Love, Laughter, and Happily Ever Afters Collection (51 page)

In a dark blue sundress and pair of athletic-looking sandals, she shouldn’t have taken his breath away, but she did. He couldn’t keep his eyes from skimming over her—from the curly brown hair swirling around her shoulders, to her curves, to her toned legs disappearing into her sensible sandals. She looked good enough to eat, and Jamison suddenly found he’d recovered his appetite…though this particular appetite wouldn’t be satisfied by ribs or potato salad.

“Want to walk on the beach?” Maddie asked, a cautious look in her eyes that did nothing to allay Jamison’s fears.

So what if she tries to let you down easy? That doesn’t mean that’s the end of it. You don’t go down easy—never have, never will.

“Sounds good.” Jamison fell in beside her as she set off toward the sound of the ocean waves pounding the shore.

It was true, he’d never gone down easy, but that wasn’t always a good thing. If he’d backed off the first time Wendy had rebuffed him, he could have spared them both so much guilt and heartache.

But he hadn’t backed off, he’d used the heated glances Wendy shot his way when she came to visit Art at the station as an excuse to cross the line, to apply another round of pressure one night when they were walking to their cars after a mutual friend’s party. Sure, Wendy had caved without more than a few whispered words, but still. Jamison knew things could have been different—
would
have been different, if he had simply taken no for an answer.

But he didn’t want to take no for an answer with Maddie. Last night had been more than insanely hot sex, it had been one of the best nights of his life, period. It wasn’t simply that he’d finally met a woman who was his match sexually, it was because that woman was Maddie, a person who had been a friend since he was too young to understand that the warm, safe feeling that filled his chest whenever he was around the Whitehouse girls was a kind of love.

And look how you confused that kind of love for something more with Naomi. Look how that turned out. Now you can barely say three words to her without wanting to make a run for it. Keep this up, and you’ll wreck things with Maddie, too.

Jamison sighed as he and Maddie stepped onto the sand, grateful the sound was swallowed by the roar of the waves. It was true; he could be on the verge of ruining one of his longest-standing friendships.

But then, he’d meant what he’d said to Maddie—he could never go back to the way things were. The memory of her riding him in the moonlight filtering through his tent was permanently etched upon his brain. They were either going to move forward as more than friends, or they weren’t going to move forward at all.

The knowledge was enough to make his palms sweat as Maddie turned back to him, the setting sun catching the caramel streaks in her hair, making her even prettier than she’d been a moment before.

“So?” Jamison asked, after an uncomfortable moment of silence. “What’s the verdict?”

“What’s your end game?” Maddie asked, answering his question with a question.

Jamison blinked. “Um, nothing. I want to spend time with you.”

Maddie shook her head, the skin between her eyebrows wrinkling. “No, I mean, with dating. Why do you date? What’s your end game? Do you even have one?”

Jamison fought the urge to pull Maddie into his arms and kiss the frown from her face. It was a decent question, and one that deserved an honest answer. “I don’t know. I mean, someday I’d like to find someone, get married, I guess. I don’t want to play the field forever.”

“But you’re already thirty-one. By your age, most men who are looking for Mrs. Right have either found her, or found her and divorced her, ” Maddie said, clearly not willing to let him off easy, but then Maddie never did. It was one of the reasons Jamison had always respected her, even back when they were kids.

Jamison nodded. “You’re right. And I’m the first to admit that in the past, I wasn’t looking too hard for Mrs. Right. I was more concerned with Mrs. Right Now. Then I moved to Atlanta and I was so busy with work I didn’t have much time for dating.” He hesitated before pushing on, wanting Maddie to know at least part of the truth. “There
was
a woman last year who I thought… We cared a lot about each other, and I was hoping we’d have a future, but it didn’t work out.”

“Why?” Maddie asked, pinning him with her unflinching gaze.

He sighed. “A lot of reasons, the main one being that moving forward with me would have meant a big life change for her, and she wasn’t ready for that. In the end, she decided she’d rather stay in a familiar, less-than-perfect situation than try for something more.”

Maddie pressed her lips together, appearing to take a moment to digest what he’d said before she spoke again. “I can understand that. I think that’s why Serge stayed with me for so many years, even after he knew that he didn’t love me in that way. Our marriage was familiar, and good in a lot of ways.”

Jamison nodded, wishing Maddie hadn’t had to go through that with her ex. She seemed to be at peace with it, but he knew it had been painful, and he didn’t like the thought of Maddie hurting.

“But I don’t want good anymore,” Maddie continued, a vulnerable look in her eyes that made it harder to resist the urge to draw her into his arms. “I want passion and fun and friendship and someone who is open to dating becoming something more. I came to this retreat promising myself this would be the beginning of a new me, that I would learn to let my hair down and have a little fun while I was waiting to find the right guy, but I’ve been thinking all day…”

She sighed, turning to stare out at the water, where the waves crashed into the shore in a burst of foam. “That’s not me,” she said, almost too softly to hear over the sound of the surf. “I’m not a casual kind of person, and I don’t want to date someone who’s only after a good time.”

Jamison placed a hand on her shoulder and gently turned her to face him. “Who said I’m only after a good time?”

Maddie shrugged, nibbling at her lip for a moment before she said, “From what I’ve seen, your dating relationships don’t seem to last too long.”

“That’s not always been my choice,” Jamison said. “There are a lot of women out there who aren’t up for anything long-term, either, especially with a guy they think is a dumb meat head.”

Maddie smiled. “You’re a lot things, but a dumb meat head isn’t one of them.”

“And you’re not some random woman,” he said, letting his fingers slide up to curl around the back of her neck. “You’re Maddie. I know the type of person you are. If I wasn’t on board for something more than casual, I wouldn’t be here right now. I wouldn’t have asked to date you. And when I say “date,” I mean exclusively, you and me giving this a shot to see if we work as more than friends.”

Maddie’s brow furrowed again. “Really?”

“Really,” Jamison said with a smile.

“But why?” she asked, obviously still struggling. “Why now, after all these years of you teasing me like I’m your bratty little sister? What changed?”

“I guess I finally woke up,” Jamison said, bringing his face closer to hers. “And I’m glad I did, because you are the sexiest friend I’ve ever had.”

Maddie’s breath feathered out, caressing his lips, making him hungry for another taste of her. “You’re pretty sexy yourself.”

“Thanks,” Jamison said softly. “So can I kiss you now? Are we good?”

Maddie’s tongue swept out to dampen her lips, making it almost impossible to resist claiming her mouth, but Jamison forced himself to wait. He wanted to be sure they were on the same page.

“I still want to keep it a secret from Naomi and Jake until after the wedding,” Maddie said, her arms twining around Jamison’s neck, sending a wave of relief and desire sweeping through him. “And I want us to promise we won’t let anything that happens between us interfere with being good godparents to Noelle. She deserves the best from us, not any drama.”

“I agree,” Jamison said, pulling Maddie closer. “Now can I kiss you?”

Maddie smiled. “Not if I kiss you first.”

And then she kissed him, banishing any lingering doubt that last night had been a fluke. Her kiss still destroyed him, leaving him raw and stripped bare and starving for more of her, though he’d practically gorged himself on loving her the night before. But when it came to Maddie, he had a feeling he wouldn’t ever get enough of her taste, her touch, the way she moaned when the sparks between them ignited.

As her tongue danced with his and her back arched, pressing her breasts tighter to his chest, Jamison swore he literally felt the earth move. She shook things loose inside him, leaving him different than he was before. But it wasn’t a bad different, it was the kind of change that made you wonder how a world without the person in your arms could ever have been enough.

By the time they pulled apart, Jamison’s heart was pounding and his body crying out to get closer to Maddie, to get as close as two people can get and then closer still, until there was nothing separating them but skin.

“This is crazy,” Maddie said, her breath coming fast.

“What?” Jamison asked, sliding his hands down to cup her bottom, pulling her closer to where he ached.

Her lids fluttered before she met his eyes with a desire-filled look that took the last of his breath away. “I want you more than I did last night. I was pretty sure that was impossible.”

“And I want you so much, I’m tempted to take you right here on the sand.”

She bit her lip. “Why don’t we try somewhere a little more private? I saw a lifeguard stand about a mile down the beach earlier today. I checked the door and it wasn’t locked.”

“You checked the door?” Jamison took her hand, letting her lead the way across the sand. “So you were thinking about having your way with me again, were you?”

“All. Day. Long,” she said in a husky voice so sexy Jamison couldn’t resist picking her up and spinning her around until she giggled.

“Put me down,” she said, kicking her dangling feet.

“Only if you’ll race me to the lifeguard stand,” he said, loving the feel of her arms wrapped tight around his neck.

“Okay, but you know you’ll win.”

“We’re both going to win,” Jamison said with a wink as he set her on her feet. “No doubt in my mind.”

Maddie grinned as she set off across the sand with Jamison in hot pursuit.

CHAPTER SIX

MADDIE HAD NEVER kept a secret from her sister, not once in her entire nearly thirty years of life.

Maddie and Naomi had been tight since the day Maddie was born. She’d grown up idolizing Naomi. Maddie was Naomi’s number one fan long before Naomi was a famous celebrity chef with her own TV show and a multimillion dollar line of gourmet products. Maddie shared everything with her eldest sibling: hopes, dreams, heartaches—even Naomi’s extensive shoe collection.

In other words, Maddie had no idea how she was going to keep her relationship with Jamison a secret from her sister, but she was determined to try. She didn’t want to cross the Telling-Naomi bridge until she and Jamison were certain they were going to last longer than a few weeks.

Though if Maddie were honest, it was hard to imagine calling things off any time soon. Even if Jamison were to suddenly turn into an insufferable jerk—which she seriously doubted was going to happen—she would stick around for several months for the sex alone.

The sex was…AH-MAY-ZING.

Maddie had had her share of lovers when she was studying in Paris, and been satisfied with the quality, if not the quantity, of her sex life with Serge, but nothing in her past had prepared her for the mind-and-body-blowing experience of being with Jamison. Their connection was so intense it allowed for nothing less than complete abandon.

Even stone-cold sober, in the harsh light of day, Maddie was incapable of giving less than everything when she was in bed with him. The moment Jamison pulled her into his arms, her inhibitions vanished. So far, they’d had sex in the ocean, in a tent with people mere feet away, in a deserted life guard stand on a public beach, and in the closed bakery after Jamison caught a ride back to Summerville with Maddie and her friends after the singles retreat.

Maddie was secretly relieved that Jamison had asked for a ride, ensuring she wouldn’t be pressured to spill all the intimate details of their steamy weekend. She loved Shelley, Dawn, and Piper, but she didn’t want to share what she’d experienced with Jamison with anyone but Jamison. When they were together, it was special. It would have felt like a betrayal to let anyone else into their private world, even people she cared about as much as her oldest friends.

The only person she would have even considered telling was Naomi, but her sister was absolutely off-limits, a fact Maddie repeated like a mantra as she opened Icing the day after her return from the retreat.

By the time Naomi showed up a little after ten, Maddie’s resolve was set like fast-drying concrete, which was a good thing considering the first words out of her sister’s mouth threatened to send all her carefully erected defenses tumbling down.

“Why didn’t you tell me Jamison was going on the retreat, too?” Naomi asked, yawning as she shuffled behind the counter of the momentarily customer-free bakery to snag her apron off its hook.

“What?” Maddie blinked and laughed a little too brightly.

“Jake said Jamison went on a singles camping trip to Myrtle Beach last weekend. I figured it had to be the same one.” Naomi pulled her caramel-streaked hair into a high ponytail before turning to wash her hands in the sink across from the display counter. In a pair of faded jeans and a tight red tee shirt Naomi looked adorable, but less put together than usual, a side effect, no-doubt, of having an infant in the house. “Did you see him while you were there?”

“Oh, yeah, I did,” Maddie said, focusing on rearranging the bread behind the counter, combining the loaves into fewer baskets now that the morning rush had passed. “But I didn’t know he was going to be there, and he didn’t know I was going, either. We were both surprised.”