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Addie

I have no idea what I was expecting to happen when I lost my virginity, but it sure wasn’t this.

I can tell Zeke’s being as gentle as his hormones will allow and his full lips running over my skin are a delicious distraction, but it doesn’t take away from the slight discomfort.

“You okay, babe?” he asks quietly and it’s not until I start to answer him that I realize I’ve been holding my breath.

“Yeah,” I gasp, nodding slightly.

“I’m sorry it hurts,” he offers, brushing the pad of his thumb over my jaw as he showers my lips with gentle, chaste kisses. “It won’t next time, baby.”

The combination between his gentle touch, his perfect indigo eyes and the way he calls me baby eases the bulk of the discomfort. As he moves inside me, I memorize the way he stretches me, the sound of his breathing as my name leaves his lips in a husky whisper. As the discomfort begins to fade away into pleasure, I grip his arms and slowly begin to move with him, pulling louder moans of approval from him.

“Addie, you feel so good,” he says, moving his palm over my breast as he lets out another groan. “Can I go faster?”

“Yeah,” I nod immediately, eager to please him in the same way he’s trying to please me.

As I think about his body and mine connected, I close my eyes and let my mind drift. His hot tongue slides over my hard nipple as he somehow pushes deeper inside me, the combination causing me to cry out in pleasure.

Reaching behind me, he grips the edge of the mattress and hovers over me, my hands falling to his waist as I twist my hips into him, taking him deeper.

“Oh my God,” he groans, sending another wave of pleasure through me.

Moving one hand from the edge of the mattress, he slips a finger into his mouth and lowers is to my clit. Slowly, he begins to massage me, not slowing his pace. Almost immediately, the tiny sparks that have been shooting through my body ignite into flames. His name leaves my lips so loudly, it startles me, but not Zeke. The volume of my voice only seems to help him get there quicker.

“Fuck, Addie, I’m about to come,” he says, cementing my thoughts.

Increasing his pace, he pushes into me hard and fast, filling me to the brim and causing another gasp to leave my chest. Watching me fall apart beneath him, he takes his eyes from me only when he squeezes them shut tight and he lets out my name in a loud moan of satisfaction.

Leaning over me as he lets his breathing return to normal, he cages me with his arms again and rests his forehead against my chest.

“Jesus Addie,” he eventually sighs, making me blush as he raises his eyes to mine. “I didn’t hurt you, did I, baby?”

“No,” I say quietly, shaking my head and looking over him and the feeling that courses through me is foreign.

My eyes are misty with unshed tears as he buries his lips into my neck, kissing me sweetly as he remains buried inside me. As he gently sucks on my collarbone, massaging my breast, he whispers his love for me, promises we’ll be okay.

Never in a million years would I have guessed this would happen between us. As I think back over our time together though, I can’t imagine it happening with anyone else. Zeke’s seen me through everything good and bad since I was seven years old and he saw me on the sidewalk with Mags that day.

Although we’d never said it before tonight, I’ve known I loved him for years, that he loved me in return. There’s no one in the world I’d ever love more than the guy I’d just given myself to and the realization that the feeling was mutual sends tears down my cheeks.

What we have is what the best love stories are made of and rarely do people find it in real life. How did we get so lucky to find in so quickly in life? There are books written about love like ours, movies that make millions.

Movies just like the one we watched this afternoon where you blatantly swore you wouldn’t act like this.

I’m lost in these thoughts, silently kicking myself when he breaks the silence.

“What’s the matter?” he asks, his face horrified.

“Nothing,” I manage, hiding my face and swiping my tears away as quickly as I can.

“Are you hurt?” he asks again, pulling away from me slightly, the feeling of loss immediate.

“No,” I tell him immediately, gripping his arms and holding him to my chest.

As he wraps his arms around me, careful not to crush me, I savor in the feel of it and rest my face into his shoulder, crying harder.

“Addie, are you going to tell me what’s going on?” he says eventually, only to be met with the shaking of my head. “Please? You’re freaking me the fuck out.”

“It’s really dumb,” I manage, my tears subsiding, but my embarrassment only beginning to flourish.

“So,” he says. “I still wanna know.”

“Okay,” I relent, wiping my cheeks clean. “I just was thinking about us and everything we’ve been through and that I’m glad it was you, ya know?” I ask him, watching him nod slightly. “And how much we love each other and how they write movies about people like us.”

“Yeah,” he smiles down at me, leaning to kiss me on the temple.

I’m grateful for his failure to mention my declaration this afternoon for only a second before he starts to shake with gentle laughter against me.

“Aww,” he says, looking at me with a smile. “My girl’s getting all mushy on me.”

“Oh shut up,” I blush, smacking him playfully and trying to free myself from his grip.

“I’m just playing with you,” he says, holding me in place as his eyes grow soft. “I’m glad it was me, too, babe.”

“Are you really?”

“Of course,” he whispers, bending to kiss me.

“I have no idea what I’m doing,” I admit. “I’m sure I wasn’t even very good.”

“You were perfect,” he says immediately, warming my heart as he hovers over my lips and holds my eyes. “Tell me you love me again.”

“I love you, Zeke.”

Zeke

Once we finally untangle from each other, I watch her switch on the radio as she excuses herself to the bathroom to comb the knots out of her still damp hair. Kissing her gently as she leaves me, I slip my underwear back on and make my way back to the window and light another cigarette.

The dark van is still parked on the street, but the guy I had to assume had been at the door is now pacing at the front door. He’s on the phone, but before I can tell what he’s saying I hear Addie coming back into her bedroom.

“Oh gross,” she says. “Are you smoking?” she asks me, silencing the voice below and prompting me to spin around to face her.

“Sorry, I was just craving one after,” I admit as I take another drag and stub it out, balancing it on a roof shingle. “Are you sore?”

“A little,” she admits shyly as I turn to face her. “Not too bad.”

“Come here,” I say, sitting on the edge of the windowsill and positioning her between my legs.

Reaching beneath the towel she’s wrapped around herself, I begin slowly massaging her between her thighs as I kiss her neck, pulling a gasp from her chest. The scent of her shampoo as her hair falls over her shoulder intoxicates me in ways that cherry vodka only wishes it could. As I pull the towel from her body, careful to block her body from anyone watching outside, I dip my head to her chest and pull her nipple into my mouth, sucking gently.

“You wanna go again?” I ask her, loving the way her breathing grows heavy.

“Can we do it again that fast?” she asks, uncertainty staining her voice as she looks down at me in surprise.

“Yeah,” I tell her as I lift my head to face her. “If you want to.”

“Do you want to?”

“Addie,” I start, pulling her mouth closer to mine and letting my lips brush against hers. “If this time is anything like last time, I think I’d live inside you if I could.”

Her eyes tell me she’s not sure how to respond, but her lips crashing against mine are all I need.

Standing in front of her, I walk her backwards toward her bed, gently guiding her to the mattress.

When I move to kneel in front of her, she looks up at me in confusion.

“What are you doing?” she asks.

“I want to taste you first this time,” I admit, causing her cheeks to redden further. “You trust me?”

“Of course,” she says immediately, meeting me with a nod.

“Okay then,” I smirk, bending to kiss her chastely. “Just lie back, Addie. You’ll like it, baby.”

Nodding again, she lies back onto the mattress and bends her head to watch me move her legs apart, kissing the inside of her thighs before pushing her bare lips apart. As my eyes meet hers, I dip my tongue inside her slowly and savor in her sweet taste. Letting out a low groan of appreciation, the hum vibrates through her and I watch her eyes begin to flutter closed as she lets out a moan. Flattening my tongue against her, I slowly drag it upwards to her clit and begin to lightly suck, knowing that’s all it will take to drive her mad. When her back begins to arch off the mattress moments later, her hands fly forward and bury into my hair as she cries out loud enough to wake the dead.

“Oh my God!” she shouts, making me hard again immediately.

I stay between her thighs, lapping at her until she gives me the release I crave. After sating my thirst, I grab the other condom I keep tucked in my wallet and slide it on. She’s still panting uncontrollably beneath me as I move her legs onto the bed, her head at the foot.

Not giving her time to recuperate, I glance down and meet her eyes.

“You ready, baby?”

“Yeah,” she rasps and in the next breath, I’m pushing into her. “Fuck!”

The unfamiliar sound of such a harsh word leaving her lips does something to me I can’t explain. Sure, Addie curses, but there’s something insanely hot about knowing that I’m the one causing her to cross lines she normally wouldn’t.

“Shit Addie,” I manage, wrapping her legs around my waist and letting out a low growl. “Hang on, babe.”

As I reach for the edge of the mattress, I savor in the feel of her hands gripping my waist and I begin driving into her with more force than I could before. Although I know I still need to be careful with her, I know that the first time is the most uncomfortable. Judging from the look of pleasure on her face, it’s not pain she’s feeling right now.

After a few minutes of pushing into her, she lets her head fall back and as it does, I watch her hair dangle over the side, bearing her neck to me. Unable to ignore the temptation, I bend to suck on her skin hard and mark her skin. The action pulls another loud moan from her lips as I move down her front to her chest. It’s obvious she’s enjoying the second time around much more as she cries out loudly, my name echoing through the room over the music in the background.

Falling into a rhythm, I continue stretching her, loving the way she hugs my cock as she slowly grinds her hips against me. I know I’d teased Addie about her emotions earlier, but truth be told, all of this had my mind reeling as well.

The longer I stay buried inside her, the more I realize that this isn’t something I’d wanted for just a year or two. I’d been in love with Addie for years, ever since the day I’d stolen her kiss on the roof when I was fifteen and felt that spark.

As her concerns that we wouldn’t be able to work long-distance before come crashing back, it takes everything inside of me not to drive into her even harder. I couldn’t bring myself to regret the decision I’d made that taking her tonight was best. I’ll never tell her what changed my mind, but I’ll never regret it either. If it comes between her hurt and mine, I’ll let her walk away unscathed every time.