Middle of Nowhere (37 page)

“What I feel is a need—a real need—to get things right. And they aren’t right now. We imposed on John and Kristin for
weeks,
and that wasn’t right. We need to have them over to dinner, buy them a real special thank-you gift. But you’re barely home, and when you are, you don’t even talk to me.” She poked at the salad. Boldt felt it in the center of his chest.

“I kissed a woman,” he announced apologetically. It tumbled out of him and he felt a flood of relief with the confession. It would be work, but now they could make real progress.

She stabbed again and missed. She knocked over the bowl spilling oily cucumbers onto the table. They slid around like transparent hockey pucks. She wouldn’t look up at him. Her lower lip trembled. He felt like dying.

He said, “It was only the one kiss. It stopped at that. Not that that makes it any better.” He paused. “But it was enough to tell me something is very wrong. I’ve let this separation drift us apart. I couldn’t face you without telling you about it, and I couldn’t tell you about it without facing you.”

Her mouth hung open. She had some pepper stuck between her teeth. Any other day he would have told her about the pepper. The fork fell into the bowl. She didn’t notice. “Who?” she asked.

“Does it matter?” he scoffed. “It’s not who, it’s why.”

“Then why do I feel jealous?” she asked. “Why do I feel this is somehow my fault?”

“It’s both our faults,” Boldt said. “But it doesn’t feel that way.”

“Good,” she said. “That somehow makes me feel better.” She asked, “Emotionally? Are you emotionally attached?”

“It was a single kiss. It’s not an affair.”

“But of the heart?” she asked with difficulty. “Where’s your heart in all this?”

“Broken at the moment, as I imagine yours is. But the pieces are all with you, Elizabeth, with
us.
Every last piece.”

“I need air. I need time to think!”

“ I . . .” Boldt began.

But she stood and made for the door, her purse trailing by its strap. She held herself high—ever Liz. Boldt felt as if he were swimming underwater. Consumed in darkness.

He pushed the food aside, his appetite gone, wondering what came next. He felt sick. Sick, and incredibly cold.

B
oldt wished that Liz had blown up at him in anger, because as it was, her level-headed wait-and-see approach only served to increase his sense of guilt.

Boldt wasn’t a drinker. The only outlet for his frustration was work. Work consumed him, took his mind off nearly anything. And he wanted that.

Boldt contacted one Frederick Osbourne at Air-Tyme Cellular and provided him with Flek’s cell phone number, which Samway had supplied in the course of her second interrogation. Osbourne explained that the technology and methodology existed to locate analog cellular phones, but that it was not a real-time process. He, Osbourne, would begin tracking Flek’s cellular calls and report back to Boldt. Of all their current efforts to locate Flek, Boldt held to the hope that Osbourne’s radio triangulation would come through.

Sinking back into despair, Boldt blocked calls, prevented visitors, and spent nearly four hours in his office reviewing the Sanchez jacket, which had swollen to a thick file, though under Daphne’s care remained properly organized and easily navigated.

There Daphne was, right there in his hands. He couldn’t seem to escape her. He focused his attentions on the Brooks-Gilman case—the investigation that Sanchez had taken over in the wake of the Blue Flu reassignments. Prior to her assault, she had identified that Flek used garage door openers to break and enter. Boldt understood that he had allowed her work on the case to mislead him. It was the I.I. case that seemed more likely to have gotten her beat up, the I.I. case that interested him. Yet without I.I.’s cooperation, he didn’t know how he might break that case. Flek’s testimony still seemed the most important first step. If Flek had an alibi for the night of Sanchez’s assault, then Boldt had the necessary ammunition to pressure I.I. into including him in on what they knew about whatever had led to Sanchez, Schock and Phillipp all ending up in the hospital.

He called down to the lab and reached Bernie Lofgrin. He asked about the boots recovered from Flek’s closet in the first raid.

“What about them?” Lofgrin asked.

“Guy I spoke to said they were Converse, but have you compared the tread pattern to that Nike pattern you found on Sanchez’s leather jacket?”

“I have, and I sent them to Property. That’s where her jacket is as well.”

Mention of Property reminded Boldt of Ron Chapman and his visit to the Cock & Bull the night Schock and Phillipp had been “mugged.”

“Property,” Boldt repeated.

“That’s right,” Lofgrin said. “Do you ever read your E-mails?”

“I was out of town,” Boldt said, spinning around to check his computer. Seventeen messages. In the chaos of LaMoia’s injuries and Samway’s surveillance, he’d fallen behind. He began to scroll through them, pulling up the one from Lofgrin as the man said into his ear, “Tread pattern lifted from the jacket came back as Air Nike. Flek’s closet contained two pair of Converse All Stars. Both are ubiquitous, but they’re not interchangeable. Not even close.”

“Same size?” Boldt asked, reading from his screen that the impression from Sanchez’s jacket had been a size 12.

“Flek wears a fourteen,” Lofgrin answered. “Again, no match to what we lifted from that jacket.” He waited. “Lou? You there?”

“Thinking.”

“Not what you wanted to hear,” Lofgrin stated, “or you would have hung up on me, as you always do.”

“Do I?” Boldt asked, astonished to learn this about himself.

“Every time,” Lofgrin confirmed.

“The Nike . . .” Boldt said. “Is it a distinct print?”

“You bring me the shoe and chances are I can tie it to Sanchez’s jacket. A little visit to Property is all it would take.”

There it was again: Property. He made sure to thank Lofgrin before hanging up. Who said you couldn’t teach an old dog new tricks?

He called down to Property. Riorden answered. Riorden ran with Pendegrass, both of them on Krishevski’s squad. Krishevski and Pendegrass had both been discharged in the chief’s health service sweep. Riorden had somehow survived. Boldt elected to skip the small talk. By now, news of Boldt and LaMoia’s late-night visit to Pendegrass would have reached Riorden—he could do business with the man, but he wasn’t going to win any friends.

“I need you to check your logbook for me,” Boldt informed him.

“For?”

“Schock or Phillipp,” Boldt said. “Any visits in the last ten days?”

Silence on the line. “Let me check,” Riorden replied. Boldt waited to hear the pages of the logbook turning—he had the ears of a bat—but heard nothing, not even the clicking of computer keys. “Nothing I see, Lieutenant. You might want to check yourself.”

This time it was Boldt who left the silence on the line. “Yeah . . . okay . . . thanks . . .” he said, knowing his ears had not failed him. Why hadn’t Riorden even bothered to check the log? Out of obstinacy? Pissed off over Boldt’s questioning of Pendegrass? Did the Flu still continue
inside
these walls?

The thought that a handful of officers might yet still be sabotaging the efforts of those officers who had remained on their job during the Flu stayed with Boldt on his extended ride home.

He stopped at The Joke’s On You and played six ballads during a break in the comedy routine. Bear Berenson finally interrupted him, saying, “That’s some really dark shit you’re playing, man.”

He drove next to Carkeek Park and walked the water’s edge, wondering what to think about Riorden’s apparent refusal to assist him. As dusk fell and the Sound washed gray from green, as radio towers winked and jets flew almost silently overhead, Boldt felt overwhelmed. His personal life was in tatters. Fellow officers were backstabbing his efforts to set the record straight on Sanchez and perhaps Schock and Phillipp in the process. His knee-jerk reaction was to call Daphne, but he wisely ruled that out. Instead, he made the drive home. Home, where he belonged.

He climbed out of the car, accidentally kicking an empty Starbucks cup into the driveway. As he bent to retrieve it, the driver’s door window blew out above his head cascading down as a thousand cubes of tempered glass.

His detective’s mind immediately registered that he’d been shot at—an intended chest shot. A kill shot. His next coherent thought was
Flek!

He edged beneath the car instinctively, defenseless but partially protected and less vulnerable. He waited for the second shot, hoping there wasn’t enough of him exposed to take a bullet. His heart raced out of control and he wondered if a heart attack might kill him instead. Ten seconds passed. Twenty.. ..

The shot had not made any noise. Even the window shattering had sounded like little more than a hand clap and pebbles spilling onto pavement. He didn’t want Liz alerted, didn’t want to bring her to the door for any reason. One Boldt as a target was enough.
A long shot,
Boldt thought, recalling the rifle Manny Wong had sold Flek. Probably from on a roof or up in a tree, and at a long distance, which might explain why he had not heard any report from the weapon. Not even a trailing echo. Maybe Wong had saved his life by resighting that scope.

He stayed there under the car, collecting himself, wondering if a German sniper sight was searching the edge of the car, looking for enough flesh to sink a bullet into.

He heard tapping on a window. He couldn’t see, but he knew it was Liz, inside the house, wondering where he was. She’d seen his car. Perhaps she had heard the dull pop of the driver’s door glass. His kids would be getting ready for bed. Maybe already in bed. The rest of the world was going about its business.

It took him a moment to extricate his right arm and ease himself out from under the car. He didn’t want Liz to come looking for him. She’d come home without consulting him. For a moment a husband’s anger boiled inside him. Maybe his sniper was doing him a favor. Could he tell his wife he’d just been shot at? In his own driveway?

Did he have any choice?

He squeezed himself out from under the car and ran, crouched low, to the back of the house. He entered through the kitchen door, sat Liz down and explained that he’d just been shot at. He wasn’t going to tell her to take the kids and leave. That would be left for her to decide. They embraced. Boldt felt himself swell with tears—the fear of the last few minutes wanting an outlet.

Boldt groaned.

“Who?” she asked.

“Daphne,” he answered, believing her still questioning the kiss.

“The gun shot,” she corrected, tension steeling. “Who shot at you, and what are you going to do about it?”

He leaned back, drew his weapon from its holster, and checked it as he spoke to her. She didn’t like that. A tension settled between them. “I’m going to check the park. I think the shot came from there. If I’m lucky, I find a shell casing. Doubtful, but worth a try.” He hurried so that she wouldn’t interrupt. “After that, I’m going to go out there and look for the bullet, which is probably the only chance we have for evidence.”

“You’re going to report it,” she stated with no uncertainty.

“All they’d do is look for a slug and a shell casing. Believe me, I know how this works. And when we find the slug or the shell casing, it’ll be from a Chinese manufacture long-barrel assault rifle.”

“You
do
know who it is,” she said.

“A pretty good idea is all,” he admitted. “But that doesn’t win convictions.”

They met eyes—hers filled with concern. Then she softened and said, “Lou, if you’d kissed some waitress at a bachelor party. . .” surprising him. “But this isn’t the same thing. Not even close. I’ve changed over these last couple of years, I know that. I’m not so sure you have. Which is fine. Let me just say this: if you don’t want me, I don’t want you. But for the sake of the kids, I’d do anything not to break us up. Not now. Not so young anyway. I’m angry with you. Not so much for what you did, but for allowing it to happen. I’ve got my faith to keep me strong. What do you have?” She stepped back and crossed her arms defiantly. “Go find your slug. Tonight, I’ll sleep with Miles. For their sake, we’re loving and cheerful in the morning.”