Lost Horizon (19 page)

Their talks ranged far and fearlessly; entire philosophies were unfolded; the long avenues of history surrendered themselves for inspection and were given new plausibility. To Conway it was an entrancing experience, but he did not suspend the critical attitude, and once, when he had argued a point, the High Lama replied: “My son, you are young in years, but I perceive that your wisdom has the ripeness of age. Surely some unusual thing has happened to you?”

Conway smiled. “No more unusual than has happened to many others of my generation.”

“I have never met your like before.”

Conway answered after an interval: “There’s not a great deal of mystery about it. That part of me which seems old to you was worn out by intense and premature experience. My years from nineteen to twenty-two were a supreme education, no doubt, but rather exhausting.”

“You were very unhappy at the War?”

“Not particularly so. I was excited and suicidal and scared and reckless and sometimes in a tearing rage—like a few million others, in fact. I got mad-drunk and killed and lechered in great style. It was the self-abuse of all one’s emotions, and one came through it, if one did at all, with a sense of almighty boredom and fretfulness. That’s what made the years afterwards so difficult. Don’t think I’m posing myself too tragically— I’ve had pretty fair luck since, on the whole. But it’s been rather like being in a school where there’s a bad headmaster—plenty of fun to be got if you feel like it, but nerve-racking off and on, and not really very satisfactory. I think I found that out rather more than most people.”

“And your education thus continued?”

Conway gave a shrug. “Perhaps the exhaustion of the passions is the beginning of wisdom, if you care to alter the proverb.”

“That also, my son, is the doctrine of Shangri-La.”

“I know. It makes me feel quite at home.”

HE HAD SPOKEN NO
less than the truth. As the days and weeks passed he began to feel an ache of contentment uniting mind and body; like Perrault and Henschell and the others, he was falling under the spell. Blue Moon had taken him, and there was no escape. The mountains gleamed around in a hedge of inaccessible purity, from which his eyes fell dazzled to the green depths of the valley; the whole picture was incomparable, and when he heard the harpsichord’s silver monotony across the lotus pool, he felt that it threaded the perfect pattern of sight and sound.

He was, and he knew it, very quietly in love with the little Manchu. His love demanded nothing, not even reply; it was a tribute of the mind, to which his senses added only a flavor. She stood for him as a symbol of all that was delicate and fragile; her stylized courtesies and the touch of her fingers on the keyboard yielded a completely satisfying intimacy. Sometimes he would address her in a way that might, if she cared, have led to less formal conversation; but her replies never broke through the exquisite privacy of her thoughts, and in a sense he did not wish them to. He had suddenly come to realize a single facet of the promised jewel; he had Time, Time for everything that he wished to happen, such Time that desire itself was quenched in the certainty of fulfillment. A year, a decade hence, there would still be Time. The vision grew on him, and he was happy with it.

Then, at intervals, he stepped into the other life to encounter Mallinson’s impatience, Barnard’s heartiness, and Miss Brinklow’s robust intention. He felt he would be glad when they all knew as much as he; and, like Chang, he could imagine that neither the American nor the missionary would prove difficult cases. He was even amused when Barnard once said: “You know, Conway, I’m not sure that this wouldn’t be a nice little place to settle down in. I thought at first I’d miss the newspapers and the movies, but I guess one can get used to anything.”

“I guess one can,” agreed Conway.

He learned afterwards that Chang had taken Barnard down to the valley, at his own request, to enjoy everything in the way of a “night out” that the resources of the locality could provide. Mallinson, when he heard of this, was rather scornful. “Getting tight, I suppose,” he remarked to Conway, and to Barnard himself he commented: “Of course it’s none of my business, but you’ll want to keep yourself pretty fit for the journey, you know. The porters are due in a fortnight’s time, and from what I gather, the return trip won’t be exactly a joy ride.”

Barnard nodded equably. “I never figgered it would,” he answered. “And as for keeping fit, I guess I’m fitter than I’ve been for years. I get exercise daily, I don’t have any worries, and the speakeasies down in the valley don’t let you go too far. Moderation, y’know—the motto of the firm.”

“Yes, I’ve no doubt you’ve been managing to have a moderately good time,” said Mallinson acidly.

“Certainly I have. This establishment caters for all tastes— some people like little Chink gels who play the pi-anno, isn’t that so? You can’t blame anybody for what they fancy.”

Conway was not at all put out, but Mallinson flushed like a schoolboy. “You can send them to jail, though, when they fancy other people’s property,” he snapped, stung to fury that set a raw edge to his wits.

“Sure, if you can catch ’em.” The American grinned affably. “And that leads me to something I may as well tell you folks right away, now we’re on the subject. I’ve decided to give those porters a miss. They come here pretty regular, and I’ll wait for the next trip, or maybe the next but one. That is, if the monks’ll take my word that I’m still good for my hotel expenses.”

“You mean you’re not coming with us?”

“That’s it. I’ve decided to stop over for a while. It’s all very fine for you—you’ll have the band playing when
you
get home, but all the welcome I’ll get is from a row of cops. And the more I think about it, the more it don’t seem good enough.”

“In other words, you’re just afraid to face the music?”

“Well, I never did like music, anyhow.”

Mallinson said with cold scorn: “I suppose it’s your own affair. Nobody can prevent you from stopping here all your life if you feel inclined.” Nevertheless he looked round with a flash of appeal. “It’s not what everybody would choose to do, but ideas differ. What do you say Conway?”

“I agree. Ideas
do
differ.”

Mallinson turned to Miss Brinklow, who suddenly put down her book and remarked: “As a matter of fact, I think I shall stay too.”

“
What
?” they all cried together.

She continued, with a bright smile that seemed more an attachment to her face than an illumination of it: “You see, I’ve been thinking over the way things happened to bring us all here, and there’s only one conclusion I can come to. There’s a mysterious power working behind the scenes. Don’t you think so, Mr. Conway?”

Conway might have found it hard to reply, but Miss Brinklow went on in a gathering hurry: “Who am I to question the dictates of Providence? I was sent here for a purpose, and I shall stay.”

“Do you mean you’re hoping to start a mission here?” Mallinson asked.

“Not only hoping, but fully intending. I know just how to deal with these people—I shall get my own way, never fear. There’s no real grit in any of them.”

“And you intend to introduce some?”

“Yes, I do, Mr. Mallinson. I’m strongly opposed to that idea of moderation that we hear so much about. You can call it broadmindedness if you like, but in my opinion it leads to the worst kind of laxity. The whole trouble with the people here is their so-called broadmindedness, and I intend to fight it with all my powers.”

“And they’re so broadminded that they’re going to let you?” said Conway, smiling.

“Or else she’s so strong-minded that they can’t stop her,” put in Barnard. He added with a chuckle: “It’s just what I said—this establishment caters for all tastes.”

“Possibly, if you happen to
like
prison,” Mallinson snapped.

“Well, there’s two ways of looking even at that. My goodness, if you think of all the folks in the world who’d give all they’ve got to be out of the racket and in a place like this, only they can’t
get
out! Are
we
in the prison or are
they
?”

“A comforting speculation for a monkey in a cage,” retorted Mallinson; he was still furious.

AFTERWARDS HE SPOKE TO Conway alone. “That man still gets on my nerves,” he said, pacing the courtyard. “I’m not sorry we shan’t have him with us when we go back. You may think me touchy, but being chipped about that Chinese girl didn’t appeal to my sense of humor.”

Conway took Mallinson’s arm. It was becoming increasingly clear to him that he was very fond of the youth and that their recent weeks in company had deepened the feeling, despite jarring moods. He answered: “I rather took it that
I
was being ragged about her, not you.”

“No, I think he intended it for me. He knows I’m interested in her. I am, Conway. I can’t make out why she’s here, and whether she really likes being here. My God, if I spoke her language as you do, I’d soon have it out with her.”

“I wonder if you would. She doesn’t say a great deal to any one, you know.”

“It puzzles me that you don’t badger her with all sorts of questions.”

“I don’t know that I care for badgering people.”

He wished he could have said more, and then suddenly the sense of pity and irony floated over him in a filmy haze; this youth, so eager and ardent, would take things very hardly. “I shouldn’t worry about Lo-Tsen if I were you,” he added. “She’s happy enough.”

THE DECISION OF BARNARD
and Miss Brinklow to remain behind seemed to Conway all to the good, though it threw Mallinson and himself into an apparently opposite camp for the time being. It was an extraordinary situation, and he had no definite plans for tackling it.

Fortunately there was no apparent need to tackle it at all. Until the two months were past, nothing much could happen; and afterwards there would be a crisis no less acute for his having tried to prepare himself for it. For this and other reasons he was disinclined to worry over the inevitable, though he did once say: “You know, Chang, I’m bothered about young Mallinson. I’m afraid he’ll take things very badly when he finds out.”

Chang nodded with some sympathy. “Yes, it will not be easy to persuade him of his good fortune. But the difficulty is, after all, only a temporary one. In twenty years from now our friend will be quite reconciled.”

Conway felt that this was looking at the matter almost too philosophically. “I’m wondering,” he said, “just how the truth’s going to be broached to him. He’s counting the days to the arrival of the porters, and if they don’t come—”

“But they
will
come.”

“Oh? I rather imagined that all your talk about them was just a pleasant fable to let us down lightly.”

“By no means. Although we have no bigotry on the point, it is our custom at Shangri-La to be moderately truthful, and I can assure you that my statements about the porters were almost correct. At any rate, we are expecting the men at or about the time I said.”

“Then you’ll find it hard to stop Mallinson from joining them.”

“But we should never attempt to do so. He will merely discover—no doubt by personal experiment—that the porters are reluctantly unable to take any one back with them.”

“I see. So that’s the method? And what do you expect to happen afterwards?”

“Then, my dear sir, after a period of disappointment, he will—since he is young and optimistic—begin to hope that the next convoy of porters, due in nine or ten months’ time, will prove, more amenable to his suggestions. And this is a hope which, if we are wise, we shall not at first discourage.”

Conway said sharply: “I’m not so sure that he’ll do that at all. I should think he’s far more likely to try an escape on his own.”

“
Escape
? Is that
really
the word that should be used? After all, the pass is open to any one at any time. We have no jailers, save those that Nature herself has provided.”

Conway smiled. “Well, you must admit that she’s done her job pretty well. But I don’t suppose you rely on her in every case, all the same. What about the various exploring parties that have arrived here? Was the pass always equally open to
them
when they wanted to get away?”

It was Chang’s turn now to smile. “Special circumstances, my dear sir, have sometimes required special consideration.”

“Excellent. So you only allow people the chance of escape when you know they’d be fools to take it? Even so, I expect some of them do.”

“Well, it has happened very occasionally but as a rule the absentees are glad to return after the experience of a single night on the plateau.”

“Without shelter and proper clothing? If so, I can quite understand that your mild methods are as effective as stern ones. But what about the less usual cases that don’t return?”

“You have yourself answered the question,” replied Chang. “They do
not
return.” But he made haste to add: “I can assure you, however, that there are few indeed who have been so unfortunate, and I trust your friend will not be rash enough to increase the number.”

Conway did not find these responses entirely reassuring, and Mallinson’s future remained a pre-occupation. He wished it were possible for the youth to return by consent, and this would not be unprecedented, for there was the recent case of Talu, the airman. Chang admitted that the authorities were fully empowered to do anything that they considered wise. “But
should
we be wise, my dear sir, in trusting our future entirely to your friend’s feeling of gratitude?”

Conway felt that the question was pertinent, for Mallinson’s attitude left little doubt as to what he would do as soon as he reached India. It was his favorite theme, and he had often enlarged upon it.

But all that, of course, was in the mundane world that was gradually being pushed out of his mind by the rich, pervasive world of Shangri-La. Except when he thought about Mallinson he was extraordinarily content; the slowly revealed fabric of this new environment continued to astonish him by its intricate suitability to his own needs and tastes.

Once he said to Chang: “By the way, how do you people here fit love into your scheme of things? I suppose it does sometimes happen that those who come here develop attachments?”