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him every day is different now that we’re living in the same
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place.”
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“I get the feeling being around a band while they record an
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album is stressful. So I’m trying to remember that part. It’s excit-27
ing, but I’m scared. What if I’m not enough?”
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Daisy came over, taking Mary’s hands. “You’re everything.
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The more I’m around Damien, the more I like him. The more I
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can see he’s all about you. Give it a chance. I like how you’re using 03
this as a way to explore lots of new avenues in your life. You’re
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smart. You’re talented. You’re strong. You’re beautiful, and of
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course he digs you. How could anyone look at you and not see
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what an incredible catch you are?”
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“Because he’s got access to everything. He’s got money. He’s
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got women who literally throw themselves at him. I’m bitchy
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and peculiar and I’m not willing to give up my whole life to be
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with him, and so many would.”
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“He could have had those women but he wants
you.
Don’t
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underestimate yourself. My god. Baby, you’re spectacular. Not
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just to look at, but everything about you. He doesn’t want any
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of that other stuff. He’s all about you. Accept that.”
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That was it really. She needed to really accept it. She was
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deep in super- duper like with him. She thought about him all
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the time. He’d never done anything to her but be kind and giv-
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ing. She had to believe it.
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“I’m trying. It’s odd, thinking about being away half the
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week. I’m going to miss this.”
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Daisy hugged her. “We’ve all spent time with our dudes, fall-
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ing in love and all that jazz. It’s your turn. And that’s good too.
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I’ll still see you three days a week. And that’s pretty damned
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good.”
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She arrived two days early and set about her work. Damien was
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busy enough preparing for recording that he didn’t have too
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much time to obsess over her being there in his kitchen. But it
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made him unbelievably fucking happy every time he came into
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the house and took a deep breath.
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Her cooking smelled so ridiculously good. Garlic and onion,
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savory and sweet, whatever she made fi lled the air and made his
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stomach growl. He’d cruise through, she’d hand him something
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to taste and he’d oblige.
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It was so damned good. Not just the food, but the way it
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made him feel to have this with her. To know he’d see her every
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single week. Days of every single week.
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He usually went into recording with a lot of stress, but this
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time was different. That fi rst day when he cruised in to the barn
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at eleven, he was relaxed from a nearly two- hour- long sex fest
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with his woman. He’d left her rumpled and sleepy in his bed.
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He knew her scent would be on his sheets like it was on his
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hands.
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“Someone got some this morning.” Paddy looked up from
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his spot on the fl oor. He’d been placing his pedals in his own
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way. His guitar was on his lap as he tested the sound.
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“I don’t kiss and tell.” He pulled his hair back and into a
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ponytail before wrapping several drumsticks.
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Ezra was doing double duty in the booth and would also be
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doing backup guitar on the tracks. He had a phone to his ear
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even as he spoke to their producer and sound tech while they
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fi ddled around with the board.
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Vaughan strolled in, tipping his chin. “Where’s the food? I
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really only came for that.”
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“She’ll be up in two hours but she wanted me to remind you
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all there are snacks in the kitchen. She even made juice and with-
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held her frown when she saw how many sodas I’ve already had
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today.” Damien grinned as he tested his sound through his head-
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phones.
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“You need to lock that shit in and marry her. Otherwise it’s
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back to Doritos and stuff.”
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“Don’t say that around her. She’s nervous enough. You go
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talking marriage and you’ll scare her away.”
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“Don’t fuck it up like I did.” Vaughan tuned his bass.
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“Let’s get this show on the road, losers.” Paddy stood, ready
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to go.
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“Let’s make a record.”
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She came in quietly through the door to the kitchen. She
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didn’t want to interrupt their work. More than that, she was in
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her own head space from cooking.
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She loved his kitchen so much. It was a total joy to work in
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that space. It was large and bright, there was more than enough
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counterspace, double ovens, convection oven, six- burner stove,
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separate grill.
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It was like Disneyland in there.
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Smiling, she set up their lunch. Today she was starting them
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off with a taco bar of sorts. Spiced and marinated tofu and veg-
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gies for Paddy; shrimp, whitefi sh and steak for the others with
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a variety of toppings.
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For dessert she’d made a quick and easy strawberry kiwi
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granita. Not high in sugar, but would give them something sweet
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and full of energy for the afternoon.
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Once she set up she left as quietly as she’d come in. She’d set
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up on a schedule and they’d smell it. If they wanted her to break
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in and tell them, Damien would let her know. She’d come back
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in an hour to clean up.
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The freedom of this new schedule was pretty awesome, she
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had to admit. She had plans to work on a curry recipe that after-
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noon. She’d been fi ddling with it for the last few days and was
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very close to being fi nished.
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Sharon had asked her to come up to the main house anytime
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she wanted. And she would, but for the next few days it would
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be nice to just settle in to this new routine.
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And she couldn’t deny how wonderful it had been to reunite
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with Damien. He’d been in New York on some publicity stuff.
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Originally it was supposed to be just Paddy but their manager
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had talked them all into going.
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But he’d sent her texts and pictures and had called. It hadn’t
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been too different from when he was in Hood River and she’d
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been in Bainbridge, but he’d shown her a hearty welcome when
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he’d picked her up two days before.
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She smiled at the sight of Violet trotting toward her.
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“Oh, wee baby piggy.” She knelt and gave Violet love. “You’re
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such an escape artist. Let’s get you back home before the dog-
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gies see you.”
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Not that the dogs would hurt her. Most of them were afraid
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of the demon pig. But Loopy adored her and got so excited every
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time he saw her, and it got the other dogs all worked up too.
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“We can hang out later. I’m going for a bike ride. I bet you’d
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fi t in the basket.”
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Violet did a little dance and it made her laugh. “But for now,
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back home.” Dutifully, Violet followed and went back into the
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enclosure she shared with Mr. Big, Ezra’s other pig.
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Big gave her a snorty hello before going back to his nap. Vio-
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let trotted over and lay herself against him.
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She walked back to Damien’s house, checking her e-mail.
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There were several from friends and one from an address she
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didn’t recognize that had an attachment she couldn’t open on
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her phone.
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She had also brought her laptop though, so when she got
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back she fi red it up to see what it was.
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The name sounded familiar and she realized it was that shit-
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head reporter who’d been taking pictures of Gillian, the one
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who’d been the cause of Gillian and Adrian nearly breaking up
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over a year before.
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Lip curled, she opened the attachment. A picture of Damien
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and his brothers at some red carpet thing they’d attended in
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New York. She leaned closer as she broke into a sweat. Dread
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crawled through her gut as she blinked.
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The woman on his arm was someone Mary recognized. An
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old fl ing of his who also happened to be a lingerie model. He
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leaned in very close to her, a laugh on his features. She held on
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to him tightly, her lips nearly on his.
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There were others attached and she opened them, knowing
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on some level that she shouldn’t. Knowing she was going to see
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something that would break her heart, and yet she couldn’t seem
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to stop herself.
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Another of her hugging him, her hand on his ass. On. His.
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Ass. Another with her head on his shoulder and a last one,
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clearly taken after the event, in the lobby of a hotel.
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She stood up, sick. Sick at heart. Sick to her stomach. She was
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so cold. But not cold enough that she wasn’t feeling the pain.
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Never, ever in her whole life had she felt like this. Felt this
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horrible shame. This dread and humiliation. Her chest ached
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and she heard a sound, a rusty sort of laugh ,and she realized
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she was the one who made it as her heart broke.
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Why would he do this? How could he do this to her when
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she’d fi nally accepted that he wanted to be with her for real?
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Damien was a stranger to her. How could the man she’d fallen
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in love with be so cruel? Surely he must have known he’d be pho-
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tographed with this woman. And that she would see it. Or maybe
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he’d been so cocky that when she’d said she avoided celebrity
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news he thought he’d be safe.
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She wanted to go confront him. Wanted to walk into that
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studio and throw her laptop in his face, and while he was on
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the ground clutching his perfect nose she wanted to kick him in
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the junk.
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But the thought of his brothers knowing . . . and they must
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have since they were there. They all knew and no one stopped
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him. No one told her.
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She slammed the laptop shut, grabbing it and heading
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upstairs.
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He found it odd that she hadn’t shown up, but they’d been really
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busy working on the fi rst two songs so he hadn’t really noticed
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until he’d gotten very hungry and realized it was two hours past
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dinner.
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They’d wandered into the kitchen only to fi nd the stuff from
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lunch still there. Which he found totally odd.
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“Weird. She’s not the type to blow this off.”
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“You said she was working on her cookbook. Maybe she
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forgot because she was super into it. There’s still a huge amount
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