Authors: Jessica Deborah; Nelson Allie; Hale Winnie; Pleiter Griggs
Tags: #Fluffer Nutter, #dpgroup.org
Watching the children eat their breakfast of porridge studded with plump raisins, followed by buttered eggs and muffins, Evangeline sickened with the memory of watery gruel that had no taste at all unless the cook let some of it burn to the bottom of the pot. Unappetizing as it had been, she'd wolfed it down to dull the gnawing ache that seldom left her belly.
While the children larked about with their father, Evangeline was more than usually indulgent with them, recalling the frequent punishments that had been a way of life at the Pendergast School. The slightest infraction of numerous, often conflicting, rules had earned penalties that ranged from whippings to standing on a chair for hours or being deprived of meals that were already inadequate.
Jasper Chase was right. It had been a situation calculated to break young spirits.
As she watched him exchange a fond smile with Emma while patiently answering a series of questions from Matthew, it dawned on Evangeline that Mr. Chase truly seemed to understand what she had endured. His indignation had been so tangible she could almost feel its sharp edge. Somehow, his outrage on her behalf soothed the feelings her memories provoked.
She told herself it would be worth her distress if the things she'd told her employer made him understand why it was so vital for her to establish a new school. At the same time, her memories reproached her for allowing him to delay her mission for as long as she had. There were girls, perhaps no older than Rosie, suffering the same hardships she and her friends had endured, when she might have spared them. That was not Mr. Chase's fault, but hers.
Evangeline roused abruptly from her troubled thoughts to find her pupils staring at her.
“Did you hear me?” asked Matthew. “Are we going on another outing today?”
“IâI have no idea,” she replied. “You will have to ask your father about that.”
Alfie turned at once toward Mr. Chase. “Can we, Papa? Please! It was jolly fun to go fishing and kite flying.”
“So it was,” Mr. Chase agreed. “But I am not certain poor Mrs. Gilman is up to preparing a picnic luncheon
every
day. Why don't we stay at home today and find ways to amuse ourselves here?”
The children could not hide their disappointment, especially Rosie and the older boys. But when their father suggested they play pall-mall and some other outdoor games, they grew more enthusiastic.
“Can we go for a walk,” Owen asked Evangeline, “while Papa and Granny and the others are having their breakfast?”
She nodded. “That sounds like a fine idea. You may bring your butterfly net in case we see any interesting specimens.”
A brisk walk with the children would do her good. Fresh morning air and movement might be just what she needed to lift her thoughts out of the dark place into which they had fallen.
As the children hurried off to get ready for their walk, Mr. Chase leaned toward her and spoke softly. “I am sorry to have brought up all that business about your younger years. I had no idea how deeply personal an undertaking it would be for you to set up this new school. If I had known, I would have tried to assist you rather than dragging my heels and throwing obstacles in your path.”
He reached across the table and covered her folded hands with one of his. It felt protective yet sympathetic and encouraging. “I hope you can forgive me.”
“Of course.” She had to force the words outânot because of any reluctance to do what he asked, but because her throat had grown tight. “I should have told you long ago.”
Perhaps she should. But it had never crossed her mind that he might care about the circumstances of her girlhood. Besides, she had never before trusted anyone sufficiently to reveal this vulnerable facet of her characterâleast of all her dynamic, successful employer.
“I wish you had.” Jasper Chase patted her hands then drew his back. “But now that I know part of your story, I am anxious to hear the rest. I will be waiting for you tomorrow morning.”
The thought of that encounter made Evangeline want to run away as fast and as far as she could get in twenty-four hours. Yet another part of her could scarcely wait for tomorrow morning to come.
* * *
Early the next morning, Jasper sat in the nursery again, sipping a cup of good strong coffee as he waited for Evangeline Fairfax to join him.
After yesterday, he would not blame her if she refused to come out until she heard his children stirring. Agreeing to give him courting lessons had been one thing, but she could not have expected to relive the worst experiences of her life. In her place, he would have wanted to bury those memories even deeper. Yet here he sat, waiting for her to tell him more about the wretched past that had shaped the woman she'd become.
His anticipation was whetted to a sharp pitch by the time he heard Miss Fairfax begin to move about quietly in her room. At last she emerged, with an air of mingled eagerness and reluctance.
“Good morning.” He held a chair for her. “I was not certain you would join me this morning.”
“Neither was I.” She sank onto the chair. “But I could not resist the smell of coffee.”
Jasper gave a low, rumbling chuckle as he resumed his seat and poured her a cup of the bitter but invigorating brew. “You are a woman after my own heart, Miss Fairfax. I hope you slept well.”
“Well enough.” She pulled the cup toward her and inhaled the aroma rising from it. Then she took a sip, closing her eyes as if to savor the taste. “The children had a fine time yesterday. I noticed you managed a longer conversation with Miss Webster. Perhaps you do not require lessons from me, after all.”
Jasper shook his head. “Quite the contrary. The only reason Miss Webster spoke with me was because I took your advice. I asked her father about her interests and he said she is very partial to music. So I asked her if she might favor us with a recital some evening.”
“What did she say to that?” Evangeline Fairfax seemed less self-conscious now that they were discussing Miss Webster.
“She claimed she would feel uncomfortable being the center of attention for all that time. But she suggested we might get up a little concert with everyone having an opportunity to perform. What do you think?”
Miss Fairfax seemed surprised to be consulted, but she did not hesitate to give her opinion. “It sounds like a fine idea. The more I hear of your Miss Webster, the better I like her. I believe she will make you a very good wife.”
He nodded absently. Margaret Webster was not
his
. Besides, it was not Miss Webster he wanted to talk about now. “I wonder if the children might take part. I know you have been teaching them music and I thought they might enjoy entertaining our guests.”
“Indeed they might,” she replied. “Let me know when you decide to have this concert and I will do all I can to assist Miss Webster.”
“Did they teach music at your old school?” Jasper seized the opportunity to return to that subject.
“I wondered when you would get around to asking about that.” Miss Fairfax looked at him the way she sometimes looked at Alfie when he misbehavedâas if she knew she ought to scold him but found his antics too amusing.
Jasper tried to mimic his son's winsome grin. “You didn't think I would forget, did you?”
She pursed her lips into a tight frown that he sensed she found hard to maintain. “I thought after your conversation with Miss Webster, you would have more profitable things to think about.”
“There is more to life than profit.” The words popped out by reflex because he spoke them so often to the other mill owners of Manchester, who seemed to regard the sentiment as blasphemous. “Tell me more about how you managed to escape from that wretched school with your spirit intact.”
“I do not wish to dwell on the hardships of my youth,” Evangeline Fairfax insisted in a firm tone. “I put them behind me long ago and that is where I mean them to stay. I refuse to give them the power to distress me further.”
He of all people ought to understand that, yet Jasper could not conceal his disappointment.
Perhaps seeing it so plain on his face made her relent a little. “But I will tell you what made those conditions bearable and helped me rise above them. It was my faith in the Lord and the support of my friends. Six of us banded together, as close as sisters. Each of us brought some special quality or ability to the group that enriched us all and made us stronger together than we could ever have been on our own.”
Her eyes took on a fervent glow as she spoke of her friends. Her account fascinated Jasper, who had never experienced that strong a bond, even with Norton Brookes.
He leaned forward, his chin cupped in the palm of his hand. “What sort of qualities did each of you bring to the group?”
The lady's tense frown softened. It was clear she needed less urging to speak about that part of her past. “Marian Murray had the courage of a lion when it came to defending others. Leah Shaw could always make us laugh, no matter how bleak things looked.”
Jasper gave an approving nod. Those were excellent traits for comrades to possess, especially in such circumstances. He was glad that young Evangeline Fairfax had been blessed with such friends.
“Rebecca Beaton was unshakably loyal.” Her tone warmed as she spoke of her friends. “We could count on her to encourage us when our spirits were low. Hannah Fletcher was conscientious and capable. She would gladly turn her hand to anything to help one of us. Grace Ellerby was kindhearted and understanding. We could always confide in her and know we would get a sympathetic hearing.”
“What about Evangeline Fairfax?” he asked when she paused. “What did she contribute to this group of friends? Something equally valuable, I'm certain.”
Miss Fairfax cast him a doubtful look. “The other girls called me their âintrepid leader,ʼ which I suspect was a kind way of saying I was insufferably overbearing.”
A week ago, he might have agreed with her. But at the moment Jasper could not bear to hear her criticizedâeven by herself. “There is more to leadership than that. I reckon it is as admirable a quality as those others you mentioned.”
As she took another sip of her coffee, Miss Fairfax glanced up at him with an air of gratitude that moved him to add, “Proper leadership inspires a group with purpose. It brings out the individual skills of each member and welds them into a powerful force for the good of all.”
“You do make the quality sound admirable.”
“Because it is. I am only saying what I believe your friends would say about you. I believe you have done the same thing for my children. You have cultivated their special qualities and made them a true familyâloving and loyal to one another. For that, we all owe you a great debt.”
Miss Fairfax lowered her gaze. “That is very kind of you to say, especially since you have experienced the other side of my leadershipâdeciding what is best for others and imposing my will on them even when they disagree.”
Jasper gave a rueful shrug. “It is not always easy for people to recognize what is best for them. My children, for example. Given the choice, they would eat nothing but sweets and stay awake all night. Insisting they take proper nourishment, keep regular hours and learn their lessons is not tyranny but kindness, even if they cannot always recognize it.”
“It sounds much nicer when you put it that way.” Miss Fairfax picked up the coffeepot and poured what was left into their two cups. “I suppose being a governess does provide scope for exercising leadership.”
Jasper nodded. “That ability will make you an excellent headmistress of your school.”
“Speaking of which,” she replied, “we must not forget your reason for coming here this morning. I have given some thought to what other lessons might be helpful in winning Miss Webster. I believe the next topic we should concentrate on is telling her more about yourself and the things that interest you. After all, she will want to gain a sense of whether you are the kind of man with whom she would like to spend the rest of her life.”
“I suppose that stands to reason.” Jasper could guess where such a lesson might lead and it was a direction he would have preferred to avoid.
But how could he resist, when Miss Fairfax had given him a glimpse of her painful past?
“Does that mean you would be willing to tell me about your extraordinary cotton mill,” she asked, “and why it is so important for you to operate it the way you do?”
“
Willing
might be a bit strong a word for it.” He bolted the last of his coffee. “But I reckon what's sauce for the goose is sauce for the gander.”
“Are we going to have goose?” Rosie ran across the nursery and jumped into her father's lap. “But Christmas is a long time away.”
“So it is.” Jasper embraced the child with a rumbling chuckle born as much of relief as amusement. “Then I suppose the goose will just have to wait.”
As he bent forward and rubbed noses with his small daughter, he realized how fast she and the others were growing up. He knew Miss Fairfax wanted him to spend more time with his children so their younger years would not seem to disappear so quickly.
Surely he owed it to her to explain why he could not.
Chapter Eight
W
hy was Mr. Chase reluctant to tell her about his mill?
Evangeline considered the possibilities that Sunday morning while she prepared her pupils for church.
Surely he did not think she would disapprove of his innovations as haughty Miss Anstruther might. Perhaps it was modesty that made him hesitate to proclaim his admirable work, though somehow she did not think so.
“Remember,” she warned the children as she gave their appearance a final inspection before they set out for church, “you must be on your very best behavior this morning so you will be a credit to your father and grandmother.”
“I will try.” Matthew sighed. “But it is a long while to sit still with nothing to do.”
Alfie nodded in agreement.
“You could try listening to what the vicar says.” Evangeline decided to take the precaution of not letting the brothers sit together, where they might egg each other on into mischief. Instead, she would place one on either side of her, where she could keep a close eye on them. “Why don't we make a game of it. After church, I shall ask three questions about the service. There will be a special treat for everyone who can answer one or more correctly.”
“Can I play, too?” asked Emma. “Or is the game only for Matthew and Alfie?”
“You are all welcome to play.” Evangeline plumped the bow on Emma's bonnet and reflected on how much the child had grown since she'd first arrived at Amberwood. “However, I believe some of you may find it less of a challenge than others.”
Emma and Owen exchanged a significant look. They were always attentive and well-behaved during Sunday services, while the older boys chafed at the stillness and solemnity. Rosie stayed quiet enough, but only because she watched the other worshippers to see what they were doing and wearing.
After trying to smooth down a tuft of Alfie's hair that stubbornly insisted on sticking up, Evangeline said, “Let's go so we don't keep your father's guests waiting.”
They marched off with Emma leading the way, holding Rosie's hand. The older boys followed, while Evangeline and Owen brought up the rear.
Mr. Chase beamed with pride when his children appeared in the entry hall. “A very handsome family, if I do say so.”
“Indeed they are,” Mrs. Thorpe agreed. “Good morning, my darlings.”
The children greeted their grandmother with decorous affection, no doubt mindful of several guests present. Evangeline made certain to catch the eye of each of her pupils and give them a discreet smile or nod of approval.
“Now that we are all assembled,” said Mr. Chase, gesturing toward the door, “I believe our carriages are waiting.”
Alfie looked about with a puzzled frown. “Not everyone is here, Papa. Were some of them allowed to miss church?”
His father gave an indulgent chuckle. “No one will miss anything. Mr. Brookes rode out some time ago because our vicar asked him to help out with the service. And since the morning is so pleasant, Mrs. Dawson, Miss Webster and Miss Brookes decided they would walk to church.”
Alfie surveyed the remaining guests and seemed satisfied that everyone was accounted for. “That's all right, then. We can go.”
He looked puzzled when the grown-ups laughed.
As the party headed out to the carriages, Jasper Chase cast Evangeline a glance over his son's head and grinned.
With the vicar and three of the ladies gone ahead, the others were able to crowd into two carriages for the short drive. The three elder members of the party shared one with Emma, Owen and Rosie. Evangeline had the dubious pleasure of squeezing into the other with Mr. Chase, his elder sons, Miss Anstruther and Miss Leveson.
On the drive to church, the ladies vied with one another to engage their host in conversation. When one succeeded, the other would make little secret of her vexation. Evangeline heartily envied the three who had insisted on walking, though she wished Miss Webster could have ridden with their party. Confined to the carriage, she would have been obliged to converse with Mr. Chase. Evangeline could have watched to see what he might be doing wrong. Then she could advise him how to correct his behavior during future lessons.
The carriages passed the trio of walkers just before they reached St. Oswald's. The children called out to the ladies, who waved and called back to them.
No sooner had they arrived than the church bells began to ring and everyone hurried inside. Evangeline was pleased to see Mr. Chase holding his two youngest children by the hand. She had the two older boys, while Emma accompanied her grandmother.
Miss Anstruther and Miss Leveson appeared most anxious to secure a place as close as possible to Mr. Chase, but Evangeline managed to foil them. She nudged her employer toward the pew in which Miss Webster had taken a seat. Then she, Alfie and Matthew squeezed in to fill the remaining space.
She could imagine the indignant glares being directed at her, but she ignored them. Instead, she concentrated on Mr. Chase and Miss Webster. To her satisfaction, they began a whispered conversation over the head of Rosie, who snuggled between them. Unfortunately they did not have long to talk, for the service soon commenced.
“Don't forget our game,” Evangeline whispered to the boys.
Her diversion worked so well, she wished she'd thought of it sooner. Matthew and Alfie concentrated on every word of the service as if their young lives depended on it. Perhaps it also made a difference that one of the clergymen was a guest in their home, who had gone fishing with them and helped them build kites. It might have reminded them that the Lord was with them not only on Sundays, but throughout the week while they studied and played.
When the time came to pray, Evangeline silently beseeched the Lord to further her plans by opening Margaret Webster's eyes to all of Mr. Chase's fine qualities.
* * *
He was beginning to make a little progress with Miss Webster, Jasper reflected when he woke early Monday morning with an unaccountable sense of urgency. Part of his success was thanks to Evangeline Fairfax, who had contrived to get him seated next to the lady at church. Remembering his lessons, he had engaged Miss Webster in a brief conversation about her favorite hymns.
Rosie had done her part, too. Wedged between them, his little daughter had rested her head against Miss Webster's arm. Frequently during the service, she had exchanged smiles with the lady. By the end, they were holding hands and, afterward, Miss Webster talked to him at some length about Rosie and the other children. However she might feel about him as a suitor, Jasper sensed that Margaret Webster would not object to becoming a stepmother of five.
When he had turned to find Miss Fairfax watching them, she rewarded his success with a smile of approval that warmed him from head to toe. A wave of gratitude rose within him for the patience she had shown, bearing with his children in spite of his selfish delays. She could have given her notice at any time, leaving him to scramble for a replacement while she went off to set up the school that meant so much to her.
As he headed to the nursery the next morning, Jasper wished he had thought to ask much sooner why the school was so important to her. If he had, he would have discovered he could sympathize with her motives far more than most people. He understood her compelling need to purge the ills of the past and try to set them right for the future.
When he reached the nursery, he found Miss Fairfax waiting for him. Over sips of coffee, she commended his progress with Miss Webster then suggested they get on with his next lesson.
Jasper nodded toward the door. “If you have no objection, I thought we might take my studies outside where there will be no danger of the children overhearing.”
Before she could protest, he added, “I asked Jane to supervise the nursery until we get back. I am certain a walk in the fresh air will do us both good.”
“You seem to have it all arranged.” Miss Fairfax did not sound pleased to have him take charge of the situation without consulting her. “I suppose there is nothing to do but go fetch my bonnet.”
By the time she returned, Jane had come to keep watch in the nursery.
“We should not be long,” Miss Fairfax told her. “But you may give the children their breakfast once they are all awake.”
She and Jasper scarcely exchanged a word as they made their way outdoors. He wondered how many of the servants noticed their passing while quietly going about their early morning duties. He hoped this whim of his would not expose Miss Fairfax to gossip below stairs.
Such thoughts faded from his mind when they emerged into the green, dew-dappled countryside at sunrise. Jasper inhaled a refreshing breath of morning air then beckoned Miss Fairfax toward the path that led down to the brook. He did not want to linger too near the house where their voices might waken sleeping guests or someone might look out a window and see them together.
The path was narrower than he'd realized. Two adults could walk on it side by side, but at this hour they were obliged to keep close together to avoid getting skirts and boots drenched with dew.
“Are you going to tell me about your mill?” Miss Fairfax asked. “Or did you just bring me out here to enjoy the morning air?”
Jasper risked a glance at her only to find her gaze fixed on the path ahead. “I was trying to decide how to begin.”
“I know your mill is more than a commercial enterprise.” Her tone sounded almost accusing. “You provide housing and food for your workers?”
“I
sell
them food.” Jasper was careful to make the distinction. “They may buy from me or from the shops if they prefer because I pay them in cash, not those miserable tokens. Most of them buy the food I make available because the quality is better and the price cheaper than they can find elsewhere.”
“Tokens?” Evangeline Fairfax sounded mystified. “Are you saying some mills do not pay their workers in shillings and pence?”
Jasper gave a sharp nod. “Not someâmost. Instead, they pay with tokens that have no value outside the company truck shop. The food and goods they sell there are poor quality and overpriced so the owners can make more money off their workers.”
Contemplating such greed, at the expense of those who worked so hard for so little, ignited a blaze of righteous anger inside Jasper. “One thing I refuse to sell is spirits. I don't stop my workers from buying it elsewhere if they must, but I am proud to say few of them do. The life they have at New Hope Mills is agreeable enough that they are not inclined to seek escape in a gin bottle.”
“I should think not.” Miss Fairfax gave an indignant sniff. “Your workers must feel blessed to have an employer who cares about their welfare as much as you do. How did you come to own New Hope Mills? You said you were an overseer for Mr. Thorpe when you first met your wife.”
“That's right.” The keen interest in her voice intensified Jasper's natural inclination to talk about the work that was so important to him. “I'd worked my way up to overseer. Mr. Thorpe was a good employer. He ran his mill better than most and he rewarded hard work and initiative. After I married Susan, I persuaded him to make some changes in the way we did business. He died a few years later and I took over the mill. That was when I built housing for our workers and expanded my efforts to encourage temperance among them. In the meantime, I did everything in my power to keep the operation profitable so other owners would see it is possible to make money without treating our workers unfairly.”
“Well done,” said Miss Fairfax. “Very well done, indeed.”
When Jasper glanced over, he caught her gazing at him with shining eyes. He was so accustomed to being ridiculed for his radical ideas that her obvious admiration made him feel a foot taller. Yet it troubled him to think that what he was doing should be considered extraordinary.
“It is no more than any employer should do if he would be a true servant of our Heavenly Master. No one seeing the working conditions in most Manchester mills can possibly believe that is God's will.”
“I wish you had told me all this long ago.” The governess's footsteps slowed. “I would not have been so critical of the time you spent away from home if I had known it was for a higher purpose than simply making your fortune.”
It eased his conscience, knowing she grasped the importance of what he was trying to do and understood the sacrifices he was obliged to make in his family life. “I assumed you must have been told already by my wife or her mother. You and I have never had much time to talk about anything but the children.”
“That is true.”
They walked on in silence for a few moments then Miss Fairfax spoke again. “What made you care so much about bettering the lives of your workers?”
There was the question he'd known she would ask. The question he had not wanted his children to hear him answer. If Evangeline Fairfax had not confided in him about her wretched experiences at the Pendergast School, Jasper was not certain he could have answered her now. But she
had
confided in him and he owed it to her to return the favor.
“My family all worked in a cotton mill when I was a boy. It was a hard life but it was all we knew. We were fortunate not to have more mouths to feed and that my father wasn't a drunkard. He wanted a better life for me, so he sent me to a Sabbath school run by Parson Ward.”
By now the path had reached the brook. The gentle babble of the water put Jasper more at ease, allowing him to speak about the worst day of his life. “When I was the age of our Emma, there was a fire at the mill. With all the fluff floating about, the air itself seemed to go up in flames. Ma ran to find my sister, Rose, and Pa grabbed me. It was bedlamâeveryone trampling each other in a blind panic to get out. The doors were soon jammed with bodies. Pa picked me up and threw me over the heads of the crowd. I knew if I lost my footing I'd be run down and crushed. By the grace of God, I managed to make it out alive...”