Lies My Girlfriend Told Me (22 page)

“Both of my parents’ cars are manuals.” When I go to put it into reverse, though, I grind the gear. I wince and he says, “You always have to get used to different cars.”

That makes me feel better. He instructs me to head toward Sixth Avenue so I can see how it feels on the highway. My whole body is shaking and I’m gripping the steering wheel so hard my knuckles are white. I manage to merge into traffic without killing anyone and finally take a breath. Someone honks at me and zips around my left side to pass. “You might want to speed up just a little,” Bob says, and smiles.

My eyes dart up and down, up and down, and I finally find the speedometer. I’m going forty in a sixty-five-miles-per-hour zone. When we get to Wadsworth, Bob says, “You can exit here if you want.”

I want. He directs me back to the dealership on side streets to show me how it handles in the city. When we pull into the dealership, Mom and Dad are sitting outside on a bench with Ethan between them in his carrier. They get up and walk toward us as I pull into a parking space.

“Well?” Dad says.

“I’ll take it.”

Dad laughs.

“What?”

“I think you should drive more than one before you decide.”

That only increases the odds I’ll add to the toll of teenage accidents and/or road rage incidents. Numbly, I follow Bob as he shows me a white car (boring), and then a silver one. My eyes stray to the one next to the silver car. “What about that one?” I ask.

It’s metallic blue and not a hatchback. Sleek, and more sporty. Dad riffles through his papers and says, “I don’t have any research on it.”

“It just came in yesterday,” Bob informs us. “Three years old, but it only has eight thousand miles.”

“Wow,” Dad says. He asks all kinds of questions about the safety inspection and Blue Book value, while I run my hand along the hood and look inside. It has a white leather interior. Not very practical, Mom would say, but since this is my car, practical doesn’t play into the decision.

“Can I take it out?” I say before Bob even asks.

He looks at Dad and Dad shrugs. “She’s the customer.”

Oh my God. Dad was right about driving more than one. This one is so much better. It feels solid and steady in my hands, like it was meant to be. I don’t even want to go back to the dealership; I want to just keep driving and never look back.

Bob jolts me out of my reverie by asking, “Are we headed to Vegas? Because I should probably call my wife.”

He winks at me, not in a perverted kind of way, but a jokester-guy way.

When we get back, I tell Mom and Dad, “This is definitely the one.”

“If you’re sure,” Dad says.

“I’m positive.”

Dad says to Bob, “Write ’er up.”

As we’re walking into the showroom, I ask, “Is this going on my Visa, which I’ll never be able to pay back in a million years?”

Mom looks at Dad and they both crack up. Mom links her arm in mine. “This one’s on us.”

Chapter 24

As soon as all the paperwork is done, I ask Mom and Dad if I can take a drive. Dad replies, “I don’t know how else we’re going to get the car home, unless they’re handing out driver’s licenses to nine-month-old babies now.” He adds in a mutter, “Wouldn’t surprise me.”

I know the first place I’m going. Ten minutes later, when I pull to the curb, she’s just getting out of her car. She’s wearing her uniform.

We both stand for a minute and look at each other. I know she hates me, and there’s no excuse for my behavior, and even if there was, she might not accept my apology. But I have to try.

“Hi.” I approach her.

At least she doesn’t run away.

“How are you?” I ask.

“Good,” she says. “And you?” Kind of icy.

The conversation stalls. “I got a new car,” I say. “Well, it’s used.”

She peers around me. “Nice.”

“That not what I came to say. I wanted to tell you I’m sorry. I’m sorry about everything that went down. I cherish your friendship, and I’d never do anything to hurt you, and I know I did and if there’s any way I can make it up to you, I want to because I miss you and need you in my life.” I’m choking and tears are filling my eyes.

Betheny crosses the lawn and puts her arms around me. “I’m sorry, too. For months I’ve tried to figure out ways to say how sorry I was about Swanee, but you didn’t seem to really want to talk about it.”

“I know.”

“It must’ve been incredibly hard for you.”

She doesn’t know the half of it. I burst into full-blown tears, and she lets me cry it out on her shoulder. “So, are we okay again?” she asks.

“We are so okay.”

She hugs me and I hug her back. When she lets me go, she shrieks at the top of her lungs, “You got a car!”

We leap into the air together and high-five.

She puts her hands onto her hips and goes, “Are you even going to offer me a ride?”

“If you have a death wish, get in.”

The rain starts as a drizzle on Thursday, and by Friday it’s a monsoon. But guess what? I have a car to drive home from school! As I’m changing from my school clothes into sweats, listening to the rain spatter against my windows, I remember the party Swanee took me to the first weekend after our
ski trip. There was a really great DJ and I could’ve danced the whole time. But Swanee wanted to get stoned, so that’s what we did.

In my memory, her face morphs into Liana’s and I think, We never even got to dance. She’d probably dance circles around me, and we’d lose ourselves in the music and in each other.

I feel a catch in my throat and swallow it down. Forget feeling sorry for myself. That isn’t even one of the five stages of grief.

Downstairs, Mom’s stirring a vat of chili.

“Smells yummy,” I tell her, snaking my arms around her waist.

“If you want to help, you can slice the bread and butter it,” she says.

As soon as I saw off the heel of the bread, the doorbell rings. Mom sets down her spoon and says, “I’ll get it.”

I hear the door open, and then silence. Mom says, “You’re sopping wet. Come in. It’s for you, Alix,” she calls.

Joss always picks the worst times, I think.

I round the corner and stop dead.

Liana’s in the foyer, drenched from head to toe.

Nothing—not a word—passes between us.

“Where’s your car?” Mom glances over Liana’s shoulder.

“It died,” Liana says. To me, she adds, “I’ve been driving around the block for hours, and it ran out of gas.”

Driving around doing what? I wonder.

“You’re shivering,” Mom says. “Alix, why don’t you take Liana upstairs and get her into some dry clothes?”

That’s not a good idea, I want to say. She might pound me into dog meat.

Mom asks her, “Do you want to stay for dinner? There’s plenty.”

“No,” I snap at Mom. Liana’s suffered enough pain at my hands.

Mom ignores me.

Liana says, “That’s okay. I don’t want to put you out. I just wanted to talk to Alix.”

About what?

“It’s no problem,” Mom says. “I always make enough to feed an army.”

Liana holds my eyes.

Why is Mom doing this? Torturing her, and me?

Once we cross the threshold of my room, Liana shuts the door behind her. She shoves me onto the bed and plops beside me, sitting on one bent leg. “True or false,” she says. “If I hadn’t met you, I never would’ve learned about Swan’s lies.”

“You might have eventually.”

“How? Who was going to tell me? You’re the only one who was even considerate enough to think I might want to know she was dead. Question two: true or false. I never would’ve gotten my ring back if it wasn’t for you.”

“Jewell might’ve found it when she was cleaning out the room.” Except I doubt Jewell knew about the ring if Joss didn’t.

“The answer’s true,” Liana says. She goes on, “If we hadn’t gone through this the way we did, I never would’ve gotten to
use another forgiveness chip with God. Every one I trade in gets me closer to heaven.”

She can’t mean she forgives me.

She focuses on my face. “I wouldn’t have met you and fallen in love.”

I lower my eyes. “No. You would’ve met someone better. More honest. More trustworthy.”

“Alix!” Her tone of voice jolts my head up. “How can I forgive you if you can’t forgive yourself?”

I feel tears burning my eyes.

She scoots close, resting her forehead on mine. “I’ve missed you so much.” She holds my face between her hands and kisses me.

I can’t even speak to tell her how much I love and miss her.

It’s like time has simply been suspended while I waited for this moment. We fall back on the bed and kiss until a knock sounds. Mom says through the door, “Dinner’s ready.”

“Shit.” I bolt to a sitting position. “We’ll be there in a minute.”

“Should I set a place for you, Liana?” Mom asks.

I answer, “Yes, please.”

Not only is Liana wet, but now my front is all damp. Mom’s folded a stack of clean clothes for me to put away, so I dig out a pair of sweatpants and a sweatshirt for each of us. It’s going to look suspicious that I’ve changed clothes, but I don’t care. We both turn our backs to change.

Except I peek and see she’s wearing a Victoria’s Secret polka-dot bra. Goose bumps.

She’s the same height as me, but my clothes look better on her. Sexy. Probably because she has more curves.

She gathers her pile of wet clothes and asks, “What do you want me to do with these?”

I take them from her. “I’ll put them in the dryer during dinner. They should be ready by the time you leave.” She clenches my free hand and that familiar tingle zaps me. “I can’t believe this is happening. Pinch me,” I say.

So she does. Hard enough for me to yelp.

Liana’s manners are impeccable, of course. She compliments Mom on the chili and answers questions about her family. I learn that her mom works part-time at the post office and volunteers at church, and she tells them about her dad’s research at UNC.

After dinner, Liana starts rinsing chili bowls in the sink.

“You two go,” Dad says to us. “I’ll take care of this.”

Liana tells him, “I need to get a tow to a gas station. And call home, too, to let my mom and dad know where I am and that I’ll be late.” She adds, “I, uh, left my cell in the car, so would it be okay if I used your phone?”

Mom’s beeper goes off. “It’s still pouring out.” She hurries over and lifts the phone from the cradle. “You shouldn’t be driving in this weather, especially all the way to Greeley. Why don’t you ask your parents if you can stay the night?”

Did that come from my mother’s mouth? My. Mother?

Mom says, “We can take care of your car in the morning.” Then she speaks into the phone: “What’s up?”

Liana says to me, “I’m used to driving in bad weather.”

I overhear Mom say, “But she’s only at twenty-five weeks.” She listens, and then adds, “I’ll be there as fast as I can.” She races out of the room and up the stairs. Over the railing, she calls, “Alix, fix up the guest bedroom for Liana.”

“Feel free to use the phone,” Dad says at the same time.

Liana calls and explains the situation, and then says under her breath, “Papá…” She sighs. “Just a minute.” Handing the phone to Dad, she goes, “My dad wants to talk to you.”

I take Ethan from him, and Dad assures Liana’s father that she’s welcome to stay the night and tomorrow until the rain subsides, and then they talk about hydroplaning and splash back.

I say, “You want to see Ethan crawl?”

“Yeah.” She smiles. “He’s getting so big. It’s amazing what a difference twenty-seven days makes.”

She’s been counting the days?

Mom rushes through the kitchen, looking panicked.

“Good luck,” I call to her back. She doesn’t acknowledge it.

The dryer buzzes and Dad comes into the living room to relieve me of Ethan. As soon as I pull Liana’s clothes out, she’s beside me, taking them. “I really appreciate this, Alix,” she says.

I’d forgotten how big her eyes are, and how lustrous her hair. If Dad wasn’t within viewing range…

“The guest room is this way.” I wedge by her, my knees wobbly.

Our so-called guest room is mostly used for storage, so I start shoving boxes against the wall to find the bed. Liana helps, of course, and I wish I could tell her to just let me do it because every time she gets near, I’m tempted to throw her on the bed.

She must be feeling the same way because she presses me against the wall and smothers me in a deep kiss. In the doorway, Dad clears his throat, and I slither out of her arms.

“Let me finish rearranging,” he says. “Alix, you go find sheets and blankets and a pillow.” Do I detect a smile on his face?

After we’re done preparing the room, Dad leaves to check on Ethan in his crib. All I want to do is shut the door, turn off the lights, and pick up where we left off.

Liana must read my mind or anticipate my move because she says, “I’m scared, Alix. I want you so badly, I don’t think I could say no. Please understand.”

I do.

“Plus, I’m exhausted,” she says. “Would it be okay if I just went to bed?”

“Yeah, of course.” I’m suddenly feeling drained, too. Pop quizzes do that to me. “Do you want some pj’s?”

“Do you have a pair with bunnies or duckies?” she asks.

“No, but I have a merry widow.”

She laughs. God, I’ve missed that laugh. “Do you have a long shirt or a nightgown?” she says.

Me, wear a nightgown? “Let me go get you a shirt.”

Without warning, we hear a sound like bullets hitting the window, like machine-gun fire. We both duck down,
covering our heads. Then we realize how dumb that looks and giggle. We go over to the window and gaze out. Rain is still sluicing down the glass, but now the ground is covered with pearls of ice. “It’s hailing,” we say in unison. She slugs me. “Owe me a Coke.”

“Oh, man. I hope it doesn’t dent my new car.”

She turns to me. “You got a car?”

“For no reason, except maybe they were tired of me bugging them a hundred times a day.”

“Or they felt you deserved it.” She rests her head on my shoulder.

The hail is unrelenting. Now I really am worried about my car. “Hopefully, Dad got me denters’ insurance.”