Memoirs of a Physician (37 page)

Besides this, the timid philosopher, an enemy to all personal exhibitions and manifestations, would have felt most unhappy had he been obliged to serve as a spectacle for people whom he did -not know, and who would have certainly mystified him more or less.

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more than a satisfaction to him. He knew the strictness with which equality was enforced by the masonic principles, therefore an exception in his favor constituted a triumph.

He was preparing to say some words in reply to the gracious address of the president, when a voice was heard among the audience.

” At least,” said thi voice, which was sharp and discordant, ” since you think yourself obliged to treat in this princely fashion a man like ourselves, since you dispense in his ease with physical pains, as if the pursuit of liberty through bodily suffering were not one of our symbols, we hope you will not confer a precious title upon an unknown person without having questioned him according to the usual ritual, and without having received his profession of faith.”

Rousseau turned round to discover the features of the aggressive person who so rudely jostled his triumphant car, and with the greatest surprise recognized the young surgeon whom he had that morning met upon the Quai aux Fleurs. A conviction of his own honesty of purpose, perhaps also a feeling of disdain for the precious title, prevented him from replying.

” You have heard ? ” said the president, addressing Rousseau.

“Perfectly,” replied the philosopher, who trembled slightly at the sound of his voice as it echoed through the vaulted roof of the dark hall, ” and I am more surprised at the interpellation when I see from whom it proceeds. What ! A man whose profession it is to combat what is called physical suffering, and to assist his brethren, who are common men as well as freemasons preaches the utility of physical suffering! He chooses a singular path through which to lead the creature to happiness, the sick to health.”

” We do not here speak of this or that person,” replied the young man warmly ; ” I am supposed to be unknown to the candidate, and he to me.’ I am merely the utterer of an abstract truth, and I assert that the chief has done wrong in making an exception in favor of any one. I do

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not recognize in him,” pointing to Bousseau, ” the philosopher, and he must not recognize the surgeon in me. We shall walk side by side through life, without a look or gesture betraying our intimacy, which, nevertheless, thanks to the laws of the association, is more binding than all vulgar friendships. I repeat, therefore, that if it has been thought well to spare this candidate the usual trials, he ought at least to have the usual questions put to him.”

Eousseau made no reply. The president saw depicted on his features disgust at this discussion, and regret at having engaged in the enterprise.

” Brother,” said he authoritatively to the young man, ” you will please be silent when the chief speaks, and do not venture on light grounds to blame his actions, which are sovereign here.”

” I have a right to speak,” replied the young man, more gently.

” To speak, yes ; but not to blame. The brother who is about to enter our association is so well known that we have no wish to add to our masonic relations a ridiculous and useless mystery. All the brothers here present know his name, and his name itself is a perfect guarantee. But as he himself, I am certain, loves equality, I request him to answer the questions which I shall put to him merely for form.”

” What do you seek in this association? “

Rousseau made two steps forward in advance of the crowd, and his dreamy and melancholy eyes wandered over the assembly.

” I seek,” said he, ” that which I do not find truths, not sophisms. Why should you surround me with poniards which do not wound, with poisons which are only clear water, and with traps under which mattresses are spread ? I know the extent of human endurance. I know the vigor of my physical frame. If you were to destroy it, it would not be worth your while to elect me a brother, for when dead I could be of no use to you. Therefore you do not wish to kill me, still less to wound me ; and all the doctors in the world would not make me approve of an initiation in the course of which mv limbs had been broken. I have

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served a longer apprenticeship to pain than any of yon ; I have sounded the body, and probed even to the soul. If I consented to come among you when I was solicited ” and he laid particular emphasis on the word ” it was because I thought I might be useful. I give, therefore; I do not receive. Alas ! before you could do anything to defend me, before you could restore me to liberty were I imprisoned before you could give me bread if 1 were starving, or consolation were I afflicted before, I repeat, you could do anything the brother whom you admit to-day, if this gentleman,” turning ‘to Marat, ” permits it this brother will have paid the last tribute of nature; for progress is halting, tight is slow, and from the grave into which he will be thrown, none of you can raise him ‘

” You are mistaken, illustrious brother,” said a mild and penetrating voice, which charmed Kousseau’s ear; ” there is more than you think in the association into which you are about to enter; there is the whole future destiny of the world. The future, you are aware, is hope is science; the future is God, who will give His light to the world, since he has promised to give it, and God cannot lie.”

Astonished at this elevated language, Kousseau looked around and recognized the young man who had made the appointment with him in the morning at the bed of justice. This man, who was dressed in black, with great neatness, and, above ail, with a marked air of distinction in his appearance, was leaning against the side of the platform, and his face, illumined by the lamp, shone in all its beauty, grace, and expressiveness.

” Ah ! ” said Eousseau, ” science the bottomless abyss ! You speak to me of science, consolation, futurity, hope; another speaks of matter, of rigor, and of violence; whom shall I believe? Shall it be then in this assembly of brothers, as it is among the devouring wolves of the world which stirs above us? Wolves and sheep! Listen to my profession of faith since you have not read it in my books.”

” Your books ! ” exclaimed Marat. ” They are sublime. I confess it; but they are Utopias. You are useful in the same point of view as Pythagoras, Solon, and Cicero the

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sophist. You point out the good; but it is an artificial, unsubstantial, unattainable good. You are like one who would feed a hungry crowd with air-bubbles, more or less illumined by the sun.”

” Have you ever seen,” said Rousseau, frowning, “great commotions of nature take place without preparation? Have you seen the birth of a man that common and yet sublime event? Have you not seen him collect substance and life in the womb of his mother for nine months? Ah! you wish me to regenerate the world with actions? That is not to regenerate, sir it is to revolutionize.”

” Then,” retorted the young surgeon, violently, ” you do not wish for independence you do not wish for liberty ? “

” On the contrary,” replied Rousseau, ” independence is my idol liberty is my goddess. But I wish for a mild and radiant liberty a liberty which warms and vivifies. I wish for an equality which will connect men by ties of friendship, not by fear. I wish for education, for the instruction of each element of the social body, as the mechanic wishes for harmonious movement as the cabinet-maker wishes for the perfect exactness, for the closest fitting, in each piece of his work. I repeat it, I wish for that which I have written progress, concord, devotion.”

A smile of disdain flitted over Marat’s lips.

” Yes,” he said, ” rivulets of milk and honey. Ely si an fields like Virgil’s poetic dreams, which philosophy would make a reality.”

Rousseau made no reply. It seemed to him .too hard that he should have to defend his moderation he whom all Europe called a violent innovation.

He took his seat in silence, after having satisfied his ingenuous and timid mind by appealing for and obtaining the tacit approbation of the person who had just be-fore defended him.

The president rose.

” You have all heard? ” said he.

“Yes,” replied the entire assembly.

” Does the candidate appear to you worthy of entering the association, and does he comprehend its duties ? “

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” Yes ‘ replied the assembly again ; but this time with a reserve which did not evince much unanimity.

” Take the oath,” said the president to Rousseau.

” It would be disagreeable to me,” said the philosopher, with some pride, ” to displease any members of this association; and I must repeat the words I made use of just now, as they are the expression of my earnest conviction. If I were an orator, I would put them in a more eloquent manner; but my organ of speech is rebellious, and al-ways betrays my thoughts when I ask it for an immediate translation. I wish to say that I can do more for the world and for you out of this assembly than I could were I strictly to follow your usages. Leave me, therefore, to my work, to my weakness, to my loneliness. I have told you I am descending to the grave; grief, infirmity, and want hurry me on. You cannot delay this great work of nature. Abandon me; I am not made for the society of men; I hate and fly them. Nevertheless, I serve them, because I am a man myself; and in serving them I fancy them better than they are. Now you have my whole thoughts; I shall not say another word ‘

” Then you refuse to take the oath ? ” said Marat, with some emotion.

” I refuse positively ; I do not wish to join the association. I see too many convincing proofs to assure me that I should be useless to it.”

“Brother,” said the unknown personage with the con-ciliatory voice, ” allow me to call you so, for we are brothers, independently of all combinations of the human mind brother ! do not give way to a very natural feeling of irritation; sacrifice your legitimate pride; do for us what is repulsive to yourself. Your advice, your ideas, your presence, are light to our paths. Do not plunge us in the twofold darkness of your absence and your refusal.”

” You are in error,” said Rousseau ; ” I take nothing from you, since I should never have given you more than I have given to the whole world to the first chance reader, to the first consulter of the journals. If you wish for the name and essence of Rousseau “

” We do wish for them ! ” said several voices, politely.

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” Then make a collection of my books ; place them upon the table of your president; and when you are taking the opinions of the meeting, and my turn to give one conies^ open my books you will find my counsel and my vote there.”

Rousseau made a step toward the door.

” Stop one moment,” said the surgeon ; ” mind is free, and that of the illustrious philosopher more than any other; but it would not be regular to have allowed a stranger even to enter our sanctuary, who, not being bound by any tacit agreement, might, without dishonesty, reveal our mysteries.”

Rousseau smiled compassionately.

” You want an oath of secrecy ? ” said he.

” You have said it.”

” I am ready.”

“Be good enough to read ‘the formula, venerable brother,” said Marat.

The venerable brother read the following form of oath:

” I swear, in the presence of the eternal God, the architect of the universe, and before my superiors, and the respectable assembly which surrounds me, never to reveal or to make known or write anything which has happened in my presence, under penalty, in case of indiscretion, of be-ing punished according to the laws of the Great Founder, of my superiors, and the anger of my fathers.”

Rousseau had already raised his hand to swear, when the unknown, who had followed the progress of the debate with a sort of authority which no one seemed to dispute, although he was not distinguished from the crowd, approached the president, and whispered some words in his ear.

” True,” said the venerable chief ; and he added :

” You are a man, not a brother ; you are a man of honor, placed toward us only in the position of a fellowman. We here abjure, therefore, our distinguishing peculiarity, and ask from you merely your word of honor to forget what has passed between us.”

” Like a dream of the morning I swear it upon my honor,” said Rousseau, with emotion.

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With these words he retired, and many of the members followed him.

CHAPTER XXXVII.

THE REPORT.

WHEN the members of the second and third orders had gone, seven associates remained in the lodge. They were the seven chiefs. They recognized one another by means of signs, which proved their initiation to a superior de-gree.

Their first care was to close the doors. Then their president made himself known by displaying a ring, on which were engraved the mysterious letters, L. P. D.*

This president was charged with the most important correspondence of the order. He was in communication with the six other chiefs, who dwelt in Switzerland, Russia, America, Sweden, Spain, and Italy.

He brought with him some of the most important documents he had received from his colleagues, in order to communicate their contents to the superior circles of initiated brothers, who were above the others but beneath him.

We have already recognized this chief it was Balsamo.

The most important of the letters contained a threatening advice. It was from Sweden, and written by Swedenborg.

“Watch the South, brothers,” he said; “under its burning rays has been hatched a traitor who will ruin you.

” Watch in Paris, brothers the traitor dwells there ; he possesses the secrets of the order; a feeling of hatred urges him on.

” A murmuring voice, a rustling flight, whispers the de-nunciation in my ear. I see a terrible vengeance coming, but perhaps it will be too late. In the meantime, brothers, watch ! watch ! A traitorous tongue, even though it be uninstructed, is sometimes sufficient to overthrow our most skilfully constructed plans.”