Authors: Neil Mcmahon
I
walked back to my car, feeling almost light-headed about what I'd learned from Denise. The motorcycle and the female riderâslim, smallish, with a leather jacket and silver helmetâwere a spot-on match for the ones I'd seen at Nick's yesterday.
And also for Lisa's eerie glimpse into the ether last night.
Is there a motorcycle involved? I think the person riding it is a woman
.
Denise had peeked in through a window at Nick's houseânow suspecting that he'd sent her away so he could tryst with another girlfriend. But the encounter didn't seem romantic. Instead, the woman, although attractive, had a cold edge, and this appeared to be strictly businessâshe gave Nick an envelope stuffed with cash, along with a bag of white powder that was obviously drugs.
“That's what I can't figure out,” Denise had said. “Why's she bringing him money
and
dope? You either buy it or sell it.”
Good question.
The woman was fair-skinned and in her midthirties; Denise wasn't able to see her hair, hidden by a do-rag bandanna she wore under her helmet. When it looked like she was about to leave, Denise slipped away. The coldness that she sensed in the other woman had her spooked, and considering that Denise was not exactly a Sunday school teacher, that was saying something.
That was the end of the story, and of the information I could get from her. She claimed that she hadn't seen or spoken with Nick since that night. She was angry about his making her leave, angrier that he didn't call to smooth things over, and nervous about what she'd seen. Then she'd heard about his accident and realized the same thing that Hap had, along with God knew who elseâNick's recent activities were likely to come under scrutiny. But unlike Hap, she couldn't afford to pick up and leave town; she was just hoping to stay under the radar.
The situation made for a strange dynamic between her and me. In one way I was an enemy, with the power to cause her serious griefâin another way, an ally, with my own reasons for wanting to quell the trouble. I couldn't overlook the fact that she'd helped set up the video of Ericaâeven if she didn't know the who or why of it, she knew it was slimy. But it was a safe guess that Denise hadn't had much in the way of life choices, had gotten too used to men pushing her aroundâwith Nick a prime exampleâand now she was getting older and doing what she could to get by. And tawdry though it all was, I got the odd sense that she really did care for him.
I didn't see any clear direction to go next. But the parking space I'd rented had a decent view of the beach and was even in the shade, so I decided to spend a few more minutes there trying to put things together. I rolled down the Cruiser's windows, got a notepad and pen, and started on a list of the major points that had turned up so far.
Nick's meltdown and his fall off the cliff. Was it a psychotic episode, or was there an outside cause? The dope he'd been doing was the first obvious possibility, and Dr. Shin at UCLA had found an additive she'd never seen before; she thought it was nanoparticles. Thousands of them would have gotten lodged in his brain via inhalation. But they weren't chemically active, and she didn't see how that would have affected his behavior; probably they'd just gotten in the mix somehow during the manufacturing process.
Nick had gotten a VoIP cell phone call just before he went completely berserk and attacked me, and quite a few similar calls during the previous days, many at odd times. I didn't see how those could have contributed directly to his breakdown, either, but maybe they had indirectly. I suspected that they figured into whatever scam he was running, and the calls might have been threats or some other tightening vise. But I had no idea what the scam was, and tracing the calls was next to impossible.
He was sitting on a lot of cash. It seemed likely that had comeâalong with the cocaineâfrom the woman on the motorcycle. She'd later returned and broken in, probably to try to recover it. But as Denise had pointed out, why had she delivered
both
drugs and money to him in the first place? There was no exchange of one for the otherâit was more like she was paying him for something, using both as forms of currency. But paying him for what?
The next couple of factors were, if anything, more puzzling still. Nick had arranged and paid for DNA paternity tests for three unknown individuals and hidden them carefully. Clearly, they were important to him.
Then there was the sex video of Erica, which I now knew for sure he'd also arranged. It was tough to believe that he was capable of doing that to his own sister, but I had to admit that he was. It would have required an elaborate setup and another chunk of cashâlike the DNA tests, this was important to himâwhich would have made sense if the object was blackmail. But while the phone call he'd made to her smacked of that, he hadn't demanded money or anything else tangibleâhe'd warned her not to interfere with something unspecified.
Finally, Nick had a scheme going with Hap Rasmussen. This might be unrelated, although the timing and the sudden about-face after their years of antagonism were suspectâespecially if Hap was in money trouble.
I sat there a couple of minutes longer, watching the Venice Beach show and pushing it all around in my head. Nick going berserk. Coke laced with nanoparticles. VoIP phone calls. A pile of cash. Paternity tests. Sleazy video of our sister. Hap. Christ, how could Hap and Erica both even fit into this? They were worlds apart, with no connection except the casual family acquaintance. What could the paternity tests have to do with either of them, or with any of the rest of it? And on and on.
Well, at least I had a better handle on what I didn't know.
Now I had to face the bitter task of bringing my mother up to speed. It was going to give another twist to her already ravaged heart. But if I tried to keep it from her, she'd find out anyway, and that would only make it worse. I decided to get it over with. I took out my phone and called her.
With her unerring maternal prescience, she put her finger right on a sore spot as soon as I said hello.
“I've been trying to get hold of Hap, but he doesn't answer,” she said. “I'm starting to get worriedâthinking maybe I should go check on him.”
“Stay put, Mom. I'm going to come over. I've got some news that figures in.”
W
hen I got to her house, she was sitting out on the porch with a pitcher of martinis that was a drink or two down. I didn't blame her a bit, and with any luck, it would help to cushion the blow. In fact, I'd have loved to join her, but I didn't feel I could afford to start letting down right now.
“What can I get you, dear?” she said.
“I'm okayâyou relax.” I sat across the table from her. She sipped her drink, with her eyebrows raised inquiringly.
Well?
“I lied to you,” I said. “This isn't just more of the same. I'd rather not tell you thisâI'd rather not know it myself.”
“That sounds ominous.”
“The reason Hap's not answering is that he flew to Indonesia yesterday.”
Her mouth opened in dismay. “He did
what
? Just like that, without saying anything?”
“I'm afraid he might have a good reason. Did he ever say anything to you about money problems?”
“Wellânothing in detail, but I did get that sense. He'd been borrowing from me, a few thousand here and there. But he made it sound like it was just to tide him over through a shortfall.”
I exhaled, then went ahead and laid it down.
“Nick was running some kind of money scam,” I said. “I don't know what, but not his usual nickel-dime stuff. I think it's big and uglyâand I've got a feeling Hap's in on it.”
If I ever had to invent a curse along the lines of,
May you live in interesting times,
it would go,
May you someday have to tell your mother what I just told mine
. She stared at me, then lowered her face into her hands. I got up and stepped over to her. But I was finding out that Audrey was made of sterner stuff than I'd realized. She came back up dry-eyed, even managing a shaky smile.
“I'm trying to decide which one of them to kill first,” she said.
I sagged a little with relief, then leaned down and kissed the top of her head.
“Take your pickâbut leave the other one for me, okay?” I sat again and filled her glass from the martini pitcher.
“How could that happen?” she said. “They loathe each other. They haven't talked in years.”
“They've been talking plenty these last few weeks. Nick called Erica, too, and lied to me about it.”
My mother took another measured sip of her drink. “All right, tell me the rest,” she said. “I know you've been trying to shield me, Tom, and it's sweet. Funny how that worksâwhen kids are young, it's the parents who do it. Then it turns the other way around. But now, âsweet' is off the table.”
I did, picking up the thread from the time I'd left here yesterday, gone to Nick's house, and found the drugs and cashâalong with the DNA paternity tests.
“I need to get an expert to look at them,” I said. “The only thing I could tell was that two of them seemed to have the same father, but the third was different.”
But then I paused. Audrey's face had started taking on a peculiar expression that wasn't worry or anger or puzzlement. It was more like slow, spreading shock.
“What
, Mom?” I said.
She turned her head to the side, gazing past me.
“I'm hearing the rattle of a skeleton,” she murmured.
Jesus weptâmy mother? The one person in all this whom I'd assumed was pristine?
“Okay, enough,” I said. “Time for
you
to come clean with
me
.”
She rose a little unsteadily to her feet. I got up again to brace her, but she waved me away.
“Just give me a minute.” She went to the porch railing, grasping it with both hands and leaning forward like an old-time sailor's wife on a widow's walk, watching the sea for his returning ship.
I stayed where I was, waiting.
“Things do catch up with us, don't they?” she said. “I always thought it would. But my God, what a bizarre way for it to happen.”
“Then it should fit right in with everything else,” I said.
“I'm getting there, hon. I'm not trying to be dramatic. It's just hard to say.” She shook her head almost dreamily. “I had an affair, Tom. After you and Nick were born. The two of you have the same father, just like you always thought. So does Erica. But not Paul.”
When that one hit home, my feet just about left the floor.
“I have to think that's what those tests are about,” my mother said. “Nick must have found out and wanted proof.” She was still standing there gripping the rail and looking forlorn. I recovered enough to step over to her and put my arm around her shoulders. She leaned her head against me gratefully.
“Who was the man?” I said.
She turned her face toward me, and I thought I saw in her eyes, along with the sorrow of all that this meant, a great relief at finally laying the burden down.
“That's what made this fall into place for me,” she said. “He's the only other person who ever knewâthe only one who could have told Nick. It was Hap, darling. Paul's real father is Hap.”
I
stayed with Audrey for another hour, coaxing the rest of the story out of her while she downed another couple of drinks. Now I
really
wanted to climb into the martini pitcher myself, but staying clear-minded was that much more important. Eventually, she started to wind down, and I convinced her that she needed to rest. I walked her inside, got her settled on a couch, and covered her with a blanket. Then I went back out into the sunlight and just stood there, soaking it up as if it could reach deep into me and brighten my heart.
Well, there it was, the key to the puzzleâa secret hidden in my mother's demure bosom all these years, that I'd grown up right beside and never had the faintest hint of. Now the pieces were snapping together with almost dizzying speedâand it was a grim little picture emerging.
The roots went back more than thirty years, to early in my parents' marriage. My father was a powerful man who believed that as long as he supported his family well, he had the right to a private life away from us, including other women. My mother knew but had no choice except to suffer it quietly or leave him. And with Nick and me to care for, both of us still tykes, that wasn't in the cards.
But the old man's infidelities made her feel justified in thinking about a private life of her ownâthere was an element of revenge, she admittedâand her eye started focusing on Hap. At first glance he seemed like an odd choice; but they'd been close, affectionate friends for years, he was gorgeous, and even his being gay added to the intrigue.
“It was a challenge,” she had told me. “I think a lot of women feel that draw at some pointâam I attractive enough to turn him around?”
Hap was willing to experiment, but no real chemistry ever developed, and the affair didn't last long. They managed to come out of it with their affection intact.
And with Paul on the way.
Audrey was still sleeping with my father through that time, and no one, including him, ever suspected that the child wasn't his. No one ever would haveâexcept Hap.
There was no telling yet how he and Nick had hooked up. I could envision a scenario where they'd run into each other by chance. Nick was always on the lookout for money, and he knew that Hap's hatred for him was really love-hate still smoldering under the bitterness. He'd homed in on that, thinking he could use it to bilk Hap. It turned out to be a bust because Hap was on thin ice himself. But it gave them a common interest, and the Crandall fortune, maddeningly close to them both, was an obvious target.
Somehow in the mix, Hap confessed the secret about Paul. That was when things turned ugly. My guess was that Hap was essentially a dupe, lured in by Nick's manipulation, with Nick using him like he used everyone else. Hap was implicated, no doubtâalready nervous and more so as things got more serious, and finally scared enough to leave town. It was almost more saddening than angering that he would sink so low, and right now he was probably feeling about as miserable as a human being could get.
But the driving force behind the scheme was Nick; it had his stamp all over it.
And what it came down to was blackmail.
Paul was illegitimate. If that became known, his claim to any inheritanceâany share or control of family assets, money, propertyâwould be in jeopardy or even entirely void. There'd be long and tangled court battles where the only winners were the lawyers, with spin-off litigation from business partners, relatives who felt that
they
now had a claim, and so on. Paul would be devastated financially, and almost worse, he'd lose the cachet he'd been riding on all his life, of being the scion of the Crandall family and fortune. All in all, he'd be shattered.
Nick had decided that this was his ticket back into the family moneyâto approach Paul and threaten to take him down unless Paul opened the coffers. Without doubt, Nick's rage at being thrown out of the Malibu house added a vicious edge, and I wondered if he'd demanded its return as part of the deal. It might be why he'd made that addled claim to me that he still lived there.
First, Nick made impressively careful preparations. He got the paternity tests done to prove Paul's illegitimacy. He'd easily have pilfered DNA samples from Dad, Paul, and meâa few strands of hair, one of the old man's sweat-soaked golf hats, even a licked envelope would do.
Of course Nick had intended for the dealings and the payoffs to be secret, but he was canny enough to realize that this might come to the family's attention. Paul would have to come up with a lot of money, and while he'd try to conceal it, he was not the sharpest knife in the drawer. Nick figured that if Audrey or I found outâenraged though we'd beâhe could handle us. We might make him back off, but we wouldn't take it public or send him to prison. To him, that was a risk worth taking.
But Erica was a different story. If she copped, she was guaranteed to go ballistic, and the whole thing would blow up with her. So Nick had set up the sleazy video and given her a warning. She didn't understand it, but she would have if push had come to shoveâcross him, and personal disaster for her was only a few clicks of a mouse away.
Then he'd made his pitch to Paul. It wasn't clear how far things had gone, but my guess was that Paul had caved and made at least one payment to Nick, the cash and drugs I'd found at his house.
Well, if I looked at it gimlet-eyed, I had to say that Nick's bad luck was the family's good luckâhis breakdown had saved us a lot of damage. I felt sorry as hell for Paul, although he was not the soul of sensitivity and his worries about losing money and status would outweigh any emotional shock. I recalled his stunned look of relief when I'd told him about Nick's amnesia, and now I understood that, too; he was off the hook, or at least so he thought.
The best course I could see from here was to clamp the lid on tight. Audrey would take the secret to her grave, and so would I. The last thing in the world Paul wanted was exposure, and the same was true of Hap. Erica had no inkling about any of it, and with luck, she never would.
As for Nick, I had no hesitations about how to handle himâtell him flat out that I knew what he'd done, and I knew he remembered a lot more about it than he was letting on, but he'd
better
fucking forget that it ever happened. If I ever heard another whisper about it or anything like it, I would personally turn him in to the police.
But there was still plenty to worry about, starting with the possibility that other people knew about this and might try to exploit it for their own profit. The female motorcycle rider, for instance. She might not know what the payment was for, but then again, she had to be someone Paul knew and trusted reasonably well, and he was a big talker, particularly when he was nervous. It seemed clear that she was at home with crime; besides the drug delivery angle, she'd pulled a B and E. Another troubling wrinkle was the thought that she might have been double-crossing Paulâthat she wasn't trying to recover the stuff for him, but he didn't even know about the break-in and she intended to keep it herself.
The other candidate at the top of that list was Paul's new squeeze, Cynthia Trask.
And as that thought crossed my mind, the connection came like a lightning flash.
The motorcycle babe
was
Cynthia Trask.
Everything fit to a Tâher relationship with Paul, her physical appearance, even the chill factor that Denise had described. That meant she damned well did know what was going onâand that brought me another sudden near certainty. When she'd ransacked Nick's house, she wasn't looking for the money and dope. At that time, only a few hours after his fall, it still looked like he might die or be seriously brain-damagedâand Cynthia wanted to destroy those paternity tests before somebody else might stumble across them. Then the threat to Paul would have disappeared.
For all the bad bullshit involved, I'd had a lot of luck, tooâNick's taking unusual care to hide the DNA charts, my thinking to look for them in the old desk, then finding the further links that helped me make sense of thisâand now I realized that in a backhanded way, here was another touch of it. If Cynthia got troublesome, I just might be able to cause her some trouble, too.
Before I left my mother's place, I went back inside to check on her. She looked like she was resting comfortably; she didn't open her eyes, but she must have heard me.
“I'm all rightâyou run along,” she murmured. “I know you have a lot on your mind.”
No argument there. But I felt that I was starting to close my fist on something besides thin air.
I'd had my cell phone turned off since I got here, not wanting any interruptions while she and I talked; as I walked to my car, I checked the voice mail.
There was only one message, and it stopped me cold.
“Dr. Crandall, this is Marilyn at UCLA Medical Center,” a woman's voice said, with a tone of controlled urgency. “Please contact us as soon as you can.”
I remembered Marilyn from yesterdayâone of the nurses in the ICU, a fiftyish woman with the generous face of a professional caregiver. I punched the callback number she left and got her on the phone.
“I'm very sorry to have to tell you this,” she said. “There's been a change in your brother's condition.”
I listened numbly to her brief explanation. Nick had suffered a cerebral aneurysm and had been rushed into emergency surgery. It seemed that his blood pressure had risen suddenly and sharply. There was no apparent reason for the spike, but it had burst a blood vessel possibly already weakened by his concussion.
I drove straight to the hospital, and events took another strange twist. Right away, I found Marilyn to get an update on Nick; she told me his condition was basically unchanged, and he was still in surgery.
Then she said, “This isn't directly related, Dr. Crandall, but I thought you might like to know. A detective came by this morning to talk to your brotherâa man named Drabyak. Nick was resting, so we asked him to come back later. He said he would, but he hasn't yet.”
At the moment, I was too worried about Nick to be more than vaguely surprised. But after I settled down some, with nothing to do but wait around, I decided to give Drabyak a call and find out what had sparked his renewed interest in Nick. I got his voice mail, left a message, and went back to waiting.
Within another two hours, Nick was physically stable again, but he was still in a coma. This time, nobody was offering assurances that he'd ever come out of it.
I didn't hear from Drabyak for the rest of that day. When I tried him again the next morning, I just got his voice mail again.
But early in the afternoon, I got a call from a woman named Susan Brownlee, an assistant to Mayor Sandoval. She was very polite, but I had the feeling she knew how not to be. She started off with the usual formalitiesâthe mayor sent his sympathy about Nick, and so on.
Then the conversation took an unsettling twist.
“Dr. Crandall, I should tell you that the detective you spoke with, Sergeant Drabyak, won't be available for a while,” she said. “He had a family emergency, and he had to take an unexpected leave of absence. If you have any questions for him, please call me directly, and I'll see to it that you get the help you need.”
Family emergency? That was a hell of a coincidence, and so was the timing. I couldn't help wondering if Drabyak had been shoved out of the picture by someone who had a lot of juiceâmaybe connected to those prominent people he was investigatingâand this was a way of letting me know it.
If I needed help, I wasn't going to be turning to my erstwhile pal Joaquin Sandoval or anyone else in those circles, that was for sure.