Leader: Book Three (Princes of Prophecy 3) (3 page)

“I need help Lily.”

She looks at me as if I’m lying. “What do you need?”

Why is this so hard? “We’re breaking ground on the shelter apartments and have three houses up. Kate says it’s the way they should have done it, but they didn’t have choices then. I don’t know what the fuck is needed and I can’t keep bothering Kate. We have one house on the compound right now. It’s wired the way Kate said, but it feels wrong. As soon as someone steps in the house with the woman in it the feeds go live.”

She looks shocked. I didn’t think it sounded right. “Kate said it should be like that on the compound?”

I push my hair back and nod. “I’m not going to lie and I’m not trying to hide anything from you. This is not a job I was trained for. I didn’t pay attention to the shelter women except for Tess and Natalie. I have no fuckin’ clue what to do in my own fuckin’ yard. I took the shelters thinking you’d be there. I don’t know how to get you there and I don’t know where I stand with you.”

She sits back looking surprised. “I thought I was yours?” What? “You’ve been coming to see me, telling me everything or what you can, and making us right. I didn’t realize you didn’t feel that way. I finally got to where I think it’s going right and you changed your mind without me knowing?”

I run through every fuck I know, trying to remember how Cloud says them. She’s not looking at me so I lift her chin. Fuckin’ tears again. “You are mine. I hope that you feel I’m yours too. I’m trying here Lily. I can read every fuckin’ person but you. Dakota can’t read Jess either so it’s the way it is. I need you to talk to me too. I don’t get anything unless you’re pissed or really happy. I want us together yesterday. I’m so fuckin’ tired of being alone.” Something is on her mind, but her tears are gone. I’m so glad she’s not wearing all the makeup anymore.

“You said you won’t lie to me. Have you been to the whores at the Club when you come to see me?”

“No.” Why the fuck would she think that? I wouldn’t disrespect her in her own yard. Christ.

She nods. “Thank you. I didn’t believe it, but overheard them talking.”

“It wasn’t about me or it’s ancient history. My time there is spent with you or the family.”

Her whole face changes to happy and I get a real smile. “I don’t think the compound house should have the feeds running on the inside unless it’s a high risk threat. You have more than adequate Security and you trust the men you have at the gate. With the Officers on the property it seems a little overkill to have those inside feeds running. To me it seems invasive. How are they supposed to feel like they can talk freely about what happened if they always feel like someone is watching?”

I nod. Thank fuck we think alike. “That’s what I thought too. It feels wrong. Do we need the feeds in the singles apartments?”

She shakes her head no. “I think if it’s a high risk threat you do until the threat is gone. Then it should be off so the women feel secure in their own space. Outside is different. They should always see the feeds as security for them, but inside is just a different form of control.”

I think about that. “Because we’re taking away their ability to be free and have reactions that aren’t guarded; we’re imposing a form of control over them.” She’s nodding. I pull my phone and text Darren to add it to the book. “We have a book of procedures being put together based on what we learn and know. Can you look at it?”

She’s watching me and I can’t figure out the look on her face. “I thought I was going down there when I finish school. Aubrey says that I am. I just assumed I was. You asking me about a book, for a job I thought was mine, gives me reason to doubt that.”

“I mean now. Can you look at it before you get there?” I’m going to fuck it up again. I am so fuckin’ tired.

“Yes. I’ll look at your book.” At least she’s smiling.

I wonder if I should tell her or hold it. Fuck it. Maybe she can help. “I haven’t been sleeping. Darren found his old lady. She was like Tess, a slave for the Outlaws. She went through some shit, but she’s HS. I had to put more on her to keep her being a slave from getting out. It’s fuckin’ with my head.”

She smiles. “Eliza. We’ve met. She brought Maryellen back to Tess. She seems like a strong woman. Whatever you had to do I’m sure she understood. I think it’s better to keep it a secret for as long as the secret can last. She seems confident with Darren. She’s wearing his cut.” She looks away.

“They’re getting married.” She nods, but is looking around the café. “Look at me Lily.” She does. “Tell me what’s going through your head.”

She looks in my eyes. “I feel like we’re getting to where we need to be, but you don’t touch me. Am I doing something wrong?”

I push the hair out of my face and blow out a breath. “I want you. I want you with me. If I touch you now, I’ll want you in my bed every night. Are you ready for all in Lily?” She looks shocked then looks around. “When you’re ready for all in? That is when I’ll take you. I’m not playing fuckin’ games. It kills me to leave every fuckin’ week. It’s getting harder and harder and that was before I knew you feel something for me and we’re on the same page.”

Her eyes are huge. “I didn’t know. I’m taking the online courses too. I’ll be done in three months, but I’m working with Kate for three right after that.” She looks nervous.

“I’m so fuckin’ glad to hear that.”

She smiles. “I’m glad to hear you say it.”

She gives me that mothering look. “Are you ready for this Lily?”

“I’ve been in love with Little Ben my whole life. Nothing has changed except now he sees me as a person and not a possession.”

She nods. “You didn’t tell him you waited for him Lily. I’m not sure if he’d believe it, but you should have had some kind of talk with him.”

“I’ll figure it out when I get there. It’s a little embarrassing at my age to admit now and this is as it should be. Tess says it works out. Stop worrying and make sure you bring Aubrey next Sunday.” I hug her and sit in my car. I am not talking about it anymore. Some things shouldn’t be up for discussion and this isn’t, at least as far as I’m concerned.

I am so excited on the drive down. I follow the bikes in front of me, but think about Eliza and Sheila. I can’t believe she’s back at work, but Eliza says she’s doing well. They are key players for the Women’s Center. No one has women for Security. Little Ben told me Dakota says it works for us. I already knew it would. They’re both so strong it will be a great example to the women they’ll be watching over. As we get closer, bikes are waiting on the side of the highway. They make me nervous. I hit the phone button on the steering wheel.

“Yeah, Lily.” He sounds distracted.

“There are bikes following. They were on the side of the highway.”

“Look at the rocker babe. It’s us. I’m following you on surveillance.” I know he’s smiling.

We went by them fast; I didn’t check the cut. So much for the Security Specialist first impression I should have made. “Thank you. We went by them fast; I didn’t see it.”

He doesn’t say anything right away. “I can tell them to slow it down, but I was impatient. Sheila and Eliza are with them. They wanted to be on your first detail.”

That is so sweet. “No, I’m good. I don’t want them thinking I’m a wimp when they fight men for a living.” I hear Darren laugh. Shit.

“I’m sure they don’t think you’re a wimp. Sheila has known you for years Lily.” As he’s talking I hear Darren talking. I’m relieved, I thought he was laughing at me. I feel the pressure to do a good job here. “Relax babe. No one knows your job better than you.”

Can he read my mind now? “How do you know what I’m thinking?”

He laughs. “Dakota just passed me a note.”

“Oh thank God. Tell him to mind his own business or I’m talking to Jess. I’m getting off the phone now so I can get there in one piece.” The bikes pull to the exit and I follow. I’m glad they were with me after the whole Sheila thing.

“I’ll see you in a few minutes.”

“K. Bye.” I hit the button and follow, turning at the compound. Why am I coming here? They don’t stop at the gate. I fly through following them to Little Ben’s house. It’s such a pretty neighborhood. I’m glad they all stayed together. Little Ben is still protective of his Brothers. Maybe more so now than when we were younger.

He’s waiting on the steps as I pull in. Now I’m nervous. I take a deep breath and smile as he opens my door and puts his hand out for me. I don’t remember a time he hasn’t done this. I put my hand in his and he gives me one of those looks. He knows I’m nervous. “We’re the same people we were yesterday. I’m so glad you’re here Lily.” He bends and kisses my lips and I feel that jolt he always gives me.

Darren, Jessie, Dakota and Jess are waiting. Some of the bikes park as he’s bringing me to my new neighbors and old friends. Sheila and Eliza stand with them. “It’s good to finally be here.”

“Home. It is good to finally have you home,” Dakota says making me smile.

“Yes.”

He smiles and hands Little Ben a bag. “Alone Prez.” Little Ben nods and looks at everyone. They hug me telling me it’s good to have me home and then everyone is gone. Wow they left quick.

“I need my bags from the car.” I turn and he stops me. He already sent a truck up for my things. I’m nervous and looking for something to do with the energy.

“Prospects already have them inside.” He pulls me to the stairs. I’ve never been in his house. He opens the door and throws the bag in then lifts me up as if we’re married.

Why is she nervous? I lift her up hoping to get a real smile. ‘No experience,’ Dakota says in my head. What? New experience? ‘No, none.’

I look at her and she’s nervous as fuck. I carry her in and set her down then kiss her. “It feels like I’ve waited my whole life for this moment Lily.”

She nods with her eyes still huge and a tight look on her face. “Me too.”

“Sit, you’re nervous. Do you want a beer or wine?”

She sits then stands right back up walking toward the pictures. “Wine is good thanks.”

The pictures are the Little Brothers and the MC family. It’s an arrangement Amanda started for me. She’s in quite a few of the old ones and a couple of the new ones. She’s looking at her, Brenda and Aubrey smiling for the camera.

“It’s a wall you keep adding to. I have all different size frames to keep it going. I wait until I have a few before I put them up so I can keep it even.” She smiles over her shoulder and takes the glass from me. “You’re beautiful Lily. I like the blue on you.”

“Thank you. Nancy sent a care package that was a full box with clothes for summer. I love them all.” She’s smiling and a little more relaxed.

“I’ll show you around.” It just dawns on me she has no clue where anything is. No wonder she’s nervous, she hasn’t lived anywhere but with her mom, the dorm and with Brenda. I take her hand and give her a tour. “The ‘rents have a house next door that Brenda and Racks can stay in until the houses for Brenda and Geek are done.”

“You’re giving them houses here? On the compound?” She was looking around the kitchen, but turns toward me surprised.

“Of course. Aubrey will always be protected and Geek is inner circle, so Marty is too. Brenda is the most important person in your life so she will stay close to you and get that protection from me as family.” She’s staring at me. “Why is this a surprise to you?”

She shakes her head. “You’ve always been protective of us. I just now am getting how real this all is.”

I walk to her and put my hands on her face, glad again for the less makeup. “You have always been mine and as of today you agree to always be mine. It’s always been real Lily. Are you sure this is where you want to be right now?” I’m not letting her go so I hope for a yes here.

She looks like I slapped her. “Yes. I meant that you are a very powerful man. Your protection means something.”

I nod and kiss her lips. “Let’s finish the tour so we can sit and talk.” We get through the house and back to the living room without her saying much. She’s back to nervous. What the hell is going on? I wish Dakota was here so he could tell me what this is all about.

She sits and I sit beside her with my leg up so I can face her. I want her to turn so she’s facing me, but I’m glad she doesn’t. That dress is fuckin’ hot and I’m hard just sitting here. “There are things you need to know. Dakota, Sebastian, Shilah, Josiah, and Chevy are all readers. Dakota is like Jeremy, but stronger. He is a prophet of sorts. He’s working on speaking English fluently and doesn’t mince his words. If he says something take it seriously. It has saved us on countless occasions.” She nods. I know Uncle Danny has talked with her. “Eliza is calmer than Sheila, but just as strong and deadly. She will protect you with everything in her. Sheila is just getting back to herself. You know what she can do. We are surrounded by the ‘rents’ house next door; a house away is Jess, Dakota and Jessie. The other side we have Darren and Eliza. Across the street on the way coming in is Sheila, Brantley, Taylor, and Jared. When Jeremy comes down alone or with Jacob they stay with someone from inner circle. That’s the people I just named. Jeremy is here a lot and stays with me most of the time, but he’s been known to show in the other Brothers’ houses.”

She giggles. I stop, liking that sound. “You always say Brothers. Isn’t Sheila a Sister?”

She’s cute. I take her hand. “Technically, but she’s always been a Brother to me.” She nods not liking that. “You will have HS with you always. Jessie is getting a Family Security schedule running, we didn’t have much family to protect before, I want it ready before it becomes a problem.” I get another nod. “I’m called away a lot and have to go when I get the call. You saw the office here. It has everything the Ops Room does. I’ll use it when I can now that you’re here. I’ve never used it before.” I smile at her and I hope she gets that I’ll make the effort.

“I grew up in the Club and know what that means. It will be different as an adult with my own job, but I understand better than most what your job is like.”

I nod and know that she’ll be easy with it just like the other old ladies. “Do you have any questions?”

“A ton of them, but they are mostly work related and I don’t want to do that right now. Can we set some time for me to ask before I start on Monday?”

I’m wondering if we should do it now. Kate would lose her shit if she knew we are covering the shelters and Women’s Center so no, or very little, outside money has to be raised. Since I want her happy I’ll wait. “Of course.”

She laughs. “I love how you weigh out the options before you talk.”

This is the first time she’s said love in the same sentence as my name and my heart is beating fast. “I’ve done it my whole life. I’m glad you love it or it would be a problem.” She nods. “I need to tell you about my abilities. I don’t want you to think I’m hiding things from you, but I can’t share it all. Some I don’t understand and some for Security purposes. You have always known I can read. I can also jump to the spirit guides and throw energy. No one knows all I can do except Dakota and Jeremy. Cloud has some knowledge, but not all. This isn’t talked about by anyone. Everyone else is pretty open, but not talked about in any detail.” She’s not running away screaming, but looks concerned. I wait for her questions, but she doesn’t say anything. “Do you have questions?”

She nods. “You said not talked about. I didn’t think I could ask.”

“Ask. I will answer what I can.”

“You jump like Jeremy?” I nod. “Throw energy. What does that mean?”

I push the hair from my face. “Just like it sounds. I’ve been taught to throw a shield to stop a threat to me or whoever is close to me and also throw energy to stop an enemy. I don’t know exactly how it works, but it’s there.”

“Do Jeremy and Dakota do this too?”

“Dakota more so. He can project that energy from a longer distance and with more accuracy.”

She nods, but doesn’t ask any more. “I don’t think I need to know more about them. They are both protective of you and that’s enough for me.”

I smile. My Lily. “I’ll explain more as it comes up, but I have one last thing to do.” I pick the bag up from the table and open it. “This is my cut Lily. You know what all in means. To me it is everything. All that is me will protect and live for all that is you. Your family is mine; your work is my concern as much as yours. Your body and soul are mine to love for always. I’ve spent my life being groomed to be right here and you’ve been with me for just about all of it. Today you agreed to be there for the rest. I’d be honored if you wore my cut Lily, letting everyone know that you are mine and I am yours.” I watch the tears build and know this is good. She nods and I hold the cut for her to see the back.

She laughs. “It’s like Eliza’s. I love the tiara. I thought I’d have the Prince logo.”

“The women deserve their own logo. You all do so much in the community making the world safer and better for all. You deserve your own.” Holy fuck she jumps on me and I’m hard. I kiss her knowing right where this leads and stand with her mouth still connected to mine. “Tell me you ate?” I ask pulling my mouth off hers.

“No.” She looks relieved. What the hell?

I set her down and pull her to the kitchen. “Once you’re in my bed I’m not letting you out. Let’s get you fed.” She doesn’t say a word as I watch her eat. I refill her wine glass and watch her drink. New is always scary so I’ll take this as nerves, but she looks scared to death. My heart is ready to beat out of my chest here. It’s been too long and adrenaline is running through me at warp speed. I clean up her plate and put her glass in the sink. She thanks me making me smile.

In the room she notices her bag. “It’s time to make you mine Lily.” I spin her toward me and look in her eyes.

She’s nervous but determined. “I’ve always been yours Little Ben.”

“Fuck, I like hearing that.” No matter who she’s been with she’s always been mine. I push that away not wanting to think of anyone else with hands on my Lily. I unbutton the front of the dress and push it off her shoulders. Oh my fuckin’ God. I stare not believing my eyes then look at hers. “Who did them?”

“Nancy. When the whores said Little Dude liked them I got them done.”

What? “Little Dude. You did this for him?” I’m going to kill him.

She’s surprised. “No! I thought that was you.” Her face pales.

I laugh. Jesus. That’s why she thought I was with the whores up there. “I was going to kill him, now I’ll buy him a drink. He’s a Brother in the MC. Fuckin’ beautiful babe.” Her hand goes to her stomach and I know she’s going to try to hide them. “I love them, you’re beautiful Lily.” I take her hand and step her out of the dress then put it over the chair. When I turn back she’s trying to pull her hand away from me. “No Lily, I’m not letting you go for a minute. I know first times are stressful for women and I don’t want you stressed. The best way to do that is with my hand on you somewhere.” She relaxes and gives me a nervous smile. I kiss her wanting her relaxed and pull away breathing heavy. I need to control myself before I lose it, so I move down her neck to her nipple with the gold bar. Fuck I’m glad she got it done. She’s moaning with her hands all over me then they move to my head and she holds me to her nipple. “Love that you know what you want and aren’t afraid to show me. Show me what you like babe.” I get an odd look. I move one of her hands to her other nipple and she squeezes making me moan. I suck her bar in hard and flick it with my tongue. She lifts her hips into me and I love the reaction so I do it again then move down, sliding her panties as I go. My heart is doing double time. Fuck! “You did this for me too?” She freezes and looks down at me. “You got a hood ring for me?” Her hand is covering her nipple and looks erotic as hell.

“I thought so.” Her voice is hoarse and I’m ready to explode.

I stand, lifting her, and lay her at the foot of the bed. I kiss her lips before I move down. “I love it all Lily. I would have had you get them, so I’m glad it’s done.” I flip the ends of the bars and move down her stomach. I want to kill everyone that got to see my girl’s jewelry. I wanted them done just for me. It’s enough to slow me down until I smell her scent. I lose it and she cries out as I rub the ring against her clit. Fuck. I make it good for her, loving my name coming out in that hoarse voice and slide my fingers in then freeze. She’s moving against me not paying attention. She’s a virgin. How the fuck can she be pierced and look like her and still be a virgin? She’s twenty-four! I put my thumb on the side of her clit and move the bar around while I think. She was nervous. Why wouldn’t she tell me? Dakota told me. Fuck, when will I listen to the Brother? I push it away and take her in my mouth again. When I move away, she grunts not happy. I smile kissing my way up. “Oh my Lily, we aren’t done babe. I want you ready to explode with me Lily. Are you on birth control?” She nods trying to get my mouth on her nipple moving her tit closer to me. I give her what she wants and she holds me there. She isn’t afraid to show me what she wants. “You like my mouth on your jewelry babe?”

She moans as I suck hard getting her hips lifting up to me. “Yes. It feels incredible.”

I kiss her nipple and move up kissing her neck and licking behind her ear. I bite and tug her lobe then devour her mouth. “I love your juice on my lips Lily and you’re not afraid to taste you on me. It’s sexy as fuck.” Her hips move up again. “Let’s get you the relief you’re looking for baby. Yeah?” My hair falls forming a tent around us and I move it to one side with a growl lifting up to tie it.

“Please. Relief with your hair down. It’s how I see it in my fantasies.” Her face turns red. My innocent girl with fantasies.

“Jesus. I don’t think I can get any harder than I am right now. Whatever you want Lily. Put your hands on your pussy and show me how your fantasies play out baby. You need to be wet for me to slide in so it’s good for you.” Since she’s dripping now I think we’re good, but I want to see. She keeps her eyes on mine while I undress. “Love to see your hands on you, babe. Make your pretty little pussy come Lily. Make it come for me while you watch me undress for you.” Her eyes rake down my body and I drop my pants. Her eyes snap back to mine and she’s gone.

Fuck that’s beautiful. My mouth is on her nipple and I fight to control myself. I move her up and bend her knees playing with her jewels until she’s grinding her hips into me. Kissing her lips, I pull away and look in her eyes. “Are you ready for me Lily?”

She looks nervous, but nods. “The barbell will feel good inside you. Your ring will work the outside so it will always be good. It’s in the perfect place.” She nods and I lift up and slide to her entrance. I watch her face and lift her knees opening them wide. She’s so fuckin’ wet I want to bury myself in her hard and fast. “My beautiful girl put your hands on your nipples and make yourself feel good for this.” She does and I put one foot down so I can slide my fingers over her ring. She moves for me getting me in deeper. “That’s it baby.” She moves more and I’m stopped. I move my fingers faster and bend to kiss her. “Squeeze them baby, squeeze those nipples hard and pull.” She’s off then cries out as I push through.