Illicit (13 page)

Oh, man, she was getting way ahead of herself. She didn’t even know if she wanted to get into a relationship right now. After all, Glen had done a number on her self-esteem. Not only had she caught him with two other women, but she was pretty sure that he’d cheated on her several times before. Clearly, she had not been pretty enough or smart enough to keep him interested. And, when she’d caught him with the two women, he’d told her he’d done it because she was
boring
in bed.

She smiled. There was nothing boring about what she’d been doing with Erik and the guys. In fact, being with them had undone some of the damage—not just from Glen, but everything in her life that had made her feel less than special. Audrey constantly criticized her hair, how she dressed, how she behaved.

Even her job. Audrey thought that with a college education, Lindsay should be doing better than “filing papers,” as she put it. She didn’t realize that Lindsay actually managed a staff to track physical documents across a huge international corporation.

Although the guys might tease her by calling her a librarian, she didn’t feel the need to prove herself to them. They seemed happy with her just the way she was.

Lindsay, you are special.

Erik’s words swelled through her, straight to her heart. He thought she was special. And around him—and Connor and Travis—she
felt
special. She would like to continue to feel that way.

Lindsay gazed up at Erik. His eyes gleamed with need and he captured her lips again. When the elevator doors opened, he swept her into his arms and carried her into the penthouse and down the hall.

When he entered the master bedroom and closed the door, she could hear Travis’ voice.

“You know, it’s not fair that you get the woman again tonight.”

Twelve

Lindsay felt the soft pillow top of the mattress beneath her back as Erik laid her gently on the bed. Her gaze drifted to the giant bulge forming in his pants.

“You’re driving me crazy, woman, looking at me like you could eat me up.”

“Mmm. I could do exactly that.”

“Okay, hold that thought.”

He disappeared into the en suite bathroom and returned a few moments later with several condom packets in his hand. He fanned them out in front of her.

“What flavor would you like?”

She grinned. “Seriously? Flavored condoms?” She glanced at the different colored packets.

From the labels on the plastic, she could see there was strawberry, chocolate, vanilla, grape, banana, cola, and mint. She plucked the grape one from his hand and ripped open the packet. The scent of grape tickled her nose.

He raised an eyebrow. “Not chocolate?”

She grinned as she unzipped his pants and reached inside for the hot, hard shaft. She drew it out and placed the purple condom on the end. “I’m feeling adventurous.” She rolled the condom down.

Adventurous was becoming her usual behavior. No doubt about it, staying for this weekend was the best decision she’d made in a long time.

She licked the tip of him and a grapey taste tingled her tongue. “Mmm. I like.”

She wrapped her lips around him and drew his cock-head into her mouth, then sucked him like a popsicle.

His hand clamped around her head, his fingers gliding through her hair.

“Oh, God. Me, too.”

She sucked him hard, loving the size of him in her mouth and the delightful novelty of a flavored cock. She glided down, taking him deep into her throat, then turned her head back and forth, rotating his cock inside her throat.

“Oh, God, sweetheart. That’s … ahhh…”

She squeezed him inside her mouth.

“Incredible.”

She slid the length of him, then dove deep again. Then she bobbed up and down, squeezing and licking him as she moved.

“Mmm, you’re so tasty. I don’t think I want to stop.” She licked downward, past the condom and licked his balls. Gently, she drew one into her mouth, then the other as she stroked his cock with her hand.

“Sweetheart, you are driving me wild.”

She grinned. “Good. Because when I’m around you, I feel wild. And very sexy.”

His hands grasped her arms and suddenly she found herself on her back with him above her.

“That’s because you are wild and sexy.” His lips clamped onto hers and he kissed her until she was breathless, his tongue driving deep, then swirling inside her. “And I can’t seem to get enough of you.”

He stripped of her clothes, then his and prowled over her again. His cock dragged along her stomach, then suddenly it glided inside her, filling her with his awesome length.

“Oh, God, you feel so good inside me.” Her cheeks felt flushed and she could barely catch her breath. She wanted him to drive into her, again and again, until she screamed so loud the neighbors would complain. Or call the police.

As he drew back slowly, his cock caressing her passage as it withdrew, she thought about the fact that Erik was a police officer and that thought sent a quiver through her. God, he probably had handcuffs around here somewhere.

He stared down at her, surprise rippling across his features. And a definite gleam in his eye.

God damn, but she was beginning to think the man could read her mind.

Then he drove forward and all her thoughts scattered.

She tightened around him, wanting him deep inside her. He thrust and thrust until she could barely catch her breath. Then the orgasm washed over her in an ecstatic wave.

“Oh, God, yes.” She clung to him as she wailed long and loud.

He kept driving into her. Deep and hard. Fast. Filling her. Driving up her pleasure until it exploded into total bliss. His arms tightened around her and he groaned his release.

They lay gasping in each other’s arms. He rolled to her side, pulling her tight against him, as if he didn’t want to let her go. Which was fine with her because she wasn’t going anywhere.

When she smiled and gazed up at him, her breath dissipated at the loving look in his eyes. Her heart swelled with happiness. After Glen, she’d decided there weren’t any guys out there worth getting involved with.

Until now.

*   *   *

Erik held Lindsay tight to his chest, loving the feel of this woman against him. Her soft body against his hard one. Loving how they fit together.

But, damn it, he didn’t want to be involved with a female. She would only hurt him in the end, just like all the others. He gazed at her glowing face and his heart ached.

Not that she’d mean to. None of them had meant to hurt him, not even Becci. They just couldn’t handle what he could do.

But what if he just told her? Right now. Blurted it out.

Lindsay, I can read your sexual fantasies. When something arouses you, I can see it and feel it.

You mean, you can read my thoughts? she’d probably ask, just like most of the women he’d told.

No, it’s not like that. I just get images of what you imagine.

Then he’d demonstrate. Get her fantasizing about something and tell her verbatim what she was imagining. That’s when they usually freaked out. That’s when they feared he was digging around in their minds and they ended it. First Cyndi and then Becci.

But what if Lindsay was different?

As hope swelled in him, he remembered Cyndi. How he’d been so sure she was
the one
. How he’d believed she really loved him.

But he’d been wrong. And the pain had been intense.

With the powerful connection he felt with Lindsay, that pain would be even worse. If he allowed himself to believe they had a chance, and it fell apart …

It would be devastating.

He didn’t have to take that chance. What he had with Connor and Travis worked. And they had no problem with him knowing what aroused them, especially when he acted on it.

Gazing at Lindsay’s beaming face, he did not want to ruin what they had left of this weekend. She was beautiful and happy. Sexy and wild. He didn’t want to lose a minute of that during this fantasy weekend. Then, when it was over tomorrow, he would say good-bye to her forever. Because if he didn’t, he’d be tempted to be an idiot and risk his heart.

He cuddled her close and she sighed, her soft breath tickling his chest.

“Don’t you have to take that wet thing off?” she asked, stroking down his stomach toward his limp cock. She toyed with the base of him and he knew, very soon, she’d have him hard again.

He sat up and pulled the condom off, then wrapped it in a tissue and set it on the side table.

He arched his eyebrow. “Is there a reason you want my cock naked again?”

She wrapped her hand around it, and it twitched at the feel of her soft, delicate fingers. Then with a firm grip she began stroking.

“I just want to see how many times I can keep you going. Unless you’d like me to call the other guys in. Maybe the three of you could put on a little show for me. You know, you suck Connor while Travis fucks Connor and sucks you.”

He grinned. “I’m not sure if that would work. Position-wise, I mean.”

“Hmm. If you lie down and…” She curled her body as if trying to work it out, then shrugged and sat up. “Well, I’m sure you’d work out something supremely erotic for me to watch.”

He stroked her hair from her face. “You really have no problem with the relationship between Connor, Travis, and me.”

She shrugged. “Why would I?” She grinned. “Especially when it’s so intensely sexy.”

He chuckled. “I’ll tell you what’s intensely sexy.” He grabbed her shoulders and pressed her onto her back, then grabbed her thighs and tugged her to the bottom of the bed. “You.”

He knelt on the floor, pulling her lower until her legs draped over the end, then he pressed them wide and licked her slit. She was slick and warm, and tasted a little salty. And sweet.

He drove his tongue into her opening and she moaned. He glided his thumbs along her folds, then opened them until he could see her clit in the little nest of pink skin. He dabbed it with his tongue and she inhaled sharply.

He licked and kissed until she arched against him. He suckled lightly.

“Oh, God, I’m going to…” she moaned.

His heart rate accelerated knowing he was bringing her such intense pleasure. Her fingers glided through his short hair and she pulled him tighter against her. He obliged, sucking deeper while gliding two fingers into her slick opening.

“Oh, yeah…” She tightened her fingers around his head. “Oh, God.”

Then she wailed loud and long. He had no doubt Connor and Travis could both hear her. And were probably jealous as all get out. His own cock throbbed at the exquisite sound.

When she finally collapsed against the bed, she groaned and opened her arms to him.

“Oh, God, fuck me now. Please, for God’s sake fuck me.”

He laughed, then slid her up the bed and prowled over her, then drove deep. She gasped, wrapping her arms around him. He thrust and thrust. She immediately started to wail again and he felt his balls tighten.

“Oh, shit.” Damn it, he didn’t have a condom on. He pulled out of her hot, wet body just in time to spray all over her flat stomach.

He groaned as he finished ejaculating, the cool air a shock to his poor, excited cock. When the spurting stopped, he rolled onto his back beside her.

“I’m sorry about that.” He grabbed a tissue and wiped the white liquid from her skin.

“Are you, um … I mean, have you been tested recently?” she asked.

“Yes, of course. I made sure … we all made sure … before we invited you to this weekend.”

“But you didn’t tell me.”

“Well, none of us felt it was reasonable to expect you to give us that level of trust. I mean, you didn’t know us. We wouldn’t ask you to trust us so completely as to put your life, or your health, at risk.”

She smiled. “But you did ask me to trust you enough to have sex with you.”

“Safe, protected sex. But we got tested anyway, to be completely sure.”

She nodded. “I’ve been tested recently, too. And I’m on birth control. So why don’t we forget about the condoms from now on?”

“That’s great with me. But I’m curious. Why did you get tested? I mean, you said you didn’t believe this was really a fantasy weekend. You thought your friend had set it up as a girls’ getaway.”

“I know. It wasn’t because of that. It was because … a couple of weeks before I ran into you guys in the elevator, I had broken up with my boyfriend.”

“So we’re rebound sex?” He grinned.

She shrugged, but her sour expression prompted him to ask more rather than let it die with a lame joke.

“So what happened?”

“I caught him with two other women.”

“He sounds like a jerk.”

She nodded. “After that, I figured I should be tested. Who knows how many others he’d been with or how careful he’d been?” She glanced at him. “But the tests came back clean, so you don’t have anything to worry about.”

He smiled, then stroked her cheek. “I know. I trust you.” He leaned in and brushed his lips against hers in a light kiss. “He really was a jerk, you know.” He grazed his thumb across her cheek in a gentle caress. “To do anything so stupid to endanger his relationship with you. He was a grade-A, king-sized jerk.”

That’s why she’d had such trouble accepting his statement that she was special when they were at the restaurant. Because her stupid ex-boyfriend had killed her sense of self-worth. He’d love to find the guy and pound him out.

Not that he’d do that. Very bad behavior for a cop.

She curled her arms around him and leaned against his chest. He held her close, enjoying her softness in his arms. Then he started when he felt dampness against his chest and realized it was her tears. He tightened his arms around her.

“Lindsay? You okay?”

She nodded. “I just…” She sucked in a breath. “I just didn’t really let myself think about it until now, but…” She drew in another breath and snuffled a little. He handed her a tissue from the box at the side of the bed, then drew her close again while she dabbed at her eyes. “You know, it’s just that it hurt … what he did.”

He stroked her hair. “Of course it did. It was a terrible betrayal.”

She snuffled, then blew her nose again. “It’s not even the other women. I mean, that made me mad, he was a jerk, but … he said I was boring.”