Authors: John Donohue
breathless. The only reason I survived was because someone else
had kicked El Carnicero in the head, stunning him. We were
dragged apart. I stood bent over, lungs frozen in momentary
nerve paralysis. Then they gave a painful heave and I started
breathing again.
The people Steve Hasegawa had spotted now swarmed
over and subdued the members of TM-7. They moved with
smooth, brutal efficiency; Latinos in camouflage clothing
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wearing weapons, harnesses, and carrying machine pistols a
lot like Daley’s. They weren’t dressed like gang members. They
were young and fit and looked like soldiers.
A man pointed a stubby, black pistol at me. He had a
broad, impassive face and a heavy Mexican accent. “What is
your name?” he asked. He didn’t seem particularly interested
in hearing the answer, but I told him anyway. Another man
was rolling the stunned El Carnicero over, frisking him, and
making sure he had no other weapons. The man with the pistol
jerked his head. “And he?”
“He’s the one I told you about, Capitán,” Daley said, emerg-
ing from behind the adobe building. “El Carnicero.”
The broad-faced captain smiled. “Ah,
bueno.”
He looked
at me.
“
He doesn’t like your friend much, Daley.” Then he
reached behind him and pulled a thick manila envelope out
of his waistband. It looked about the right size to hold a thick
wad of money. He tossed it to Daley, who caught it with a grin.
Behind the Capitán, the men with the machine pistols were
making gang members kneel in the dirt. Some of the TM-7
people tried to put up a fight. That’s when the pistols staring
popping and the executions began. The sun was setting; the
weapons flashed in the dimming light.
“OK, I delivered them to you,” Daley said. It was as if the
shooting of young men not thirty feet from where we stood was
taking place somewhere else; he was completely disinterested.
“Now we boogie out of here. Me and Burke.”
The broad-faced man shook his head. “
Lo siento
, Daley. I
am afraid he knows too much.”
Daley’s eyes narrowed. “The deal was that we both walk.”
“Deals change,” the Capitán sighed. “If I were you, I would
go.” He began to raise his pistol toward me. As he did, Daley
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tossed a flash-bang grenade toward us. The man who was about
to kill me glanced at the thing rolling toward us for a split
second.
And at that exact moment, the scrub all around the perime-
ter rippled with noise and light and high velocity rounds began
slicing through the air.
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Scramble
Some kind of rocket or RPG arced in and blew up a Hum-
mer. The detonation made us stagger; the Capitán was already
squeezing the trigger of his gun and the shot went wild. Then
I heard him grunt, twisting under the sudden force of multiple
bullet wounds. I was already moving, and out of the corner
of my eye I noticed that El Carnicero was trying to scram-
ble away from the killing zone as well. I stumbled backwards,
momentarily incapable of doing anything but taking in the
chaotic scene. The smoking Hummer listed, broken backed
and pocked with bullet holes. There was someone inside, but
he wasn’t moving.
Xochi.
The Capitán’s men had been surprised, but they didn’t
panic. They scuttled into positions, setting up a defensive
perimeter with what cover they could get. They were well
armed and began returning fire. The surviving gang members,
on the other hand, were scrambling in every direction. The
meeting place was being lashed with gunfire. The trucks were
riddled with bullets, the dust jumped under their impact, and
the occasional ricochet zinged through the air.
I finally tore myself away, lurched toward the adobe build-
ing and dove through an empty window. Daley was already
on the floor there, his face smudged with dust and sweat. His
washed out eyes glowed an eerie blue, as if excitement was
providing some internal light. From outside, we heard muted
yells, shouted orders in Spanish, and the more piercing crack of
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weapons. Rounds punched in through the walls of the build-
ing, showering us with dust.
“We gotta move, Burke,” Daley grunted, jerking his head
toward the rear doorway. “Get to the arroyo, follow it west;
when it forks, take the north branch and hunker down in the
rocks up there. You with me?” He didn’t wait for a reply. “Let’s
go!” He cocked his machine pistol, slid across the floor, and
shot out the rear door. I hesitated for a moment, not sure that
this was what I needed to do. Bullets began gouging larger and
larger chunks out of the walls. Splinters of wood mixed in the
air with the dust and dirt. I took a deep breath and followed
Daley’s path out the back.
The arroyo was about five feet deep, a twisting gouge in
the earth lined with spindly brush and studded with rocks. I
glanced around. Twenty yards to my right, a few gang mem-
bers were hunkered down in the depression, sticking pistols up
and firing blindly in the directions where they thought targets
might be. They were cursing and sweating, loading their pis-
tols with frantic, jerky movements and simultaneously casting
about for an escape route. The firefight whipped all along the
clearing, with muzzle flashes and small explosions everywhere. I
glanced along the arroyo bed to the west, but Daley was already
out of sight.
I should have followed him. I didn’t know what was
going on, who was out there in the bush shooting at the
Capitán and his men, but I knew that if El Carnicero some-
how got away, he’d blame me for this ambush and hunt me
down later. I thought of
Los Gemenos
, of the toll already
taken on Sarah, and I knew I couldn’t let it happen again.
If El Carnicero was still alive, I had to get to him and make
sure he didn’t escape.
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It was a crazy idea; I was unarmed in the middle of a roiling
gunfight between three armed groups. And perhaps I should
have followed Daley’s lead and tried to escape myself. But you
don’t think very clearly when bullet rounds are ripping the
air all around you, when you can hear cries of pain and fear
and anger even through the din of battle. You’re running on
impulse and emotion, your mouth dry and your eyes wide. The
brain is scanning the environment for danger, not mapping out
possible actions three moves ahead.
At this point, it was all body think. I dragged myself over the
lip of the arroyo and wormed my way across the hard ground
and back into the killing zone. The few surviving TM-7 mem-
bers had scattered. They were isolated and ineffective, and like
the two in the arroyo, appeared to be focused mainly on escape.
The Capitán’s men, on the other hand, had taken some casu-
alties, but even with the loss of their leader they didn’t panic.
They were putting out rounds, seeking targets, and calling to
one another to coordinate fire and movement.
These were soldier’s skills. I realized with a chill that they
were the Alphas. It all fit: their jumping the meeting with
TM-7 and their animosity toward the gang, their interest in the
manuscript with its cross border trails, and their paramilitary
appearance. The hair on the nape of my neck rose. I was chilled
with the awareness of just how dangerous a place I was in.
I inched my way along the base of one of the building’s
walls, trying to get a glimpse of the last place where El Car-
nicero had lain. I tasted dirt and could smell the heat leaking
from the rocks as the day waned and the air cooled. The light
was fading and the air was filled with a blue mist, but I could
see that El Carnicero was gone. Someone spotted my move-
ment. I heard rounds impacting into the wall near me, and the
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little animal I had become scuttled behind the building and
back into the arroyo and relative safety.
I looked to my right. The two TM-7 members down the
gully were down, crumpled in the awkward stillness of the
dead. And leaning over them was the lean form of El Carnicero,
rifling the bodies in search of a weapon.
I went for him without thought or plan. My hands were
extended with the urge to break him. I was panting with the
effort of bringing all that I had to bear on the attack. The Japa-
nese speak of
kime
, a type of integrated focus that yokes intent
and capability, the will of the actor with bone and sinew and
muscle memory. But don’t be fooled; it’s an elegant fiction, far
removed from the reality of heat and impulse and blind fury of
the battlefield.
There was no
kime
here, or at least not something most
people would recognize as such—No elegance—No coordina-
tion—just a battered, dusty animal, eyes wild and bloodshot,
with every part of his body on fire to do violence.
Even so, it was hard to get much velocity up. The arroyo’s
floor was uneven and I was ducking the rounds that seemed to
be angling in from all directions. But I dug in as hard as I could
and set my legs pumping. I needed to get to him before he got
a pistol in his hand and spotted me.
El Carnicero turned at the last moment before I got within
striking distance. His eyes narrowed, the jaw line writhed, and
he raised a pistol, racking the slide, aiming it at me and pulling
the trigger, but the magazine was empty. He snarled in fury, but
it was too late. I was on him.
There’s a trick to generating maximum force for a hit, to
slam into another body at high speed: a coiling down of the
muscles that pulls your body together into a solid mass before
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the last, sudden surge into the target. Most people make the
mistake of anticipating the impact and unconsciously slowing
down. But to really hit someone like this, you’ve got to tighten
together and drive through.
I gave it my best, filling the strike with all the fury I felt for
him and what he had done to me, but mostly for Sarah. I heard
him grunt with the impact and he went down. But the footing
was bad and I lost my balance as well, lurching to my knees a
step beyond him on the arroyo floor.
The Butcher was tough, I’ll admit that. He was still clutch-
ing the pistol as he rolled upright. I spun toward him. His
brown hands reached out for me, desperate claws. He slammed
the weapon against the side of my head; pain and a ringing in
the ears, a spreading warmth that felt like I was bleeding. He
scrambled closer and dragged me up against one side of the
arroyo wall. There was no attempt to hit me, he was simply
driving with both hands to get me upright. I heard the crack of
a high velocity round go by my head.
He’s propping me up. Hoping someone out there will take a
shot at me.
And they did. I slammed down on his forearms and twisted
away to get below the lip of the gully where the bullets couldn’t
reach. He was on me in a flash.
We rolled and lurched around on the dry ground. Rocks
dug into my back. I was reaching for the soft tissue of his face,
hoping to get a strike in to the eyes. He grunted as he drove
repeated knee blows at me, trying for the groin, but I deflected
them. He ended up battering my thigh muscles instead.
Rectus
femoris. Vastus lateralis.
It’s odd the things that shoot in discon-
nected bursts through your mind when you’re fighting for your
life. I knew that these muscles were big and strong ones, but I
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also knew that they weren’t going to take this much pounding
indefinitely.
We jerked and slammed each other, searching for a point
of entry, a gap in defense—a place to land a killing blow. But
grappling doesn’t work that way. It’s more cunning than brute
force. It requires you to harness the fury into something that
could be fluid and patient, but ultimately more deadly in its
relentless search for an opening.
Maybe that’s what brought me back to myself—somewhat.
I hadn’t completely slipped the reins of years of training. Some-
thing about the fight was familiar, and even in the heat of the
struggle, I experienced a type of clarity and detachment, even
as I tried every trick I knew.
A good, experienced ground fighter will keep tight contact
with his opponent. The fight slips and morphs in a thousand
subtle ways. You need the broad tactile input of contact to
sense an opportunity, a shift in position or leverage that flashes
the potential for a counter. But El Carnicero didn’t know that.
He wasn’t a ground fighter, he was a butcher used to hacking