It would not make things different. Leave it. Please.
Please?
In all this time, he had never once said
please
, not about this, and her anger softened at the hopeless sound of the word. I will leave it for now, my lord, but I cannot promise it will not come to mind again.
Then for now will have to do. He glanced up, some small measure of his humor back. For now.
She ruffled his hair gently. Pax? I would come down and offer a kiss as pledge, my lord, but I fear you would find too much merriment in watching me get back up again.
He sprang up before she finished the sentence and held his arms wide. Never let it be said I make it hard for my wife to kiss me.
She went to him willingly, so happy his strange melancholy had vanished that she didnt even remind him that, not so long ago, he had made it very difficult indeed. But that was the past and this was the present, and the kiss they shared was tender and undemanding and full of forgiveness that flowed in both directions.
You do look tired, he said a long moment later as he held her.
No more than I am any night. She leaned back in his arms to look up at him and caught the smell of the warming honey, drifting up from the hearth. But I am hungrier.
Go to bed. Ill bring you your bread.
She had taken to having a slice of bread with honey every night before retiring. It kept her from waking at midnight, ravenous, and seemed to ease the sick stomach. As Ivo retrieved the honey from the hearth, she laid aside her robe and slipped into bed, pulling the covers up to hide her ever-growing belly.
I think we left it too long, he said, holding up the spoon. The warm honey ran off in a thin stream.
It will be fine. Two slices, please.
Two? You
are
hungry. He quickly spread the honey over three slices and carried them over, offering her one, keeping one for himself, and holding the extra. As he ate, the second piece tilted a little, and honey ran over his fingers.
Here. Alaida gobbled down her first piece and reached for the second before Ivo was half done. She licked off the edges and took a bite. Youre getting all sticky.
So are you. He gestured as a drizzle shed missed landed in a warm stream on her breast, just above the covers. Were going to have to wash again.
They sat there, finishing their bread, holding their sticky hands up to keep the linens clean. As Alaida came to the last bites, the imp that so frequently got her in trouble poked her with his fork.
You know, she said lightly, the best way to get honey off skin is to lick it away.
Is it? A slow, wicked grin spread over his face. He held out his honey-covered fingers. Show me.
Suddenly embarrassed by her brazenness, she took only a tentative lick.
Youll have to do better than that, he challenged.
She drew his finger into her mouth, sucking it like a sweet. He groaned, and her embarrassment melted away in the heat that flamed up between them. She moved to the next finger, then the next, finishing one hand, then the other, taking her time over each finger until the honey was gone, even lapping the last traces off his palm before she sat back.
See? All clean.
She raised the last bit to finish it, but he curled his still-damp fingers around her wrist and drew her hand toward him. Instead of stealing the bite, though, he dragged it down and touched it to his chest, so that a streak of honey spilled over his nipple. Im not convinced. Show me again.
She leaned forward, obediently, hungrily, and tongued away the sweetness, hearing him suck in his breath as she rasped over the tightening circle. By the time she sat back the second time, his arousal was evident. She popped the last bite of bread in her mouth and held out her hand. Now clean me, if you please,
monseigneur
. He obliged, taking even more time over her fingers than she had over his, until she could feel every suckle, every flicker of his tongue, in the center of her. Then he leaned forward to the drop on her breast. It had apparently run lower, as he worked the covers down to follow it over her nipple, cleaning it quite thoroughly before he finally stopped.
When she opened her eyes, he was smiling down at her in that hungry way of his. How that look had ever frightened her, she couldnt comprehend. Now it only summoned her own rising appetites, wanton that she was. Wickedness lay in that smile. Sin that called her to sin with him.
Without a word, he rose and stripped out of his braies, then walked over to the table to pick up the pot of honey.
What are you doing?
He didnt answer, but he came back and crawled up on the bed beside her, the honey in one hand. He stirred the honey, the spoon making a soft stutter across the bottom of the pot. Lie back.
She did, but asked again, What
are
you doing?
I wish to discover something, he said.
What?
Uncover yourself, sweet leaf. I want to see all of you. She obeyed once more. He shifted to kneel between her legs, nudging them wide apart, and she felt herself blush at the way he devoured her with his eyes. Stirring the honey once more, he held the jar over her belly and lifted the spoon.
Honey, still warm and thin from the fire, cascaded down over her belly. She gasped as he trailed it up, tracing slow, liquid spirals around her breasts. He took another spoonful and worked his way down this time, and she gasped again as the warm honey spilled between her legs. She trembled there before him, already on the edge of pleasure even without him touching her.
I wish to discover, he finally explained as he set the jar aside and bent over her, which is sweeter. You, or the honey.
Oh, she said as he began to taste her.
Oh.
It was a long time before he decided, and by then she was very, very clean.
The sheets, however, were not.
CHAPTER 21
SIR ARI WAS scribbling again.
Alaida stood on the landing and watched him hunch over the bound book that held his attention. He added to the volume often, but it wasnt the only writing he did. She often spied him late in the afternoon scratching furiously on a fragment of used parchment or a scrap of plain leather, or even, a few times, on a bit of wood or bark. Frequently, she spotted the same oddments later in her husbands hand or Sir Brands, or saw one curling to ash in the firethe only evidence shed seen that Ari ever crossed paths with them at all.
She grew more curious about his writing by the day. It might, she suspected, have something to do with why her husband still was hers only during darknesstime which grew so short as summer neared that she barely saw him.
Not that Ivo didnt put their limited time to good use. She flushed just thinking of what hed taught her over the last weekswhat he had done with that honey, for example, would likely send them both to Hell, and she would never be absolved because she had every intention of asking him to do it again someday. Someday soon, she resolved as she went all liquid just thinking of it.
She was still immersed in thoughts of honey when Ari noticed her. He immediately came to his feet. Do you require something, my lady?
Mmm? It took her a moment to come back from the heat, and she was sure Ari must see her high color from where he stood. Oh, no,
messire
. I merely grow tired of the chatter. She motioned vaguely toward the solar, where a burst of derisive laughter interrupted Mildryths complaints about her husband. My head begins to ache from the noise. What do you write,
messire
?
A chronicle. He leaned down and blew gently over the lettering to encourage the ink to dry.
A monks duty.
He chuckled. I assure you, I am no monk, my lady.
So Ive heard. She started down the stairs. Read me a little and let me hear what you write.
Laying a square of fine kidskin over the page to protect the new ink, he closed the book firmly and pulled the straps tight before she could catch more than a glimpse of the text. No, my lady. I would be ashamed, for you would see that I have no skill with words at all.
Phfft
. I hear you speak every day, sir, and you use words like a goldsmith uses his tools. That made him color, and she pressed on, teasing. I could always
order
you to read.
He looked down at his book and back up at her, his face growing grave. Please do not, my lady, for I would have to disobey.
His reluctance only increased her wish to see what he wrote, but it was clearly not going to happen today. I only intended to persuade,
messire
, not command, she said lightly, pretending it was altogether unimportant. If your story is so clumsy, you
should
keep it to yourself. Give me another in its place, though, for I grow bored with those the women tell.
His face eased, though he still rested one hand on his book as though he thought she might snatch it up. Another dragon, my lady?
No, this time I think I would like some other monster. Perhaps a
Mlady! Tom came crashing through the door, wooden practice sword in hand, face flush with excitement. Theres a man at the gate. He says hes brought a message from the king!
Well, my lady, said Ari evenly as he scooped up his book to put it away. It seems you will not need my story to ease your boredom after all.
WITH A MIX of curiosity and foreboding, Ivo took the folded parchment from the kings messenger and motioned for Brand to follow him upstairs.
Alaida rose as he entered, showing a belly that he could swear was bigger than it had been just that morning.
Have you? She stopped as she saw the message in his hand. Her hands twisted together anxiously. You have. He arrived just after dinner. What does it say?
Ivo pressed a kiss to her cheek and smiled at her fretfulness. And greetings to you, too, wife. Dont frown so. Tis only a message.
From the king, she said with distaste. Little good has ever come from that direction.
I have had both good and bad from William, said Ivo. Let me see which this is before you assume the worst. Go, begin supper. I will be down in a little.
He waited until the door closed behind her and her women before he popped the wax on the seal. The text inside was plainly written and direct, and Ivo frowned as he read it, hearing Williams choleric stutter in each word. However, there were possibilities in what the king asked as well, and he considered them quickly. Hmm.
What? asked Brand.
Good and bad, as I told Alaida. There is more trouble in Wales, plus he suspects that Roger of Poitou plans treason in Cumbria and orders me to look into it.
Is that the good or the bad?
Both, I think. On the bad side, it will take me away now, just when Alaida and I finally have a true marriage. On the good, it will take us away
now
when the nights are so cursed short. She has begun questioning my habits again.
Wonders why you barely get your clothes off before you start putting them on again, eh?
Something like that. I suppose Merewyn never questions why
you
visit at such odd hours.
In truth, no. She just seems to . . . accept it, as she accepts everything.
Ivo thought that strange, but the healer was a little strange, so he let it drop.
It solves another problem as well, he pointed out. These woods are too small for a bear in summer.
Brand nodded. Summer had always been the worst time. The long warm hours brought mortals both common and noble streaming into the forest for timber and beeswax, game and berries, charcoal and wattling, and there were far too many hours of daylight in which to be seen. For Ivo the only real risk lay in being caught changing; for Brand, it was in being seen at allthere were no more bears in England.
Cumbria has forests thick enough to lose entire armies, Ivo pointed out. You will be safe there while I do my spying for the king, and by the time we get back, harvest will have started and only swineherds will be in the woods. I can keep them away from you.
That would be good. But what about the third problem? Brand curved his hand out over his gut to shape Alaidas belly. You dont want to be away when the child comes. It will need you.
She
will need you.
She is onlyIvo ticked it off on his fingersa bit over four months gone now. We will be back in plenty of time, and maybe while were gone, we will find something, learn something, have some new thought. I dont know. But it will be better than sitting here, useless, watching her swell.
Brand nodded in sympathy. Aye. I watch her, too, and she isnt even mine. All the same, youll find it difficult to tell her youre leaving. I remember how Ylfa used to look at me when Id say we were going
a-viking
againlike I was either mad or already dead. And shed cry.
Alaida understands that I have a duty to the king. She expects it. She was raised with it.
Ylfa understood, too. She still cried. Brands brow furrowed momentarily with the recollection, but he shook it off. What about Ari?
Ivo glanced at the raven on his perch. He stays here. This is his time to be most human. He may as well use it.
Take care of her, he told the bird, glad that foolish jealousy no longer bubbled up at the idea of leaving him with Alaida. Get the castle finished. I want her well protected when I truly must go.
The raven tipped his head and chortled softly.
Thats yes, I think, said Brand. Balls. Im not looking forward to a strange forest without even him for company. When do we need to leave?
Ivo glanced back down at the message, at the urgency hidden beneath Williams blunt words. Before dawn.