Juggling the Stars (23 page)

While he was waiting for her to come back, Morris folded Massimina's things over the top of his own. T-shirts two skirts, bras and pants. How on earth were you supposed to fold a bra? It was so curious being alongside someone who wore these different things. Who had a completely different inside from oneself. Could you imagine climbing into tiny pants like that, for example? The whole crotch part would feel totally different. Perhaps it would be fun one day to try out each other's clothes just to see how … Damn, the girl was taking forever. Morris suddenly zipped the case shut and looked quickly around the room. He had to hurry. He had to get out. Not sit here fiddling.

All set. He carried the cases downstairs, surprised to find how powerless and exhausted he felt. On the second landing he had to stop for a breather. He really was ill still, damn it. Which seemed a justification for everything.

‘Buon giorno, Signor Duckworth, buon giorno, come va?'

Not so loud with the name., Morris thought. Two or three people were lounging in the tiny little lobby-cum-sitting room where Signora Ligozzi did business with her guests. The room smelt surprisingly of French cigarettes this morning. Morris smiled a wan, convalescent's smile and said
buon giomo
. Where was Massimina? Yes, perhaps he should stay just a day longer but he wanted to go to the sea and get some fresh air. He kissed the old woman on both cheeks and thanked her warmly for her kindness.

'Your young lady is just writing down her address for me so we can all keep in touch.'

‘Good,' Morris gasped, turning abruptly to see Massimina standing at the makeshift reception desk, scribbling.

'It's under T,' she said, ‘for Trevisan. I've put the phone number too.'

Signora Ligozzi barely looked at the thing and slipped the slim red address book high up on a shelf behind the desk,
‘Grazie mille
. If I go to England I'll let you know so that I can bring you something back if you like.'

‘Bene, bene. Grazie infinite.'

He had to get that book! Had to. It was one thing having his own name down in the register and quite another having hers there in the address book. Her surname. Because it would be her name in the paper after all at the end of the day, not his. (And why in God's name did they have to leave addresses like that when neither of them really had the slightest damn intention of ever seeing the other again? Rome was four hundred miles from Verona.)

Out in the street he said, ‘Mimi, let's buy her some flowers. She's been so nice.'

Massimina thought it was a good idea. She wouldn't spend money on the rapido of course but she was willing to throw it away like this without a second thought so long as she could feel generous. They found a florist's on Via 24 Maggio. Morris didn't know anything about choosing flowers, he said, so he'd leave her to it while he popped a little further down the street for a paper.

It was a small newsagent's without an
Arena
, but the ‘Cronaca' section on page four of
La Mattina
had a report on the Rimini case. Morris drew his breath. There was an identikit picture the spitting image of himself. He leaned against a traffic light and read, the paper trembling in his hands.

… Signor Alfredo Todeschini, owner of a pensione in Via Fama, admitted that he had let the couple have a room for three nights without seeing any documents or even putting a name on the register. The couple seemed very happy he said, as if they were running away from home and wanted to keep themselves to themselves. The blond man had a marked foreign accent, but Signor Todeschini was unable to say where from. In the couple's room police have found a number of prints which correspond to those found on the door of the victims' room. The motive of the atrociously violent attack remains obscure, though police feel fairly certain that they must be dealing with some kind of maniac, or at least a mentally unstable criminal. All border points have been alerted under the assumption that the murderer may be a foreign tourist who will soon try to return home. Interpol has been asked to co-operate by providing information on similar unsolved crimes in other countries. Police said they would be considering bringing charges against Signor Todeschini and other hotel owners who failed to register guests.

Marked accent, my arse, he hadn't even managed to identify the country. ‘Atrociously violent' was another newspaper cliché. What other kind of attack did they want? A rather gentle murder was committed today …

Morris gazed at the identikit. They had missed something about the eyes, and the bridge of the nose was too narrow. But all in all it was pretty good. He could grow a beard of course, but that was exactly what they would be expecting, a week's scrub of a beard would give him away immediately. (And if Signor Amintore Cartuccio of Gucci's saw the picture, if he read about the blond hair and the accent. What then?)

Massimina returned with a spray of roses, which seemed inappropriate to Morris, though he didn't venture an opinion. They sat for a while over cappuccinos at a small café in Via Mazzarino and Massimina said if he felt so ill perhaps they should just get the train back to Verona right away where he could be in his own flat and see the doctor and so on and …

But he hadn't even said anything, Morris protested. He hadn't said he felt ill. But he looked so pale, she said, and seemed so listless and down that …

He wasn't going back to Verona untill after they were married, Morris said firmly, otherwise her mother would find some way of ruining it all. Massimina was solemn. After paying the bill at the pensione, she said, they only had two hundred thousand lire left which meant …

But they wouldn't have to spend anything once they got to Sardinia; Morris struggled to stay patient - why the hell did she have to bother him with this crap now?

So why didn't they go directly to Sardinia today?

Because Morris felt too weak to travel a long distance today.

(Just hold on one more day and the jackpot was his.)

He kept them sitting at the café untill nearly eleven before going back to the pensione. Signora Ligozzi should have started cleaning the rooms upstairs by now. She had. Morris stayed in the lobby and sent Massimina up to look for her with thef lowers. He glanced round quickly at the shadowy space where just one or two tourists lounged in ancient armchairs with their guidebooks and foreign papers open on their laps. He reached up above the desk, took down the address book, found 'T', released the spring mechanism that held the pages, removed the page, folded it in his pocket snapped the spring home again and put the book back. But then he changed his mind. He took the book down again, found a spare page in the back., inserted it in the T' section and wrote, ‘Massimina T …. Think of another name that began with T', an Italian name. But he couldn't, damn it. He didn't seem to know any other Italian names that began with T. Tibaldo, Tramonto, Toloncino, but he was inventing. Who knew if they were really names or not? Oh God. Untill something came back to him from the newspaper. Todeschini, the man with the pensione. Massimina Todeschini, and he scribbled a false address and phone number.

‘Morri, Signora Ligozzi's out for a minute.' Massimina was at the bottom of the stairs with the retarded daughter who was twisting her mouth awfully to speak.

‘Out?' (To phone the police?)

'Yes.'

But she had a phone here. She wouldn't have gone out.

‘What are you doing?”

‘I just wanted to check you'd put the Verona code with your phone number, you know how much bother it is looking for things like that.' And he slipped the book back. They left the. roses on the desk with a message and set off for the station.

Massimina thought perhaps instead of going to the beach Morris should go to the
Questura
and sort out his documents for when they could get married; but Morris pointed out that the
Questura
in Rome would be much more of a crush than some quiet country place in Sardinia and anyway it always took a few days to get any document from the Italian bureaucracy and so if they weren't going to be here after tomorrow it wasn't worth it. And this was true.

‘You're sure you want to get married, Morri?' She wasn't so much suspicious as simply after another of those lovey dovey moments again, like when they'd looked in the mirror together.

Yes, he told her and kissed her forehead. He really did.

If only it were that easy.

‘You're a real nut for newspapers,' she said on the train out to the Lido as he scrutinized the
Arena
he'd managed to pick up in the huge station newsagent's. There was nothing about the ransom letter. Which was as it should be this time.

‘l like to feel I'm part of things,' he said and he read her an article about town council proposals to put a plastic cover over Verona's huge Roman amphitheatre, an idea which made good old traditional Massimina quite indignant.

The beach at Lido di Roma is vast and on this particular day the sea was blue and the weather kind. Morris and Massimina hired a sunshade in the third row and Morris lay down and closed his eyes while Massimina read from
I Promessi Sposi
.

Morris listened only intermittently and it occurred to him that when he had a bit more time to relax and do as he pleased he might actually write a rather better book with the same title where the hero out of penury and desperation kidnaps a girl but then falls in love with her and she with him and they decide he must give himself up and they will marry. But the police of course insist on putting the lad away for most of his life and the two can only see each other once a month across the grille of the prison visiting room and she dies of a broken heart while he wastes hopelessly away.

This was such a subtle little plot, he thought, and so amusing that he began to laugh out loud and when Massimina asked why, he told her the story (why not?) and she said yes, it was terrific, it would make a marvellous book or even film and she'd always thought just from the way he spoke and from the letters he wrote that Morris would make a marvellous writer. They laughed together under the sunshade. Only it would be better, maybe, she said, if during the actual kidnap, at the beginning, something goes wrong and he goes and kills somebody by accident. The girl falls in love with him and she makes a terrific effort to forgive him and to understand about him being poor and so on, but the crime destroys any hopes they have for the future.

Morris sat up, trembling.
She didn't know. She couldn't
.

‘Good idea,' he said, clearing his throat to hide a broken voice. ‘So what happens?'

‘At the end?' She was sprawled in the deckchair in her green and white costume. She looked so much more adult recently. Morris noticed how the elastic sank ever so slightly into the flesh around the top of her legs.

‘Well,' she puckered her lips to think, all her freckles smiling, 'the girl says for him, the kidnapper, to go and collect the ransom and run away and then she'll go to the police as if she'd just been released and say she was blindfolded all along and didn't know who the kidnapper was and then when everything's safe they can meet normally and marry. But he, the boy, is overcome with remorse. He says he isn't worthy of her, refuses that way out, confesses to the police and is condemned to death and executed.'

'They don't have the death penalty here,' Morris told her quickly. Did they? No. He was sure they didn't. You would have heard about executions every now and then. And they hadn't executed the terrorists, had they?

'Pity,' she laughed. Oh God, she was really enjoying herself. ‘But you can always set the story in some country where they do.'

‘You cruel thing,' Morris said and lay down again. The sun on his closed eyelids burnt deep reds and blues.

‘I'd love it if you became a writer, Morrr. I'd be so proud.'

‘It doesn't pay,' he said.

All afternoon he watched the vast sea of lesh shifting across the beach, padding off for their ice-creams, or for a swim, or to the loo. There were slender girls and bulky old women and young boys running everywhere kicking up sand and waddling their plump little bums. How could you say life wasn't expendable! If a hand reached down from the sky now and removed someone from the beach? The lad scratching his mosquito bite, for example. Who could possibly care? (Had anybody, bar himself, really and truly wept for his mother? Did anyone remember her? Did he really remember her himself, or was it just part of his own life, a feeling, an atmosphere he remembered?) And when you thought of Asia! BBC documentaries of streets in Calcutta, a solid wall of dark skin, unimaginably thick with bodies, shifting and squirming like maggots in a fisherman's bait box. Life, Morris thought, was like being in a burning cinema. You had to get well out of the crowd and the crush or you were dead.

'If we really want to save a bit of money,' he said towards six in the evening, ‘why don't we sleep on the beach?'

And that was what they did. Ate in a restaurant, ham and mushroom pizza, then strolled through the town till late quite happily (truly) arm in arm and finally down to the beach at nearly midnight to stretch out their towels hidden between the deserted sunshades and try to sleep. Which saved registering at any more hotels, showing passports.

‘I wonder what Mamma and Grandma are doing now?' Massimina whispered. She held his hand and squeezed it lightly from time to time. Heat lightning flickered out at sea. ‘I was thinking today, maybe we should just go back now and have done with it. To Verona. I mean, I don't think they could do anything now. Not when they've seen how close we are and how happy together.'

'If you really want,' Morris said.

‘I just don't want them to worry too much.'

He laughed indulgently. ‘Why should they worry after all the letters and postcards we've sent? They can't have had so much post in years.'