Authors: M. P. Cooley
The front door buzzed. I leaped up to answer, banging my knee on the coffee table in my rush.
“Hi, it's me,” Kevin said through the intercom, as if it could have been anyone else. I stood in the hallway, my foot holding the door. He stopped short when he got off the elevator, then marched forward, explaining before he even got to my door.
“Look, I promised myself I'd never force the issue, but I felt more . . . more strongly than I realized. And I can't change it, can't change the way I feel.” He wouldn't meet my eyes as he talked, instead professing his feelings to each of my neighbor's doors, the floral arrangement the building's management put at the end of the hallway, and the lines on the carpet. He almost walked into me, which forced him to meet my eyes. “I understand and respect the fact that you don't feel the same way. I may need to put a little distance between the two of us for a while, but I love you, June, I've loved you for a long timeâ”
And I kissed him. This time he was the one with his eyes open, but he was quicker on the uptake than I was and he kissed me back. It was good. As we pushed and pulled each other into the apartment, Kevin took his hand away from my hip and backhanded the door shut. We slowed each other down in our haste to get our clothes off, with both of our hands reaching to unbutton his shirt and unzip my skirt. I broke the kiss as we neared the bedroom.
“Yes?” I asked.
“Yes,” Kevin said, picking me up and carrying me the rest of the way to bed.
Later, we lay talking.
“I didn't want you to know,” Kevin said. “I overstepped the bounds of friendship back there at the restaurant, and I figured you'd never want to see me again.”
“That's quite the conversation we had.” I smiled at him. “Too bad it only happened in your thick head.”
“Yeah”âhis breath warm on my shoulder as he laughedâ“I was all ready to do the honorable thing and slink back to San Francisco. And have you mail me my socks.”
“Honorable? Slinking?”
“It made sense, in a sort of southern gentleman way.”
“Which you're incredibly bad at, being from Minnesota.”
“Very true. Anyway, I was all set to do the
cowardly
thing when I remembered I'd left the keys to both my car and my apartment here. I had to man up and face you.”
“And here we are.” I pulled him to me, wanting him closer. “I love you, you know?”
“I didn't know.” Kevin went from being pulled into my arms to pushing forward and kissing me, the heat of his body warming me from the inside out.
A BURST OF COLD
air broke my reverie as Hale got into the car. There were tears in my eyes. Grief wasn't my whole life, but it could still sneak up on me, leaving me demolished. I didn't know if the tears were because I was thinking of the time when I had Kevin and good work or just plain old exhaustion. I was prepared to play it off with a lie about the vents, but Hale didn't even notice: he climbed in, pushed the driver's seat back to accommodate his long legs, and slammed the door hard.
“Hey now, sleeping already?” Hale said. “Was that on the schedule?” I stared ahead at the approaching minivan, ignoring him. The vehicle slowed and the window rolled down, revealing Denise and Jason Byrne.
“Oh, hello there!” Denise called, cheerful in a way that could only be caffeine induced. “JuneâOfficer LyonsâI'm sorry, my son and I had to go into the pharmacy. We waited as long as we could, but people need their medications and, well, making them wait could be inconsiderate. Inconsiderate and dangerous, you know, the ones who depend on us.”
“We had a development in the case,” I yelled across Hale.
“Did you arrest that poor girl's killer?”
Jason popped forward at this, waiting eagerly for my response.
“No. But we're working hard on it.” Jason slumped back. Relieved or disappointed?
I thought through our schedule. Marty's was our next stop, and I wanted to take my time with him, if I could. Hale's people were already on their way to the Jelicksons' house to find any “evidence missed on the first go-through”âtheir wordsâand I figured that we would need two or three hours. I proposed that we stop by the pharmacy at noon.
Denise agreed. “Oh, and before I forget, I made these for you.” She got out of the car, a tinfoil package in her hands. “Cranberry orange muffins. Lord knows I don't need themâgotta keep to my training weight.” She laughed, patted a nonexistent roll of fat, and shoved the baked goods in the window.
“Thank you, ma'am,” Hale said, pinned against his seat by Denise. “These'll keep us going.”
“Glad to be of help, Mister . . .?” Denise smiled at him expectantly. From this angle I could see a missing molar, marring her sweet smile.
“Agent Bascom, ma'am.”
“Agent Bascom. I'm glad to help the investigation in any way I can.” Denise walked back to her car, her step brisk and light despite the snow on the ground and her thick-soled utility boots. She and Jason sped off, her car skidding toward the shoulder before she did the smart thing and slowed down.
Hale put the car in drive. My ten-year-old Saturn lacked high-performance steering, and he had to pull the wheel hard to make the U-turn.
“Well, she sure is nice,” Hale said.
“She really is. I hope we didn't inconvenience her too much.”
“Who cares? You managed to unearth a meth lab. A meth superlab. A meth superlab being run out of
a congresswoman's house
.” Hale didn't take his eyes off the road. He shook his head in disbelief. “I would've never believed it. And based on all the crystals we found dumped in the barrels, active for quite a few months.”
I thought back to the ranches where noxious fumes seeped through the smell of soybeans and manure. “Those bubbling twenty-twos could produce a huge amount of meth, in the hundreds of thousands of hits.”
“Who was cooking?” Hale asked.
I puzzled. Marty? Danielle? Jason? Craig?
“Ray,” I said finally. “Or maybe Marty.”
“Or both. Maybe their kin hoped to open a new branch of the Abominations' business.”
“But someone was distributing it. Who?”
Hale drove, one hand on the wheel, the other resting against his neck.
Lying,
I thought. Before I could call him on it his phone rang.
“Hello,” he said as he skidded to the side of the road, the car jerking forward as he put it in park. “Yes. Yes. Estimated time? Good. Update me once you're in. Yes, good.”
Hale explained that the weather had done us in again. “They can't get down to the Jelicksons'. Can't get within five blocks, what with the snow. Want me to drop you home?”
“Well, we know where to find the Byrnes. Want to swing by the pharmacy?”
“You could catch a nap. You need it.”
“I need to solve this case, and honestly, I won't sleep. Let's go now.”
“Yes, ma'am.”
A couple of salt spreaders rumbled by, dropping rock salt on the layer of ice missed by the plows' blades. Hale swerved out of the way of an arc of snow, a man with a blower giving back what a plow had pushed into his driveway. Up ahead I saw ninety-year-old Mrs. Primeau attacking her stairs with her great-grandson's kiddy shovel. It was just her size, and she had two of three steps done.
On a day like today, I wished I could be home with Lucy. By this time during the last snow day she had become bored and started to melt her crayons near the fireplaceâshe didn't enjoy it as much when she and I had to chip off the wax disks that dotted the bricksâbut still, it would be more fun than this.
“So, you seem settled in here,” Hale said. “And you seem happy. With your family, which makes sense. But if I'm not mistaken, you're enjoying the work, too.”
I stifled a laugh. If Hale knew that my work consisted of doing endless patrols during the crappy shifts and leading safety lectures in schools, he wouldn't say that.
“Considering your ambition way back when, June, I'm having a hard time matching you up with the girl I knew at the academy.”
“Hale, we haven't been close in ten years. We haven't seen each other at all in eight. Do you think I'm the same person?” I turned to face him, confront him, but his eyes remained glued to the road. “We're developing a good working relationship, a relationship that's helping us solve this case, but I don't want to have a personal conversation with you. Unless we discuss the case, let's not talk. At all.”
H
ALSTON STREET WAS PLOWED
, which was surprisingâusually side streets weren't cleared until the next day. One of the snowplow drivers must have a girlfriend on this block. Denise Byrne, who was piling garbage bags and empty boxes in the alley at the store's rear, did a double take as we slid past. Up in front, Jason didn't notice us. Headphones in ears that were red from cold, a cord leading down to the pocket of a fleece-lined jean jacket, he was shoveling the front walk, flipping snow to the beat of some tune only he could hear. He seemed to be enjoying his time in his own world.
“June?” Denise called, moving quickly to meet us. She was wearing an
HFHS ALL-STAR BASKETBALL GAME
sweatshirt, the hood pulled up and her thumbs poking through holes in the wristband. “June, we weren't expecting you for another three hours and I'm afraid you caught us when we're a little behind. We have customers coming, and we have to clear the walk and the trash, and I have a number of prescriptions I need to fill.”
“Very sorry, Mrs. Byrne, we had a change in plans,” Hale said.
“But we'd be happy to conduct the interviews with you while you prepare for your day,” I said. Denise's teeth chattered, her thin lips blue. “Or at least while you go inside and warm up.”
Jeff Polito sauntered up the block, slowing as he saw us.
“Can I pick up my prescription, Mrs. Byrne?” he asked.
Denise looked at me. “Would it be okay if I took care of Jeff first? If it's a problem, I guess he could take some aspirin and come back in an hour.”
I recognized Jeff from way back. He drove trucks these days, but in high school he was “that guy”âthe man in his midtwenties who would let kids come to his house and party. The kids always found one person like that, and Jeff was less creepy than most, although that wouldn't have prevented my father from running Jeff out of town if Dad had found out. Jeff would go to the beverage center with our pooled money and buy beer and my favorite, wine coolers. His only requirement was a twelve-pack for himself, but since he drank Genny Cream Ale, this was no great hardship. He seemed hopelessly cool at the time, with his own apartment and all the free pizza he could bring home from his delivery job.
“June!” He grinned at me. “How's your dad?”
“He's good, he's home with Lucy today. You okay?”
He held up his arm. “Old injuryâarm got caught in the rig. Acts up in this weather. It's not an emergency or anything. . . .”
“That sounds terrible,” I said, seeing my chance to get Jason alone. “If you're putting the prescription together now, Denise, we can start with Jason. We can talk to him while he works.”
“Or even help out,” added Hale.
Denise marched toward the front, and with her basketball player legs she quickly outpaced Jeff, Hale, and me. She tapped Jason on the shoulder as she passed, and he scrambled to pull out his earbuds, nodding at everything his mother said. Then he jogged toward us, suggesting we join him in the alley while he took care of the garbage.
“So . . . Danielle,” I said. “You guys dated, right?”
“Yeah, back when we were in high school,” he said, as if it were a million years ago instead of three. Jason slashed through the tape on the boxes using an X-Acto knife and collapsed the cardboard in on itself, throwing it in the recycling bin, which stood next to the most pristine Dumpster I had ever seen.
“Emma Willard?” Hale asked.
Jason snickered. “No. Not Emma Willard. That's for girls, and superexpensive. We attended Catholic Central over in Troy. We took the bus together. Well, at least until my dad gave me his car.”
I asked Jason to describe Danielle. He stopped working and gave it some thought. “She was nice.”
This was like pulling teeth, but I didn't take it personally: young men weren't known for their eloquence.
“She was funny, you know, she'd say anything to anyone. Even the teachers. And she dressed cool, which is hard in a school uniform. Her penny loafers had the chunkiest heel I ever saw.” He leaned over to pick up another box. I recognized the brand as a shower chair Kevin had used. The pharmacy probably stocked a full set of products that catered to Hopewell Falls's aging population: adjustable beds, walkers, and hospital supplies.
“And she didn't mind that I was quiet, quieter than her, because she said I let her do all the talking.”
I smiled. I knew several long-lasting marriages that were based on the fact that one person liked to talk and the other liked to listen, or rather, liked talking less.
“Was she out of control, a little crazy?” Hale asked.
Jason dropped his X-Acto. “What?”
“You know. Hot.” Hale picked up the knife and handed it to Jason. “When you guys got it on.”
“You shouldn't talk like that about her. We were kids. We just hung out. That's all.” Jason shoved the cardboard into the recycling bin so loudly it echoed. I thought he was going to use the box cutter on Hale if I didn't step in, so I picked a nice neutral topic: her interests.
“She liked movies a lot. She said she was going to go out to Hollywood and be an actress, which is why she picked UCLA.” Jason stopped, flipping the safety on the box cutter and putting it in his pocket. “That's what got us talking. She never saw any of the old movies, like from the seventies, so I showed her those.” From behind Jason, Hale raised an eyebrow. “She really liked
Bonnie and Clyde,
and cried a bunch at the end. Her dad only let her come over to my house when my parents were home, and when the movie finished she had to go right home.”