My Heart Says Yes (18 page)

It was all too much and
it was hard to think straight because he looked even more gorgeous than ever
with his puppy dog eyes that were begging for my forgiveness.  But he had
really hurt me and I just wasn’t ready to forgive so easily.  Just then Trevor
walked in and saw us there and I must have looked upset because he quickly
walked over to me.

He gave Caleb a stern
look and then gently put his hand on my arm.  “Is everything okay in here?”

Caleb returned his stern
look and fire flashed across his eyes as his gaze landed on Trevor’s hand on my
arm.  I saw the vein on his neck stand out as he clenched his jaw, and then he
turned that intense gaze on me.

“We’re fine Trevor.” 
Caleb’s words were terse as they escaped through clenched teeth and I could see
that he was having a hard time holding his temper.  I wondered for a split
second how he knew his name but then I realized they must have known each other
from school.  I had never seen him
this
jealous, the only time he came
close to this was when Jordan showed up unexpectedly at my place.

I gave Caleb a withering
glance and then turned a sweet smile toward Trevor.  “Actually, we’re done
here.  I was just going to come look for you.”

“Do you want to go in
the other room?”  Trevor turned all of his attention toward me.

“Yeah, I’m right behind
you.”

  Trevor walked out
first and, as I was following him, Caleb grabbed my arm and quickly pulled me
toward him and whispered in my ear.  “I don’t give up so easily on someone that
I want.”

I narrowed my eyes at
him.  “Well, you can’t always have who you want.”  I then snatched my arm away
and walked out of the kitchen.

I saw Caleb leave the
party shortly after our encounter and I spent the rest of the evening talking
with Trevor, trying really hard not to think about Caleb and failing
miserably.  Even though I was pissed at him, he was the person that I really
wanted to be with, so at the end of the night I told Trevor how nice it was to
meet him and maybe I would see him around.  I could tell he was disappointed
but I really didn’t want to lead him on, because my heart was with Caleb and it
wouldn’t be fair to start something with Trevor.  I cried myself to sleep that
night, really wanting to forgive him but my pride was standing in the way.  I didn’t
know if I would ever be able to trust him after what he did to me, and I was
afraid that if I forgave him, he would just do the same thing again.

The next morning I woke
up with a big smile on my face because I had the most awesome dream about
Caleb, and then as soon as I realized that it was just a dream my smile fell. 
I lay there thinking about how it was time for me to move on because I really
didn’t think I would ever be able to trust him again, and without trust you
have nothing.  I decided that it was time for me to go back to my original plan
of concentrating on myself and school for the rest of the year.  Guys were just
too complicated for me right then. 

Kelly slept at David’s
place the night before so I was the only one home.  I made myself a good
breakfast and I curled up on the couch to watch an episode of Gossip Girl that
I had taped on the DVR.  When it was over I hopped in the shower, got dressed
and dove into the books.  I had an assignment due at the end of the week that I
had barely started.

At around 2:00 my phone
rang and it was my doorman John downstairs.

“There is a Caleb Morgan
here to see you, Miss Blakely.”

I instantly froze and
could feel my heart banging against my throat. 

“John can you please
hand him the phone?”

“Absolutely.”

“Hello?”  Caleb’s deep,
sexy voice pierced through the phone line.

I didn’t let that sway
me.  “What do you want Caleb?”

“I need to talk with you
Emma.”

“Just go away, I have
nothing to say to you!”

“I have a lot that I
want to say to you.  Please, let me explain myself, I’m not going to leave
until you come downstairs and I will wait outside of your building all day and
all night if I have to.”

I knew that he was
probably serious about waiting outside all day and I didn’t want him to do that,
so I grabbed my coat and went downstairs.  When my eyes met his I could see the
angst there and my heart softened a bit.

He reached out and lightly
touched my arm.  “Thanks for coming down.”

I wanted to throw my
arms around him and I wanted everything to be the way it was before he blew me
off.  I wished so badly that we could just pick up where we left off, but my
pride just wouldn’t let me do it.

I crossed my arms. 
“Okay, I’m down here and I’m listening. What do you have to say Caleb?”

“The first thing I want
to say is that I am sorry for not calling you after our incredible night
together, you did not deserve to be treated that way and it was extremely
selfish of me.  Emma, I have never felt this way about any girl in my life, you
turned my world upside down and it completely took me by surprise.  I found
myself in unfamiliar territory and I did not know how to deal with my feelings for
you because they are so much stronger than I ever imagined.  Second, I have
always handled stress in a weird way.  I retreat from everything and everyone
until I have whatever is stressing me out under control, and I know that I have
to work on that because that is not fair to the people that I care about.  I
had a huge project due at school and I also had all of these feelings for you
that I didn’t know what to do with, so I just disappeared for a while.” 

He grabbed my hands in
his and earnestly searched my eyes.  “I promise you that I will never do
anything like that again.  If I am stressed about school, family, us or
whatever, I will talk to you about it and let you know how I am feeling.  I
don’t want to you lose you Emma, I don’t want to lose what we had.  Please,
please forgive me.”

I could see tears in his
eyes and I had to fight to hold back my own.  I wanted to be with him, I didn’t
want to break up with him.  So I was willing to trust his words and give him
another chance.  I stared at the ground for a minute and then I raised my eyes
to meet his, and when I spoke my voice was very small.  “You can’t do this to
me again Caleb, it’s not fair to me or you. You almost ruined this.”

His eyes were wide as he
responded to me with a hint of hope in his voice.  “I know and I am so sorry
Emma, it will never happen again.”

He closed the space
between us as he stepped toward me and pulled me close, his eyes eagerly
searching mine.  “You mean the world to me, you know?”  Then he smoothed the
hair out of my eyes and gently caressed my cheek with the back of his finger
and his face became very serious.  “I love you Emma.  I love you so much.”

Butterflies fluttered
uncontrollably in my belly as his words washed over me.
Did he really just
tell me that he loves me?
 Suddenly, any doubts I had about him were gone
and I felt really secure letting him know how I felt about him.  I couldn’t
hold back my smile as happiness engulfed me.  “I love you too Caleb.”

The grin on his face was
enormous and he held me so tight that I almost couldn’t breathe.  He pulled
back a bit, gently kissed me on the lips and whispered into my ear.  “You make
me so happy.”

I pulled back and looked
at him and smiled.  “Ditto.”

His lips met mine again,
this time with more heat and more passion as his tongue slid over mine, teasing
and tasting.  I pulled him closer to me and a soft sigh escaped my lips as his
hands lightly caressed my hips.  I almost forgot that we were outside until I
heard a car honk.  I pulled away and composed myself and looked up at Caleb.

“I don’t want to give
everyone a show, do you want to come up for a bit?”

“Yeah, I do.”  That deep,
sexy voice sent shivers down my spine.  He linked his fingers through mine and
we walked into my building. 

We were the only two in
the elevator and as soon as it closed Caleb pressed me against the elevator
wall and murmured in my ear.  “I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you. 
I have missed touching you and holding you.  Now I want to taste you.”

   Desire clenched my
belly, fueled by thoughts of his tongue tasting me
everywhere.
  I rolled
my head to the side giving him better access to the soft skin of my neck, his
tongue flicking out to tease my earlobe as a breathy moan escaped my lips.  He
pressed his hips against mine, reached inside my open coat, and his hands
followed the curves of my hips around to my backside, pulling my hips further into
his.  His tongue ran along my lips before diving into my mouth, sliding over my
tongue.  My arms crawled up around his shoulders and I raked my fingers through
his hair and I pulled him closer, pressing my boobs into his chest.  I was lost
in our reverie when I felt the elevator nearing my floor.  I pulled myself away
from Caleb just before the door opened and one of my neighbors was standing at
the elevator.  She gave me a curious look as we passed each other and I could
feel that my cheeks were burning.  I’m sure we looked like a mess as our hair
was disheveled and I know my face was flushed.  Oh well, I didn’t care that she
saw us, I just wanted to get back to what we were doing in the elevator.

       I could barely get my apartment door
open fast enough and for the first time, I was happy that I had the place to
myself.  I went straight to my bedroom and once inside, Caleb closed the door
behind him, turned me around, pulled my coat off of me, and pushed me against
the wall.  He held my face in his hands as his mouth came crashing down on
mine, our tongues sliding over each other, tasting and teasing.  He pressed his
body against mine and I could feel his stiff member through his pants and he
let out a soft groan as I moved my hands around to his backside and pulled him
even closer to me.  He then pulled away and pushed me back, face up, onto my
bed.  His expression was intense and I could tell that he had one thing on his
mind. 

He knelt at the foot of
the bed and, without saying a word, he pulled off my shoes, my socks and then
he unbuttoned my jeans and pulled those off too.

“Sit for me up, love,”
he growled.  His deep voice was pure sex.

I sat up, and he pulled
my sweater off over my head and then swiftly wrapped his arms around me and
unhooked my bra.  His eyes held mine as he pulled it off of me and I was
completely exposed except for my panties. 

“Lie down baby,” he
whispered.  I lay down on the bed and he ran his hands over my breasts down to
my soaked panties and slipped a hand inside, lightly stroking my sensitive
folds.  I arched toward his hand as a gasp escaped my lips.  His fingers slid
over my hard, sensitive bud, rubbing in circles, while his other hand glided up
my body to my mouth and he slipped a finger inside.  I sucked gently on his
finger and then he slowly pulled it out of my mouth and rubbed my nipple,
hardened under his wet touch. 

“Lift your hips up for
me, love.”

 I lifted my hips and he
slid my panties off of me.  His hands slid slowly back up my legs and grazed my
inner thighs and then traced the outline of my sensitive core.  I arched my
body toward him and felt his lips kissing my inner thighs toward my most sacred
place then I felt his glorious tongue reach out, tasting my wetness and licking
my swollen bud before drawing it into his mouth.  I cried out as his mouth
suckled my tender bud and I grabbed the sheet beneath me, wringing it with my
hands, as my hips shot off the bed as he licked and sucked me until I thought I
was going to pass out.  Then I felt him make long slow strokes with his tongue
between my swollen folds before his tongue delved into my aching core.  A loud
moan escaped my lips as I entwined my fingers in his hair and opened my legs
wider so that his tongue could reach every inch of me.  He flattened his tongue
and rubbed back and forth over my swollen bud, applying more pressure with
every stroke.  He slipped a finger inside of me and then worked one more in and
started twisting his fingers, stretching me, and working them in and out of me
as his tongue assaulted my swollen bud.  I pressed down against his fingers
desperate for more.  His other hand reached up and kneaded my breast while
tweaking and pinching my nipple.  The delicious sensations were too much to
bear as I felt my orgasm build and then rocket to the surface, my body
thrashing about and I cried out as wave after wave of pleasure washed over me. 

I lay there panting for
air and as the pleasure of my release began to fade, Caleb quickly took off his
clothes and rubbed the palms of his hands down my chest, over my breasts and he
pinched both nipples between his fingers.  He bent down to capture one nipple
in his mouth, his teeth lightly grazing the hardened nub, while his other hand
kneaded my full breast.  I ran my fingers through his hair with one hand and
reached down between us with the other hand and wrapped my fingers around his
throbbing member.  He let out a low growl and grabbed a fistful of my hair,
pulled my head back a bit and ran his tongue along my sensitive neck.

“You drive me crazy,” he
groaned.

I felt him part my legs
with his knee as he reached for the condom that he had placed on the bed
earlier, his face tight with desire.  The head of his arousal slowly entered my
swollen opening and I wrapped my legs around him taking him in deeper.  He let
out a strained hiss as he groaned in my ear, “Christ Emma, you’re so tight and
wet for me.”