Love, Rosie (173 page)

mails
all
day.
You
would
think
that
we
would
share
some
sort
of
bond
or

friendship
or
have
any
kind
of
relationship.
But
we’re
complete
strangers.

Katie
thinks
it’s
hilarious.
Every
evening
she
calls
us
both
to
sit
together

at
the
dinner
table
to
eat.
She’s
not
playing
matchmaker
by
any
means,
she’s

just
trying
to
annoy
her
parents.
I
do
still
feel
angry
at
him
now
but
it’s
a

different
kind
of
anger.
Before
I
felt
angry
at
him
because
he
left
me,
I
had
to

do
everything.
My
social
life
was
ruined,
all
my
money
was
being
spent,
and

I
couldn’t
get
a
job.
But
now
when
I
look
at
him
joking
around
with
Katie
I

just
think
what
a
waste.
That’s
all
he
had
to
do
while
she
was
growing
up—

be
there
for
her
and
she
would
have
accepted
him,
as
children
do,
no
matter

what
he
was
like.
I
feel
angry
at
him
for
not
being
there
for
her
.
I’ve
finally

lost
that
selfish
part
of
me.

Once
again,
I
don’t
quite
know
where
I’m
headed
Steph.
It
seems
that

every
few
years
I’m
shoveling
up
the
pieces
of
my
life
and
starting
from

scratch
all
over.
No
matter
what
I
do
or
how
hard
I
try
I
can’t
seem
to
reach

262

Cecelia
Ahern

the
dizzy
heights
of
happiness,
success,
and
security,
like
so
many
people
do.

And
I’m
not
talking
about
becoming
a
millionaire
and
living
happily
ever

after.
I
just
mean
reaching
a
point
in
my
life
that
I
can
stop
what
I’m
doing,

take
a
look
around
me,
breathe
a
sigh
of
relief,
and
think
“I’m
where
I
want

to
be
now.”

I’m
missing
something,
you
know?
That
special
“sparkle”
that
life
is

supposed
to
bring.
I
have
the
job,
the
child,
the
family,
the
apartment,
and

the
friends,
but
I’ve
lost
the
sparkle.

And
in
answer
to
your
question
about
Alex,
I
don’t
know
what
he
thinks

of
my
new
job
because
I
haven’t
heard
from
him
in
a
long
time.
He’s
so
busy

saving
more
valuable
lives
and
attending
charity
functions
that
I
couldn’t

possibly
expect
him
to
get
in
touch
with
a
friend
like
me.
He’s
far
too
busy

hooking
up
with
“old”
friends.
Slutty
ones
at
that.

chapter
36

k

BON
VOYAGE!

I’LL
MISS
YOU
BOTH
LIKE
CRAZY,
THINGS
WON’T
BE
THE
SAME
WITH-

OUT
YOU
BUT
I
HOPE
YOU
HAVE
A
BRILLIANT
TIME!

LOVE,

ROSIE

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