Love Without End (17 page)

Kimberly glanced at her wristwatch, as if it would provide an answer for her. “All right. We’ll come. Now, I must get back to the office. My lunch hour is almost over.” A fleeting smile. “It was good to run into you, Chet.”

W
HY DID YOU AGREE TO GO
? W
HY
?

Kimberly quickened her pace as she headed toward the mayor’s office.

Of course, she didn’t have to look hard for an answer. She
wanted
to spend some time with Chet. She’d missed
him. Which was silly. It wasn’t as if they’d spent a lot of time together in the past. And yet, it had been enough that not seeing him left a vacuum in her life.

Okay, she would admit it. She found Chet Leonard charming in the extreme. Not to mention gorgeous to look at. But admitting it reminded her why it would be a mistake to give in to those feelings. He was completely unsuitable for her. Oh, there were attractive things about him and about his ranch, about the life he led there with his sons and Anna McKenna. Attractive . . . but not right for someone like her. She could admire the night sky without wanting to become an astronaut.

And besides, his invitation could be nothing more than neighborliness. It didn’t have to mean he was attracted to her too. Folks were big on being neighborly in this town.

She opened the door to the city office building and walked to her desk where she opened a drawer and dropped her purse into the empty space.

“That you, Kimberly?” Ollie called from inside his office.

“Yes, it’s me. Did you need something?”

“Nope.” The mayor appeared in the doorway. “Don’t need a thing.” He pointed at her desktop. “You didn’t find the novel you wanted?”

The novel! She’d forgotten the reason she’d gone into Heather Books on her lunch hour. Janet had talked her into joining the book club that met in the library each month, and she needed to buy and read this month’s selection.

She settled onto her chair as she shook her head. “I’ll have to check back later.”

“That surprises me. Long as the club gives her enough
notice, Heather always has plenty of copies on hand for the women.” The mayor knew just about everything that went on in his town—including, it seemed, what happened in the women’s-only book club.

“It’s my own fault. I ran into a friend and got to talking and forgot to ask for the book. It’s almost time to start reading the next selection. Maybe I’ll get that one instead.”

Ollie closed his office door behind him. “I’m headed to a meeting with a couple councilmen. Then I’ve got a repairman due at the house. My wife wants me to be there. We may need a new furnace, and she doesn’t want to make that decision on her own. Don’t expect I’ll be back to the office today. I’ll see you in the morning.”

“Okay. See you then.”

“Don’t forget. We lock up at three today.”

As if his reminder was necessary. “I won’t forget.”

The place was quiet after the mayor left. The phone didn’t ring even once. Tuesdays through Thursdays, there was a part-time employee in the office with Kimberly. Bonnie Clark was young, only two years out of Kings Meadow High. Her job was to answer the phone and to research any questions that came her way. On Mondays and Fridays, the two days they closed early, Kimberly was the only employee in the office. Last week, she hadn’t minded. Today she did. Perhaps because her thoughts kept returning to Chet. She sighed. If only she could trust her heart to not get itself broken again.

Anna

1947

I
T
WAS
S
EPTEMBER
BEFORE
M
ILES
—
HAVING FINISHED
the Leonard family portrait—began to paint the portrait of Shiloh’s Star. Only the painting wasn’t to be of the blood bay stallion by himself. Miles insisted Anna be in the portrait too. She couldn’t refuse the request. Didn’t want to refuse it. Agreeing meant spending more time with Miles, and she always wanted more time with him.

There was no doubt about it. Anna McKenna was in love. Thoroughly, completely, devastatingly in love. Did Miles have any idea how she felt about him? If he did, he didn’t let on.

“That’s perfect,” he called to her from behind his easel. “Keep that expression. Try not to move.”

It was much harder than it sounded, to hold any one particular expression, to stand like a statue. “Have you thought of asking Miss Carter to take a photograph and then paint from it? Everyone says her pictures are gorgeous. Then both me and Star would stand still for you and never change an
expression or swat at a fly.” The idea appealed to Anna for more than one reason. If Miles was looking at a photograph while he painted, Anna would be free to move about and to gaze upon him with complete freedom.

“Hold still. And forget about a photograph. I could never capture the colors and the life I see before me now if I was looking at a black-and-white picture.”

Anna forced herself to focus on the palette Miles held in his left hand, thumb stuck through the hole, board resting on his forearm. A kaleidoscope of oil colors covered the palette’s surface. Miles twirled the tip of the brush in his right hand in one color, then another, then applied it to the canvas on the easel. It was pleasant to watch him work, even though she couldn’t see what he was doing. He often pressed his lips together, one corner slightly higher than the other, and squinted his eyes. Whenever he glanced up, he seemed to see her but not see her. As if she were in his dreams.

She smiled at the thought. How grand it would be if Miles Stanley dreamed about her. It would only be fair. She dreamed about him. Often.

“Hey, Anna, I told you to hold your expression. Now you’re smiling and your smile is too . . . happy. I want a look that’s a little mysterious.”

She laughed. “But I
am
happy.”

“All right then. I’ll paint the horse.
He
isn’t smiling.”

“You are.”

“Am I?” He set aside palette and brush, then touched the corners of his mouth with his fingertips. “Well I’ll be. You’re right.”

Any attempt to compose herself would be useless now. So
she didn’t even try. Instead she pushed away from the fence and walked toward Miles. “I want to see what you’ve done.”

Miles stepped around the easel, planting himself in her way. “No peeking.”

“But—”

“No.” He put his hands on her shoulders. “Not until it’s finished.”

“How long will that be?”

“A lot longer if you don’t stand still.”

She laughed again as she looked up into his eyes. Miles stood so close. It would be easy for him to lean in and kiss her. She wished he would do it. Whenever she dreamed of him, he always kissed her. If only he would do it for real.

Instead of kissing her, he turned her around and gave her a gentle push back toward the fence. “Go on. I need to work while the light’s right.”

Oh, the frustration! She wasn’t a child. Young, yes, but not a child.

She arrived back at the fence and turned around.

“Move a little to your right. That’s it.”

You see so much, Miles, with those artist’s eyes of yours. Why can’t you see how much I love you?

He smiled as he picked up his paintbrush. “Perfect. Now stay put.”

Somehow she would make him see more than the expression she wore. Somehow she would make him see into her heart.

Twenty

“D
AD
?”

Chet looked up from the computer screen.

“I need to talk to you.” Sam’s expression was grim as he entered the room.

Chet had always tried his best to be available to his sons. No matter when he was needed. No matter what they were interrupting. It had become even more important to him after they lost Rick. “Sure. What do you need?”

Sam sat on the chair at the corner of Chet’s desk. “I think it was my fault.”

“What was your fault?”

“The fire.”

Chet leaned back in his chair, surprised into silence.

“It’s been eating at me ever since it happened.” Sam stared at a spot on the floor. “I was smoking a cigarette. In the barn. I heard something, thought somebody was coming. I didn’t want to get caught so I put it out and left the barn quick.” He
looked up. “I . . . I’m sorry, Dad. I must not have put it out like I thought.”

There was a lengthy silence, one Chet thought he should fill. Now wasn’t the right time for a lecture on the dangers of smoking, but that seemed to be all he could think of.

“I thought I put it out, Dad.”

“I’m sure you did.” Chet cleared his throat. “How long have you been smoking, Sam?”

“Off and on for the past few months.” The boy lowered his gaze again. “I don’t do it much.”

“Any is too much.”

“Yes, sir. And I don’t plan on doing it again. I promise.”

Chet nodded. “I’m glad to hear it.”

Possible causes of Sam’s behavior—sneaking around, smoking on the sly, lying to his father by omission if not commission—raced through Chet’s mind. But in the end, the reasons didn’t seem to matter. Sam knew better.

“I’m going to have to think about this,” he said after another silence. “There’s going to have to be some kind of punishment, you know.”

“Yeah. I know. But could we keep the reason between us?”

“Yeah, I suppose we can.”

Sam stood. “I really am sorry, Dad.”

“I know you are. And, Son?”

“Yeah.”

“Thanks for owning up to it.”

“Sure.”

After Sam left the room, Chet got up and closed the door. Then he did some pacing, hands clasped behind his back. His office wasn’t a large room, and pacing required frequent
turns. To the window. To the bookcase. To the window. To the bookcase. It didn’t take long to become almost dizzy with it. Or maybe what made him feel that way were the troubled turns of his thoughts.

How was he to handle this? As he’d said, there had to be some kind of punishment, whether or not a cigarette had been the cause of the fire—and they would never know for certain. So what did Sam’s behavior warrant? He wasn’t a grown man, but he wasn’t a kid either. That made punishment a little trickier. There weren’t a whole lot of options available to Chet. No cell phone to take away. No extra chores to be added when the kid already worked as hard as the hired hands.

Chet released a sigh. Looked like the truck would be off limits to Sam for a while.

L
YING
ON THE SOFA
, K
IMBERLY AWAKENED BY
degrees. The book she’d been reading before drifting off was open on her chest, pages down. The television’s audio had been turned low.

“Welcome back,” Janet said from the easy chair.

“How long was I asleep?” She sat upright, lowering her legs over the side of the couch.

“Over an hour.”

She pushed her hair back from her face. “Where’s Tara? In her room?”

“No. She went over to Ned and Susan’s. Helping out with Ned’s colt, I think.”

“You’d think after spending almost the whole day at the Leonard ranch she would get her fill of horses.”

Janet laughed softly. “Only someone who was never horse-crazy herself would think that.”

“You would know.” Kimberly stifled a yawn, then said, “We’re so different, Tara and me. How did that happen? I raised her. Shouldn’t we appreciate the same things?”

“Not necessarily. We are all uniquely made. Besides, the two of you aren’t all that different.”

“You think not? It’s like she was born and raised in Kings Meadow. She’s happier in this small town than I’ve seen her in a long, long time. Maybe ever.” She shook her head slowly. “What’s going to happen when I find a job back in the city and we have to move?”

Janet tipped her head to one side and studied Kimberly. “Are you still looking? You haven’t mentioned it in a while.”

“Of course I’m still looking. Anytime I discover a position I’m remotely qualified for, I submit an application. So far, not even a nibble. It’s depressing. That’s why I don’t mention it.”

“Maybe you aren’t supposed to go back to Seattle. Are you sure it’s still what you want?”

“Of course I’m sure.” Kimberly emphasized each word, as if to better convince her friend of its truth. Or maybe it was herself she needed to convince.

“You could do worse than settle down in Kings Meadow, you know.” Janet turned off the TV as she rose from the chair. “I’m getting a Diet Coke. Want one?”

“No thanks.” But she stood and followed her friend into the kitchen, where she leaned her backside against the counter. “I like working for the mayor, but it isn’t a career. There’s no way to advance or make more money.”

“Are money and advancement so important?”

“You’ve never had to wonder how to feed your child, or you wouldn’t ask that question.”

“Sorry. I didn’t mean to be insensitive. I know you have to earn a decent living. But maybe not in the way you think. Maybe God has something different in mind for you.” Janet sipped her soda. “You’ve been happier these past few weeks. I’d like to see you stay that way.”

“Being employed helps a lot.”

“Oh, is that it? I thought it might have something to do with Chet Leonard.”

Kimberly straightened away from the counter. “Why would you say that?”

“I don’t know.” Janet shrugged. “Just a gut feeling.”

“Well, your gut is wrong. Chet’s a nice guy, and he’s been really good with Tara. Better than I could’ve dared hope that day I first went to talk to him about her and Wind Dancer. But I’ve got no interest in Chet other than as a horse trainer and riding instructor.”

The words tasted like the lie they were. Her interest in Chet Leonard had become more than she was ready to admit. It had become . . . personal. Much too personal for comfort. She didn’t want to walk into a doomed relationship on purpose. The best way to protect all concerned was for her to find a way out of Kings Meadow. The sooner, the better.

Twenty-one

D
EVON
P
ARRY
,
THE VET
,
PEELED OFF HIS LATEX
gloves as he stepped out of the corral. “It doesn’t look good, Chet. He’s in a bad way.”