Love Letters (15 page)

He cupped the sides of her face, his gaze growing serious. “The only thing I regret is not realizing you were meant for me the moment I saw you.”

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The End

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To Seduce an Earl!

By Lori Brighton

Chapter 1

He always received the virgins.

Really, it wasn’t fair.

Alex sighed in disgust and sank into the wing back chair, the antique legs protesting with a creak. The decorative Baroque style was more for show and offered only the façade of comfort.
Much like his life.

Just once he’d like a woman, a
real
woman, who knew what she wanted, what she was capable of; a woman who would take charge and please
him
. But it wasn’t about him. It never had been. It never would be.

His necktie felt suddenly too tight, the room too warm. With experienced fingers, he tugged the snowy white material loose. At Lady Lavender’s Estate of Seduction evening wear was a requirement. Resisting the urge to fidget with his clothing, he tapped his fingers against the curved walnut arm, impatient to leave, impatient to begin the evening and get the entire ordeal over with. But like a lad at supper, he couldn’t leave until
she
excused him.

“Bloody hell.”

Ophelia glanced up sharply from behind her desk.

Shite
, had he said that aloud?

Her amethyst eyes flashed eerily under the glow of the gas chandeliers she’d recently had installed throughout the first floor of the estate. When most of England was straining its eyes under candle and lamp light, Lady Lavender read in ease. “Watch your language.”

It wasn’t an elegant woman’s desk made of delicate scrolls that she resided behind. It was a man’s desk; massive, domineering. It was the only thing about her that wasn’t feminine. She was proving a point with that desk. Although her business revolved around the pleasuring of women, it was still a business and she treated her business as a man would. No feelings. No attachments. No excuses. She was heartless alright.
A formidable wall.

Taking a page from her book, Alex refused to apologize for his use of profanity, but he did manage that charming smirk that had made him famous with his clients. Inside he seethed. He was bloody sick of apologizing.

His stubbornness gained him nothing but contempt. Her icy gaze continued to drill into him. She didn’t back down. She wouldn’t. Ophelia, or Lady Lavender as the world knew her, held the impression of a lady, but underneath she was as selfish as any male brothel owner. Twelve years ago her cold gaze would have had him shifting with unease. Hell, even four years ago. Now, he barely cared.

Ending their silent war, she sighed and stood. “Why must you be so difficult lately?”

He didn’t bother to answer. What he had to say would merely get him into trouble…
again.
She strolled toward him. Those rounded hips swathed in the finest of imported silks, although it was early spring and most women still wore wool. Her lavender gown, narrow at the waist, flared into a bell of frills and ribbons that ended at satin slippers.
Completely inappropriate for the chill English weather.
Completely inappropriate for a woman who must be at the very least forty, yet looked more of twenty.
Even in the privacy of her office she wore the highest of fashion, an imitation of their Queen Victoria, she said. And Ophelia was a Queen, if only of her own sinful domain.

Even now, twelve years after the day she’d practically forced him into prostitution, Ophelia was still beautiful. Not a speck of gray in that white-blonde hair. Not a wrinkle around those amethyst eyes. Not a hint of time. When others aged, she didn’t seem to. A pact with the devil, Gideon always muttered. Perhaps he was right.

She idly drew her hand down the blue, velvet curtains, glancing casually out the windows. Did she truly see the beauty of the setting sun, or was she ignorant to something so pure?

 
“Have I not given you shelter?” she asked, forcing him from his thoughts. “Have I not fed you?
Clothed you in the finest of suits.”

She glanced pointedly at his silk vest and black trousers with the thin gray stripes.
The highest of fashion.

“Have I not kept your secrets, Alex?”

Unwanted memories swept through his mind. Memories he tried to ignore. Annoyed, he didn’t dare show his feelings on his face. How dare she mention his family yet
again.
A veiled threat that never went unnoticed.
Damn, but he hated when she had the audacity. How hard it had been those first years to pretend his family didn’t exist.
All for their own good.
His hands tightened around the arms of his chair, fingernails biting into hard wood.
 

It had taken years for him to forget his parents and within an
instant,
she could bring back the painful memories. Of course she did it on purpose…a reminder of what she knew, the control she held over him.
A verbal slap.
 

What was done was done. His parents would have given up their search and toasted
Demitri
as the new heir. Perhaps he should have tried to escape, in those early days, if he’d had the choice. But he’d been too damn afraid. When one was secluded in the country, a good hour from London, with brutes watching your every move, escape had seemed impossible…at least to a boy of thirteen. Although her thinly veiled threats no longer intimidated him, now Alex stayed for an entirely different reason…he had no money and nowhere to go. He was pathetic. God forbid she
realize
his true fear.

“Perhaps I no longer care about my secrets,” he couldn’t help but taunt in a soft voice. The war was over. Society no longer cared if you were from Russia; even he, secluded as he was, knew that must be true.
 

She paused behind him, and casually placed her hands upon his shoulders. But he felt the stiffness in her touch. Anger and annoyance practically vibrated tangibly around her. She knew as well as he that she no longer held the power over him she once had. For one brief moment he couldn’t help but gloat, to savor the thrilling shiver of victory.

“Perhaps,” she leaned down, her lips brushing the shell of his ear. Yet her touch offered no comfort, not even the stirrings of lust as it had when he was young. “But what will you do in the outside world, Alex? Return to the bosom of your family?”

Victory vanished and he was left cold, bitter. Suppressed ire flooded his neck in an unnatural heat that quickly moved higher to his cheeks. In one sentence she’d hit on the problem. He had
no where
to go.
Worthless.
A useless whore.

Ophelia straightened away from him, but the cloying scent of lavender remained as a reminder of her presence. The scent hovered in the estate and the fields around them. If he never saw a purple bloom, it would be too soon.

“Do you think they’ll take you back? There is no place in the outside world for people like us. And think about what would happen if your family uncovered the truth…that you’ve been prostituting yourself for twelve years.” She paused in front of him, her eyes wide with feigned innocence,
her
hand resting on her heart. As if she cared. As if she had a heart. “Or worse,
society
uncovered the truth. Why, if your family has finally found a place within the
ton,
they’d be shunned within weeks.” She shook her head and sighed as she moved toward the fireplace. “They’d certainly be forced back to Russia. And with the war over, the people starving, Russia is no place for loved ones.”

His body had gone cold, numb. A threat that went too far, damn her. But he should have known she would use whatever she could to keep her claws deeply embedded in his soul.

“Alex, darling,” she said. “You’re charming. You know how to put a woman at ease. This new client
needs
you.”

He resisted the urge to snort. Give, give, give, that’s all he did. But he had a feeling that’s how Lady Lavender wanted it. Punishment, but why punish him? What had he done to her?
The eternal, unanswerable question that had plagued him for years.

He raked trembling hands through his hair, the wavy curls clinging to his fingers. Perhaps Gideon’s paranoia was working its magic, but he didn’t trust her
anymore
than he had as a lad at thirteen when she’d offered him the world and instead, had given him hell.

She turned toward him in a swirl of skirts that showed off white petticoats, a smile upon her full lips. “Come, give me that charming grin the ladies so love.”

Alex dampened down his ire and widened his smile, knowing the dimples flashed. At times he felt trapped in his own skin; a bear with a chain wrapped around his neck, as he’d once seen in the old country. And only she held the key to that lock.

Ophelia seemed to relax and floated toward the marble hearth, her footfalls quieted by the thick Persian carpet.
The low fire casting leering shadows across the papered walls, crackled and sputtered, hissing at her approach.
“Take it easy on her for now. She’s as scared as a doe at the end of a pistol. Her driver even insisted she be taken through the kitchens so as not to be seen.”

Alex surged to his feet, eager to get away from Ophelia before he did something reckless, like throttle her.
“As if anyone would see her.
We’re in the middle of a damn field, a good hour from London.”

“Alex,” she warned, throwing him a threatening glare.

He kept his smile in place. He was a machine; one of those factories that chugged away in the city, producing black smoke that hid the reality of dreary London. Ophelia told him to smile, and he smiled. She said fuck, and he fucked. Why?
Because he didn’t care.

“Where is she?” he asked.

But she didn’t answer immediately. Instead, she tilted her head to the side in a thoughtful manner, her eyes narrowing as if to study him. Alex grew uneasy.

“Your room.
No intercourse. She merely wants to learn to kiss, touch.”

Wonderful.
Just
bleedin
wonderful.
He nodded, resisting the urge to roll his eyes. “I’ll see what I can do.” But he had to wait for her dismissal and apparently she was in a hesitant mood this eve.

She floated forward, not pausing until she was a breath away. Slowly, she tilted her head back and gazed directly into his eyes. With a soft smirk, she rested her hand on his chest. For one brief moment she merely stared at him, as if trying to read his thoughts. Alex barely breathed, afraid she would. With their gazes locked, she slid her hand down his silk vest, lower to his waist. With a firm grip she cupped the front of his trousers, taking the bulge of his cock in hand. He didn’t even flinch.

“Do not fail, Alex.”

Her touch didn’t do a damn thing to him. Neither did her threat.
“Of course not.”

She released her hold and gave him a dismissive wave. She’d moved on already, her next client, her next wad of cash. Alex gave a mocking bow to her back, then turned and made his way into the hall. How he hated her. How he despised everything about her.

Wavers, her guard dog, shifted from his position near her door.
Watching them, always watching them through those beady, black eyes.
The bastard never spoke, but with a face like his, he didn’t need to.

“Wavers.”
Alex brushed his fingers under his chin, a silent command to fuck off.

Ophelia’s henchman didn’t respond, but then they never did. Her muscled statues had two purposes in life: protect their lady and when her boys were behaving badly enough, beat them into submission. He’d felt the man’s fists more than once in the early years. For that, she paid them handsomely and like mutts, their loyalty was unwavering.
  

Feigning
a nonchalance
he sure as hell didn’t feel, Alex started down the hall, whistling a tune under his breath. How impressed he’d been when he’d first arrived, a lad used to living in splendor, he expected nothing less and thought he’d found a second home. The estate was beautiful, only the best. Marble floors, golden sconces highlighting the ornate scrolls hand painted on the walls. Above, gas chandeliers flickered and sputtered adding warmth and
moderninity
to the abode.

And there, on the outskirts, were objects meant to entice even the coldest of women.
Statues of naked couples frolicking half-hidden around corners.
Large tropical plants that added vitality.
Warm scents meant to relax.
Paintings of virile men hanging on the walls.
It was a lush lifestyle meant to seduce and please, if one didn’t mind selling one’s soul.