In Cold Pursuit (44 page)

The sound of a footfall jerked her from the sweetness of the moment.

Dan Lindemann entered the tent. He dug through the litter of snacks that had been left out on the dining table and selected a Pecan Sandie cookie. Watching her with brooding interest, he shoved it into his mouth in two bites and chewed. Still staring, he unscrewed the cap on an insulated water bottle and emptied half of it down his throat in one long guzzle, behavior that might have struck her as grotesque in the real world. Food and drink was not a social matter in Antarctica; it was requisite, a job to get done, and if it felt or tasted good going down, that was a bonus. Dan swallowed the last of the cookie he had ingested. Still staring, he addressed her with an abrupt, “Why are you here?”

“I need to talk to you,” she replied.

“Well, at least you’re honest.”

“I trust I can expect the same from you.”

He shook his head as if to clear it. “This is about Emmett.”

“Yes, it is.”

“Hell.”

Valena waited, occupying the time by crumbling the mass of frozen vegetables into separate bits.

Dan reached past her to grab a ladle and dipped some hot water from the melting pot into his water bottle, then took another swig. “I hear they arrested his ass.”

“In fact, they arrested his whole body, ass and all.”

“Huh.”

“They took him to Hawaii. He’s been arraigned, or whatever they call it when you get charged with something.”

“What was the charge?”

“Murder.”

“No shit.”

“None whatsoever.”

“Huh.”

She waited.

“Murder one or two?” he asked. “Or is it three? You know, manslaughter. Kind of an accident.”

“I don’t know. NSF is keeping a lid on things, but I suppose by the time I get back to McMurdo the
New York Financial News
will have it on its front page.”

Dan fumbled another two cookies out of the bag and wolfed them down. He stared out the doorway. He chewed. He swallowed. “So why are you
here?”

“Like I said, to talk to you about it.”

“Why?”

“To clear him. I need your help.” Valena was beginning to feel annoyed.

“He got himself into this. I sure can’t help him.”

Valena detected evasion in his voice. Or was it outright deceit? “Don’t you even
want
to help him?”

“No. In fact, I am not the least bit interested.” He spoke decisively, and with heat.

Valena silently counted to ten, then said, “You know, I’m having a hard time featuring this. The man was your thesis advisor. He gave you the break of a lifetime bringing you down here, and that’s the best you can do? Not even, ‘Wow, the poor guy,’ or, ‘I wish I could help but I’m brain dead?’”

“You weren’t
there,”
he said. “And yeah, I got my master’s with the guy, but it was supposed to be a PhD, you know? He gets his ass in a crack with these guys and it costs me an extra
year to get through graduate school. A man could starve to death. You know?”

Valena fought to keep her voice steady. “I’m still not clear on this. Why did you have to leave? And why was it going to take an extra year?”

Dan Lindemann’s voice rose and cracked. “When that business with the newspaper article hit, it was one big shit-storm. It was all he had on his mind for weeks. Then he had the US Senate dragging his butt into chambers and cutting him to bits. I was doing all the work. Me and Bob. We were running all the lab analyses and even beginning to write the papers.”

“Isn’t that what graduate students do?”

Dan bared his teeth in frustration. “We hardly ever saw him! He was either flying back and forth to Washington to testify, or he was in his office with his door shut. Or God knows where. Bob finally pulled the ripcord. He would have stayed, but no, there was no funding all of a sudden for a postdoc, let alone an actual research associate. Jeez, Valena, don’t you get it? He’s down to running his research on cheap labor! It’s grad students or nothing!”

“I can’t believe this.”

“You don’t want to believe it. Why, have you had a different experience? How many times have you actually had five minutes of Emmett’s time? I’ll bet he had Taha tell you what you needed for coming to Antarctica, and Taha’s never even been here! Just look at you, you’re wearing FDX boots! He didn’t even take enough care to tell you to bring boots you can actually walk in!”

Valena tried to focus on the vegetables. Doggedly, she said, “I came here to talk to you because I’m trying to get a handle on what actually happened last year at the high camp.”

Dan grabbed two more cookies, said, “I’m not even going to talk about that,” and abruptly exited the tent.

D
INNER WAS A SILENT AFFAIR, AS MUCH BECAUSE EVERY
-one was exhausted from a day’s physical efforts at 4,200 feet above sea level on a glacier as because there was nothing to
talk about. All sat about the table in their parkas and fleece hats, eyelids sagging from the week’s work. Naomi Bosch made small talk for a while and then slipped into some puzzle she was working out in her mind. Dan Lindemann stared at his plate. One driller ate with his head bowed over one of the newspaper summaries that the helicopter pilot had dropped off. The other fiddled with little drawings he was making in the margins of page two of another.

When Valena produced a pan of gingerbread that she had baked in the Coleman oven, it was gone in two minutes, but the only formal reaction she got was from the driller who was drawing pictures, who made brief, rapturous eye contact with her as he announced, “I love ginger. You may stay.”

Dan left the instant dinner was over and did not return. One by one, the other members of Naomi Bosch’s Clark Glacier crew mumbled good nights and stumbled off to bed. Valena brought the melt water back up to a boil and refilled the thermoses, then filled her own water bottle, climbed down inside the sunken latrine to empty her bladder into the pee bottle, emptied that through the funnel into the local fifty-five-gallon drum, and shuffled off down the line of tents to her own.

Ensconced in her sleeping bag with the warm water bottle up against her belly, she thought long and hard about the day, the week, and her life, and once again about the joys of discovering herself as a scientific colleague. She had never fit in anywhere like she fit here in Antarctica. Dan Lindemann might be sorry she was there, but everything else was so perfect that he was easy to discount.

Finally, with the bright light of the Antarctic night still shining through her eyelids and a fine rime of ice crystals forming on the inside of the tent from her exhalations, she slipped off into a deep and dreamless sleep.

S
UNDAY MORNING FOUND
M
C
M
URDO
S
TATION IN A
somber mood. Sunday breakfast, a meal usually frequented only by those who had not found a party the evening before, was mobbed with those who did not feel that they could handle Steve Myer’s memorial service on an empty stomach, and those on the night shift who had stayed up to join them. In anticipation of the hike up Observation Hill to the place chosen for this observance, most had already dumped their trays into the dish room and had returned to the dining hall to drink an extra cup of coffee to help keep them warm. They sat quietly, watching a gathering snow flurry obscure the landscape outside the windows.

George Bellamy’s voice boomed out over the public address system. “Good morning. This is to announce that the memorial service for Steve Myer, which was to be held on Ob Hill, will be held instead in front of the chapel. This is because it is snowing. Once again—”

The voice coming over the speaker was drowned in a rising tide of grumbling, growling voices. There was a great scraping of chairs as every person in the room stood up and filed out past the dish room, leaving their coffee cups by an untended window, the dishwashers having already left to get their coats.

A great tide of red and tan parkas filtered out through the falling snow and flowed toward Observation Hill, funneling now into a file four wide as the slope steepened. The only sound was that of boots crunching through crusted snow into scoria. As the first reached the summit and gathered around Scott’s
cross, others began to spill out around the slope below it. They were consumed in a soft, white world that deadened sound, a cocoon of opacity that fell from the sky like frozen tears.

Father James Skehan stood in front of the cross, eyes closed in prayer, a violet stole draped across the shoulders of his big red parka. A PhD in geology and years working on the glaciers unlocking the secrets of climate had not washed his earlier seminary training from him. He held in his gloved hands his copies of the
Rite Book
and the
Holy Bible.
The fine leather of his Bible was soft and frayed from all the years he had carried it with him to his field locations. He opened his eyes, looked out across the multitude, and said, “Let us pray.”

As Father Skehan led the citizens of McMurdo through the liturgy for the dead, the falling snow thickened, and the world continued to lose its edges. The cadences of the familiar words brought comfort, and in many, released tears.

At length, Father Skehan turned to the Boss and asked him to say a few words. The Boss reached out a hand for Father Skehan’s Bible and read from it, his strong, paternal voice both soothing and heartbreaking. Then he closed the book and said, “I chose to ask Father Skehan here to offer a Mass because Steve mentioned to me once that he was of the Catholic persuasion. More often he spoke of how this place filled his heart. We come from far places to work here, places where it’s warm and we have family and where you can take long showers, but we always leave a part of ourselves here. I think of how the Greeks might have seen it: they had the myth of Persephone. She’s the girl who ate those seeds from the pomegranate. She was beautiful, body and soul. Everybody loved Persephone, including Hades, the god of the underworld. One day while she was gathering flowers, he abducted her, just split the earth open and swallowed her up.

“Things got bad on earth after Persephone was abducted. Her mother Demeter grieved her so intensely that the plants ceased to grow. It was so bad in fact that Zeus went down to the underworld and demanded the girl’s return and got it. But she had eaten those seeds, and that bound her to the underworld, where nothing grows, for that many months each year.

“I’m not a young maiden who gathers flowers and neither was Steve, but I think on Persephone each and every time I come down here. This place gets into your soul. Although nothing grows here, it’s like a passionate fruit of intense flavor, and we return to eat of it year after year. And that’s where we turn that myth inside out. We long for this underworld. We know something about it that few people ever get to know. It is bright and clear, and it sings to us in our dreams, like a mirror in which we can at last see ourselves clearly.

“I like to think that Steve hears that singing still. Well, that’s all I have to say, except that when we’re done here, we’ve got a barbecue going down by the Heavy Shop, and the first round’s on me!”

A great roar went up. A few others stepped to the summit to speak: Cupcake as the one who had been coming south the longest, then a few others, and then Father Skehan closed with a final prayer, and the moment fell away as the crowd dispersed into the snow.

Halfway down the hill, Dave Fitzgerald felt a jab at his ribs, a poke blunted by layers of down and polypropylene. “Hey, why didn’t you say something?” asked Wilbur. “You found him.”

Dave turned to see whether his workmate was looking on him with kindness or craziness. It was the latter. He sighed. “Just give it a break,” he said, and continued down the hill.

M
AJOR
M
ARILYN
W
OOD STOOD WITH
M
AJOR
H
UGH
Muller at the foot of the hill, a tiny knot of camouflage brown and black as a sea of red and tan parkas flowed past them, hoping to spot Valena in the crowd.

“Did she answer the message you left for her?” asked Major Waylon Bentley as he moved through the crowd to join them.

“No,” said Hugh. “I put a note on her door in Crary. I’m thinking that she isn’t anywhere in town, but she hasn’t left the ice. Her name never showed up on the pax manifests.”

“She went off with that traverse to Black Island,” said Waylon. “But she came back, right? You’re sure of it?”

“I’m sure. I saw her. Then she went walkabout again or something.”

“Let’s ask Paul here,” said Marilyn, grabbing the arm of the helicopter pilot as he walked by her.

Paul looked up in surprise, as if he had been woken from a dream.

Marilyn said, “Any of you guys carry a beaker named Valena anywhere recently?”

Paul smiled. “In fact I did. Lovely girl. I took her up to Clark Glacier in the Dry Valleys yesterday.”

“Whew!” said Marilyn.

“Why, what’s up?”

“Oh, nothing,” said Hugh. “Any idea when she’s coming back?”

Paul shook his head.

“Whose event is she with?” asked Marilyn.

“Naomi Bosch. Glaciology. I forget the number.”

“Did you take anyone else up there?” asked Waylon.

“Just her.”

Marilyn asked, “Who else is in that camp?”

Paul rolled his eyes up in thought. “A couple of drillers and two graduate students.”

“Names on those students?”

“The new one I didn’t catch, but Lindemann I remember from other years. A bit of a sniveler if he doesn’t get the front seat.”

“Thanks,” said Hugh. With Valena checked off his mental list for the moment, he began scanning the crowd for another face.

Marilyn shook her head. “There are wheels within wheels with this puzzle.”

Waylon said, “This guy we’re looking for … did the service record give a photograph of him?”

Hugh said, “Everyone looks alike in these damned red parkas. Besides, I wouldn’t go by appearances, or the name he’s got on his parka. He’s here on a false passport.”

“Imagine,” said Waylon. “A dishonorable discharge, right here in Mac Town.”