Lorien Legacies: The Lost Files (99 page)

Out on the beach. The day I killed him. With all the base tours and briefings, I haven’t really been through everything inside my Chest since it happened.

I try to put together everything that this means. Ethan’s words ring in my head.
They’re always watching.
He must have wanted to make sure that I was the only person to see whatever is in the note.

Something else nips at my mind. Ethan had seen me go through my Chest plenty of times before, had helped me to catalog its contents. He surely would have noticed that my wrist sheath was missing the day I killed him. That I was wearing it.

My stomach drops.

I unfold the note and read.

My breathing goes heavy, and I feel like there’s a hole opening up in my chest that shouldn’t be there. Ethan knew. He knew I was going to kill him, and he let it happen.

I killed my only friend.

I curse him. Because he recruited me, and befriended me, and made me care about him, and then let me kill him. Because he’s not here anymore to guide me and probably had nothing to do with the attack on the base if he sacrificed himself for my ascension. And because if he’d just told me he knew what was really going on when I showed up at the beach house, we could have figured something else out.

I wonder if he was right back in the forest clearing with Emma when he’d said I wasn’t ready for all of this. For a moment, I question whether I’m ready for my new place as the right hand of Setrákus Ra.

But there’s no other way. My best chance of survival is with the Mogs. Ethan knew that, and I know that too. There’s no way the Garde can fight them. A handful of teenagers versus an army—only a fool would choose to be on their side. And to keep in the Mogs’ good graces, I had to kill Ethan. Survival of the fittest.

So why do I feel like my chest is in a vise?

The blade on my arm suddenly feels heavy and constrictive. I rip off the sheath and toss it into the Chest, then throw the whole thing into the ground. Ethan’s note goes into my pocket. And then I use my telekinesis to cover everything up, pushing sand into the hole. The act feels so familiar, and then I realize that I’ve buried things using my Legacy before. Back on the island, when Rey died. Pushing everything down just like I am now. And I think of Rey’s final advice.
Do whatever it takes to survive.

It’s strange how similar his words were to Ethan’s. Sure, Rey probably meant that I had to survive for Lorien, but the basic principle is the same.

I wonder how I got myself into this situation with two dead guardians. I keep telling myself one thing:
this isn’t my fault.
I was just doing what Ethan would have wanted—to survive by pleasing the Mogs. This is
his
fault if it’s anyone’s.

No, not Ethan’s. This is
Nine’s
fault. And Four’s. If they hadn’t shown up when they did, I could have carried out Nine’s execution as planned, and none of this would have happened. Nine would be dead and Ethan would be alive and Setrákus Ra would be crowning me as his right hand because I’d killed one of the Loric. But the Garde had to ruin it all for me, and now everything’s gone to shit.

The picture of Nine from my study is so burned into my mind that I can envision it clearly, even as I stand sweating over a newly filled hole in the middle of the Everglades. I focus the anger bubbling up inside me on him. He’ll pay for what he’s forced me to do. Somehow. Someway. The other Garde will hopefully come to their senses, but he won’t. And that’s just fine with me.

I’ll see him dead.

I fish around in my pocket and pull out the metal ball bearing Ethan gave me to practice with. A gift. It’s cool in my hand, and I focus on it, trying to turn my brain off as much as I can—to think of anything else in the world other than the fact that I’ve murdered perhaps the only person who was truly looking out for me. As my body takes on the properties of the ball, I start to calm down a little. My skin gets hard. I’m untouchable. There’s something comfortable about turning into steel. Into something cold and unbreakable.

I don’t have time to wallow. I don’t have time for pity or regret. The next day our plan goes into action.

It starts with a cornfield.

I hover above it. Using my telekinetic powers, I flatten the corn into the shape of my Loric symbol, the one that’s engraved on my Chest. I empty two giant gas cans on the pressed-down vegetation. The corn is wet from a recent storm, but that’s perfect—it just means that my symbol will burn alone for a while before it ignites the rest of the damp crop.

I take a look around. It’s dark out. There’s no one here but me and the corn and the farmhouses that will call this fire in as soon as I light it. I slip my hand into the inside pocket of my black Mog uniform and pull out the letter Ethan left for me, along with the folded-up notes about Nine. I can’t hold on to the letter. Regardless of its content, carrying around a note that Ethan left behind for me would be a sign of weakness, and I’m not supposed to have any of those. I’m stupid for not having gotten rid of it in the Everglades. Besides, the only way to honor Ethan is to live up to his words. And so I use my telekinetic powers to slip the papers into the gasoline-soaked corn.

Part of me is undeniably sad that Ethan is gone, but I realize that without him around, I have no one to worry about getting hurt. And I promise myself that I won’t let someone be my weakness like he was ever again. I won’t let anyone get too close to me. Why have friends when I can have troops? I don’t
need
anyone.

I am fearless.

From another pocket, I pull out a fancy metal lighter. It sparks and drops through the air, landing beside the notes I’ve left behind. Suddenly I’m hovering above a flaming testament to my greatness. The sign will be impossible to miss.

I jet through the air and catch up with a ship hovering far above the clouds a few miles away. It’s milky white and perfectly round. A small passageway opens on one side as I approach—my entry point.

Inside the ship, I allow myself to relax a little. I pop my knuckles and crack my wrists. I think about my hidden blade, buried with my Chest in the Everglades. I was stupid for getting so emotional yesterday. An idiot. But I won’t make that mistake again, unless I want to end up killed. From now on, nothing matters but keeping myself alive, and that means making the Mogs happy.

There’s a rumble of thunder from outside as I enter the ship’s control bridge. Setrákus Ra stands in front of a giant window flanked by two computer screens that keep refreshing with things written in the Mog alphabet. I’m learning the language, but I’m not nearly good enough to read anything on the screens yet. Our Beloved Leader’s eyes are fixed on the fiery symbol that’s fading away in the distance as the ship shoots through the sky.

“This is the beginning of the end for the Garde,” he says. His voice is low and steady, and there’s not a glimmer of doubt in it.

I take my place at his right side.

“Are you worried at all?” he asks. “That you might not be able to blend in among them?”

“No,” I say honestly. “I can be an excellent liar when I need to. It’ll be simple. I just won’t tell them anything true. It’ll be like a game I used to play when I was very young. Before the Mogadorians saved me.”

“I have no doubt that you’ll make an excellent double agent.”

He smiles and places a hand on my shoulder.

“They’ll be given the same chance I was, yes?” I ask. “I can try to get a feel for who might have the intelligence to join us.”

“Of course. You are my right hand, Five. But I have foreseen that another of them will be my left. You will help her come to see reason.”

Her?

“What about Nine?” I ask.

Setrákus Ra grins.

“I’ll leave that to you when the time comes.”

A smile spreads across my face. I wonder what the Garde are doing at this exact moment. What Nine is doing. Are they trying to figure out what the Mogs have planned next? Have they realized yet how powerful their enemies are?

Are you out there looking for me, fellow Loric?

I turn to my Leader and nod.

“I’m ready to meet the rest of my kind.”

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T
HE NIGHTMARE IS OVER.
W
HEN
I
OPEN MY EYES,
there’s nothing but darkness.

I’m in a bed, that much I can tell, and it’s not my own. The mattress is enormous, somehow contoured perfectly to my body, and for a moment I wonder if my friends moved me to one of the bigger beds in Nine’s penthouse. I stretch my legs and arms out as far as they’ll go and can’t find the edges. The sheet draped over me is more slippery than soft, almost like a piece of plastic, and it is radiating heat. Not just heat, I realize, but also a steady vibration that soothes my sore muscles.

How long have I been asleep, and where the heck am I?

I try to remember what happened to me, but all I can think of is my last vision. It felt like I was in that nightmare for days. I can still smell the burned-rubber stench of Washington, D.C. Smog clouds lingered over the city, a reminder of the battle fought there. Or the battle that will be fought there, if my vision actually comes true.

The visions. Are they part of a new Legacy? None of the others have Legacies that leave them traumatized in the morning. Are they prophecies? Threats sent by Setrákus Ra, like the dreams John and Eight used to have? Are they warnings?

Whatever they are, I wish they’d stop happening.

I take a few deep breaths to clean the smell of Washington out of my nostrils, even though I know it’s all in my head. What’s worse than the smell is that I can remember every little detail, right down to the horrified look on John’s face when he saw me on that stage with Setrákus Ra, condemning Six to death. He was stuck in the vision, too, just like I was. I was powerless up there, stuck between Setrákus Ra, self-appointed ruler of Earth, and . . .

Five. He’s working for the Mogadorians! I have to warn the others. I sit bolt upright and my head swims—too fast, too soon—rust-colored blobs floating through my vision. I blink them away, my eyes feeling gummy, my mouth dry and my throat sore.

This definitely isn’t the penthouse.

My movement must trigger some nearby sensor, because the room’s lights slowly grow brighter. They come on gradually, the room eventually bathed in a pale red glow. I look around for the source of the light and discover it pulsing from veins interwoven through the chrome-paneled walls. A chill goes through me at how precise the room looks, how severe, lacking any decoration at all. The heat from the blanket increases, almost as if it wants me to curl back up beneath it. I shove it away.

This is a Mogadorian place.

I crawl across the mammoth bed—it’s bigger than an SUV, big enough for a ten-foot-tall Mogadorian dictator to comfortably relax in—until my bare feet dangle over the metal floor. I’m wearing a long gray nightgown embroidered with thorny black vines. I shudder, thinking about them putting me into this gown and leaving me here to rest. They could’ve just killed me, but instead they put me in pajamas? In my vision, I was sitting alongside Setrákus Ra. He called me his heir. What does that even mean? Is that why I’m still alive?