said faintly.
 

“Certainly I can,” he said.