Read I Totally Meant to Do That Online
Authors: Jane Borden
I Totally Meant to Do That (32 page)
In the wrong direction, apparently.
“Inaction is still an action. Not so in New York.”
That’s wrong; I was wrong. I have never made a major commitment to New York: That passivity is a choice nonetheless. Which means I have made a choice.
“While the box is closed, it is impossible to determine whether or not the object inside is beautiful.”
I’m tired of hiding in a box,
“It’s like living in a cell. And prisoners don’t get shivved in their cells.”
tired of hiding in a cage,
“As night falls, I grow fearful of lying awake, lamenting a wasted day. So instead I go out in search of something to throw the hours at.”
I’m just plain tired.
“Self-actualization rarely breeds excitement.”
Yeah, but it’s self-actualization, you enormous dumbass.
“My thumb was unmoved to gesture up or down.”
Until now.
“There had to be a way to have my cake and eat it too.”
