Inner Guidance (17 page)

So for this spiritual exercise, I focused on the pictures of these four ECK Masters: Paul Twitchell, with his blue eyes; Gopal Das, with long blond hair; Rebazar Tarzs, with swarthy skin and a maroon robe; and Lai Tsi, an Asian gentleman with a long white beard.

Contemplating their faces sweetly just before I fell asleep, I whispered a request for their help, guidance, Inner Guidance_CH 11-15.p65

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and assistance. I also sang HU softly to myself as I dozed off, remembering that this word, HU, is a name for God that can be used to help spiritualize the consciousness.

In this state, I drifted off to sleep.

I did this exercise night after night, and on the third night I had the dream. It was so real, it was as if I were wide awake. It was as compelling and concrete as any scene in everyday life—yet even more spectacular.

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y friend disappeared as quickly as he’d arrived. I stood alone with the two Masters, looking at the faces of both Rebazar and Paul. They appeared powerful yet eternally patient. “What is it that you wish?” Rebazar urged again.

It felt like the rest of my lifetime on this earth was suddenly at stake. In this ECK Master’s question, I sensed a grave impression of urgency, magnitude, and consequence. Goodness! This meeting was no simple occurrence. I suddenly understood inwardly that this was a crossroads, a turning point that would determine the tide of everything to come.

Although I was not sick, requesting a healing seemed to be the only thing I could think of. With a weak smile, I mumbled, “I want a healing, please.”

There was a moment of silence. Then Rebazar encouraged me to continue. “Go on,” he instructed kindly.

Having just given birth, I did need help in regaining my strength and getting healthy again. Reflecting on that, a healing now sounded like a reasonable idea that could have long-range benefit. Encouraged to say more, I tried to be a bit more specific
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“I want a healing of my physical body, my strength and energy.”

Rebazar smiled. “Go on.”

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for reflection. I felt like I was being asked to redesign my life right there and then! The two ECK Masters were standing quietly, looking at me, waiting.

I boldly replied, “I would like a healing of my body, my health, my career, my home, my finances . . . and my closet.” I added the last item feebly, with a bit of a giggle.

New clothes might seem like a trivial concern, but to me they were important after having just delivered a baby. I waited to see if I had offended Rebazar or Paul by adding so many specifics, including my desire for a new wardrobe.

Rebazar looked at me with gentle amusement,

nodded again, and repeated, “Go on.”

Panic began to set in. I had no idea what I was supposed to say now. I took a brief moment to reflect and then realized that certainly the biggest issue in my life was one I was hesitant to even examine: my shaky marriage. I wanted more than anything to give my child a wonderful family.

“I would like a healing of my heart, my home, and my family.”

Again Rebazar nodded, smiled sweetly, and said,

“Go on.”

What? Hadn’t I thought of everything? Surely I had asked for what I wanted and needed. I wondered if I had missed something that Rebazar could see in my heart.

Maybe all of this was too trivial. I would have to be even more creative. It was like a quiz where all the possibilities of the universe were open to me but only the exact right answers would do.

Realizing I needed to take a step up, I opened myself to greater inner guidance right there in the dream.

Suddenly, it came to me. Out of the blue, I understood that I really did have all the possibilities of the universe open to me. I just had to raise my consciousness to the Inner Guidance_CH 11-15.p65

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level of acceptance to which I was being guided. Now I knew what to ask.

“I want a healing of my entire life—past, present, and future—on every level, including the physical, emotional, mental, karmic, and spiritual,” I said.

Rebazar nodded enthusiastically, as if I had finally caught on.

Yet there was more. I detected the slightest trace of amusement as he nodded and said once more, “Go on.”

I laughed. Apparently, they were going to work with me until I truly learned this lesson. Such patience! I hoped to be up to the task.

Even as I stood there in the dream, I suddenly felt a surge of energy flowing through me, a feeling I recognized from my spiritual exercises as an increased flow of Divine Spirit, or the ECK. Again, I was filled with the certainty that this was a significant meeting that would help me in every possible way and in every area of my life.

Gratitude flooded my heart. “I ask for love,” I said quietly, “and peace, happiness, freedom, wisdom, and health. I ask to serve in the greatest way possible, and I ask for all things that are for my greatest good and the greatest good of all. I ask for the fulfillment of my highest possible destiny in this lifetime and for all the guidance, protection, and direction I will need to guar-antee that fulfillment. I ask for all this.”

Not a beat passed between my latest enormous request and his response: “Go on.”

Was there anything left to say? Hadn’t I proven my willingness to open my heart to the guidance and blessings of God? Apparently I needed a little more help with my inner guidance in this extraordinary experience!

With these great ECK Masters gazing intently at me, I had to stop and contemplate what to do or say next.

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As I did so, diving deeper within myself for the answer, I realized a profound truth. This awareness finally began to seep into my entire being. The answer was this: I couldn’t possibly know everything I might truly need or want, but the ECK Masters knew.

Harold Klemp teaches that these spiritual travelers are able to see a higher picture of our greatest potential as Soul, in this lifetime or any other. They can guide us to our highest destiny, if we are open.

Rebazar knew my heart. He knew me better than I knew myself! He knew exactly what it was that I couldn’t fully comprehend—and he was here to help me achieve it, if I would ask.

“If there is anything which I have forgotten that is for my greatest good, anything of which you are aware that I am not, I ask for that too. I ask for your help.

Please.” I added, “Take and make the most of me. I ask you to work with me at any time—past, present, and future—in whatever way is best, whether I am aware of what I need or not. I surrender to your guidance.”

Feelings of peace and exhilaration enveloped me like a cloak as I uttered my final words.

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t was a moment of true humility and surrender, signifying my willingness to yield to Divine Spirit’s greater awareness and wisdom, to stop denying myself and assessing life from a limited viewpoint. It was a lesson I needed to learn from several different angles, yet this was an open door, and I was going through.

At last, a look passed between Rebazar and Paul.

They both nodded and smiled at each other. Their work with me was complete. Then, bending at the waist, Rebazar bowed in my direction responding with great dignity, “And so it shall be.”

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Paul nodded at me, smiling with a twinkle in those sapphire eyes of his. I stood quietly and watched them walk away into a swirling mist.

To surrender to my own greatest good and experience unconditional love in return from these two ECK

Masters was a definitive experience in inner guidance for me. I knew I would receive all the blessings I had requested, and all life would change for the better.

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Taking the Next Step in

Spiritual Unfoldment:

Inner Guidance

and Karmic Release

The path of ECK is an adventurous one. Everything that is given to you is given because you
are able to handle it. No matter what comes up
in your life, you have enough inner strength or
the Master wouldn’t have given you that next step
in your spiritual unfoldment.

—Harold Klemp

How to Find God
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W
e are each a unique spark of God, as Soul.

The ECK Masters know this, and they gently

guide us toward ever higher realizations of

ourselves as spiritual beings. Sometimes, to get to the next step in spiritual unfoldment, we have to go through challenging doorways. We have to let go of something that’s holding us back.

After nine years of teaching, my inner guidance had been nudging me toward change. This was a surprise.

I loved teaching, but the inner guidance was persistent.

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I decided to leave my current position at the end of the year and take a much-needed break.

My marriage to Jon had since dissolved, and I would be spending the summer vacation on Hilton Head Island at my mother’s home. My daughter, Sarah, and I would enjoy a long holiday on the beach.

Vacation was bliss. Weeks slipped by. I had intended to spend some time during my break looking for a new teaching position, but July passed and much of August too, and I realized there might not be a position available this late in the summer. For many schools, classes had already started. I had enjoyed the holiday so much that I had not even noticed the passage of time and my dwindling resources.

One day in late August, I sat down to ask for inner guidance on the next step. I closed my eyes, took a few deep breaths, and relaxed into a spiritual exercise. As the sound of HU resonated through me, I let go of my fear and worry. I imagined myself conversing with the Inner Master, and I posed several questions inwardly.

If I were going to continue my teaching career, where would I find work at this late date? Should I stay on this little idyllic island and try to fit into a small school here?

Or should I try to find another job entirely?

“HU-U-U-U,” I sang quietly on each outgoing breath.

Only a few minutes into this process, the doorbell rang. I considered ignoring it to continue my spiritual exercise, but the bell at the front door rang urgently, again and again. This was odd; no one used that entrance to my mother’s home.

I went to answer the door. A uniformed man stood there, smiling broadly.

He asked my name and then said he was really glad to find me. With a sigh of relief, he laughingly mentioned that I was a difficult person to track down. He had a Inner Guidance_CH 11-15.p65

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telegram for me! I’d never received a telegram in my life.

It was from a professor in the Department of Education at Indiana University. Because of my interests and specific academic qualifications, he was recommend-ing me for an administrative and teaching position at a high school near Cincinnati, Ohio. The director of that school program had resigned, for personal reasons, just a few days after classes had started, and they needed a replacement.

Responding immediately to this opportunity, I called to accept the offer. The principal agreed to employ me at the high end of the salary range, plus pay me a bonus for agreeing to take over the program at the last minute.

I would have to pack without delay. Marveling at my good fortune, and at how quickly my inner questions had been answered, I thanked the Mahanta for everything.

What a miraculous event! I took a moment to sit down and sing HU. Joyfully, I expressed my gratitude.

My quandary was solved, my future was secure, and I was off on a new and exciting adventure.

Mom waved good-bye as Sarah and I boarded a

plane the next morning. In fewer than twenty-four hours, our lives had been perfectly rearranged. The new position was at a large and innovative public school. It was my tenth year of teaching, and I would be in charge of the new program and would also teach—a perfect career combination for me.

But soon I would learn that something was changing. A karmic release was happening, and it would be my last year in teaching. It was just as my inner guidance had said, ten years before.

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n my first day at the new school, an imposing and eye-catching sign featuring the name of the pro-Inner Guidance_CH 11-15.p65

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gram was just being hung above the school door. As this sign was slowly hoisted into position by a small crane, it temporarily swung upside down. I looked at it curiously, leaning my head to one side, trying to read it. No one had actually mentioned the name of the program I was now administering, so I wanted to see what the sign said. There were only four letters: N-O-V-A.

That was the name of this new alternative high-school program. NOVA, a luminous star! I liked that image, and I called out to the crane operator, “That’s a great name!”

Then the sign dropped slightly and was hoisted again. It swayed this way and that while I stared at it, mesmerized. Suddenly, my heart sank. Looking at the sign upside down and backward, as the crane operator tried to rebalance it, I read the name quite differently now: Avon.

Avon is Nova spelled backward, an anadrome. How remarkable! Avon was the name of the school where I held my very
first
teaching position. Suddenly it seemed as if my life had come full circle. Here I was at the beginning of my tenth year of teaching, remembering the inner guidance I had received years before: