Lord of My Heart (18 page)

When she woke again to a new day’s sunshine she remembered the urgency, but had no trace of the cause.

It was impossible to let her choose Odo. Even if she was willing to overlook his attempt at rape. Odo would be a heavy-handed husband and lord, almost as bad for Baddersley as his father.

Stephen would be better. He’d be kind enough to Madeleine as long as she didn’t question his amorous adventures. He’d pay little attention to Baddersley, however, and he’d drain everything he could from it to send back to Normandy, where he had a small, impoverished estate of which he was very fond.

The thought of Madeleine in Odo’s or Stephen’s bed brought a bitter taste to Aimery’s mouth.

“What’s the matter?” asked Leo.
“Do
you have saddle sores?”

“Of course not.” Aimery sighed. “I’m just wondering how to turn the heiress off me without Father or the king noticing.”

Leo shook his head. “There’s no understanding you. You won’t even have the uncle and aunt to contend with anymore. Wasn’t that something, when the heiress let on what had been happening? Whipping three-year-olds, for God’s sake.”

“What?”

“Weren’t you there? She told the king that Paul de Pouissey had tied children to the post for whipping. William was livid. He offered to have the man flogged for her.”

Now Aimery recaptured his bitter feelings about Madeleine de la Haute Vironge. “That should be entertaining.”

“Oh, she declined the treat. He’s just to be sent to do his worst with the Haute Vironge property, which is in an advanced state of decay and in the middle of a war zone.”

“She declined?” Aimery said with a sneer. “You surprise me.”

“Well, perhaps she’s not vindictive.” Leo glanced at his brother, who looked as if he wanted to flog someone himself, God knows why. He sighed. “A good sleep. That’s what we both need, though where, I’m not sure.” He looked around the hall where some men had pulled out the straw mattresses and bedded down in their cloaks while others continued to carouse. The king had invited Count Guy and his two clerics to share the solar. It was everyone else for himself.

“You’re right,” said Aimery and stood. “I’m going to sleep outdoors. Get the smell of this place out of my nose.”

Leo shrugged and followed his normally even-tempered brother.

They found a quiet corner not far from the stables and wrapped themselves in their cloaks. It was a warm, starry night, and Aimery looked at the patterns of the stars.

The little bitch. True enough, she must have some scores to settle against Paul de Pouissey, but to foist off on him her own crime ... He could just imagine her sitting there telling the king all about it. She’d probably had tears in those big brown eyes at the terrible cruelty of it all.

But he’d confirmed the evidence of his own eyes. She had begged for the whippings and watched for a while before growing bored. When she heard it was time for the children to suffer, she’d run back to the window so as not to miss the show.

When would he learn? She was a vicious woman and all the more dangerous for not appearing so. By the Rood, he hoped she did choose Odo. He was just what she deserved.

“There, my lady,” the woman said. “Fit for a king, if I do say so myself. Now the hair.”

Madeleine had Dorothy plait her thick hair. She was pleased to have worn it loose yesterday, but it was time to be decorous. “Weave in those red ribbons,” she instructed.

When her woman had finished, the fat glossy plaits were cleverly interwoven with scarlet and gold ribbons which bound the ends in an ornate pattern. “Very nice,” Dorothy approved, and then surprised Madeleine with some extra speech. “They say Lord Paul and Dame Celia are to leave, and you are to choose one of the men here to be your husband.”

“That’s correct.”

“It’s not right, a girl like you choosing a husband.”

“I’m allowed to choose from among only three,” Madeleine pointed out. “All vouched for by the king.”

“You’ll make a mistake. I know you will.” Madeleine turned, offended, then saw Dorothy was not really questioning her judgment so much as fretting.

“Why, Dorothy,” said Madeleine. “I think you care.”

“Of course I care,” snapped the woman, banging down the comb. “A girl like you. And such things as has been going on. A fine state of affairs. And now this.” She folded and refolded Madeleine’s blue tunic. “I don’t much like Odo de Pouissey,” she muttered.

“Nor do I,” said Madeleine, rather touched by this unsuspected side to the taciturn woman.

“Good.” Dorothy finally put the mangled tunic away. “Do you want a veil, my lady?”

“No, it will only get in the way, and I think I’m going to be busy.” Madeleine stood and twitched out her folds again, studying the maid. “What do you think of the others?”

“Don’t know.” Dorothy threw the washing water out of the window. “That Saxon one—the people here like him.”

“I suppose they do, but they don’t know him any better than I do.”

Dorothy straightened the bed. “He’s been here afore. Under the old lord, Hereward.”

“Ah.” Was that the problem? Did he resent her ownership here? Then Madeleine looked at her woman in surprise. “How did you find this out, Dorothy? Have some of the people here learned French?”

“Not them.” The woman snorted. “Or not more than to follow the simplest order. I’ve learned enough of their talk to get by. Had to, didn’t I, or how would anything get done?”

“And they favor Aimery de Gaillard, do they?”

“They favor one of their own.” Dorothy turned and scowled at Madeleine. “Well, go on. You’ve a choice to make, so go make it, and remember, when you’ve made your bed you’ll have to lie on it.”

Which wasn’t very reassuring when it was a marriage bed that was under discussion. Madeleine walked toward the hall thoughtfully.

So Dorothy, too, thought Aimery de Gaillard the best choice. Madeleine remembered how she’d felt last night in the half-dark, with his body warm and strong beside her. She tried to imagine what it would have been like if he’d leaned forward and pressed those firm lips against hers.

Would it be like it had been with Edwald? Just because he looked a bit the same didn’t mean he would have the same effect on her. Except that it would appear he did ...

She entered the great hall in a daze. He was talking to his brother. He really was a beautiful man.

He looked up. She smiled at him.

He smiled back, but it didn’t reach his eyes. They stayed cold. No, not cold. Hot with something very unpleasant. After a long moment during which it was as if they were alone in a harsh, forbidding world, he bowed.

“Good morning, Lady Madeleine. I hope you slept well.”

It sounded like a warning.

But then she would have to marry Stephen de Faix. What other choice did she have?

Everything about Aimery de Gaillard now spoke of his dislike for her. He’d made it clear last night that he didn’t want to marry her, but today his feelings were stronger and more unpleasant. She could not possibly choose him.

Still, her eyes were constantly drawn across the hall to where he stood with some men, including that large, dark brother. Some joke must have been told, for he suddenly laughed in an open, boyish way, his teeth white in his golden skin, his eyes crinkled with delight.

Tears threatened because he would never laugh like that with her . . .

She dragged her gaze away.

She saw Odo alone, scowling at the other group. He must have just returned from bidding farewell to his father and stepmother. She realized how difficult and awkward the situation must be for him and felt genuine sympathy. Despite that, and Odo’s attempts to ingratiate himself and recall the happier times of their youth, she could never choose him either. After that attack, she could hardly bear his touch.

So it had to be Stephen and, she told herself firmly, there was nothing wrong with that. Where was he?

He breezed into the hall, his russet hair a little disheveled, his eyes warm, his mouth relaxed in a smile. He would make a pleasant companion in life. But there was something about his expression that itched her with disquiet. It was cat-like. Self-satisfied. Satiated.

Her eyes traveled the three again desperately; the one who hated her; the one she hated; and the one whom she would
have
to choose when every instinct screamed it would be a terrible mistake.

A servant approached with a question. Madeleine grasped the excuse and hurried off to make sure all the arrangements for the king’s stay were still in order. Everything was going surprisingly well. To her relief she was discovering the hall servants were competent when they were given clear orders and not scared out of their wits. They could be trusted with the day-to-day running of the hall.

Moreover, the Baddersley people no longer regarded her with malevolence. They even at times treated her as their lady and protectress against this group of Norman invaders, which included that terror, William the Bastard. Some of them could be said to be desperate to please. Even Aldreda was courteous. She was obviously afraid Madeleine would seek revenge against her for past malice. She addressed Madeleine with quiet respect and kept her eyes properly lowered.

When Madeleine glanced back into the hall to check on matters, she saw the woman laying cloths on a table. As Aldreda left the room, she went out of her way to pass by Aimery de Gaillard. She said something. He looked up with a smile and replied. Aldreda laughed and carried on with a distinct sway to her full hips.

Madeleine bit her lip. Could they be lovers? Aldreda was some years his elder but comely. She told herself she didn’t care and returned to the kitchens to check the food.

There were piles of warm fresh bread ready to go out for breakfast, along with ripe cheese and strong ale. Three well-grown lambs were turning on spits for later eating, and a good number of chickens were being prepared. Pies and puddings were also in hand, and her custard was ready. Tonight’s feast, she vowed, would do justice to Baddersley.

She gave encouragement and praise as she went, and an occasional suggestion. She commiserated with the cooks over the lack of spices, and produced a few more from her seriously depleted supply. Somehow, Madeleine vowed, she would get more. One of her greatest problems, she was discovering, was lack of coin. If Baddersley had made any money in the past year, it had disappeared.

As she crossed the bailey from the kitchens to the hall she was aware of a pleasant sense of purpose and command, but also all the burdens which came with authority. She sighed. If it came to the worst, she had the jewelry given her by the queen. She would sell it to preserve Baddersley. She wondered if Stephen de Faix had money to put into the place. She thought of Aimery de Gaillard’s gold ornaments. They’d keep Baddersley going with ease . . .

She saw a flash of gold and realized it was him. He was talking with a woman just outside the hall. Aldreda!

Madeleine watched, tight-lipped, as the woman swayed against him, placing her palm on his chest. He put a familiar hand on the woman’s hip, tipped her chin, and kissed her quickly on the lips before returning to the hall. Aldreda watched him go, radiating sensual satisfaction.

Well, thought Madeleine bitterly, it was clear what Aimery de Gaillard had been up to last night. No wonder he hadn’t been interested in a mere heiress. Men! They were all the lowest form of life to creep the earth. She stalked into the hall in a fit state to poison the lot of them.

The king was still working with his clerks and advisers. Messengers had arrived overnight, and even as she stood in the hall, another ran in. No one would break their fast until the king was ready, and so Madeleine slipped off to the chapel for Mass. Today of all days she needed God’s countenance.

There were few people at the service. The king’s clerics and the hall servants were all busy. Clearly most of the nobles were not pious. Stephen slipped in and knelt on the stone floor beside her. His presence was part of his courting but still, it showed concern for her interests. Her earlier outrage was soothed. If her husband at least cared enough to try to please her, it would be something.

As they walked back to the hall afterward he talked lightly of all manner of inconsequential things and managed to drop in a great many compliments. It was a silly performance, but it left Madeleine feeling lighter in heart and spirits. As they entered the hall she smiled on him with genuine warmth. Her future did not seem quite so bleak.

The king was just coming out of the solar. He saw them, and a faint frown weighted his brow, then he smiled. “Good morning, demoiselle. I see you add piety to your many virtues, but what else should we expect from one raised in a convent?”

Madeleine curtsied and returned his greeting, then went to sit by him as the food was brought in. He drew her out to talk of the area, its land, and its people, but Madeleine sensed he had other concerns. Had one of the messengers brought bad news?

When silence threatened she said, “It is a shame work follows you everywhere, sire. Every man deserves an interlude.”

He laughed. “I chose my course. No man who wants an easy life should reach for a crown. But one of my messengers should set your mind at ease about that Golden Hart, Lady Madeleine. He is not lurking in your forest. He is raising the peasants of Warwickshire.”

So he wasn’t Aimery de Gaillard. She hadn’t realized until this moment how that suspicion had lurked in her. Madeleine felt like laughing at her own foolishness. How had she ever believed anything so unlikely as Edwald being a Norman knight in disguise?

“Is there to be another battle, sire?” she asked.

“No, no,” he reassured her. “It is a minor matter and my sheriff there will handle it. Hopefully we’ll have the rogue by the heels this time, though.”

“What will you do with him, sire?” she asked. Despite everything, she did not want to see Edwald punished.

“That depends. I don’t waste talents, Lady Madeleine. You don’t cut the throat of the fiery, rebellious horse. You tame it. If, that is, it will come to bridle. But,” said William jovially, “if your forest is free of the human hart, I hope you can offer us some of the animal kind to hunt.”

“Of course, sire. And boar, and many smaller animals. My men have been out in the forest for days, marking the deer trails, noting all the signs of venison.” The words “my men” rolled sweetly off her tongue. She looked around the hall with heightened pride.

“Excellent!” The king announced the entertainment to the men. They all cheered.

Madeleine breathed a sigh of relief. A day’s hunting would help feed the men. It would also leave her in peace to continue to put her hall to rights.

Then she found she was to accompany them.

“But, sire, I need to stay here and arrange for your greater comfort.”

“Your servants seem tolerably able, demoiselle,” he said implacably, “and you have little enough time to weigh your three choices. We cannot allow you to waste any of it.”

She should tell the king her choice was already made, but she quailed at the thought. He wanted her to marry de Gaillard, and braver people than she had put off telling William of Normandy something he didn’t want to hear. Perhaps, she thought desperately, something would come up to delay the decision—the rebellion in Warwickshire, plague, a Viking invasion . . .

Anything.

But nothing was going to delay the requirement that she go hunting.

She muttered about kings, queens, green-eyed devils, and the world in general as she went off to put on riding clothes—low boots and braies under a blue linen kirtle. She had Dorothy quickly make her hair into one long plait, which she then bound up with a scarf. She pouched her gown up over her belt, making it not much longer than the men’s, and went out to mount, one woman among twenty men.

And to think she had once thought such a situation would be exciting.

Everyone hoped for boar or hart, but many also carried hawks on hand to bring down tasty birds. Most carried bows in the hope of small game such as hare or badger. Madeleine had no hawk, but she had a bow and brought it. It was not a talent taught in the convent, however, and she was only just beginning to gain any skill with it. She knew she was unlikely to use the bow, for if she did she’d probably shoot wild from simple nervousness, and the men would laugh at her.

Her teeth clenched at the thought of the green-eyed Saxon laughing at her. Then she wondered in despair why her thoughts spun around him like thread around a spindle.

He showed no sign of approaching her, thank the Virgin, but just in case, Madeleine rode with Odo on one side and Stephen on the other. Their efforts to please soothed her jangling nerves. Stephen’s dry wit amused her, and even Odo made her smile with a story of a childhood adventure. But then he leaned sideways and put a hairy hand on her thigh. She moved her horse out of reach. He flashed her an ugly, sullen look, and Stephen smirked like a cat in a dairy.

Madeleine decided it was extremely unpleasant to be a dish of rich cream.

It was a lovely summer day, though, and Madeleine decided to enjoy it despite her predicament. It was warm with just enough breeze for comfort. The trees were a lush green, and the blue sky was clear except for occasional puffs of lambswool clouds. They rode among a riot of flowers—buttercup and celandine, daisy and poppy—all busily worked over by bees. A foolish hare hopped out of a hole and raced across a meadow. Someone drew a bow, and soon there was a hare hung at a saddle bow, meat destined for a pie-dish, fur to trim a hood or line boots.

This first small kill delighted everyone. Stephen started a song about hunting a leveret, and soon everyone joined in except Madeleine, who did not know the words. It was a long, merry song and very foolish in parts. Then she realized there was a double meaning. If the saucy little leveret with the naughty white behind was a girl and not a rabbit, some of the sillier lines made sense; especially where the arrow went.

She felt herself color. Odo sniggered. Madeleine frowned at Stephen, but he only winked. Madeleine didn’t like the look in her intended husband’s eye. It was not just coarse amusement; he was enjoying her discomfort. Men!

Aimery de Gaillard was behind her. She had no intention of turning to look, but she could imagine him, too, grinning at her naive embarrassment.

By the Blood, there must be an honest man in England who wanted to marry an heiress and do well by her. Why did she have these three to deal with? She glared at the back of the King of England, the author of all her troubles.

Stephen was called up to the king. Madeleine hoped it was for a reprimand but doubted it. All men were crude, hardhearted swine. Another horseman came up beside her. She caught her breath and turned. Then she sighed with relief. It was the other one, the brother, Leo.

“I doubt he meant to distress you, demoiselle,” Leo said easily. “There’s no hunting song written which doesn’t serve to cover the other principal obsession of men.”

“It would be more to the point,” she said tartly, “for men to keep their mind on their
proper
business, the welfare of their land and people.”