Lottery (3 page)

“What do you eat that crab shit for? It’s not real. It’s made of fish guts!” Keith says. It is definitely not nice to say pretend crab is made out of fish guts.

After I buy my sandwich, I go to the Marina Handy Mart down the street. I buy a Coke Slurpee, five Lotto tickets, one PayDay candy bar, a bag of Hershey’s Kisses, and the
National Enquirer.
The paper is for Gram.

“I only get it for the crossword puzzle.” She shows me the front page. “See this, Perry? It’s full of gossip! Look at this! Part human and part bat! That’s impossible. How’d they make that picture? Look at this, Perry! Here’s another one of them alien baby stories.” She pulls her sweater tight over her shoulders. Gram is always cold.

“I can throw it away and just tear the puzzle out if you want.” I try to be helpful.

“No! No. Don’t waste your time. I’ll toss it later.” But she stacks them up in the back room. She really likes it when she notices they use the same picture twice.

“Ha! All they did was reverse the photo! Look here, Perry!”

I like talking to Cherry who works at the counter at Marina Handy Mart. She is pretty, funny, and her name rhymes with mine. That is what Gram says.

“Cherry and Perry! Get it? You’re both
errys
!” Gram likes it when things rhyme.

"Only Lotto?” Cherry likes MegaBucks because you can win more money, but Gram and I are stick-in-the-muds. That’s what Gram says.

“Stick-in-the-muds. We do the same thing. No sense changing. Lotto’s good enough for us.” Gram likes the fact that Lotto comes out like a cash register receipt and you get more numbers for your money. We always bought lottery tickets, right from the beginning. From the very first. It was cool then because you got shiny green tickets, but you only got one set of numbers. The very first person who won was a nurse. A million dollars. Gram said it was the Lord rewarding a selfless profession.

“A nurse, Perry, they’re dedicated. It’s a sign from God.” She was very disappointed to read in the paper, years later, that the nurse lost all that money.

“How do you lose a million dollars?” Gram shakes her head. “What if we won? Just think of it. We could do anything we want! Hawaii! We could go to Hawaii, where it’s not so goddamned cold!” Gram’s eyes close. Like she is praying.

“We can do anything we want right now,” I say.

That is true. If we save our money and decide, we can do whatever we want.

“Don’t be smart.” Gram frowns at me, but I laugh.

It is fun thinking about winning the lottery.

Gram and I have dinner once a week at Kentucky Fried. Gram complains about the prices for someone on Social Security. She frets about the tiny little ears of corn and getting too many wings.

“Goddamn it, Perry! You’d think they raised chickens with nothing but six flappers and an ass, the way they pack those boxes.” She only says this at home because she does not want to hurt the counter girl Loretta’s feelings at KFC.

At seven o’clock Tuesday nights, we go to bingo at St. Augustine’s Catholic Church. We are not Catholic, but we like the nuns and bingo. We like Sister Mary Joan because she is nice all the time. We only like Sister Mary Margaret when she is on our list. I think all nuns are called Mary something. They wear glasses and regular clothes, except for their feet. Their shoes are all shiny black with long laces. Gram said they used to look like penguins. I do not see how. But she said they did.

“How are you doing, Perry?” They are friendly and do not treat me like I am retarded. I am not retarded, but some people treat me like I am. The nuns are always very interested in how I am doing and ask if I will come to church on Sunday. I can’t come to church because I have to work Sundays.

“Will we see you at morning mass, Perry?” Sister Mary Joan spits when she talks.

“Tell them you have to work!” Gram whispers this into my ear to remind me, so I do not forget to tell the nuns. If I say I have to work, neither of us has to go to church. Church is boring except for the music, but we do not tell the nuns this. It would hurt their feelings. Sister Mary Margaret has blue eyes and hair on her chin. I wonder if nuns are allowed to shave. God must not let them because Sister Mary Joan has hair too, only it is on her upper lip. Gram does not approve of gambling, but bingo and lottery are not gambling.

“Gambling’s something people do that loses money, Perry. You remember that!” Gram lectures.

“What’s your numbers, sonny?” Chuck the bingo helper says this each time he walks behind me. I play one single card and Gram plays ten. She is an expert and won two hundred and fifty-two dollars once. Chuck shoves my chair, jabs me in the back, and smells like Listerine. He likes to let me know he is there watching over my shoulder. My markers slide off the numbers on my card whenever he pushes me. He also scratches my head and makes my hair stick up.

“Time for a haircut, sonny!” My name is not Sonny.

“Leave him alone!” Gram has eyes in the back of her head. That is what Chuck says. “Woman, you got eyes in the back of your head,” he says.

I laugh. Her eyes are right where they are supposed to be.

Chuck is the only one at bingo who treats me like I am retarded. He is taller than me. There is always a person who is taller than you unless you are Michael Jordan or someone like that. Chuck is a jerk.

“Ignore him, Perry! He’s a jerk! There are jerks all over. Everybody has jerks in their lives,” Gram says. One of her jerks is the woman on the front desk at Social Security. Gram had a hard time getting Gramp’s Social Security death benefit. I thought it was cool you got a prize for dying, but it was very hard to collect.

“And then there’s the guy that answers the phone at Medicare.”

Gram has a lot of jerks, at least as many as me.

“We need another list for jerks,” I say.

Thursday mornings are my favorite time. That is when I go with Keith and do extra jobs at Carroll’s Boatyard next to the store. I have to wear my oldest blue jeans when I work there. Gram would not be caught dead in jeans.

“Those blue jeans, Perry! Women get all kinds of diseases from them. It’s better to wear a good cotton dress from Kmart. Airs out my privates!” she says. “It’s okay for you. You can wear jeans. Men don’t need to air out their privates.”

Privates are personal parts that you do not show people.

Gram and I get hamburgers at McDonald’s on Friday after work and go to an early movie. The 5:45 show costs only two dollars. We buy the small bag of popcorn and sneak in our bag of Hershey’s Kisses from Marina Handy Mart. The movie guys do not like it when we bring in our own food. I think we should be able to take our food anywhere we want. It is our food.

Saturday is the busiest day at Holsted’s. Everybody needs lots of boat stuff on weekends, like rope, metal parts, and beer. They have to buy the beer from Marina Handy Mart. Holsted’s does not sell beer. Our floor is gray tile and gets very dirty from wet and muddy feet. The parking lot is gravel and has puddles. Most people do not clean their shoes off on the mat before they walk into the store. That is so rude.

I have to work until six-thirty on Saturday. Gary and Manuel leave early. Keith and I close up together. He gives me a ride home and then stays for spaghetti night. We have our weekly cribbage contest. Gram makes the tomato sauce in the big pan. It has to simmer for two hours. It is the only thing she cooks now. Keith and Gram play first, while I boil the noodles. The loser sets the table while I play the winner.

Keith thinks he has to coach me.

“Throw two away. Come on, Per! Sometime today!” he complains, but I take my time. When I play cards with Keith, he gets antsy. Antsy is when you think everybody else is too slow. Most people are antsy. I always win at cribbage. You only have to know numbers like what makes fifteen and how to add up to thirty-one. The rest is luck. And I am lucky.

On Sunday morning before I go into work, Gram and I eat cinnamon rolls, read the paper, and check our Lotto numbers. This is my very favorite time because we pretend to win the lottery. I love pretending.

“Come on! Come on!” I cheer.

"This is it! I can feel it in my bones.” Gram can feel a lot in her bones.

“Oh-two. Oh-five. One-four. Two-four. Three-two. Four-four. ” I read them off to Gram. She says
nope
after each number that is wrong and
yep
for each right number. We check all ten numbers twice. That is like getting more chances to win. It is as if we bought more than just five tickets. That is so cool.

We have another game we play. It is lottery list. The
What would be the first thing you’d buy if you won the lottery
? game. We play with Keith.

“A new TV!” That would be me.

“Hawaii!” That would be Gram.

“Cable!” That would be me too. I really like Animal Planet.

“A dishwasher.” That would be Gram. I do not understand this because I am the one who washes all the dishes.

“Fix up
Diamond Girl.
” That would be Keith.
Diamond Girl
is his sailboat.

“A year’s supply of tequila.” That would be Keith again. I am surprised he does not say beer too, or maybe Mexican babes. He talks about Mexican babes all the time. They are close to Texas in Mexico. That is a country.

“Fix Yo’s heater.” That is Gram. She is always cold. Yo is Keith’s truck.

“Go to Hershey’s chocolate factory and see how Kisses are made.” That is me.

The end of the game is when one person can’t think of anything else they would buy. It is always Gram. She says she is fortunate.

“I’m fortunate I own my own house, damned fortunate I have you to help with expenses, and goddamned fortunate your grandpa worked his ass off then had the courtesy to drop dead without lingering. ”
Lingering
is a word that means costing a lot of money to die. She says she hopes she does not linger. She is damned fortunate and I am lucky.

Gram says we make a good pair.

4

Fall is my favorite time of year,
Reader’s Digest
is my favorite book, and my favorite candies are Hershey’s Kisses. I like to wear flannel jackets, I bounce when I’m happy, and my bike is blue with red spray paint.

“Hey, Gram!” I yelled when I found it lying in our side yard all splattered. It looked like it was bleeding. “What happened to my bike?”

“Some asshole decided to be a moron, that’s what,” Gram said. After that, she made me lock it up in our garage every night.

I like to ride my bike to work so I can pretend I am flying or sailing. Keith and I earn extra cash by working on other people’s boats. Boats are my favorite thing besides riding my bike. Sailboats run on water and wind.

“Sailing and riding a bike are like flying because of air and physics, ” Gramp told me. He taught me how to sail boats, and Keith teaches me how to fix them.

“Smoother, Perry, you missed a spot.” Keith has to inspect my work. We are sanding teak on a boat that is supported on jacks high in the air. It is hauled out at the boatyard. They call it being on the hard. I think that is funny.
On the hard.
Keith makes dirty jokes whenever we help put boats back into the water. Keith and I work up on the boat. The foreman carries a clipboard and tells us to hurry.

“We don’t have all day!” he yells. I think that is funny because we do. We do have all day.

Keith likes to joke. “Time to get her off, Per. Time to get her off the hard, man. Time to get the jacks off, Per. Get it? Jacks off? Jack off? Time to jack off, Per!”

I have to make sure anyone does not hear us talk this way. Gram would be mad to hear Keith say J-off. I laugh, but my face still turns red. I do not say J-off. We are supposed to help the workers on the ground put the slings in the correct place for the hoist. The wide bands have to hang by the arrows taped on the hull of the boat.

“Hey, Buddy!” Keith shouts from the deck. “You got the JACKS OFF yet?” And he smirks at me. Keith calls people he does not know Buddy.

His bushy gray beard makes it hard to see his mouth, but I know what it looks like. Keith is the biggest man I know. He is tall and husky.

“I’m a husky guy! Those are muscles, Per! Muscles!” He will point to the gut hanging over his belt. Husky is another name for muscles in your stomach.

I do not have a gut. I am not husky.

We painted the bottom of this boat yesterday and have to finish a light sand on its rail today. Light sand means working hard and sweating. The wooden parts of boats need to be sanded and varnished. It is hard work, but cool to see how beautiful they look when they are done. We make boats look very good. Keith says we bring them back from the dead.

“We bring them back, Per! They’d be dumped or sunk. We are defenders of a lost art. Look at those new boats, Per. No character! Not one piece of teak. What a waste.” A lost art means we are the only ones doing the work. No character means easy to take care of.

When this boat goes into the water, it will be moved into a slip and tied up. The owner says he is going to put the varnish on his rail himself and save money.

“That’s what they all say, Per!” Keith chortles. “Twenty minutes into the job, he’ll be back here bellyaching about it being too hot or too cold or too hard on his knees, and you and I will have another thousand bucks under the table.”

The first time I heard under the table, I thought it meant hide. I had to ask Keith for sure.

“It means we get to keep all the money ourselves instead of giving some of it to the government.” When Keith talks into my ear, he gets it all wet. I hate that.

“You mean cheat?” I do not want to go to jail.

“No. No. It’s okay, Per. We don’t owe them a dime! They didn’t do any of the work, did they? They didn’t help us one bit. Just don’t tell anybody, okay?”