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After squashing all my noble journalistic ethics, I went back to writing my script. All I could do was be responsible for my own work. And my script was good. It contained facts, figures, and useful information. People would learn something. Unborn babies would be saved from possible brain damage.

I’d have to tell Dad to make sure Cindi didn’t wear any lipstick during her pregnancy. Not that I cared about her, but the baby’s brain itself shouldn’t be damaged simply because its mother was a home wrecker.

I finished the script and sent the file to the printer. I was actually pleased at how it had come out. A fair, well-balanced story that aimed to scare the viewer a little, but then brought back reason in the end so as not to keep them up at night. Sure, it wasn’t the ideal piece to kick off the new
Terrance Tells All
franchise. Not big and sexy and undercover. But it was better than half the drivel that ended up on TV, and hopefully after I got this one on the air I could turn my focus to bigger investigations and really make my mark at the station and pad the résumé videotape I’d eventually send to
Newsline
.

I grabbed the script off the printer and headed down to the Newsplex to give it to Terrance to voice. That’s one thing I definitely liked about my job. I had all the creative input and followed the story from beginning to end. The anchors and reporters simply read my words. I was the news world’s Cyrano de Bergerac.

“Hi, Terrance,” I greeted my own Christian de Neuvillette, approaching his desk.

He looked up, an annoyed expression on his face. I glanced at my watch. I didn’t catch him right before a show, did I? No. He wasn’t on for hours.

“What?”

“Um, I’m Maddy. Your new producer? I have a script for you to voice.”

“You think I’m going to voice something I haven’t even read?” Terrance reached out and yanked the script from my hand.

“No. Of course not,” I said, a bit taken aback. “I want you to read it. If you want to tweak it that’s fine, too.”

I stood there, hovering like an idiot, while Terrance grabbed a black sharpie from his desk and started making corrections to the script. Actually, corrections might be an understatement. I watched in horror as he made sweeping Xs through almost every line of text, mumbling as he did.

“No! No! NO!” The last no was almost a scream. Several other employees looked over, and I felt my face heat.

“Is something wrong?” I asked, a bit freaked out.

He looked up, a brilliant newsman smile on his face. “Oh, no. Nothing. I’m just making a few tweaks, like you said.”

A few tweaks, my ass. There wouldn’t be a word left on the page after he was done with it. But what could I do? He was the million-dollar anchor; I was the lowly producer. Even though Richard had said that this was a producer-driven segment—that Terrance should simply read what I wrote—if Terrance wouldn’t do it, I didn’t have a leg to stand on. I couldn’t force him to read it, could I?

This sucked. My beautiful, thought-provoking, factual, and fair script now looked like a two-year-old had gone mad with a marker. How was
Newsline
going to see my work if it never got on the air the way I’d written it? I mean, I could see tweaking. Editing. Questioning But not ripping to shreds. There was simply no reason. It was a good script.

“Retype this with my corrections,” Terrance said after he finished his Texas Chainsaw Script Massacre. He handed me the paper’s mutilated corpse. “
Then
I’ll voice it.”

I stared at him. “Was there something wrong with the script?” I asked, trying to bite back my tears. Maybe we could work together. I could learn to write in his style and then in the future we could avoid this embarrassment.

“Besides the fact that it was the most shoddy, badly written piece of drivel that I’ve ever had the misfortune of reading?” he asked, picking up a hand mirror and teasing his anchorman hair.

“But—”

“Look.” He set the mirror down and turned to face me. “You obviously only spent about five minutes on that piece of garbage. If you’re going to be writing for me, you need to work a lot harder. My viewers have certain expectations. I cannot, in good conscience, let them down.”

I swallowed hard, crossing my arms under my breasts. “I worked hard on that script. I didn’t whip it out in five minutes.”

He shook his head, a disgusted look on his face. “Well, if that’s your best work, darling, we have a major problem.”

I opened my mouth to defend myself again, but the phone rang. Terrance grabbed the receiver.

“Hello?” he said. “Oh, hi Susan … Oh really? The new Armani ties are in? Okay, pick me up one red and one blue … Oh, you think blue’s too much? Okay, okay. Well, of course. You’re my personal shopper after all. I simply must trust you.”

He looked over at me, still hovering like an idiot. He frowned and waved his hand in a you-are-dismissed-insignificant-one kind of way. I backed off, humiliated beyond belief, while he continued to argue the pros and cons of Prada footwear.

I ran upstairs into the safe haven of Special Projects. David was out on a shoot so I had our cube to myself. I put my head on my desk and started to cry. I knew it was a babyish thing to do, but I couldn’t help it. All the events of the past week—my parents’ divorce, Lulu’s party, Jamie and the one-night stand, and now being told I was no good at the one thing I knew I was good at—came crashing together. I couldn’t take any more. I wanted to die. I knew that sounded overly dramatic, but I was in an overly dramatic state of mind.

“Maddy? Are you okay?”

I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up, my face probably disgustingly bloated and red from my cry. For the third time that week, it seemed Jamie would be my guardian angel. He must have thought I was a pathetic blob of a human being, always crying about this or that.

“Yeah. I’m fine.” I sniffed, my nose running like crazy. Jamie reached into his pocket and pulled out a napkin. He handed it to me and I blew my nose. “S-sorry.”

He sat down across from me in David’s chair. “What happened?” he asked in a voice that sounded like he really cared.

I related the Terrance story. “But it’s not only that. It’s everything. That was the straw that broke the camel’s back, really. I’m so sick of everything in my life falling apart in one week.”

Jamie nodded. Then he smiled. “You know what cures life-falling-apart syndrome?”

“What?”

“Starbucks venti white chocolate frappuccinos with extra whipped cream.”

“They do?” I said, trying to smile through my tears. “My mom swears by them. Says they’re a magic cure for all of life’s ills,” Jamie assured me with a serious expression. He rose from his chair. “Though, personally, I like a more manly-man drink myself.” He beat on his chest for mock emphasis.

I laughed, despite myself. “Yeah, right. You’re totally a closet whipped-cream junkie, I know.”

“Hey! Quiet. You’ll ruin my rep.” He winked at me. “Come on, let’s go.”

Minutes later we sank into the plush purple velvet Starbucks chairs and sipped our decadent coffee beverages. Jamie with his triple Americano and me with my delicious girlie frappuccino.

“You’re going to get sick of being my knight in shining armor,” I said, feeling much better already.

“Never,” he declared. “We’re partners. That’s what partners do.”

“But it’s so one-sided. You’re always rescuing me and never needing your own rescuing.”

“Oh, please.”

“I’m serious.”

“So am I.” He set his beverage down and leaned forward in his chair. “You rescue me from boredom.”

I giggled. “Are you bored?”

“Of course. And I’m a bit embarrassed to admit it, but you’re my first—and at the moment—only San Diego friend.”

“Really?”

“Really.” He smiled. “We are friends, right?”

“Definitely.” I smiled back and lifted my almost empty drink. “To friendship.”

He picked up his cup and touched mine, then took a sip. I watched him, feeling a bit warm and fuzzy inside. It was odd. You’d think that because we’d slept together things would have been completely awkward. But they weren’t. And I did feel like I was his friend in a weird way.

Of course I also still wanted to jump his bones, but I wouldn’t act on it. After meeting Jennifer she had become a real person in my mind instead of a vague idea. And I realized that no matter how much I lusted after her fiancé I had to rein in my desire. It wouldn’t be right—and not because I was some saint, either. Rather, because I knew how these stories always ended: He and Jennifer would get married and live happily ever after and I would be the one left with a broken heart.

Much better to stay friends, keep the heart intact.

“Oh, I almost forgot.” Setting down his cup, Jamie reached into his bag and pulled out a worn paperback. “That night at Moondoggies you said you wanted to read it.”

I took the book and turned it over so I could check out the cover. The artwork depicted a dashing man dressed in black leather, carrying a futuristic-looking gun. In the background hovered a spaceship and a scantily dressed woman with big breasts. The gold embossed title declared the man was
Trapped on Mars
. Underneath in smaller letters it said, “A Novel, by Jamie Hayes.”

“Your book!” I exclaimed, fascinated. I turned the novel over to read the back blurb.

AN INTERGALACTIC PRISONER WITHOUT A CAUSE

All Kayne wanted was a simple life. He and his wife lived comfortably in one of the few remaining Earth cities. But then he was accused of a crime he didn’t commit and forced to leave everything behind—to serve out a life sentence on the Royal Mars Penal Colony.

There he meets Marla—the brave, independent rebel who would change his life forever. But could the two lovers hatch a daring plan of escape? Or would they forever be: Trapped on Mars?

“I know it’s not Hemingway,” Jamie said, a bit sheepishly, as I looked up from my reading. “But it’s mine.”

“Are you kidding? This is better than Hemingway. He just wrote about old guys fishing. This sounds really exciting.” I looked down at the cover again. “When was this published?”

“Five years ago,” he said with a sigh. “And I haven’t been able to get anything published since.”

“Why? Didn’t it do well?”

“No. It did great, actually. I mean, not best-seller great or anything, but good for a sci-fi book.”

“So what happened?”

He shrugged. “I must be the literary equivalent of a one-hit-wonder. I’ve started several books since and haven’t been able to finish any of them. Two years ago my agent dumped me. After that, I kind of gave up on the whole dream.”

“But you can’t give up on a dream,” I protested. “That’s against the rules. I mean, look at me. My dream is to be a
Newsline
producer. Sure, it’s a long shot—especially with what I’m stuck producing at News Nine—but I’m not going to give up on it.”

“You’re cute,” Jamie said with a smile. “You know that?”

Oh, man. I knew I was blushing a deep purple. “Yeah, yeah.” I brushed him off. “But I’m right, too. Do you think Hemingway never got rejected? In fact, I read somewhere that before he became a successful writer someone stole his suitcase and it had almost everything he’d ever written in it. And you know in the 1920s they didn’t have any of it backed up on a hard drive.”

“Man. That would have sucked.”

“Yes. I’m sure it sucked royally. And imagine if Mr. Hemingway, greatest author of our time said, ‘Okay screw this, I’m just going to be a lame-ass journalist for the rest of my life and never write shit ever again.’”

“I’m willing to bet money that Hemingway never once used the term ‘lame ass’ in a sentence. Or ‘screw this’ for that matter.”

I rolled my eyes. “Exactly. And he didn’t quit, either.”

“Fine. I get your point.”

“So you’re going to start writing again?”

“Just for you.”

“Good.” I nodded firmly, ignoring the chills of pleasure running up and down my spine.
Just for me.
I shouldn’t like the sound of that as much as I did. “And I expect to see this work in progress on a regular basis.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

“And in the meantime I’m going to read this.”

“If you want to. But don’t feel obligated.”

“Are you kidding? I’m dying to read it!” I stuffed the book in my purse before he could change his mind. “Thanks for bringing it in.”

“No prob,” he said. “On one condition.” I cocked my head. “Which is?”

“You’re not allowed to let those losers at News Nine get you down, either. That bastard with a superiority complex, Terrance Toller, or anyone else.”

I grinned. “Fine. It’s a deal.”

“And no matter how many exposés you have to do on killer household products, you are hereby not allowed to give up your
Newsline
dreams.”

“Roger that.” I lifted my hand in mock salute. “Good. As long as we understand each other.”

We did, I thought as Jamie stood to throw his cup away in preparation to go back to work. In fact, we understood each other too well. And that was becoming a problem. At least for me.

We were coworkers already. We were fast becoming friends. So why wasn’t I content with that? What made me long for more?

Chapter Eight

FROM
: “Terrance Toller”

TO
: “Madeline Madison”

SUBJECT
: ME!!!!

Madeline,

I took another look at your script and realized what the fundamental problem was. There is just not enough of ME in it. In fact, besides my voice, I hardly make an appearance at all. When viewers tune into a segment of “Terrance Tells All” they expect to see Terrance. Why would I bother even having a segment if it wasn’t all about me? I am News 9’s most valuable commodity. I’m sure I don’t have to remind you how in 1998 I won the “Anchor You Trust the Most” award, voted by the San Diego community.