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Authors: Stuart Dybek
We were on a fifth chorus when Mick cautioned, “Not so loud or someone will hear what a catchy tune it is and rip it off and then we'll be in a real mess.” It was a concern of our father's that someone might steal his song and get rich.
We began to graze our way through the Lower East Sideâa Caribbean place for conch fritters, a restaurant in Chinatown whose display window featured a swampy aquarium filled with
croaking frogs, baby eels in olive oil at a tapas bar, giant clam in a basement sushi place, borscht at the Ukrainian National Home, Sicilian cheese cake at Venieros, palacsinta at the Veselka Coffee Shop â¦
croaking frogs, baby eels in olive oil at a tapas bar, giant clam in a basement sushi place, borscht at the Ukrainian National Home, Sicilian cheese cake at Venieros, palacsinta at the Veselka Coffee Shop â¦
Grazing through an evening was a private ritual carried over from the times I'd visited Mick in New Orleans, when we'd hike the city from restaurant to restaurant or drive into the Spanish moss-festooned countryside, to all-night truck stops serving Cajun food and zydeco joints in Delacroix on the bayou, where the oysters were fresh off the boat.
We were alternating rum and espresso on Mick's yin-yang theory that an equilibrium could be achieved between alcohol and caffeine. By two a.m. we were speeding drunk. We hid our money in our shoes and, still schlepping my backpack, headed down Ninth, a street along which drugs bloomed like night flowers in the spring air. A shadowy gauntlet of dealers murmured, “Smack it up man, smack it up, dust dust, got what you need, got what you want, rambo, coke, sunshine ⦔
We bought a dime bag from a black kid singsonging “sens, sens, sensamilla,” and walked to a fenced park off Avenue A where a basketball gameâas much a symptom of spring as lilacsâwas going on by streetlight. In the shadows, three drummers beat congas and chanted.
“Does this weed smell like oregano to you? I hope we didn't get rooked,” I said, employing one of Sir's signature words for being taken.
“Hear that?” Mick asked, passing me the reefer he'd expertly rolled. “They're chanting the name of Obatala, the supreme divinity on the terrestrial plane.”
“The terrestrial plane! No shit?”
“His day of the week is Sunday, his color the purest white. Sacrifice to Obatala requires a white female goat or a white canary.”
“And I always thought canaries were by definition yellow.” I took a drag and held in the smoke. It wasn't oregano.
“His favorite fruit is
guanábana,
and unlike Chango, whose offering is always rum, Obatala hates alcohol. His water comes from rain.” There was no stopping Mick now. He could go on reciting the secret attributes of the gods for hours, just as he could recite recipes, historical facts, conspiracy theories, jokes, verbs in a half dozen languages â¦
guanábana,
and unlike Chango, whose offering is always rum, Obatala hates alcohol. His water comes from rain.” There was no stopping Mick now. He could go on reciting the secret attributes of the gods for hours, just as he could recite recipes, historical facts, conspiracy theories, jokes, verbs in a half dozen languages â¦
Maybe it was the sens, but, after a few hits, my brother's litany began to seem interconnected in a web of chant with the
congaceros
at its center. Car horns and sirens and shouts in the dark were part of it, too, threads of an invisible network of sound discernible in the way that the miles of spider silk connecting every weed and wildflower in a field become momentarily visible on dewy mornings at a certain angle of dawn. The rumble of traffic, the scuffle of gym shoes, the ball reverbing across asphalt, gonging off the metal backboard, and slithering through the chimes of the chain-link net, were a counterpoint to the drumbeat. It struck me then that such connections were the way Mick had come to perceive the world. He believed reality was coded and that there were wise men who could read its mysterious subtext, wizards who could discern the eternal designs beneath the daily chaos, shamans, all the grander for their humble surroundings, whose arcane knowledge could influence fate.
congaceros
at its center. Car horns and sirens and shouts in the dark were part of it, too, threads of an invisible network of sound discernible in the way that the miles of spider silk connecting every weed and wildflower in a field become momentarily visible on dewy mornings at a certain angle of dawn. The rumble of traffic, the scuffle of gym shoes, the ball reverbing across asphalt, gonging off the metal backboard, and slithering through the chimes of the chain-link net, were a counterpoint to the drumbeat. It struck me then that such connections were the way Mick had come to perceive the world. He believed reality was coded and that there were wise men who could read its mysterious subtext, wizards who could discern the eternal designs beneath the daily chaos, shamans, all the grander for their humble surroundings, whose arcane knowledge could influence fate.
“This city is so fucking strange,” Mick was saying. “Look up and there's all these lights and even though we're at the edge of a dark ocean, not a single star. Empty skyscrapers squandering electricity just so everyone knows that in the undeclared capital of the modern world there's power to burn, and here, just blocks away in the middle of junkie heaven and hell, they're calling on the ancient Yoruba deities. It seems all the wilder and more primitive for the incongruity.”
There wasn't much night left by the time we finally got to
Mick's flat on Delancey. Mick had told me about Leon, his deaf albino tom, but overlooked mentioning Mirza, so I wasn't prepared for the sight of a woman asleep. The place seemed furnished in anarchy. A boom box resonated Latin music. Partially unpacked boxes spilled their contents, pillars of books piled against walls threatened to topple and bring the walls down with them. The only seats were at a kitchen table cluttered with empty bottles, plates that served as ashtrays, and dirty pots from some exotic feast Mick had cooked up, perhaps days ago. Beneath the table the eyes of Diablo the borzoi glared out like a wolf's from its lair. But, unlike all of Mick's previous disordered places, this flat smelled faintly floral. A bare mattress, crammed into what probably was meant to be a pantry, extended out beyond the doorway. A woman was asleep on the mattress, although given the surrounding mess, the blaring radio, the flickering fluorescent kitchen fixture, it seemed more likely that she was passed out. All I could see of her were long legs in black net stockings and red high heelsâone red shoe, to be exact, the other presumably kicked off. The immobile perfection of those tawny legs sticking from the doorway made it appear wholly possible that my brother was bedding down with the bottom half of a mannequin. Mick didn't seem to notice anything out of the ordinary.
Mick's flat on Delancey. Mick had told me about Leon, his deaf albino tom, but overlooked mentioning Mirza, so I wasn't prepared for the sight of a woman asleep. The place seemed furnished in anarchy. A boom box resonated Latin music. Partially unpacked boxes spilled their contents, pillars of books piled against walls threatened to topple and bring the walls down with them. The only seats were at a kitchen table cluttered with empty bottles, plates that served as ashtrays, and dirty pots from some exotic feast Mick had cooked up, perhaps days ago. Beneath the table the eyes of Diablo the borzoi glared out like a wolf's from its lair. But, unlike all of Mick's previous disordered places, this flat smelled faintly floral. A bare mattress, crammed into what probably was meant to be a pantry, extended out beyond the doorway. A woman was asleep on the mattress, although given the surrounding mess, the blaring radio, the flickering fluorescent kitchen fixture, it seemed more likely that she was passed out. All I could see of her were long legs in black net stockings and red high heelsâone red shoe, to be exact, the other presumably kicked off. The immobile perfection of those tawny legs sticking from the doorway made it appear wholly possible that my brother was bedding down with the bottom half of a mannequin. Mick didn't seem to notice anything out of the ordinary.
“You didn't mention a roommate. You sure it's all right for me to crash here?”
“No problem. My girlfriend,
mi amiguita,
Mirza,” he said by way of introduction. “Mirza, meet
mi 'mano,
Perry.”
mi amiguita,
Mirza,” he said by way of introduction. “Mirza, meet
mi 'mano,
Perry.”
The legs didn't stir.
“See,” he said. “She's totally cool with it.” Then he dropped his voice. “If she asks how old I am don't tell her.”
“Why not? Why would she ask me?”
“She's very curious about my family. Don't tell her anything. She'll misinterpret it. We're having our little squabbles lately.”
For what was left of the night, I slept in my clothes on a
musty pile of drapes wedged between boxes on the bare floor, with Leon curled purring on my chest and Diablo snarling, his fangs bared at my throat each time I shifted, futilely searching for a comfortable position.
musty pile of drapes wedged between boxes on the bare floor, with Leon curled purring on my chest and Diablo snarling, his fangs bared at my throat each time I shifted, futilely searching for a comfortable position.
When I woke to Saturday, light was defogging the grated, unwashed windows. Leon sat perched on the refrigerator observing Mirza, who, dressed in a tank top and jogging sweats, stood at the stove with her back to me, whisking canned milk and cinnamon into a pot of coffee. From the pantry doorway, Mick's bare, hairy legs stuck out over the mattress as Mirza's had the night before. The radio played Bach, and the borzoi gnawed at something under the table.
“Buenos dÃas,”
Mirza said, glancing over her shoulder. I was struck by how broad her shoulders were. She had the build and muscle tone of a gymnast. Her kinky hair was cropped short, dyed bronze, a shade that matched her skin. She wasn't pretty so much as beautiful in a handsome way.
Mirza said, glancing over her shoulder. I was struck by how broad her shoulders were. She had the build and muscle tone of a gymnast. Her kinky hair was cropped short, dyed bronze, a shade that matched her skin. She wasn't pretty so much as beautiful in a handsome way.
“Good morning,” I said.
She handed me a steaming mug. “I can see the family resemblance. Especially in the cheekbones. You are Yimmy's brother.”
“Whose brother?” I asked.
“Yimmy.”
I was groggy and wondered if Yimmy was some Caribbean term of endearment. “You mean Mick?”
“Mick? No, Yimmy. Yimmy Delacroix.”
“Yeah,
mi hermano,”
I said.
mi hermano,”
I said.
Not only had Mick neglected to tell me about Mirza but he'd forgotten to mention that in New York he was no longer Mick Katzek. Later, he'd clue me in that he'd changed his identity and assumed a stage name for his acting career. The name had belonged to an old Cajun he'd worked with on the boats out of New Orleans, a man without any family of his own who befriended Mick, taught him how to make gumbo on a galley stove,
to tie nautical knots, to cable barges together without losing his fingers, and to play bourre, a mean card game with dramatically rising stakes. Bourre was played each payday on the docks, and Mick also learned the phraseâ
Je bourried la vie foutuâ
and the attitude that went with it: I bourried my fucking life. Delacroix's heart gave out suddenly on one of their trips down the Gulf Coast, and he was buried in the Seaside Cemetery in Corpus Christi, in a pauper's grave beneath a marker on which the date of neither his birth nor death appeared. It simply read: JAMES DELACROIX OF LOUISIANA.
to tie nautical knots, to cable barges together without losing his fingers, and to play bourre, a mean card game with dramatically rising stakes. Bourre was played each payday on the docks, and Mick also learned the phraseâ
Je bourried la vie foutuâ
and the attitude that went with it: I bourried my fucking life. Delacroix's heart gave out suddenly on one of their trips down the Gulf Coast, and he was buried in the Seaside Cemetery in Corpus Christi, in a pauper's grave beneath a marker on which the date of neither his birth nor death appeared. It simply read: JAMES DELACROIX OF LOUISIANA.
His name was the last thing he taught Mick.
“Di qué tú quieres?”
the gang banger asks again.
the gang banger asks again.
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That the question is oddly formal and more insistentâ“Say what you want”âis not lost on my brother. German and Spanish were his double major before he dropped out of Memphis State. Years ago he lived briefly in Mexico, just before the FBI caught up with him in New Orleans for draft evasion. Mick has an ear for languages. He doesn't dream in Spanish but does lapse into it when he gets drunk. One of Mick's many theories is that the fastest way to learn a language is to live with a woman who speaks it. “Of course,” he concedes, “your vocabulary will be a little skewed.”
Besides Spanish he speaks a bit of German, Cambodian, Italian, French, Portuguese, Haitian Creole, Polish, Chinese. Not that he's learned all those from womenâour father spoke Polish, and in the restaurants where Mick has been employed for most of his working life English is often a second language.
He got involved with theater by following a woman. She was strikingly beautiful, Mick said, her hair glowed with a sheen he'd seen before only on race horses. He saw her on a street in New Orleans and the song “Tennessee Stud,” with its chorus “The Tennessee stud was long and lean, The color of the sun and his eyes
were green” popped into his mind. Humming the song, he followed her for blocks into the Garden District, to a bar where actors had gathered for an audition in the back room. When Mick followed her in, they thought he'd come to try out for
The Glass Menagerie.
Playing along, he read for the part of the narrator, Tom Wingfield, from the play's opening speech: “Yes I have tricks in my pocket, I have things up my sleeve. But I am the opposite of a stage magician. He gives you illusion that has the appearance of truth. I give you the truth in the pleasant guise of illusion ⦔
were green” popped into his mind. Humming the song, he followed her for blocks into the Garden District, to a bar where actors had gathered for an audition in the back room. When Mick followed her in, they thought he'd come to try out for
The Glass Menagerie.
Playing along, he read for the part of the narrator, Tom Wingfield, from the play's opening speech: “Yes I have tricks in my pocket, I have things up my sleeve. But I am the opposite of a stage magician. He gives you illusion that has the appearance of truth. I give you the truth in the pleasant guise of illusion ⦔
Mick had read only to the line “In memory everything seems to happen to music” when the director gave him the lead.
“What about the Tennessee mare you followed?” I asked.
“She was a beauty, but I'm afraid she couldn't say âPass the bread,'” Mick said. “Got sent home in tears without a part.”
Over the next four years Mick played leading roles at most of the theaters in New Orleans, until he felt there were no challenges left there. Local theater didn't pay the bills, and Mick, who was waiting tables, had never saved a cent, but he managed to put away enough for a one-way bus ticket to New York, and to stake himself for the month he figured it would take to get resettled.
It was winter when he left for New York; he'd forgotten what real winter was like. He was crashing in the one-room flat of an old activist friend on Mott Street and running out of money fast. One night, half frozen as he aimlessly explored the city, he wandered into the Kit Kat, a strip bar off Forty-second Street, and saw Mirza dancing topless before a blue foil curtain on a lilaclit stage. She was dusted in glitter, and the lighting seemed appliquéd to her muscular body. Instead of disco, she was dancingâwrithingâto Coltrane's
A Love Supreme.
If she'd been stripping to the “Ave Maria” it wouldn't have seemed more sacrilegious to Mick. He watched spellbound, the sinuous supplication of Coltrane's tenor sax aching along the byways of Mick's body, and suddenly he understood that, in this glitzy low-life bar,
her dance was daring to preach something beautiful and so, inescapably, something spiritual as well. Before the night was over, Mick, claiming he was a prize fighter, had talked himself into a job as a bouncer at the Kit Kat Lounge.
A Love Supreme.
If she'd been stripping to the “Ave Maria” it wouldn't have seemed more sacrilegious to Mick. He watched spellbound, the sinuous supplication of Coltrane's tenor sax aching along the byways of Mick's body, and suddenly he understood that, in this glitzy low-life bar,
her dance was daring to preach something beautiful and so, inescapably, something spiritual as well. Before the night was over, Mick, claiming he was a prize fighter, had talked himself into a job as a bouncer at the Kit Kat Lounge.
My brother is a middleweight, not the typical bouncer build, but he'd actually had a few semipro fights in New Orleans and been coached by Willie Pastrano, the onetime light heavyweight champ. In a way, it was Pastrano who was responsible for Mick's moving to New York. Theater types had repeatedly told Mick that New York was where he needed to go if he wanted a real acting career, and that his vague physical resemblance to James Dean was something he could cash in on. But he didn't buy it until Willie Pastrano said, “Mick, I can't keep training you unless you make the decision to turn pro. Think it over, because people will pay to see a white kid who looks like that dead fuckup actor James Whatshisface.” That was the permissionâthe omenâto start anew as Jimmy Delacroix, to move to New York in the dead of winter and enroll in the Actors Studio, where Brando, Montgomery Clift, and James Dean had studied with Lee Strasberg.
“Qué quieres?”
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The Disciple removes his sunglasses as if for emphasis, then rises to his feet like someone tired of sitting, in need of a stretch. He's a handsome kid with a shadow of mustache, and now that he's removed his sunglasses, Mick notices that what he took to be a mole on the kid's cheekbone at the corner of one eye is a tattooed blue tear. The tear, Mick knows, is a tribute to a gang buddy who was killed. Every kid in this gang-graffitied neighborhood could probably be crying the same blue tear.
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