Hunger (28 page)
Authors: Knut Hamsun
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half-formed inward yelps about a certain stigma, the first black mark on my honor,
141/64. Deleted in CW:
half-formed inward yelps about a certain stigma, the first black mark on my honor,
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PART THREE145/65. The rest of the paragraph was added in CW.
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174/77. The preceding two sentences were added in CW.
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184/81. The rest of the paragraph was added in CW.
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I spoke quite unconsciously, involuntarily, without myself being aware of it.
184/81. Deleted in CW:
I spoke quite unconsciously, involuntarily, without myself being aware of it.
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221/96. Here I follow P in starting a new section.
221/96. Here I follow P in starting a new section.
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“I say to you, I would rather be a flunky in hell than a free man in your mansions; I say to you, I am filled with blissful contempt for your heavenly meanness and choose the abyss, into which the devil, Judas and the Pharaoh were hurled, for my eternal abode. I say to you, your heaven is full of earth's most coarse-headed idiots and poor in spirit, I say to you that you have filled your heaven from down here with fat dead harlots, who abjectly fell on their knees before you in the hour of death. I tell you,”
228/99. Long passage omitted in CW:
“I say to you, I would rather be a flunky in hell than a free man in your mansions; I say to you, I am filled with blissful contempt for your heavenly meanness and choose the abyss, into which the devil, Judas and the Pharaoh were hurled, for my eternal abode. I say to you, your heaven is full of earth's most coarse-headed idiots and poor in spirit, I say to you that you have filled your heaven from down here with fat dead harlots, who abjectly fell on their knees before you in the hour of death. I tell you,”
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228/99. These two rhetorical questions were added in CW.
228/99. These two rhetorical questions were added in CW.
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229/99. In P, the preceding sentence read:
“I say to you, my whole frame, every cell in my body, every power of my soul thirsts to mock you, you merciful scum up on high.”
From there on, a substantial passage is deleted in CW:
“I say to you that I would, if I could, shout this loudly into your heaven and all over the earth; I would, if I could, breathe it into every unborn human soul that will some day arrive on earth, every flower, every leaf, every drop in the sea. I say to you, I will mock you on Judgment Day and curse you till the teeth fall out of my mouth for the infinite cowardice of your godhead. I tell you,”
229/99. In P, the preceding sentence read:
“I say to you, my whole frame, every cell in my body, every power of my soul thirsts to mock you, you merciful scum up on high.”
From there on, a substantial passage is deleted in CW:
“I say to you that I would, if I could, shout this loudly into your heaven and all over the earth; I would, if I could, breathe it into every unborn human soul that will some day arrive on earth, every flower, every leaf, every drop in the sea. I say to you, I will mock you on Judgment Day and curse you till the teeth fall out of my mouth for the infinite cowardice of your godhead. I tell you,”
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229/99. In P, the sentence continues:
“for ever and ever, I say goodbye with my heart and kidneys, I say to you my final irrevocable goodbye,”
229/99. In P, the sentence continues:
“for ever and ever, I say goodbye with my heart and kidneys, I say to you my final irrevocable goodbye,”
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230/99. The preceding sentence was added in CW.
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237/102. The preceding sentence was added in CW.
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237/103. Here I follow P in starting a new section.
237/103. Here I follow P in starting a new section.
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“Try to catch me,” she said.
And amid much laughter I tried to catch her. While she was running about,
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246/106. The rest of this sentence was added in CW.
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“So, go on and tell me”:
250/108. The last two paragraphs were added in CW. Instead, P continues after
“So, go on and tell me”:
“Sure, if you let me kiss your bosom first.”
“Are you crazy? So, go on and tell me!”
“No, please, let me do it first!”
“Hmm. No, not first. . . . Later perhaps. . . . I want to hear what sort of person you are. . . . I'm sure it's something awful!”
It also pained me that she should think the worst of me. I was afraid I might completely alienate her, and I couldn't bear the suspicion she harbored about my way of life. I would clear myself in her eyes, make myself worthy of her, show her that she was sitting beside a person who was pure as an angel, or nearly so. Good Lord, after all I could count my lapses to date on the fingers of one hand.
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252/108. An entire paragraph was deleted in CW here:
Hee, she asked me what I wanted! Push on, that's what I wanted, push straight on! It wasn't only at a distance that I was in the habit of pushing on; that was not the sort of person I was. I made a point of holding my own, refusing to be punctured by knitted brows. No, by George, I had never yet walked away from such an affair without having accomplished my purpose. . . .
And I pushed on.
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253/109. The second half of this sentence was added in CW.
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Why hadn't she left me alone, since nothing could come of it anyway? What had got into her just now?
255/110. This sentence was added in CW. Instead, P reads:
Why hadn't she left me alone, since nothing could come of it anyway? What had got into her just now?
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PART FOUR256/110. This sentence was added in CW.
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I was, so to speak, very much in my right mind! My head was clear, nothing was lacking, thank heaven!
278/118. The P text goes on:
I was, so to speak, very much in my right mind! My head was clear, nothing was lacking, thank heaven!
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283/120. In starting a new section here, I follow P.
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“No, I said I had made a slip of the pen once, a date, a trifle, if you would like to know, a wrong date on a letter, a single wrong stroke of the penâthat was my whole offense. No, thank God, one can still tell right from wrong! Anyway, what would become of me if I stained my honor to boot? It's just my sense of honor that keeps me afloat now. But I trust it will be strong enough; at any rate, it has preserved me to date.”
287/122. Here a paragraph is deleted in CW:
“No, I said I had made a slip of the pen once, a date, a trifle, if you would like to know, a wrong date on a letter, a single wrong stroke of the penâthat was my whole offense. No, thank God, one can still tell right from wrong! Anyway, what would become of me if I stained my honor to boot? It's just my sense of honor that keeps me afloat now. But I trust it will be strong enough; at any rate, it has preserved me to date.”
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304/128. In starting a new section here, I follow P.
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333/140. The participial phrase was added in CW.
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