How to Party With an Infant (2 page)

When Ellie was six months old Mele gave in and joined SFMC, the San Francisco Mother’s Club, which promised to find her a playgroup that would be a perfect match. She would go ahead and pay dues for friendship. Though at first she was totally mismatched—she was like Goldilocks, trying out moms—some were too DIY, others too do-nothing-yourselves, total outsourcers. There were the design moms who looked like they walked out of
Dwell
and always seemed to have three names, like Gabrielle Muir Blake. They had husbands who all looked alike—glasses, tight black T-shirts, like something assembled: IKEA men.

There were Pac Heights moms—the kind of women who don’t seem to see you—they were like Range Rovers coming down a sidewalk, expecting everyone to scatter like pigeons.

There were the article moms—who have read every book and essay on parenting and look at you like you’re certifiable if you’re feeding your baby with a plastic spoon instead of from your mouth to boost her immune system (like the premastication article suggested).

But finally, she has found her fit: Annie, Georgia, Barrett, and Henry. She loves the way they talk—the clip and rhythm of it. An afternoon with them can make her feel warm and invincible. She knows they aren’t that original. Like the blues, parents all over the place use the same words, same chords, but it’s so great to be able to synchronize with people postchildren. It’s a joy, a relief, and really, a key component to happiness.

How serendipitous that at three thirty in the afternoon they all did the same thing: migrated here, to the Panhandle park. They eventually worked up the courage to talk to one another and move past the banal chitchat. Soon they found themselves laughing, shit-talking, texting, even talking on the phone! They became an unofficial playgroup, then later (this was Barrett’s idea)
an official SFMC playgroup, thereby able to receive the benefits: SFMC Online Forum, meetings with lecturers (free wine), and discounts at the Gap and the San Francisco Zoo. Now she catches other parents looking at them with longing and sometimes has the perverse desire to tell them their stroller brakes aren’t on. She isn’t completely happy, after all.

Mele looks over a few of her answers on the questionnaire, every now and then glancing up at Ellie—her adorable, pink floral baby doll dress over thick brown tights, a brown velvet coat. Children can wear period costumes from every era.

Mele has gotten a little carried away with the questionnaire, but figures she can pare it down later. She can pare it way, way down. Or maybe this is what the committee is looking for—honest first responses that jump off the page. Something wild and raw, zany and unplugged. The anti-cookbook cookbook. They are in San Francisco after all—progressive, provocative! Strippers probably breast-feed onstage! But no, things are not that cutting edge. Harvey Milk and Jerry Garcia are dead, moms shop cute boutiques in the Castro, and the mother’s club of San Francisco has its very own political climate. If she is going to impress the committee, then her hobbies will have to include DIY potato stamps and cardboard sewing cards shaped like polar bears and cacti. Who fuckin’ does that! Cookbook contest entrants, that’s who.

In any case, the process is therapeutic; cathartic and cleansing, like a juice detox or an enema, and she’s going with it. Maybe everyone should answer interview questions, even if the answers are never to be published or aired. It’s comforting to be able to explain yourself, or to be asked anything at all . . .

The San Francisco Mother’s Club Cookbook Competition

The annual SFMC Cookbook Competition is on! We are calling all moms who want to share their recipes and feelings on food, friends, and motherhood! From appetizers to desserts to everything in between, any type of cook has an opportunity to win. All San Francisco Mother’s Club parents are eligible to enter. You’ll need to fill out this questionnaire—be thorough!—and provide three recipe examples. We will then narrow down the competition and invite our five unique finalists to cook for some Very Important Moms, our fellow members Rachel Kawashima of Chopsticks Publishing Group and Lyndsey Price, head chef at Boulevard. Ever wanted to publish your own cookbook? Who knows? This could be your big break, Yummy Mummy!

We are looking for originality, variety, thoroughness, clarity, overall appeal of the recipes. The winner will win a culinary trip for two to Napa, an oven from Sears, and perhaps a book contract!
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Good luck, ladies! Bon appétit!

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A book contract is at the sole discretion of an outside party and not an official prize of this contest.

SFMC Questionnaire

The purpose of this questionnaire is to let the Steering Committee know more about you, your cookbook, and your writing style, so please be as detailed as possible. Through your questionnaire we are hoping to “meet” you and your world. Since the book should include vignettes on motherhood and your playgroup friendships, we will be looking for an original and clear voice. Have fun with it! Whet our palates!

Name:
Mele Bart

Three possible titles for your cookbook:

Bread to My Butter

Hungry Woman

How to Party with an Infant

What are your interests, avocations, and hobbies?

I love to read and write and take long walks while I listen to music and rehearse answers to a pretend Barbara Walters interview. I should say, I
used
to like writing, reading, and taking long walks. I used to like my looks, too, keeping them up. Now I rarely look in the mirror.

I used to like going to movies, having sex, shopping, but now, as you know, I have a baby. My current interests are crosswords, heavy snacking in front of the television after Ellie goes to bed, thinking of possible
Saturday Night Live
skits, hunting for the best soda fridges in town, strolling in grocery stores, ogling food at the Embarcadero Farmers’ Market, and making fusion gum (this is where I put a piece of fruit-flavored gum in my mouth, then about a minute later, a mint-flavored gum). I am also interested in television and not in an ironic way. Certain shows on Bravo make me say out loud: “My God, I love America.”

Bobby, my ex-boyfriend and father of my child, would only tolerate a reality show about motorcycle mechanics, couldn’t stand when I watched entertainment news.

“They just spent fifteen minutes telling us some actress put a quarter into a parking meter,” he’d say.

He liked looking at motorcycles and pizza ovens on Craigslist. He’d browse for hours, perhaps shopping for his other life out of the city that I didn’t know about: things for his garage, his house, and
alas, for his fiancée, a cheese maker in Petaluma. When he first told me about her I envisioned a country woman milking goats, her jeans pulled up to her nipples, but she isn’t like that at all. She’s finely assembled, chic and classic. She has a perfect ponytail, big teeth, and high cheekbones—that alien look of models. She knows how to sail, make cheese, ride horses, and she’s marrying the man I thought I’d be with for the rest of my life.

What do you do for a living?

Right now not much. My mom and stepdad help me out. They don’t think people should have babies out of wedlock, yet are total pro-lifers, so it’s a mixed message. They’re also not “kid people,” something I already knew, having been their kid. They live in Hawaii, a place I jammed out of as soon as I got my diploma. I miss the house, of course, my bedroom and its sliding glass door with wood trim. Every morning I would wake to the sound of chattering birds and the looming greenness of the mountain range upon which battles between tribes were fought. On my four-poster bed I’d inhale the scent of tiare through the wooden jalousies, then I’d walk to the kitchen, where a woman named Lehua would be making me breakfast, both of us ashamed and feeling sorry for one another.

My stepdad is an overdeveloper on Oahu. He has a Tesla and chest hair. Howard. He purports that his buildings reflect the Hawaiian spirit, but imports everything from Italy and caters to high-end Chinese. If there’s any Hawaiian spirit it’s because the buildings probably sit on ancient burial grounds.

My real dad (a kind of Hawaiian spirit) left when I was two, which was fine with my mom because all he did was fish and smoke pot. She needed essentials like a BMW and white leather pants. She was twenty-one and over the slumming-it stage.

He called me on some birthdays—my eighth, tenth, and thirteenth. Since age six I have only seen him twice. He’s like a whale that way. Our conversations were very abbreviated, for me because I didn’t know what to say; for him because he spoke pidgin English. I recall very little (though there is little to recall):

Him:
What grade you in now?

Me: Third.

Cut to two years later.

Him:
Did you get da kine jean jacket I sent?

Me: Yes. But it’s a size five. It’s like a crop top. We can’t show our midriffs in school, and I wouldn’t want to anyway.

Three years later.

Him:
What grade you stay?

Me: Seventh.

Him:
Shoots. I’ll send you some Yellowman CDs. You like ’em.

Me: Can I visit?

Him:
Nah.

Me: Why not?

Him:
Uh . . . we remodeling, das why.

End scene. That’s it. I’m done with those chapters. Ellie is my family. I think of my mom and stepdad as sponsors. I will wear their clothes, advertising from a distance that they’re a decent company.

I used to work for a place called Wheelbarrows, where I’d make and deliver meals to people who could afford not to cook. I was also a menu consultant. Now Ellie is my job and I still have my recipe blog, which pays fairly well with sponsors like Tyson chicken, Epicurious, Whine and Dine, and Freecreditscore.com.

If you read the directions in the posted recipes you’ll notice I’ll slip
in little anecdotes about my day, my interactions with other moms and the things I’ve overheard. For example, yesterday at SF Gymnastics I overheard a conversation where mothers were offering advice to a mom whose baby was so cute everyone wanted to touch her and she needed ways to politely say no.

One mother offered this advice: “People who touch babies are creepy. Everyone wanted to touch Janey, especially when she was neutropenic and had no white cells. This made her look like an ivory doll and strangers just pawed at her. Tell them to back off, or to touch her toes.”

Another said this: “It’s because there are no children here. They’re like Birkin bags. I’d just avoid crowded public places and neighborhoods like the Mission with high immigrant populations.”

The last mom contributed this: “My daughter gets touched all the time. It’s what happens when they’re pretty. The other day this bum-like person kept trying to remove her hand socks and smell her! And she’s an old people magnet. I keep antibacterial wipes ready and wipe her hands immediately after contact with anyone. Even the nonelderly.”

You can find this exchange under “Ancho Chili Steaks.” I could add that to my list of hobbies: overhearing. I listen to everything. It’s something to do when you’re at playgrounds or kid classes. I’ve heard some crazy things, said in the most earnest way. People really care about stuff! My intention with these asides isn’t to be a mean girl, soaking in the candid chitchat then turning around and enlarging it for the sake of entertainment and enhanced self-worth . . . but sometimes that ends up happening. People like it though. I get comments like “Those women make me want to shoot myself” or “When people ask to touch my baby I just say, ‘She bites!’ Jesus Christ.”

Or I get total misinterpretations.

Take this mother at an SFMC meeting who happened to read my blog post on sake-steamed halibut and separation anxiety.

“Thank God someone’s
talking about babies sucking the life right out of you,” she said.

“Um,” I said. “That’s not really . . . I was just writing about fish and soba—”

“Your life is gone. Just gone,” she said, looking off into the distance; then she rubbed her hands together and said, “You are so bad!”

People like it when other people are bad. It lets them off the hook. But I’m not bad. I’m just listening and looking around. I hope, when Ellie starts school, I can find a way to put this to use. While my parents won’t let us go hungry, I want to do something with my life—I want to raise Ellie well and I want her to have a mom who does more than raise her. I went to grad school to be a writer, and I guess I still want now what I wanted then: to write about my woes, yet use structures and plots and characters that make them your woes as well. I want to reveal something true. I want you to turn the page.

What inspired you to work on an SFMC cookbook? What will make it different from other cookbooks?

When I heard about the competition, I thought, How lame, and then: How lame if someone else won and got a book contract out of this! And so I thought I’d give it a go and try to come up with an original angle.

It happened that the very day I decided to embark upon this culinary journey my ex, Bobby Morton, was coming over to see Ellie (for the first time in two weeks) and so I thought I’d go ahead and freshen up a little. I’d clean the apartment, blow out my hair, put on some lipstick, and, um, go out and wax my privates. I had never done this before.

Within one minute of meeting my waxer I was on a bed, naked from the waist down, and her hand was on my parts. She had a thick
head of hair and red lips and smelled like a scratch-and-sniff sticker. I was trying to think of something to say, but all that came to mind was “So, have you seen any good ones lately?”