Kiss of Fire (12 page)

Night of the Living Vampire
turned out to be just as horrible and sucky as promised. It was full of teenage humor that mocked the vampire craze with a nice splattering of cheesy gore thrown in. Wyn and I sat on the long couch in her living room with a bowl of popcorn in between us, while Ilyan occupied the overstuffed lounge chair. He was trying very hard not to laugh at the stupid jokes and dirty humor, but every once in a while a laugh escaped anyway, which sent me into further pelts of laughter, while Wyn chose to glare at both of us.

I pulled my hands into Ryland’s bright blue hoodie that he had dropped off at school for me that morning and sank into the couch to watch the final fight scene of the movie. The lead vampire was running across a clearing after some girl he thought he was in love with; but instead, he decided she would make a better lunch. The whole thing was so over-the-top, it was ridiculous.

“Last minute, he decides not to eat her because he loves her, and they run away from the vampire horde together to live happily ever after.” Ilyan’s voice was bland, his accent rolling off his tongue.

“Ilyan!” Wyn shrieked, her hands going in the air. “You’re ruining it.”

“How am I ruining it? These things are so predictable. Besides, don’t you want them to end up together?”

“Well, yes. But, I wanted to discover that for myself!”

Ilyan just sighed at his little sister.

“Joclyn,” Wyn whined at me, “don’t you agree?”

“I’m sorry, Wyn, but it is pretty predictable.”

Wyn huffed, folded her arms and faced the television just as the vampire took the human girl in his arms and proclaimed his love for her. Wyn just pouted and huffed again.

“This should be romantic, but you guys totally ruined it for me.”

Ilyan and I laughed together, drowning out the vampire’s declaration of love. Wyn huffed more and rewound it so we had to sit through the whole ending over again.

“I’m going to go order some Chinese food,” Ilyan grumbled as he headed for the kitchen. Part of me was jealous he had an excuse to get away from the mush I had to endure.

Wyn had her hands clasped together as she leaned forward, her face glossed over. I sighed as the credits finally began to roll again, and Wyn leaned back with a tear-streaked face.

Oh, bother.

“Wasn’t that so beautiful?”

“Not really.”

She looked at me like I had skinned her cat.

“But, I don’t get into this stuff, Wyn,” I amended to make her feel a bit better.

“But it was funny, and scary and gory, and romantic. It had something for everyone!”

I chose not to reply to her; the whole movie was just silly.

“What kind of movies do you like then?” she asked in slight frustration.

“Sci-fi, super-hero, action and spy movies,” I rattled off, knowing full well I had just listed all of Ryland’s favorites. If she had asked me what my favorite video game was however, I could have spouted off half-a-dozen racing games that I knew I enjoyed on my own. Ryland didn’t like to lose.

“Super-heroes?” she said.

“Yes! They are brave and fight bad guys, and tend to look very nice,” I said, fighting the blush that was rising to my cheeks.

“A woman after my own heart,” Ilyan said as he fell back into his chair. “Which one is your favorite? I’m a Superman fan, personally.”

“Iron Man.”

“Really? I wouldn’t have pegged you for a Robert Downey, Junior fan, or is it the comic books you prefer.”

“Ugh. You don’t read comic books, do you?” Wyn grumbled, sounding disgusted, but a smile still managed to creep onto her face.

“No,” I said. Although Ryland had quite a collection, I had never touched them. “And, I don’t think it’s a Robert Downey, Junior thing. I think it’s just the fact that he takes something difficult and something that could destroy him, and makes it into something amazing.”

Ilyan looked at me with something akin to reverence, while Wyn stared me down with a knowing glance.

“It doesn’t have to define you, you know.”

I flushed at Wyn’s comment, looking from brother to sister in panic. She had promised she wouldn’t talk about the mark again. Luckily, Ilyan looked confused and had no idea what Wyn was referring to.

“Wyn,” I begged, my heart thudding, “please don’t.”

Wyn huffed and sat back on the couch.

“Do I even want to ask?” Ilyan said.

“No.” I buried my head in the sleeves of Ryland’s sweater. Thankfully, the doorbell rang and Ilyan left to get the Chinese food.

“Wyn,” I rounded on her the second Ilyan’s footsteps left the room, “please don’t bring this up. You promised.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” she said stubbornly, spinning her plastic bracelets.

“Kung pow beef, anyone?” Ilyan said, handing out white containers.

I opened my box of Mongolian Beef and dug in; it smelled and tasted so good.

Wyn kept switching from staring at me to eating her food. Ilyan looked between us before flipping on another movie. I laughed out loud when he turned on
Iron Man 2
. Ilyan winked at me before turning back to his food.

“Ugh, really, Ilyan? You’re going to make me sit through this?” Wyn whined.

“Well, we could talk, but you seemed quite content to be angry and stare off into space.”

Wyn glared at him and went back to her food.

“I apologize for my sister,” Ilyan began with an oddly regal air. “She can be quite stubborn at times.”

Wyn sighed deeper at him. I laughed at her; she seemed irritated by him, and that alone was quite entertaining.

“So, Ilyan. Where do you get your accent from?”

He raised an eyebrow at me in obvious confusion.

“Seeing as Wyn doesn’t have one... It’s just odd. That’s all.”

“Oh!” Ilyan chimed, realization dawning on his face. “I lived in Prague for quite a few years before our father died. I left so I could help raise my sister.” While he didn’t sound sad because of the situation, there was something else in his voice that made the entire thing sound practiced.

“Wow. Prague. That must have been amazing.”

Ilyan opened his mouth to respond, but Wyn’s sharp tongue cut him off. “Don’t let him fool you. It was all party-party, very little work.”

“Work?” I questioned. “You must be quite a bit older than Wyn to have lived and worked there.” I thought I had stated something obvious, but Wyn giggled like I had given a lead-in to some inside joke.

“Not really,” Wyn provided. “His mother still lives there. Our dad just got around a lot.”

“I was born in Prague in the 80s.”

“So, still too old for you,” Wyn taunted.

My head snapped to Ilyan who winked at me again.

“Oh! I didn’t mean it like that!” I said, embarrassment creeping into my face.

“Neither did I, Joclyn,” Ilyan said. “Don’t worry so much.”

I ducked back down to my Mongolian beef and tried to focus on the movie. Even though I had seen it a million times, it was still one of my favorites.

“You need to be nice to her, Ilyan; she’s my friend, and if you scare her away, I’ll never forgive you.”

“Fine, fine,” he said “Ne že by na tom záleželo, stejně bude za chvíli bydlet s námi.” The words fell off his tongue like diamonds and pearls. I looked over at him, taken by the beautiful sound. It seemed familiar in my ears, even though I had no idea what language it was.

“Ilyan,” Wyn pleaded.

Ilyan stood before walking down the hall to the bathroom.

“What language was that?”

“Czech; it’s his home language.”

“It’s beautiful,” I sighed. “Do you understand it?”

“Enough to understand when he’s being rude,” Wyn said.

I smiled and went back to the movie, sad that my food was almost gone. I would have to ask where they got this from; it was delicious.

Ilyan returned a moment later, and I excused myself to the bathroom. The sun had gone down all the way now, and the first stars were beginning to twinkle from behind the frosted glass in the bathroom window. I sat down and grabbed the cell phone next to me without thinking. It wasn’t until I opened it that I realized it wasn’t mine.

The phone flicked to a text conversation. The name “Wynifred” covered the top of the screen above the thought bubbles of the conversation.

I think we are wrong about him

What do you mean?

Well, he says he wants nothing to do

with it, but it’s more than that. He uses

kouzlo on her all the time to calm

her, help her, keep her safe. What

I thought was her is really him; it’s

the residual that he leaves behind to

help her.

Are you sure?

100%

Hovno, tohle se Ovailia nebude líbit

Don’t swear.

Respect, Wynifred

Sorry, My Lord.

I looked at the last bit of conversation; it just didn’t make sense.
My Lord
? And who were they talking about? The whole thing was too much like something out of a Bourne movie. Besides, they didn’t seem the types to be involved in some sort of role-playing game. I reluctantly looked away from the screen at a soft knock on the door.

“Joclyn,” Ilyan spoke through the bathroom door, “I left my phone in there. Can you bring it out with you please?”

“Uh... yeah...” I answered, washing my hands before opening the door to see him standing against the door frame. His long, blonde hair hung straight and sleek around his face, his blue eyes sparkling. I was once again hit with the familiarity of them, like I had seen that exact color somewhere else.

“Everything go okay in there?” he asked, hand outstretched.

“Gross, Ilyan,” I chided and placed the phone in his hand.

“Thanks.” He flipped the phone open to look at the screen before turning back to me with a smirk.

A smirk like that would usually excite me and send my stomach swooping, but then again, a smirk like that was usually accompanied by Ryland. Coming from Ilyan, it made me curious; I felt like I needed to get to know him better. I shook the thought from my mind.

Ilyan crossed his arms over his chest as he continued to stare into me. I couldn’t help but notice how nice his pastel dress shirt fit against him. He had a nice frame and the fabric clung to him in the right places. I could feel a blush rising to my cheeks, so I ducked my head to look at my shoes, unsurprised to see Ilyan sporting another pair of ripped, designer jeans. He must like the style.

“Do I need to leave you and your shoes alone?” Ilyan asked with a deep chuckle.

“No, I’m fine,” I retorted, my head snapping up to meet his gaze.

“Well then, are you ready to go home? It’s almost ten and I don’t want you to get in trouble with your mom.” He continued to lean against the door frame, trapping me in the bathroom.

“Yeah, I guess I better.”

“Good, I’ll go get my car,” he said before jogging down the hall.

“Your brother is odd,” I announced as I sat down beside Wyn.

“He’s an idiot; don’t let him fool you.” She continued to bird peck at her food, not looking at me.

“Hey, Wyn,” I ventured. I hoped this didn’t give my spying away. “What does kouzlo mean?”

Her head snapped up in alarm, and her food almost slipped out of her hand. So much for being discreet.

“Where did you hear that word?”

I exhaled. Probably better to lie, even though Ilyan would give me away eventually.

“Just something Ilyan said to me in the hall.”

She watched me, and I recognized the same look in her that I often had myself when I was talking about my dad. She was deciding how much of the truth to tell me.

“It’s Czech,” she said. “It means charm.”

I guess that made sense.
He was using his charm on her all the time
; it fit anyway.

“Oh, that makes sense.”

“What did he say to you?” Wyn asked, that same alarm lacing her voice.

“It’s nothing. It was just an odd word, so I was wondering what it meant…” That seemed to pacify her, so I left it at that. Still. I knew that face; it gave me the nagging sensation that she wasn’t being entirely truthful.

The sooner I got home and to a search engine, the better.

I had stayed up way too late last night trying to find the translation for “kouzlo” on the internet. The closest thing I found for a long time was “koza” which meant “goat”. Why someone would give someone a goat to protect them, I didn’t know. I finally found the translation I was looking for, and it did say that “kouzlo” meant “charm”, but I still felt like Wyn was keeping something from me. After all, why would she have that reaction to the word charm?

Due to my prolonged internet searching, I was nowhere near ready when my mom burst into my bedroom the next morning, fully dressed, breakfast in hand, ready for our full day of shopping. She set the breakfast down and danced out of the room, saying she would wait for me in the living room.

I ate my breakfast—Fruit Loops and toast—as I tried to wake up. I had finally gotten to sleep at three a.m., and now my mom had me up at ten. Seven hours should have been enough, but I still felt like I was dragging.

I set my breakfast on the kitchen counter across from the bathroom, as I made my way to a nice, warm shower. The hot water did the trick, and after a few minutes my body felt alive and energetic.

I dressed in my red, birthday shirt and my only pair of jeans that weren’t ripped before making my way to the mirror to figure out something to do with my hair. I slipped Ryland’s necklace over my head and slid it into its normal place under my shirt.

I was reaching for my hairbrush when my eyes fell on the bright, purple bead. It looked so innocent just lying there on my dresser. I stared at it as something clicked in my mind. Kouzlo. Hadn’t my father used that word in his letter?

I whipped around to look at the small wastebasket next to my dresser and cringed to see it empty, the letter long gone. My life was turning me into a lunatic. Crazy father, hopeless crushes, and bizarre foreign friends; no wonder I was losing it. I had made something out of nothing. I grabbed the bead and shoved it into my pocket before pulling my hair up in a half-ponytail, making sure to leave enough hair down to fall over my ears and cover the mark.

I blotted on some lip gloss, blush and a little bit too much eye shadow before leaving the bedroom and declaring myself ready. My mom turned off the TV and turned to face me. She brought her hand to her mouth, her eyes glossing over. Great, she was going to be crying all day.

“Mom,” I said. I already felt out of place, and I didn’t need to be cried over.

“Oh, honey,” she said, “you are so pretty.”

Her arms encompassed me in a big, motherly hug. I could feel her body shake just a little bit as she leaked out tears of joy. I returned the hug, my arms hanging awkwardly on her back.

“Thank you,” she whispered in my ear before pushing me away from her. “Forgive your blubbering mom, will you? I’m just a little bit excited to show off my beautiful daughter.” She smiled before grabbing my hand and dragging me out the door.

We drove straight to the biggest mall in the city and wandered first into one of the few main department stores, much to my disappointment; I always enjoyed the smaller boutiques more. She led me straight to the misses department and began loading me up with graphic t-shirts and peasant tops. It was then that I realized what this trip was. I had been trapped in Dress-Up-Your-Daughter Day. I groaned, but hoped that I could finagle at least one pair of jeans out of her.

After I came out in my first shirt, I began to wonder if my mom was going to be able to turn off the waterworks at all today. She gushed at me in a bright, blue t-shirt emblazoned with Hello Kitty in camo gear on the front. Not the shirt that would be one to induce tears. I ran back into the dressing room and ripped the shirt off. It was cute, but I would never forget her crying over Hello Kitty-Goes-Army.

“Mom,” I begged from behind the door, “you can’t cry over everything I put on, please?”

“I know,” her sniffles breaking her voice a bit. “It’s just… I have always waited for this day...”

“Mom…” I pleaded.

“I know. I’m sorry.”

I tried to ignore her as I picked out my next shirt. I could hear her rummaging through her purse in the search for tissues.

“Oh! I almost forgot; Ryland sent this for you.” Her hand appeared above the door, holding a small envelope.

I finished putting on an embellished tank top before reaching up to take the envelope from her. I ripped it open, trying to ignore the flip of my insides. A VISA gift card was inside with a small slip of heavy-weight paper rested against it. The paper that the card was attached to announced that there was an available balance of one thousand dollars. Leave it to Ry.

Please, ignore that this is a large amount of money.

I want to spoil you. Buy yourself a pair of pants (or two!) and at least one hoodie.

See you tonight ♥

I shouldn’t have smiled, but I did anyway; I couldn’t help it. As a result, I exited the dressing room grinning like a madman. My mom took that to mean that I liked the shirt, and I just let her think that. It was a nice shirt, and I wasn’t in the mood for a “stay away from Ryland” lecture.

I was pushed from dressing room to dressing room as my mom shoved shirts, pants and even skirts and dresses in my direction. I took it all in stride; what else could I do? She was so happy, and seeing her smile was addicting. I paid for most of our purchases with Ryland’s card, ignoring my mom’s prying to find out how much he had given me; probably the equivalent of a week’s salary, but I wasn’t going to tell her that. She would freak out.

We came out of the last store before our lunch break, laden with bags of shirts, dresses, skirts, pants and jewelry. I had purchased more pants than I had ever owned before. Mom made out with more than enough to compliment her stingy wardrobe, and I had even convinced her to buy shoes that didn’t have non-slip soles.

We sat down to food court pizza and soda, setting all the bags to the side of us.

“How’s school?” Mom barraged into her monthly question-and-answer session. One of the joys of having a mother who worked so often that I never saw her was every once in a while she would start in on the standard twenty questions. It drove me crazy.

“Fine,” I said.

“Did anyone say anything when you showed up without a sweater on?” She was eager, making me feel bad for deceiving her.

“Not really. I got looked at a bit more than usual, but nothing big.”

“Really?” she asked. “Any of them cute guys?”

“No, Mom. This isn’t a good thing. I don’t like being looked at; it makes me uncomfortable.” I wanted to shiver at the thought.

“Well, one thing at a time, I suppose. At least we got you out of those hoodies.” She smiled; I cringed at the thought of reminding her that the deal was up tonight. I let the thought fall.

“Sooo...”

Since this was going to keep going, I took another bite of pizza.

“Wyn’s brother, he’s quite the looker.”

“Ew, Mom!” I cringed. “He’s like ten years older than me or something.”

“Really? He didn’t look that old.”

“Some people are blessed with good genes, I suppose.”

“Hmmmm... Well, would it be considered cradle-robbing if I tried to hook up with him?” She grinned, so I knew she was kidding, but the thought still made me sick.

“Gross, Mom. I can’t believe you even said that.”

“Well, can you blame me? I am a tad bit lonely after all. I could use a—”

“Stop right there, Mom, please. Besides, I thought you were still in love with Dad.”

Her face changed, her joyous smile slipping away to make room for an odd scowl. She looked almost, I don’t know... mad.

“I am. And speaking of your father, why didn’t you tell me that he sent you a letter?”

My face paled and my pizza crust dropped down to my plate. The empty trash can suddenly made sense; my mother never did household chores.

“I didn’t want to upset you,” I whispered.

“Well, at least I now know why you had such a hard time with it. Magic and cults... I wish your grandparents would have told me. I wish
you
would have told me. Maybe we could have gotten him some help.”

“I know.”

“I just don’t know why you didn’t tell me,” she scolded again.

“I didn’t want to hurt you,” I explained.

“Ryland and I were so worried; I think we both could have helped you so much more if you had been honest.”

I had been more honest with Ryland than with her, but I wasn’t going to tell her that. I just nodded my head in agreement.

“That boy worries about you way too much. You should have heard him—”

“Mom,” I cut her off, “why are you and Ry all of a sudden the best of friends?” She looked at me like I was being unreasonable. I didn’t wait for her to reply; I just trudged on. “First, you tell me to stay away from him, and now you two are having heart-to-hearts in the kitchen.”

“Well, we wouldn’t be having heart-to-hearts in the kitchen if you hadn’t been avoiding him all week.” Her voice was calm and sweet, but her words still cut through me like a knife.

“You told me to!” I could feel myself getting hysterical. “You told me to go make other friends and start cutting Ryland out of my life.”

“I was wrong.” She spoke so softly I barely heard her.

“What?” I asked.

“I was wrong.”

My head spun; my heart stopped beating. Was she saying what I thought she was saying? I didn’t even dare to hope. My mind swirled in a steady beat of confusion.

“I don’t understand,” I admitted.

“It was something Ryland said the other day. I don’t know; it just made sense.” She paused and I waited. I watched her in eager anticipation as she chewed her pizza.

“Oh, come on, Mom,” I whined when I couldn’t wait anymore. “Explain, please.”

“Okay. He told me he has had to fight his father for everything he has ever wanted, and ever gotten. Nothing has ever been handed to him, with the exception of money, of course. But with all his fighting and bartering, he has never been happy. And he would give up everything just to be happy and live the way he wants to live. It made me realize how wrong I was to dictate your happiness. When I told you to stay away from Ryland, I had your best interest at heart, but I don’t think that staying away from him can make you happy.” She paused. “I was wrong for that; I apologize. Can you forgive me?”

I nodded.

“But what about Timothy and his threats?” I whispered.

“I just got spooked, Joclyn. He can’t do anything to me,” she said, leaning forward over the table like she was telling me a secret.

“I guess that’s right,” I said.

“Besides, if he does fire me, I won’t have any trouble finding a job. I’ve already received about four offers.” She laughed and I joined in, although I wasn’t laughing at her job hunting success; I laughed at my new opportunities.

I wasn’t sure if this made everything easier or more complicated, but right at that moment, I didn’t care. I could decide for myself. I could kiss him, he could kiss me, or I could tell him to stay away from me forever. My heart soared away in endless joy. I wanted to run into his arms right at that moment. I wanted every single body-crushing fantasy to come true. At the moment, though, we still had manicures to complete.

I don’t think I had talked to my mother so much in my whole life. I told her everything. With the odd permission I had just received, I didn’t need to hold anything back. I told her how I felt about Ryland and how he made me feel when I was near him. I sighed as I explained the look he always got when he thought about something difficult. I cringed as I retold the story of the first time I came in contact with Timothy, a story she had never heard before.

I didn’t have to lie. I didn’t have to hide. My mom listened and laughed and sighed in all the right places. And when my toenails and fingernails were painted a shocking shade of pink and hers a bright yellow, we both began to cry as I thanked her for giving me such a wonderful, entertaining life and for letting me be who I wanted to be. It was a little bit of an odd thing to say, but it felt right, and so I didn’t hold back.

Before I knew it, I had texted Ry to announce my arrival, and I sat in the car, waiting for him to make it out of the kitchen door in front of us. I couldn’t back out now; the time with Ryland had come—the time I had been half-dreading and half-anticipating. Now, with my mother’s blessing, I needed only anticipate. I didn’t even care about Edmund and his opinion. There was only one thing for me to work out: was it worth risking a relationship in the possibility of finding true love? As he stepped out of the kitchen door, dark curls hanging low on his smiling face, my answer was clear. Yes. Yes, it was.