Authors: Jack Olsen
Despite the flareups in the letters, Les and his second wife Betty continued to be Keith's only visitors, arriving twice a year in their thirty-five-foot “fifth-wheel” trailer pulled by a Dodge Ram diesel that cruised smoothly at sixty-five, as the old man proudly told his son.
Keith noticed that whenever Les took his seat on one of the hard metal seats in the open visiting room, his eyes began darting toward the exit, and he usually left before the scheduled visiting period was over. The son observed this behavior with bemusement. He looked forward to the visits, but he reminded himself that he and his father would always be out of sync. He wrote about one of the visits:
I learn that Dad and his wife are here when I come back from lunch. I get into my good clothes and make it down to the visitors' room. Even before he comes in, I know what to expect. He's begging me to see his side. We make eye contact, and I can see tears in his eyesânot tears of joy to see me again, but tears of knowing his son is in prison for life and he has to come to visit. They're tears of self-sympathy, as if what I've done has affected his own retirement and motivation. I kind of laugh to myself at how pathetic this is.
We hug each other, and I feel the mass of flexed muscle he tightens up to show me his power. He holds a white piece of paper in his left hand. It is the questions he wants to cover in the visit. Very businesslike.
I've gained weight, but he doesn't show any negative response, only that I look better, my color is better than the last time. He's buttering me up for the kill. “Do you want anything, Son? Pop? Candy?” I get a Snickers bar and a coffee. Betty keeps the Snickers coming, more coffee and some jelly beans. They remind me of the jelly beans Mom used to put on top of our birthday cakes.
Dad covers the bad news and good news firstâthen on to the real purpose of his visit. “I almost didn't come this time, Keith,” he says. “I cried at how you still are blaming me for what you did. But no! I came in here to see my son. I have to love my son no matter what he's done.”
He says, “Keith, when you wrote about me shocking you in the greenhouse, you made it sound as if you were seriously hurt.
Son, it was in fun!
You got it all wrong. It wasn't 220 volts, it was 12, the same voltage we used in the lighting.”
We both know better, but I won't argue. The 220 was for the three big exhaust fans. I helped to wire them in. Dad says he shocked us kids with 12 volts, just for a joke, and nobody complained because they could hardly feel it. I just let him talk. If it made him feel betterâ¦.
It's a typical day in the big open room. These visits are life and death to some of the inmates. A black guy is talking nasty to his white visitor. He leans into her face and spits, and the guard on duty picks up the phone. Two other guards grab a guy who's talking with a little old ladyâhis mother, I guess. They must suspect her of passing dope. That means this visit is over, he'll have a full body-cavity search, and the next time mom sees her son, it'll be through glass.
Dad is fidgeting around, taking it all in, but there are other things on his mind. After a while he says, “Son, let's get something straight once and for all. You have a bad memory. Why did you blame me when you were arrested?
Why did you do that?”
I tell him, “Well, Dad, it was real easy to just say you're an alcoholic and you really couldn't help yourself.”
He says, “You didn't have to say that, goddamn it! Sure, I drank when I was younger, but I was
never
an alcoholic.”
I say, “Dad, you were drunk every day by noon.”
I'm watching him squirm, like he's thinking,
Goddamn it, I wish I could just stand up and pop this punk and teach him a fucking lesson.
That's what I've been waiting for. One day he'll snap. He'll take off his belt one more time. And I'll drop him.
He's so upset about being called an alcoholic, he's shaking. I'm thinking he's really in a bad position.
He's lost control of me and everybody else in our familyâ¦.
He says, “Son, I still have a hard time believing what you've done. You must have been on drugs.”
I deny this, but it doesn't satisfy him. I tell him, “The consensus of opinion about serial killers is that it comes from their parents.”
This is not what he wants to hear. He says, “Didn't you write me a long time ago that I was a good father and it wasn't my fault?” I tell him that I sent him the letter he requested so he could show it around. He tells me to stick with that story because it was the truth.
He says, “It wasn't your mom's fault, and it wasn't my fault. It was that thing between your legs. Thank God your mom isn't around to see you in here. What would she think of you now, Keith?”
I say, “Mom isn't with us anymore. She's dead.”
He asks what the state will do with my body when I die. I tell him I think they'll incinerate me with the rest of the trash, or hang me up in the yard for a piñata. Dad doesn't get the jokeâdeath is a serious subject for him since his prostate cancer.
I tell him to spread my ashes along Interstate 90 from the flatbed of a 379-Series Pete conventional tractor with plum paint and a Vari-shield and ten grand worth of chrome. Make sure it's washed and waxed. Then I wonder,
Is he worried about my dead body or does he just want control of my ashes?
I wolf down another Snickers bar and the rest of the jelly beans. He has a couple of questions about driving truck, and I can see he still feels competitive. He starts talking about shifting gears, and I have to tell him he's got it wrongâ“It's basically a five-speed, Dadâ¦. Then you come back to second instead of firstâ¦. That knob in the center position, you shift it like a super-eightâ¦. Then bring the other knob up, 1 23 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. That one's like a super-ten, but you have a double underâ¦.”
He's barely listening, pretending he already knows the shift sequence. When he's finally reached the last question on his list, he tells me he has to leave because some friends are waiting outside. I'm thinking,
Friends outside?
You got a son
inside,
you son of a bitch! Which is more important?
There's still thirty minutes left!
To keep him around, I point out Randy Woodfield, “the I-5 killer.” He's talking to a gorgeous young woman with big tits. Randy is a handsome guy, a star jock, drafted by the Green Bay Packers. It seems like he has a different female visitor every week, and they all have big tits.
I say, “Dad, look over there. That's Jerome Brudos, the lust killer. He made lampshades out of his victims' skin.”
I point out a couple of thrill killers, Price and Bradbury. Dad keeps saying they look like ordinary people. Well, what the hell does he think we are? Hannibal Lecter? We
are
ordinary people. We don't have horns.
This visit ends like all the others. We hug and say good-bye, and he whispers, “You need a good licking for what you put me through.” He can
never
leave without saying that. He says, “I wish I could just put you over my knee.”
Whenever he leaves, I make sure to tell him I love him. It might be my last chance. And he tells me the same. Tears well up in his eyes. Not meâI never show tears. Tears are a sign of weakness. When you cry, you're always crying about yourself. It's self-pity.
As he heads toward the exit with Betty, I remind myself that he's got cancer and other medical problems. All those years of breathing tobacco smoke and welding gases and blacksmithing fumes ruined his lungs. Every time he gets a cold he's at risk of pneumonia. He's never far from his oxygen tank. He's on antidepressants.
Sometimes after the visits I feel worse than when he stays away. Maybe I'm in here to force everyone in my heritage to shape up, to take heed of being a good parent and show love to one another. I am the person in the family that created the most impact on everyone else, so much that it shook up the foundation of everyone named Jesperson and they will only have to mention my name to bring in the reality that being selfish and doing anything illegal will destroy their way of life. My terror is now their hidden terror. Never will they outrun the horror of my story. I will be ever etched in the back of their minds for all of the generations to come.
I feel power in their pain.
With the last threads to his family broken or under strain, Keith thought about making new connections. But how? And with whom? He certainly didn't want more contact with his fellow inmates. There were too many crosscurrents, feuds, racial divisions, too many snitches, opportunists, angle-players. And there was too much resentment of him and his notoriety.
He tried to decide what type of person might want to correspond with a serial killer. Bleeding heart social workers? Teenagers looking for kicks? He'd had enough of that kind of attention.
The answer came to him with a joltâwhy, other serial killers, of course! Maybe they strangled and stabbed and shot innocent people, but that doesn't mean they're unfeeling monsters.
Just look at me!
They could exchange advice and information, discuss mutual problems, pass along their artwork and photos, share their fears, hopes, news, legalese, holiday cheer, and their courthouse smarts and savvy. He reckoned himself the ultimate arbiter on issues of crime and punishment. “When I went down, I had ignorance of the law. I was flying blind. I had to sit in my cell and analyze things before I wised up. Now I could help other lifers. And by figuring them out, maybe I could learn a little more about myself.”
Most of his correspondents were on death row, and he prided himself on being the rare exception. He seldom tired of explaining how he'd outmaneuvered the authorities. “A feat in itself!” he wrote to an admirer. “A serial killer that does not get executed.
Unheard of!”
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His first attempt to establish contact with a marquee murderer had taken place early in 1996, while he was still juggling legal problems in Oregon, Washington and Wyoming. He'd written a friendly letter to Danny Rolling, facing execution in Florida for the massacre of five college students. Jesperson's letter to “the Gainesville Slasher” congratulated Rolling on finding a new girlfriendâ“she sounds like a neat and great person.” The letter had a whiff of sycophancy. “Hope all will go well with you, my friend in Christ,” wrote the lifelong agnostic. “God bless you. No response is needed.”
None was received. While Keith was awaiting a reply, the fastidious Rolling was telling a third party that he found the Self-start Serial Killer Kit and Keith's other attempts at Internet gallows humor in atrocious taste. “That kind of humor doesn't impress me,” said the man who'd slashed four victims to death and decapitated a fifth. “There is NOTHING, absolutely nothing about KILLING that is humorous.”
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After the rebuff Keith waited a year before contacting other killers. Then he started a correspondence with Jeff Shapiro, a triple-murderer who was being held in a supermax prison in Colorado. Shapiro's approach to cruelty and violence seemed as lighthearted as his own. “You must have an encyclopedia of different pen pals and the like,” Shapiro wrote admiringly.
The correspondence was short-lived. “Shapiro began to act annoyed that I got so much media coverage. He's a foot shorter than me and I guess it made him jealous. I wrote, âIf you want some press, go out and get it, man! It's not hard. Just stick your nose where it doesn't belong. Act arrogant. Do something weird. The media will make you famous.' Then the silly son of a bitch hinted to me that he was the Green River Killer. His stupidity meant that from now on the prison would be studying every word we exchanged. I didn't need that kind of attention. I cut him off.”
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An enthusiastic “Greetings from Paris!” opened an exchange with Nicolas Claux, “the Vampire of Paris,” a former mortuary assistant serving life for cannibalism. Claux enclosed a photograph of himself in his cell, working on drawings that were eerily similar to the pictures that Keith was just beginning to turn out for his friends. Also known as “the Ghoul,” the Gallic gourmand was pleased to share his own expertise:
I personnaly think that any kind of spiced sauce will spoil the naturally sweet taste of human flesh and bloodâhuman meat is a gift from the Gods, and it is a shame to ruin its delightful taste with seasonings and spicesâ¦. Bon appetit!.
A less-inspired correspondence began after Keith saw the serial killer Arthur Shawcross on the TV program
Justice Files
and sent off a letter: “Instead of writing groupies, why don't you write to another convict?”
Shawcross, murderer of two children and eleven women, was an avid artist like Claux and had auctioned some of his primitive paintings on the Internet before being sent to the hole for violating prison policy. His letters were barely literate and full of whiny complaints. Keith offered the child killer some unsolicited advice on doing time, but Shawcross, nearing his twentieth year in custody, failed to respond.
Keith wrote Pierre Navelot, a French citizen serving thirty years for decapitating a woman, and Javed Iqbal of Pakistan, the confessed murderer of a hundred children, but there was no response from either. Patrick Kearney, a homophobe who had left thirty butchered bodies alongside California highways, proved friendlier. Kearney wrote in an upbeat letter:
Keith, you and I have corresponded with some of the same people. This building has birds in it. They come right up to you and beg for food. No fear! I even saw a guy walking around with one sitting on his shoulder.
Kearney, “the Garbage Bag Killer,” was full of gossip about other imprisoned murderers (“Bobby Beausoleil of the Manson clan was in Oregon for awhile but has been moved elsewhere”). He complained about being transferred so oftenâ“we call it âbus therapy.'”
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Tommy Lynn Sells, “the Coast to Coast Killer,” a carnival roustabout who had conducted a twenty-year murder spree, agreed to join the letter-writers on receipt of “a little good faith.” Keith lost interest when he read that “$100 would be a good start.”
Charles DeFrates, a Washington serial murderer and cop killer, sent erudite letters from the penitentiary at Monroe, Washington. A killer from Kansas called himself “Slavemaster.” A seventeen-year-old Oregon prisoner claimed that “voices” made him murder a seven-year-old girl and hide her body under his parents' floorboards. The boy wrote, “I have my problems but I can get well don't you think dreams can come true?” Keith dispatched several pages of solicitude and advice.
Angel Maturino Resendez, “the Railway Killer,” proved to be the most bizarre member of the group, writing letters that seemed to have originated in a rubber room on a psychiatric ward. Once the FBI's Public Enemy Number One, Resendez awaited lethal injection in Texas for murdering three dozen victims while riding the rails. His envelopes came festooned with slogans, cryptic messages and irrelevancies: “Viva la France,” “9-16-1999 Mexican Independente from Spain,” “Do not purchase anything made in Chinaâ¦.” He referred to himself as “the angel of death” and wrote letters almost as long as Keith's.
The pen pals endured a rocky period when one of the Jesperson letters was made public. Resendez had sent it to a third party who posted it on the Internet, resulting in newspaper articles about how easy it was to kill and avoid the death penalty, plus five pages on the fine art of defeating the justice system. When Keith learned of his worldwide exposure, he fired off a message:
Please don't give my letters awayâ¦when the pricks get letters I sent you, do you know that he now can sell the rights to copies?â¦If I cannot trust you to keep the material I sent to you, then I will no longer write you.
A chastened Resendez replied: “Man I fuck-it-up for you. I was especting something good out of this. I do not blame medication, I did not try to reach into my mind to see what could happenâ¦.I did you bad my Friend.”
The Hispanic killer promised to avoid future problems by returning Keith's letters after he read them. He wrote:
The day I get Kill many will be kill also. I have so many followers, and I must die to show that I did not fear to die in order to truely serve God and my Lord Jesus. I will be more dangerous when I die.
Like his fellow correspondent, the Railway Killer was given to exposition and exegesis, often for pages on end. He explained that John F. Kennedy, Jr., died because of “a Radra Round antena as the one use to deteck military aircraft.” He described abortion clinics as “temples of Baall and Moleck and must be destroy.” He quoted religious admonitions about homosexuals and reeled off pages of Biblical references that Keith ignored. He sent his “shortest poem”:
No!
No! No!! No!!!
No!
It was signed, “par Angel.” Les Jesperson, the only prizewinning poet of Keith's acquaintance, read the poem and observed that it needed work.
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By the turn of the millennium, Keith's serial killer network was taking up most of his time, but he doggedly answered every letter. “These were my people. When they first got arrested, they were naive, stupid, didn't know how to handle the legal system. I would tell them guilt or innocence makes no differenceâit's what the cops can prove that counts. I'd teach them how to get second-degree murder instead of first. I'd teach them about alcohol, drugs, prison medications. The smart ones realized it was a good idea to keep in touch, even some of the old cons.
“Charles Manson was always after new followers. If you wrote and said you'd like to join his family, you'd get a letter that looked like it went through a blender. Most of the time, other prisoners would answer his mail for him, and they used a signature stamp. Another easy one was the Night Stalker, Richard Ramirez. Promise to worship him and his demons and Satan and you were in like Flynt. Henry Lee Lucas used to write to anyone who sent him ten dollars. And John Wayne Gacy loved young men. All you had to do was pretend to be gay or bisexual and he would start reeling off his sexual exploits. He even sent money to his young lovers so they'd visit him in the prison. Nobody went into mourning when he was executed.”